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Jacob's Twilight
Chapter 2
(Jacob's POV)
I was aware of her as soon as I stepped into the cafeteria, felt the pull to go to her, but I fought it. When I sat and tried to concentrate on what my friends were saying, I couldn't, because my eyes kept straying to her without my permission. The tugging of my heart towards her becoming stronger and it was making me angry. She is sitting as if she did not come here and turned my world upside down, enticing my heart to stray from what it truly wanted, where it truly belonged. How dare her!
The last straw came when she turned and caught me watching her; I had to get away from here, from her. Getting up suddenly, I grabbed my things and got out of there. I know my friends watched, wondering what was going on, but didn't care, didn't look their way as I ran out of there as if the hounds of hell were chasing me. I didn't take my car, didn't even phase, just ran, in my human form, all the way home.
When I got home I didn't stop, I ran right in the house and to my bedroom, not even saying anything to my dad, who was sitting there watching something on the television. In my room, I threw my things on the bed and sat down putting my head in my hands with a groan.
A few minutes later my dad rolled in, I knew he would but right now, I just don't feel like talking. "Everything okay son?" He asked with concern.
I removed my face from my hands and looked at him. "Yeah fine dad, just have a lot on my mind."
"Anything I can help you with?" He asked, then. "Something happened at school? You are home a little early; I know it couldn't have let out yet."
"Yeah, something like that." I stood up, agitated. "No disrespect dad, but I need some time alone to think. I'm gonna go run for a bit."
He just looked at me for a minute. "Okay son, just know I am here if you need to talk."
I didn't reply, just nodded.
As soon as he left, I changed into some cut off sweat pants, walked quickly outside to the edge of the woods and phased. I was so agitated I forgot to undress first, but right now that's the last of my worries.
I was grateful that none of my other brothers had phased, I really didn't want them to know I had imprinted on the new girl. I know they would probably think it is a blessing because it is rare for a wolf to find the one truly made just for him, but I don't see it that way. My heart belongs to another, has been since I was five years old.
Tired of fighting it, I lay down with my head on my paws and let the events of the day flow through my mind.
With nothing else to do, I lay down with my head on my paws and let my mind drift to the day's events, to one thing particular, the arrival of a new student, the girl with the beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Eyes that reminded me of another girl, a girl who is everything to me, the love of my life. When she ran into me coming out of the office, knocking her to the ground. I was flabbergasted, when I tried to help her up and our eyes met and locked. I felt disconnected from everything and everyone around us, the cords that held me to this earth was cut, and I floated, but not for long, they re-attached to this girl and became cables. She held me to earth now. The faiths have decided that this girl was my soul mate. Oh no!
When I realized what had happened I got angry. I did not want to be tied to this girl. I was already in love with a girl I was best friends with since I was young and have been in love with her just as long. I have not seen her in a few years, but I promised myself that one day I would find her, because I know she loved me too. Her being away so long was not her choice. That was decided by her mother. I refuse to betray the love we have for each other by getting involved with another girl. No matter what the faiths decide. I will fight this.
I was rude to her, I admit that, but I had to be. When I helped her to her feet and our eyes met again, I realized I actually loved this girl with the same intensity that I loved my childhood friend. How could this be? I could never love another in the same way as I love her, but what I am feeling is saying differently. I had to fight not to grab her up and hold her to me, never letting go. I really became angry then. I have the blood of an Alpha running through my veins; I should be able to fight this. Why do I feel that imprint or not, I would love the girl standing before me regardless.
Why does my hand on her arm seem so familiar, like I have touched her before? Everything about her seem familiar, but it couldn't be, I have never met this girl before. I felt a tingle run through my arm and down my spine, looking down again; I realized I was still holding her hand. I roughly jerked away from her. Telling her to stay away from me. Yeah, I saw the hurt and confusion in her eyes, I know she is blameless, has no idea what's going or the confusion her presence have stirred up in me, I didn't care. I quickly walked away.
