~hey guys/girls I think this is an all girls site, because it seems were all basically girls, because come on its basically romance/adventure/girls so I don't think there's guys, maybe a small portion or gays (I do not discriminate against gays) so ya just stating that~ review and I hope you like it~ still got my eye on you France (I think that's my new catch phrase)
Everything that drowns me makes me wanna fly. - one republic "sink or swim."
~Maryanne pov~
That feeling that hasn't left me, the feeling of dread of knowing what's going to happen, and what's not going to happen sticks with me like glue.
This is my first reaping, something I never imagined me walking into. Its scary just like the book or more life like, like in the movie.
As I look around, I see the relieved face's of those around me, all to the expense of the victors that have suffered already, but not the females just the family that only have boys, or girls that are either to young or to old.
It's sad…
I feel someone staring at me, and so I look to my left where finnick is walking beside me, he gives me a sad smile. And I grab his hand in reassurance, for luck I believe.
"It will be fine Fin." I mouth to him, yes that's my nickname for him. It was a little tiring for him for me to keep saying his full name, so he basically forced me to call him fin, and I took to the nickname because I like it, makes me feel closer to him.
He gives a weak smile in return, and pulls away leaving me to walk alone so he can go to his asigned area. I hated to watch him go all alone in that little roped off section, he must be scared and hiding it. My mother once told me "The bravest men are always scared, because even if there scared they still head forward." and I knew fin was brave, so I wanted to be there for him, I stand with the other girls in my age group. And they seem scared just like the other girls twelve through nineteen. It was scary, so scary.
Looking up at Philippi district four escort, he was... shall we say original. Hey skipped on stage, which I felt sympathy for guys can skip just like girls can. But others can't see that.
"Happy hunger games, and May the odds be ever in your favor." he chirped. Raising a hand in greeting, and when the film of the old war was playing, I watched Fin and his face was emotionless and cold. My heart broke a little seeing this.
"I love that film, don't you." said Philippi, but was met by silence and again I felt sad for him, he doesn't know any better it was just how he was raised.
"Well on to the girls." he said, clearing his throat awkwardly. He made his way to the bowl, where all the names of eligible girl's were, my name was in once since this was my first time and Fin told me before we left how relived he was for that. I said nothing to this, seeing as we're good friends I didn't want to put any stress with something as silly as getting picked which was one in about a thousand, but then again katniss thought the same about her sister.
Running his hand inside, he pulled a hand full of slips out tipping them out slowly until there was one left.
The breath of all the girls hitched, even mine.
Walking back to the podium, he unfolded the sheet of paper and smoothed it out.
Holding it to eye level, he read out the name "Maryanne cadaver." he said loud and clear into the microphone.
I felt faint, but didn't protest as my feet guided me forwards in a very thick haze. I was given sympathetic looks, yet also relived faces of most. I couldn't blame them; I was actually glade that I was me instead of another poor girl, that doesn't deserve this type of torture.
When I was up stage, I looked out at the faces of the crowed, till my eyes landed on Fin's face, that was twisted into pure horror, I gave a wavering smile to him close to tears but holding them in. I wasn't sad for myself, but to all the others fate.
Philippi then walked over to the male victor's bowl, which to me was plain cruel seeing as there's only one living male.
"Finnick odair." Philippi announced, and Fin walked up the stage head held high, but his face held concern.
We shaked hands, Fin didn't seem to want to let go, but he had to.
We were led away, and straight onto the train. We then were seated onto a plush booth, with leather seats.
"If they could afford this, why not give food and appliances to the districts?" I thought, with curiosity. Running my hand down the aposterity.
"How long has it been since I sat on a on a leather seat?" I thought, stroking it, Fin finally came and sat next to my side where I was privacy feeling the seat.
"Now I know you are going into the arena together, but Finnick I hope you give her so pointers." Philippi said, giving him a small glare.
"Happy to." said Fin, with a smug look on his face, Philippi gave a nod, and got up to as he put it "do his hair".
As he left I turned to Fin, but gave a surprised yelp when I became eloped into a firm huge. And I couldn't help but burry my head into his chest, and shake slightly, but refused to cry.
