Hey,
so this chapter will be a little Shonda-like, I don't know whether I should be sorry or not ;-)

Chapter VI: Still fighting

"A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven".

April saved Noah Tallyn's life. He was in ICU, but he lived. She really wanted to know how Jackson's OR was, so she set out for looking after him. On her way she met Christina and because April knew that she had been in the same OR as Jackson, she asked her:

"Hey Christina! Do you know where Jackson is?"

"Do I look like his babysitter? But, no I don't know where he is. But Kepner, you should better talk to him...He's pretty agitated, maybe you can calm him a bit down." Christina answered in her normal Christina-way and put on her coat.

"What happened?" April asked worried. Normally Jackson wouldn't get so fast agitated.

"We lost our patient." Christina said and put on her scarf.

"Oh! I'm sorry...I look what I can do." April proposed and thought about where Jackson could be.

She first looked in his office, but no Jackson. Her second stop was in the pit, but here was no Jackson too. April went to the nurse station and asked for help.

"Hi, can you please help me...Have you seen Dr. Avery?"

"Yes, he was here fifteen minutes ago, he went there." The nurse answered and pointed to the next hallway.

"Good, thank you!" April said politely and headed to the direction the nurse had showed her.

She looked through the little window in each room, and she finally found Jackson in a on-call room. April opened the door as quiet as possible and discovered Jackson shirtless and sleeping. He looked peaceful while he slept, but suddenly his face turned painful and he started to box with his legs.

"No! Don't kill her! Shoot me! But please don't kill April!" Jackson murmured loud.

April stood there paralyzed. Did he seriously said, the shooter should kill him instead of her?

"Don't touch her!" Jackson now said louder. And then he started to scream, meanwhile he sat in the bed.

April ran to his bed, sat down at the side of the bed and put her arms around his chest, his forehead slipped between her shoulder and her neck. She started to ran her hand up and down his back, murmuring a little desperate:

"I'm fine, Jackson. I'm fine. Here's no shooter. You're safe. And so am I. You don't have to scream. We're fine."

Jackson had stopped screaming, but he shivered like hell. He slowly woke up and realized that April hold him tight. She still ran her hand up and down his back while Jackson had to breathe hard.

"Hey you..." April breathed worried.

"I-I-I'm sorry, that I woke you up..." Jackson whispered, still in the spot between April's shoulder and neck.

"No, no, I didn't slept, don't worry. I actually just wanted to look after you." April breathed back.

Jackson looked up, so he could look her in the eyes. He didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable, but even when their faces where almost touching, she didn't move back.

"H-h-how are you?" April stuttered, she was surprised how near their faces were. But she liked it.

"I don't know...I feel terrible because I lost my patient...I guess..." Jackson admitted whispering.

Jackson really had to fight with his feelings. She was so close, and she didn't seemed to dislike it. April was confused. A huge storm of feelings for Jackson approached in her. Okay, they had been there for a really long time, but not that strong. But what was with Matthew? He had been mean to her and now that there were those feelings for Jackson which just broke out...and of course her chat with Lou...

"I'm so sorry for you..." was the only thing April was able to say while she tried to avoid his gaze.

But April couldn't resist, so she looked up into his eyes again. He still breathed hard and he also shivered, but not so bad like one minute ago.

Jackson didn't want that April would feel uncomfortable, he had to remind himself, that he just was her best friend. Just her best friend. As hard as it was for him, he slowly moved his head back.

"Thank you..." Jackson whispered, and he really meant it.

"You look tired, you should sleep...It's quarter past one, and you have a surgery in seven hours, so it would be the best if you sleep, Jackson..." April said quiet.

"Probably. But what about you? I'm not the only one who looks tired, and you'll be at the surgery too. So you should sleep a little." Jackson whispered while he slowly fell down at the mattress again.

"Can I sleep with you?" April asked.

Jackson raised up his torso and frowned confused at her. Did she asked him to sleep with her? No, she meant something else, she had to.

"I-I-I-I mean next to you. By your side." April stuttered and blushed, it was visible even though it was dark in the room.

What the hell happened to her? April regretted what she just said. How could she asked Jackson this?

"Yeah...of course..." Jackson said perplexed, but he had to chuckle a little.

"Should...should I put my shirt on?" He asked cautionary. Jackson was still totally confused about what just happened. This had to be a crazy dream. Seriously.

"No, you don't have to. But I should take off my gown..." April answered, the last part more to herself.

While April stood up, Jackson laid back at the mattress. He had to smile uncontrollably, so... April would sleep by his side. He wasn't sure whether he would survive this night emotionally.

April undo her ponytail and laid herself next to Jackson, but placed her head on his chest. Jackson had to gasp, but luckily, it was inaudible. So April would sleep the night on his naked chest. Nope, he wouldn't survive the night, that was for sure. Jackson was more worried about surviving the night when April placed one hand on his chest and curled into his side. Damn it.

"Is that okay for you?" April asked unconfident and shy.

"Hmm-hmm" Jackson answered.

And then they were quite. Jackson was totally confused. Why laid April on his chest? This morning she cried because her boyfriend almost died!? Sure, Jackson was happy that April was where she was, but it was all so unclear to him. They needed to talk. Seriously.

April was pretty satisfied with laying on Jackson's chest, his heartbeat was just comforting. While she laid there she had to think about her relationship with Matt. Sure, he was a nice guy and he was really sympathetic...but he wasn't like Jackson. And what he said about her this morning made him less like Jackson. Damn it, she was total in love with her best friend. Yeah, she was it the whole time, but while she was with Matt, she tried to suppress it a bit. A bit. April had to break up with Matt. But how should she do it?

And maybe because she was freaking tired, confused about what happened between her and Jackson her eyes started to fill with tears. One made it and run down her cheek and landed on Jackson's chest.

He noticed the tear, opened his eyes and started to ran his hand up and down April's arm before asking worried:

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"I-I-I just had to think about me and Matt..." April sniveled, but she regretted it immediately.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned him, I'm -" She tried to excuse but Jackson interrupted her:

"You don't always have to excuse you when you talk about Matt, I'm your best friend, remember? So, tell me, what's wrong?"

"I-I- Thank you. I just don't think that I love him enough anymore to be his girlfriend..."

"You're sure about this?" Jackson couldn't believe his ears.

"Yeah...well I don't know. I'm confused right now..." April sighed. How did Jackson thought about her now? She was such a dork...

"I should have shut up, I'm sorry..." April apologized.

Jackson raised up his torso, so April had to take away her head and hand.

"April, I can handle it, that you talk with me about your boyfriend. That's what a best friend is supposed to do! Now, can you please stop apologize? Because if you go on, I look for another on-call room!" Jackson said furious. He was sick of April's apologizing.

"Do, maybe Stephanie's here!" April surprisingly argued back and stood up, so Jackson could go.

"Are you serious?" Jackson asked in total disbelief. April hadn't said that to him, that couldn't be. He got up fast, grabbed his shirt and pulled it over. He had almost reached the door when he turned around and said hurt:

"Yeah, maybe I should."

What April didn't knew, Jackson had ended the sexual relationship with Stephanie. He wasn't going back to her.

Yeah, I know I was a little cruel, but I promise it wouldn't stay that for so long :)
I would really appreciate your reviews :)