Hi,
I'm really sorry that I wasn't able to upload on wednesday, but the internet connection in little villages aren't always stable ;-)
So, this is the first time there's some OR action. To be honest, I have no idea how this situation would be handled from real surgeons, so it could be total crap ;-)
Like always, I would appreciate your reviews :)

Dislaimer: I sadly don't own the great characters from Grey's :(

Chapter V: You and me

"What, what kind of fool
Tears it apart?
Leaving me pain and sorrow
Losing you now wonderin' why
Where will I be tomorrow?"

Jackson was a bit nervous about the shift tonight, he would be with April the whole night. He had no idea why he felt so, anyhow he was all the time in the same building as she was, so it wouldn't be so different...Right?

"Jackson? Why are you still here?" April asked confused, because it was now half past eleven, he actually should be at home already.

"Karev and I swop shifts." Jackson answered smiling, he hoped she wouldn't mind.

"Oh good! You're so much more pleasant than Karev. Thanks for swapping!" April chuckled and closed her chart.

"You...wanna talk about the surgery tomorrow?" Jackson inquired unconfident.

"Nah, it's not a big deal and I believe in your abilities. But talking 'bout Matt, you know what he said to this morning?" April smiled but then she started to sound angry when she mentioned her boyfriend.

"Haha, thanks! Nope, tell me." Jackson chuckled and moved closer to her.

"He is mad at me because you did the CPR! I mean, really?" April started furious.

Jackson raised his eyebrows in disbelief, first he thought Matthew was a nice guy and second he never met a person that wasn't happy that he or she was brought back to life.

"You're kidding! I think I go to him and excuse me for saving his life..." Jackson joked which obviously improved her mood because she started to laugh a little.

"I mean, why is he doing this? Why is he suddenly mean to me?...Ah, shit. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned - " April started but a nurse interrupted by saying:

"We have an incoming trauma in ten minutes, shooting, two guys are badly shot."

"Oh no..." Jackson whispered and scratched his neck, he always had that bad feeling when someone said shooting. Sure, it was because of the shooting here at the hospital, but he had still nightmares, not every night, but sure once a week. And every time it was the same scene, the one in which April was shot, and Jackson saw her dying.

"Damn it. Well let's go..." April swore and headed to the emergency bay.

Jackson followed her, grabbed one of the yellow gowns and took one for April, because she forgot hers.

"Here, take it." Jackson smiled and gave it to April, she chuckled and said:

"Thanks, I guess I'm nervous and forgot..."

"So am I..." Jackson murmured more to himself, but April realized it and took his hand, squeezed it and said:

"We can do this, you and me. Right?"

Jackson had to suppress the urge to kiss April. She said "You and me", sure he could make now a lot of stuff up in his mind, something like she loved him...nah, he shouldn't do it...

But instead he squeezed her hand and replied smiling:

"Yeah, you and me."

Jackson actually thought April would release his hand but she hold it the whole time until the ambulance arrived.

The first one opened and the paramedic Nicole came out and gave the information about her patient:

"Noah Tallyn. 26. Shot in the stomach and close to his heart. Went unconscious the way here. Blood Pressure drops."

Then the second ambulance opened, and the paramedic form this one said:

"Toby McCrea. 24. Shot twice in the heart. Went into cardiac arrest."

"Okay good, I take McCrea. Page Yang." Jackson said, he wanted that April took the "easier" one. He didn't want that April would have to do this.

While they rolled Toby into the hospital, he suddenly started to scream. It was painful. Jackson had never heard someone scream so painful and suddenly felt sick.

"Give him morphine. The strongest you got. Now!" Jackson demanded loud to drown the screaming.

"Okay, Toby, Listen to me, you're going to be fine. I'll fix it, you'll survive it. In a few seconds you won't feel the pain anymore." Jackson still tried to drown his patient. The more his patient screamed, the more Jackson felt sick - he had a bad feeling.

They went strictly to the next OR. Toby got fast his morphine and was then on anesthetics.

"Dr. Yang will be here in ten minutes. Until then I'll help you." Robbins said, she had followed him.

"Okay thanks. I think, at first we try to take a look on how much his heart is damaged. And where the cartridges are. Or what do you think?"

"Sounds good. Well then, let's go." Arizona nodded and looked at Jackson.

