Chapter 10
Emma's POV
Jacob and I were hanging out a lot during the break. Two days before Christmas, Charlie and I were talking about our plans.
"So Em, I think the Black's will come over, here. I think Bella might drop by as well." Charlie said.
Yes I thought to myself. Jacob.
"That sounds good. So do you want me to help cook? Maybe Jacob and I could do the cooking."
"Sure. That sounds great."
I called Jacob to tell him.
"Hi Jake. I was talking to Charlie and he said you and Billy are coming over for Christmas. I told him that you and I would make dinner."
"Em, that sounds great. I've already gotten you gift."
Gift? Oh crap. I thought. I need to get gifts for everyone.
"Okay, I'll see you then." I said.
"Bye Em."
I grabbed my purse, and went downstairs.
"Charlie, I'm going shopping."
"Alright have fun."
I found a perfect gift for everyone, except Jacob. I found a necklace for Bella, a new flannel for Charlie, a Rainer bottle opener for Billy, and a gift card for Renesme, but nothing for Jacob. Then I saw it. In a little Quileute antique shop. It reminded me of him so much. It was a necklace, but a manly one, with the head of wolf.
I realized this would the first time I would have a Christmas without my mom. As soon as I got home, I ran upstairs, telling Charlie I was tired. I went into the bathroom, and locked the door. I let the water run in the shower, and saw my razor. I grabbed it. How will I ever get through anything without my mom? The blade hurts, but I don't care. I can barely get through one day without her, let alone, the rest of my life. My tears blur my vision, but I see the red of my blood.