"Your going to be fine." Fin whispered rocking me side to side. I didn't say anything just clung to his chest tightly.
"What am I going to do Fin?" I whispered to him.
"You just stick with me, I'll take care of you." he assured, pulling away to stroke my cheek.
"You're a good friend, do you know that." I said, with a weak almost soundless laugh.
"I stuck with you this long, might as well keep you." he said, giving a cheeky smile.
Again I laughed quietly.
"We're going to be fine" I said, taking his hand in mine, but the truth is I knew he would be fine. Me; I don't know what's going to happen.
"Ya we are." he whispered. He then wrapped his arms around my middle, and tucked his head under my chin, his nose was pressed to my throat and he begins to take deeps breathes, shaking lightly. I then wrapped my arms around his back just holding him.
~cinna pov~
I walk alone to prepare katniss, Diana said she would meet us before the chariot ride begins. She seemed in distress, but I held back seeing as she needed time to calm down, but that didn't mean I don't worry.
I walk into the room that held katniss, and she wasn't in a good mood.
"I swear if you cry, I'll kill you here and now." she snapped.
I just smiled "having a damp morning?" I try to lighten the mood.
"You could wring me out." she replied.
I put my arm around her shoulder and lead her to lunch.
"Where's Diana?" She said, looking around when she didn't see her, her face fell, eyes partly watering in the corner.
"Don't worry." I soothed. "She will be at the chariots waiting, you could see her there." I explained, and her face brightens a little but just a little.
"Now I always channel my emotions into my work, that way I don't hurt any one but myself." I tell her preparing for the chariots.
"I can't go through that again." she warned me, and I just gave a short laugh.
"I know. I'll talk to them." I tell her.
We sit and eat.
"So, what are we wearing for the opening ceremonies?" She questions.
"Headlamps or fire." she states forward
"Something along that line." I tell her. And help her prepare, sending away the prep team much to katnisses relief.
I do her hair first, and then proceeds to her makeup, doing it differently then last time.
Then put a half crown made of silver, close to the one she received when crown victor, I then proceed to make the gown she was wearing to make it seem like a glowing ember, the color rises and falls, shifts and blends, in exactly the way the coals do, a helpful hint from Diana and the book, and my own design.
"How did you do this?" she says in wonder.
"Diana and I spent a lot of hours watching fires." I tell her with a smile.
"Now look at yourself." I tell her turning her towards a mirror.
"I think… this is just what I needed to face the others," she says.
"Yes I think your days of pink lipstick and ribbons are behind you." I tell her lightly.
I then turn off her light.
"Lets not run down your power pack, when you're on the chariot this time, no waving, no smiling, I just want you to look straight ahead, as if the entire audience is beneath your notice." I instructed her.
"Finally something I'll be good at," she says.
I then leave her to attend something's, manly to see how Diana is, but was met by Portia's worried face instead.
"She's been crying a lot, and won't tell me what's wrong, just says things are changed and she's scared I hope you could go talk to her." she says looking at me expectantly.
I give a nod, and head off where Portia instructed to get to Diana.
I fined her in the studio, hunched over her book. Shaking slightly as her head was lying in her arms on the table. I walk up to her and put my hands on her shoulders, giving a gentle squeeze.
She slowly raised her head to look at me. "I'm scared cinna" she whispered, looking in my eyes with fear glinting in hers.
"I am to." I told her softly. She slowly stood up, and I place a hand on her back to led her forward but not before handing her a tissue.
~ Maryanne pov~
I have seen people go to a salon before, my mother has but I haven't, its painful having a part of you such as hair, painfully ripped away.
I was stripped, ripped, rubbed down with lotions, scented oils and the slight dirt and most of the skin under my nails were scraped away.
They were also nicely shaped, my eyebrows were plucked and my hair lightly trimmed.
"Oh you look so beautiful now." said a women named Dabble.
"Not that you weren't pretty before, you look ten times prettier now!" replied Floss another prep team member.
