Hi,
so here's the 7th chapter :)
Just btw, I really want Japril to kiss and make up, but as mean as I am, you have to wait ;-) *evil laugh*
Again, thanks for the reviews :*)

Same disclaimer as usual.

Chapter VII: I'm in love with her

"Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay"

April's mouth opened and her eyes were widened in shock. And before she could say something he was out of the door. And she didn't want to run after him, she felt too ashamed to do this. Damn it, she was such an idiot! How could she hurt her best friend so hard, the guy she loved more than any other man before? April laid down at the bed and started to cry into the pillow. That the pillow smelled like Jackson made it all so much harder. She was such a fool!

In the meantime Jackson was running down the hallway to the next best place he could find. In this case it was the men's restroom. He went to the sink, opened the tap and splashed water in his face. This wasn't real. It couldn't be. April never had snubbed him like that before. Never. What the hell had happened to her?

And now he wished Sloan was here, here to give him an advice. How to deal with that mess. But he was dead and not there where Jackson needed him. And for the first time in a long, long time he cried. He sat down against a wall and put his head and arms on his knees. It felt like the world was collapsing right over his head. He missed his other half of the Plastics Posse like never before and he had never felt so hurt because of April. That he had fucked up the surgery, didn't made him feel better.

"Jackson?" He heard a similar voice from the door. It was Karev's. From all the doctors here in the hospital, his former roommate was the most unsolicited.

"You're okay?"

Luckily his eyes weren't wet or red anymore so Jackson grumbled and sighed:

"Does a happy person looks like this? And what the fuck are you doin' here? I thought we swapped?"

Alex closed the door and sat down in front of Jackson. He had never saw his friend like this.

"I got paged. Okay, what's the matter?"

Jackson raised his head and stared at him in disbelief. He wasn't prepared that Alex was going to talk to him about his problems. But finally he opened up and admitted:

"Okay...I'm...I'm in love with April."

"Yeah, I know what you mean, dude," Alex answered.

Jackson looked at his friend with a very puzzled expression on his face and asked in disbelief:

"You're...you're what?"

"No no! I'm not in love with April... I freakin' love Jo...," Alex answered laughing but then admitted serious his feelings for his friend.

Jackson chuckled and inquired:

"You scared me! Isn't she dating this Myers-guy?"

"Yeah, she is. He's an idiot, I mean they barely know each other and they are goin' to move in together."

"Oh, I'm sorry for you, man. Have you told her about this?"

"Yes, but now she's mad at me. But anyway, why are you here, dude?"Alex asked.

"I guess you heard about the two guys we got, they were shot, and I had the most wounded guy, and he didn't made it in the OR. After my surgery I went to an on-call room to sleep and the next thing I remember was that...that I woke up in her arms and that se said to me that everything was going to be fine. Yeah...I had a nightmare," Jackson ended embarrassed.

"You still have nightmares?" The peds fellow inquired amused.

"No, just sometimes. But I had tonight one, and since a while it's always the same, I mean it's always April who gets shot. And...it ended that she was laying on my chest."

"You're kidding?! Way to go, Avery! But how the fuck did that happen?" Alex congratulated laughing.

"I have seriously no idea. I mean we were talking about the surgery on her boyfriend and the we both should sleep and then she suddenly asked whether she could sleep with -"

"Wait a second? She asked you to sleep with her? Now she's a cheater?"

"No! I understood her first wrong too, but April meant by my side. I have really no fucking idea why she wanted this, seriously."

And then Jackson told Alex what happened afterwards and he asked:

"Are you still sleeping with Edwards?"

"No, I don't, I broke it off. And I did this because of April," Jackson admitted and shrugged his face.

"Oh man, you're totally in love with this girl, aren't you?" Alex said and looked at his friend.

"Seems so...You think I'm pathetic, don't you?" Jackson exhaled and rested his hands on his palms.

"A little, but I'm maybe as pathetic as you are. When do you want to tell her?"

"To be honest, I have no -" Jackson interrupted because a pager went on. They checked both and found out it was Alex's.

"I'm sorry, dude. I gotta go...," Alex said excusing and ran out of the restroom.

Jackson stood up and looked on more time in the mirror before he left. He wanted to talk with her, he just didn't wanted to fight with her anymore.

April still cried in the pillow, she couldn't believe what she just had done. She was totally and irrevocable in love with Jackson and she had freaking hurt him. The only person she wanted to talk to was Reed. So April clasped her hands and started to whisper:

"Hey Reed, I know it's been a while since I talked to you, and I'm really sorry for that. But I need your help... I hurt the men I love, with saying he should screw somebody else. I'm such a dumbass! I guess he's not going to talk to me, I mean I couldn't blame him for this."

While April was so concentrated with whispering to ghost Reed, she didn't realized that the door opened and Jackson entered. He heard that April was crying and understood a little of what she said:

"I-I-I go tomorrow morning to Matthew and break up with him. I don't want to hurt him, b-b-because I'm in love w-w-w-with another guy. I love Jackson..."

Jackson's mouth dropped open, he couldn't believe what he just heard. She...she loved him? But why the heck did she told him to sleep with Stephanie? He slowly moved to the door, opened it quietly and left the room. It was quarter to three, he would operate on Matthew, April's-soon-to- be-ex-boyfriend, in about five hours and he was totally groggy. First he was kinda dumped by the girl he loved and second the girl admitted she loved him. God, life was fucking messy. But what if April wasn't sure about what she had said? What if she was confused and just ranted? What if she wasn't going to break up with Matthew?What if...?

After the scene in which Alex Christina tells how he feels about Jo, I thought the same could happen between Jackson and Alex :)
Spoiler: A doctor will return to GSMH, guess who ;-)