Through out the day, I found I could not concentrate on anything, my mind kept straying to here repeatedly. If anyone asked, I wouldn't be able to tell them what my teachers discussed in any of my classes today. Even my friends noticed something was wrong, I couldn't tell you how many times they had to repeat themselves while trying to talk to me, or how many times they asked what was wrong or if I was okay. I would just brush off their concern, telling them there was nothing wrong. I know they didn't believe me, but left me alone. I decided I would just stay away from her; maybe a few days away from school, but knowing my friends, they are going to want answers when they got home from school and won't give up until I confided in them. Maybe the best thing is to get away from this place totally for a few days. My mom left me a house by the beach when she passed, maybe I'll go there for a few days just to think. The more I think about it, the better that idea sounds.
Yeah, that is exactly what I'll do. I'll have to talk to my dad about it first. He would worry if I just took off without talking to him about it. With that decision made I started back towards home. When I reached the woods outside my house, I ran to the garage as quickly as I could, hoping no one sees me. Once there I phased back and collected one of the pairs of shorts I left there for these kinds of emergencies. Once done, I went in the house in search of my dad.
I found him in the same place he was when I first came home from school. "Can I talk to you for a few minutes?" I asked before going over to sit on the couch by his wheel chair.
"Sure son, you know you don't have to ask." He replied turning towards me.
I thought for how I would phrase what I wanted to say, but decided simplicity is best. "Dad I need to get away for a few days." I looked directly at him so he could see the desperation, the confusion in my eyes. "Something happened at school that I really can't talk about right now. I just need a few days by myself to get my thoughts around it all."
"Where were you thinking or going?" He tried to sound calm, but I could still hear the worry in his voice.
"I want to go up to the house mom left me. I promise to tell you everything when I return." I stared at him, hoping he'll understand and let me go. I just needed to get out of here.
After a minute he said. "Okay son, but first we need to tell Sam about this plan since you will have to miss patrols and a few days of school."
I felt such relief. "Thanks dad." I said, releasing the breath I didn't realize I was holding.
"No problem, let's go talk to Sam now
"I'll go and change then we can leave." I said retreating to my room and changing as quickly as I could. When done, I helped my dad out the house and into the car. We didn't talk on the way. I guess we both had a lot on our minds. After talking to Sam, I took my dad back home, pack a few things and left.
The next few days at that house by the beach, didn't make things clearer. The pain in my heart from not being around the girl I imprinted became worse, I needed contact with her, and the funny thing is, it isn't all from the imprint, it seems so much more. I know if it was just a simple imprinting, I could fight it, but this feels as if the love was always there for her, but how could it, I have only ever love one girl my whole life, and this new girl isn't her… so why does it feel like it is?
I can't take it any more, everyday I wake up, I feel the urge to just go back to school to confront and accept what the faiths have chosen for me, but I ignore it and instead fight the cord that's pulling me back to Forks high. I don't why I thought getting away would make things easier. It's not helping one bit, it's just getting worst. I needed to talk to my dad again and tell him everything; maybe he can help me find the solution to my problem. With that decision made, I collected my things and was on my way back to La Push.
It was dusk when I reached home. My dad was in the kitchen and was very surprised but relieved to see me. Walking over to the kitchen table I sat and my dad rolled over to me.
"You ready to tell me what's going on now son?" He asked gently
I nodded and just came out with it. "I imprinted."
"So that's what happened." He said with understanding, sounding relieved it was nothing worse. "Why does that make you so miserable?"
"You know I have been in love with Isabella, since I was child dad. I always hoped she would be the one. Even when I changed, the love I had for her never did. I hoped she would be back and I would imprint on her, but now I have imprinted on this new girl at school and I feel as though I am betraying my childhood love." I looked at him in desperation. "Please, tell me how to fix this, how to break this spell, because the more I am away from that girl, the more it hurts." I felt a tear leave my eyes, so I put face in my hands, trying to hide my anguish from him. "Just tell me this can be fixed."
(Billy's POV)
I looked at my son, feeling his anguish as if it was my own. I didn't know what to tell him, I do know there is no way for him to break the imprinting, especially one that seems so strong, stronger even than Sam and Leah. We had to approach this rationally. Then I remembered something. A name he mentioned brought it back to me.