"Exactly, we're lucky to have such a beautiful new face." a man named Tug said, applying mascara to my eyes.
"I know, once I saw her I leaped for joy to be a district four stylist." Floss said giddily, who was scrubbing my feet.
"Me to!" Dabble chirped in reply, doing my lips and adding blush to my cheeks.
"You will just love Thicket, he is just a genius when it comes to district four styles." Tug said, moving on to foundation.
The prep team was nice, if not a little strange. They gave me confidence by giving me complements, and there helping me by making me pretty, or at least as much as they can.
"Now, I do believe where done." said Dabble, who put the last touch to my eyelids.
"Now off to Thicket!" Floss showed me into a room, where a man was looking over a dress that hung over a manikin.
He turned around when I entered, giving a wide smile. The man was wearing a purple suit with a red and blue colored hair style; I gave him a nerves smile.
he led me inside; it felt awkward standing only in a robe. But I tried to be polite as best as I could.
"Now you would be wearing, an outfit no other district four stylists have ever come up with." he said softly taking my hand as gently as possible as if I might break.
Leading to the manikin, which held a dress but not any dress it was not a mermaid, or siren, or fish. But that of the ocean, on the top was a sandy colored top with seashells, coaches, and other things you might find on a beach. Then at midway it changed to a realistic ocean with holograms of swimming fish, the crashing of wave's even coral reefs.
"Its beautiful." I said, with Tug's help in putting it on.
"Your not done just yet." he said, putting a head piece on my head was half coral reef shaped crown, that had what seemed like a flowing water veil, which was a hologram ocean.
"I...I... I don't know what to say." Maryanne said, looking at herself in the mirror.
"You don't have to say anything, your expression speaks volumes." replied Thicket, standing behind me with a smile.
"Now off we go to the chariots." he said, leading me away, I took one last look at myself before I left.
I was led astray once I was out in the open, waiting at district four chariot seeing as I was left by my prep team along with Thicket, Who has to put finishing touches on the interview dress.
I was scared, and alone… Fin was off talking to katniss. I couldn't see them properly or hear, but seeing as I read the book I knew what's going on.
My thoughts were focused on what's going to happen I didn't know I was being approached.
"Look fresh meat." a voice said behind me, startling me into making a sharp turn on her heels, stumbling but awkwardly regained her balance.
There infront of her stood enobaria along with her partner Brutus both from district two but also gloss and his sister cashmere from district one.
Maryanne faced enobaria who was the one who spoke to her.
"Hello enobaria, Brutus, gloss, cashmere." she said, turning to face each one in greeting.
"Awe little girl from four, trying to look so tuff." said cashmere in a baby voice.
"Playing in the big leads now kid." her brother mockingly chuckled.
She didn't say anything to that, just studied them.
Gloss and cashmere were in silver, gloss in a suit his angle was a gentleman, gloss was going for sexy.
Enobaria and Brutus wore gladiator-like outfits. Both there angles were firece killing muchines.
And she had no idea what herself was going to be.
"True you are more experienced then me, but stranger things do happen." she said, hesitantly.
They all gave a long laugh, making her feel uneasy. "That's funny kid." said Brutus trying to calm down from his laughing fit.
"Living on false hope is a real good laugh." gloss agreed still chuckling.
"Bet she won't last the bloodbath." said enobaria. "I'm in." Brutus said.
"Me to." said cashmere.
"Who knows she might get lucky, and might get some sponsors with that pretty face." said gloss mimicking his sister's baby voice.
"Not really I'm the one whole get-um all." said cashmere with a flip of her hair.
"Sure." enobaria mocked, rolling her eyes.
"Hope you don't hurt yourself in training." said cashmere snidely, Maryanne has dealt with bullies before and she normally ignored them, but like everyone else she was human and there was so much a person could take, and everyone has a tempure.
"How dare you make fun of someone! yes I might not be as skilled with a weapons as you, might not be as smart as Bette or wireless, might not have the sponsors as the rest, or have the guts or will to kill a person, and my chances are slim, but I will leave you with one thought, don't…count…. Me…. Out" I bit out in a calm, venomous voice.