"Yeah."

Jackson took the scalpel and cut the men's chest. A huge squall of blood came out of it.

"Ah damn it, his pericardium is full of blood. Aspirator please." Jackson swore.

"You think we can find de cartridges in all of that?" Arizona asked.

"Hope so, I think it's better we just suck the blood out and wait until Yang arrives. Administer him stored blood." The head of plastics demanded and looked at the monitor. It dropped slowly.

"Fuck. His blood pressure drops. Get ready for a CPR."

"But Jackson, you can't just squeeze his heart, what about the cartridges?" Arizona inquired.

"Well than we can't wait for Yang." Jackson decided.

Jackson tried to find the spot where all the blood came from, and after a little searching he found the first cartridges, it stuck.

"I found one. Wait, when will Yang will be here?"

Just in time, the door opened and Christina came in.

"So what do we got?" She asked and went to the operating table.

"Shot in the heart twice. Jackson found one cartridge, and the pericardium was full of blood and we sucked out the blood. He just wanted to start pulling out the cartridge."

"Okay good. Avery, you help me. You will stitch the hole in the heart and I will get out the cartridge. Robbins, hold the aspirator, please." Christina demanded.

Suddenly the monitor started to beep.

"Damn it, you're ready, Avery? And start the OR clock!" Christina swore and looked to Jackson. He nodded.

"Okay, I take out the cartridge and you have to start stitching immediately. On three. One-Two-Three!"

After Christina took out the cartridge a lot of blood came out, so Jackson had problems with the stitching.

"We have to reanimate him soon...Otherwise his brain would take damage!" Arizona informed the two doctors.

"The stitch is done." Jackson added and looked up to Christina.

"Looks good. Now we have to find the other one fast."

"Here! Here's the other one!" Jackson said and pointed at the spot.

"It's in his pulmonary artery...Shit, we've got a problem." Christina said and had to think about what they should do next.

"He will bleed out, when we take the cartridge out. Damn it..."

"We have to reanimate him now! Maybe the cartridge wouldn't move..." Arizona demanded.

"Okay, we have to try it. Avery, squeeze the heart." Christina said to Jackson and looked at the OR clock, the monitor beeped since 2 minutes and 20 seconds - it was time.

Jackson started to squeeze the heart, and three time it went good, but then the cartridge popped out and a huge squall of blood came out.

"I stitch it!" Christina said and started.

Jackson stopped and looked at the monitor, the beep hasn't stopped. He felt more and more sick, he just wanted, that his patient survived this, like he promised him.

"We're losing him..." Arizona murmured.

"No, we're not." Jackson said determined.

"I fixed this stitch." Christina said and looked to Jackson.

He started immediately the reanimation. The first two time it went well, but then suddenly the first stitch tore and blood came out the wound.

"We lose him, his vein is too thin, with every stitch we just make it more broken..." Christina agreed.

"No, no, no!" Jackson whispered desperate.

"Jackson, stop it. We lost him..."Arizona said next to him, and laid one hand on his shoulder.

Jackson exhaled and left the OR. He felt bad because they couldn't saved the life of Toby McCrea... Jackson blamed himself that his patient died, if he had started earlier with stitching the cartridge wounds, Toby would probably live. Everything Jackson wanted was April. He just wanted to be hugged by her. That she tell him that everything will be fine.

He took off his OR scrub, washed his hands and headed to the pit. But April wasn't here. He looked at his watch, it was quarter to one in the morning. She was probably in the OR saving the life of her patient...Jackson was tired, he hadn't slept that much last night, maybe 2 or 3 hours. He looked for the next on-call room and hoped it was empty - luckily it was. Jackson took of his scrub shirt and lay down at the next bed. He looked up to the ceiling, he felt terrible. But why did this made him feel so bad? Normally when he had tried to safe someone and this person later died, he felt a bit bad. Sure he was honestly sorry for the family, but he had never felt so bad before. Jackson closed slowly his eyes and it didn't take long until he fell asleep...

I just needed some cute stuff between Japril, so yeah :)
I upload the next chapter on monday, because I'm busy over the weekend. For the next chapters I'll try to upload them every sunday and wednesday so stay tuned ;-)
Thanks again for the nice reviews :*