"What is the name of this new girl?" I asked calmly
He looked up at me. "I am not sure of her full name, but I hear everyone refer to her as Bella."
When he said that I smiled widely and he looked at me like I had lost my mind. "Why are you smiling like that dad? Can you help me or not?" He sounded very irritated.
"Son, Isabella is Bella."
He looked shocked. "What?"
"You see, sometimes her dad would call her by that name, but some reason you never did. You would call her Isabella or Bells, your Bells." I smiled at the changing expressions on his face. "Charlie had told me a week before she got here, that she would be coming and attending that school. I meant to tell you about it, but for some reason it slipped my mind." I shook my head at my own absent mindedness.
A look of pure joy came over his face. "No wonder she felt so familiar and felt as though I have always loved her, because I did. Now I understand why my feelings felt so strong." Then his face fell.
"What's wrong now? Why do you look so miserable again?" I was confused, he should be happy that his imprint is his childhood love.
"I really messed up."
"How so?" I asked, sure I won't like what I hear.
"I was really mean to her, even told her to stay away from me. I really didn't mean to, but when it happened, I felt so confused, as if I was betraying my childhood love. I just wanted her gone. I know she did not know what was going on, but it made no difference to me, she wasn't my Isabella, so I wanted nothing to do with her. Now, I'm pretty sure she hates me."
"I can't say I'm proud of the way you acted, but in a way I can understand. Now you will have to find a way to make amends. It's not going to be easy, but it is something you have to do. Remember this is not only an imprint, this is the girl you have loved your whole life, so whatever you have to do will be worth it."
"Yeah, you're right dad." He replied sadly. "It's just going to be hard trying to make amends when she doesn't want anything to do with me."
"Come on, I suggest we let Sam know what's really going on."
Without saying a word, helped me out the house and into the car. This seemed like déjà vu, but this time he is not looking to run, but needs to find solutions on winning the love of his life, finding a way for her to forgive his inconsiderate, callous attitude towards her.
(Jacob's POV)
When we got to Sam's and was seated in his den, with his imprint Leah sitting beside him. I told him everything I told my dad. He listened quietly until I was done, but the first thing that came out of his mouth was not what I expected.
"First thing is, you will need to take the place of Alpha soon." He stated
"What?" I asked in shock
"Jacob, you were always meant to be Alpha, it runs through your veins." He explained calmly. "We were just waiting for two things. One, for your wolf to become stronger and it has, stronger even than mine. Second, you needed to find your mate. You see, from when we first phase, our wolf actively begins to look for its mate, after that it is able to settle down and concentrate on other things, in your case, the running of the pack. You have shown great leadership. So it's time to pass over leadership to its rightful place."
"Do you mean right now?" I asked not sure if I was ready for the responsibility, but my wolf seem to have other ideas.
"Not right now, but soon. Now, let's talk about this other issue, your mate."
"I wish I knew what has been going on since my absence and a way to fix the mess I made of things." I mumbled miserably
"We could probably me some help there." Leah spoke up
"How so?" I asked, feeling a little hope
"Kim and I have introduced our selves and becoming a little friendly with her, but the Cullens are also taking an interest in her too, especially Alice and Edward."
"What! Can't we stop that, prevent her form becoming too friendly with Cullens, considering what they are and she being my mate."
"I'm sorry; there is nothing we can do there. It is not against the treaty for them to befriend a human, but there is something we can do to stop it from going too far, because seriously, they have shown more interest in her than she does in them. She is polite to them but nothing major."
"What's your suggestion Sam?" I asked loosing patience.
"As Leah just explained, she has introduced her self to her and from what I can tell, she seems like a very nice girl, with the girls being friends with her, they can help keep an eye on the Cullens action around her. Don't get me wrong, the hard work of winning her heart is yours, and yours alone, but with the help of the girls and your brothers, you will have a better chance, at least a better chance of finding herself in your company more than not."
Though I smiled at what he said, my heart still felt heavy, knowing I'm in for an uphill battle.