"Awe kids got a temper." said Brutus, going to pinch her cheeks like a baby, but she just slapped his hand away.
"I mean it" Maryanne insisted, head held high.
"I bet you're just a scared cat." mocked cashmere, making boohoo sounds, while pretending to wipe her eyes like a baby.
"Ya I'm scared, just like you." I said, slightly more confident with her anger that fired up her voice.
"Oh how so?" enobaria said, wide smile on her face showing her shark like teeth.
True Maryanne was afraid of those teeth, but she didn't show it.
"Your afraid to sleep at night aren't you? afraid to see the people you killed, the fear of your hunger games, the things you were put through." she said, coming to a whisper.
Her words were met with silence. The triumphant looks that were previously on both one and two district victors were now gone. And there stares unnerved her, all her inner fire gone, but she still had that confident outlook.
"You're playing a dangerous game kid." said Brutus, hands clenching.
"I knew that the moment my name was called." I shot back, a bit more loudly over a whisper.
"You got guts kid, too bad I'm going to rip them out of you." said Brutus, with a curl of his lip.
"Id keep my eyes open at night case I'm your worst nightmare." enobaria put in.
"Watch your back, never know when I would get you." said gloss, leaning on his sister.
"Said the wrong things, and you made the wrong enemies." cashmere said, a smile of her own.
"Watch it." Fin said, coming to stand beside me.
"Might not know what could happen, you might even make it off the platform." he said, a cheeky smile on his face.
"Shut up Finnick." hissed out enobaria.
"Pardon me little fishy might not want to get stuck in my net." he carried on.
"Id listen to her if I were you." Brutus huffed glaring at Finnick in distain.
"Awe tuff yet stupid as ever ay Brutus?" Fin said, his original smirk on his face.
"Look who decided to show up." cashmere hissed.
"I'm surprised you came, no dates to get to?" gloss added.
"No, still allowing your sister to shag every older man she can get her hands on." he replied none chillingly.
At that gloss tried to attack him, but was held back by Brutus.
"Come on the chariots are about to begin." but as they were leaving they were sending us death glares.
"Sorry Fin." Maryanne said, looking down.
"Its ok these things happen." he replied bringing her into a sideways huge, and giving her a cheeky smile.
"Ya." she whispers in reply.
"You look beautiful." Fin noted, making her blush.
"Thank you Fin." she said, looking away from him, seeing as he was draped in a golden net that's strategically knotted at his groin so that he can't technically be called naked, but he's close as you can get.
He seems to see this, and his grin grows larger. "Is someone embarrassed to be seen, with such a handsome god such as myself?" he teased getting closer to me.
"No I'm not, it's just that your underdressed." I told him quietly, which he laughed at.
"First women to ever say that." he said, when he quieted down some.
"Well I'm not like other women." I told him with a small smile.
He then became calm and gave a sincere smile. "That your not." he said softly.
I was then put into a state of confusion, but it quickly vanished when it was time for the chariots.
I was having trouble walking in the heels but Fin was able to get me on the chariot with out me spraining an ankle. I gave a smile for the help, which he returned.
"Well here we go." I whispered to him, when we started moving.
The crowed made me jump in surprise, which made Fin start laughing at me; I gave him a playful punch to the arm, laughing myself. The crowed seemed to like this, but we paid them no mind.
But then there was a slight bump in our path, making the carriage shake and making me trip over my heels. Before I could fall forward into a painful decent to the ground, which might make me die before the games begun, seeing as there was another chariot right behind us that would roll right over me.
But before that fin got a hold of me, and we ended up him holding me in a tango dip.
And the looks on our faces were priceless, him with a wide grin like the cat that got the mouse, and me with a blood red face, holding an arm around his neck and I wouldn't die of embracement I would die of blood loss, if my nose started to bleed for my face being so red.
The crowed went wild, from this. And me well it was on live television and what just happened is for forever. Man how will I live this down?
We then got back into place once we stopped to here snow speech; he was very intimidating that was for sure. But I couldn't help the glare sent his way, and the way his gaze was on katniss.
