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Wow, great to see so many reviews, keep it coming. Hope you all had a good Christmas, I did. Not enjoying the Ashes though, Australia has self combusted and England is kicking our ass, it's embarrassing. If they are going to win then I want them to win it not have the Aussies hand it to them on a silver platter. For those who haven't watched a cricket game I suggest you try it but maybe a one day or twenty20, tests can be tedious unless you know what is going on. Anyway, had my gripe, on with the chapter.

Making her way down the hall and into the living area Alex found Olivia re heating their meals for dinner. Not sure of her reception she stood in the doorway and waited for her love to spot her. Olivia turned her head slowly, aware of her presence and they shared a long look. Alex bit her lip to hold in her tears but they swam in her eyes and spilled over onto her cheeks.

"Al" Olivia sighed, she hated seeing the blonde in tears, it made her feel like a big bully.

"I'm sorry" Alex sobbed "I'm sorry, I was stupid"

"You're not stupid" Olivia turned and opened her arms. Alex practically raced into them.

"Please don't leave me Liv, I couldn't handle it if you did" she sobbed and once again Olivia was left confused. Why would she leave? What the hell was going on? God why today of all day had she missed an appointment?

"Alex, I'm not going anywhere. I suggest we eat dinner and then you can tell me all about what the hell happened at the psych's today" Olivia drew back and gave her a soft kiss before taking her over to the table and seating her.

They ate their meal while Olivia talked about their latest case and the perp she had managed to get a confession out of before his lawyer turned up and ended the interview too late. Alex was proud of Olivia, she may push the envelope sometimes but she never crossed the line. Alex thought about that for a second and smirked internally, Ok rarely crossed the line.

After the meal they did the dishes together before going to sit in the lounge. With Olivia's patient questioning Alex revealed that they had talked about the scars today, the Psych asked Alex what she thought of them, why she hadn't had plastic surgery on them. She'd also asked what Olivia thought of them and Alex had realised Olivia had never seen them, asked to see them or touch them. The psych had done a real number on her by asking stupid questions like 'why was that?' and 'how come this?' and it had fed Alex's insecurities. She let her head overrun her heart.

Olivia pointed out that Alex always wore clothes that were careful to hide the scars, had never attempted to show her them and had never asked her if she wanted to see them. When Alex bit the bullet and asked if she did want to see them Olivia held up a hand and asked

"Why are you concerned about me leaving you?"

Alex bit her lip, wondering if the reply would get Olivia angry and Olivia noticed. She sighed.

"Lex?"

"Promise you won't get mad?" she asked and Olivia's eyebrow quirked. Alex sighed and started picking imaginary lint of her dressing gown, refusing to meet Olivia's gaze. "I was looking for some papers I had misplaced the other day and I um found some papers of yours for the renewal of your lease on your apartment"

Olivia was confused. She frowned and shrugged her shoulders

"I um spoke to the Psych about it. She said if you renewed it, it was a sign you were expecting the relationship to fail and you were using it as an escape plan. Maybe using it as an excuse not to get involved deeper" she winced as Olivia closed her eyes and growled before hurrying on "I came home and tried to find the papers but they were gone. I figured you had renewed your lease" she finished on a whisper.

Olivia was steaming mad but not at Alex. She could strangle the psych and she didn't care what Alex said they were not going back, they would talk to George.

"If I see that psych again I am going to kill her, you will cancel the next appointment and tomorrow we are calling Huang, understood" she said quietly and Alex knew she was pissed, so she just nodded meekly. "The lease renewal is in my room. I wanted to talk to you about it but hadn't found the time or the guts to. How the hell do you ask to move in with someone when they haven't asked you to or if they even want you to?"

"Oh" Alex was stunned. Olivia wanted to cancel her lease and move in with her. She grinned widely and looked over at a waiting Olivia "Move in with me Liv, the spare room, my room, but please just stay with me. I love just having you around and these last few months have been..." she paused unsure what to say but Olivia didn't need to hear anymore.

"Ok" Olivia tamed her smile, not wanting to give away how elated she was and was rewarded by a squeal and Alex diving at her. Olivia caught her easily. She may be looking better these days but she was still a light weight. Alex kissed her, slowly and deeply and Olivia uttered a soft cry and froze for a second when Alex crawled on top of her and straddled her. It was too late to hide her reaction as Alex drew back and looked down on her with a concerned scowl.

"If I am seeing Huang then you are too" and the tone she used brooked no argument. Olivia sighed but agreed with a short nod of her head. She wasn't looking forward to retelling the incident but knew she had to try for the sake of their relationship.

Alex went a little shy after that and looked down at where Olivia's hands were caressing her thighs, sending sparks straight to her secret place between her thighs. She contemplated her next move before slowly hesitantly raising her hands and pulling her robe off her right shoulder, Olivia's warm concerned but loving gaze following every move.