Fin must of seen my hated look, because he took my hand, and I gave him a friendly smile, which he returned.
We then came to the end of the ride, coming to a jolt at the end. Which Fin put his arms around my waist to steady me.
He helped me off, much to my thanks and we just stood there being fussed over by our stylist but seemingly in our own little world together, just like us two on the beach again having fun.
"Ok that's enough." said a women's voice, I looked away from mine and Fins locked gaze, to see a women in a tree costume, instantly noticing Johanna mason district seven victor, the women that pretended to be weak but came out fighting. I really look up to her in a way, she's strong on the inside and out but also has a soft side, if you cared to look. all the things that I wasn't and wished to be.
Been hearing of a cretin male and girl tribute who enobaria and the meat heads from one and two are itching to kill from four, and I thought you must of done something to do with it Finnick." she said, coming up to us.
"It's her fault." he said, pointing at me teasingly.
"I said I was sorry." I said, quietly with a soft smile on my face.
"Well I guess since being in the career group is out of the question, I suppose I'm stuck with you as an Allie." he said, overly dramatic.
"You want us to be allies?" I said shocked.
"Of course, you're stuck with me now didn't I say that at the beginning." he chuckled.
"Hum seems like we have some allies going on already." said Johanna, giving a small smile towards us. I almost forgot she was there.
"Oh I'm sorry Its nice to meet you." I told her sticking out my hand for her to take, which she raised an eyebrow at but shock it anyway.
"Not a bad kid, you got some manners, better then the idiots from one and two." she said, grumpily.
T"here just out of it… because of being back in the games." I said, trying to look on there bright side.
"Ya right, they been like that for years, so don't go on to there defense." she said, coldly.
"Sorry." I told her softly looking down.
"You got to stop apologizing all the time." she said, an amused smirk on her face.
"Ok." I told her smiling her way.
"You're a kid, I'll see you at training might teach you how to use an axe." she said, with a little wave as she left and I returned it.
"She's nice." I said to Fin, as we were heading up to district fours level apartment for now.
"That's a first, I ever heard anyone say Johanna was nice." he said laughing.
"Well she is, she just has a tough outer-shell." I told him huffing with my arms crossed, making him laugh more, and making me end up laughing as well.
We came to our floor, which was nicely decorated and very commutable.
It was lunch time now, when we got here so we went to our rooms to change, me getting into a white short sleeve button up shirt, and a yellow skirt that went below my knees, and not even bothering to wear shoes, I left for lunch.
Philippi seemed to disapprove of my lack of foot wear making me self conches of my choice. But the others didn't seem to mind.
Finnick then came, and he was wearing a blue button down long sleeve shirt, and black slakes.
"Well look at you, pretty as a picture." he said, in a flirtatious voice, that like always made me blush, and he knew it to.
"Sit down Finnick and eat." Philippi scolded, forcing Fin to sit and eat.
I dug in happily, eating chicken, and stake, some unknown pudding that tasted like a lemon/orangey mix. Rolls along with hot coco.
I didn't even relies I was being watch till I went for more chicken, and when I caught them looking I felt even more embarrassed.
"Well Anne seem like you haven't eaten in two years." Fin joked with an amused smile using one of many nickname's he gave me.
Swallowing my food, I looked up in embarrassment. "Its just nice to have a change besides fish." I told him, looking back down.
Fin just kept that amused look on his face.
And all through dinner was playful, and an happy environment. Then it was put to an end by Philippi who said it was time for bed, and we had a big day tomorrow. I was worried… very.
But before I escaped into my room I was hugged from behind, and when I turned around I saw Fin shutting his door.
I gave a smile and headed into my own room, and hoped to get some sleep tonight.
~ Well that was long….. And I am so excited about the next chapter are you, and also proud of myself for this one, no more piper or Megan until the end of this book, and a little bit of other characters but manly focuses on Diana and Maryanne but manly Maryanne.
Hope you like review and also now I want any song (still not telling you what I will use it for) also review, and I GOT MY EYE ON YOU FRANCE.