This part is for her

Chapter 9: You're in my veins

So….yes you can kill me. I haven't uploaded a chapter for almost a year and I was pretty sure that I wasn't going to upload one forever again because I thought that this story wasn't worthy at all. But then I asked you guys what you think and I got some reviews that really motivated me to start writing again. Also I decided to use ONLY ANNA'S POINT OF VIEW. I hope you're fine with this. And I have exams coming up but I'll try to update. I promise.

THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO A GUEST'S COUSIN. I don't know if it's true but she told me she has cancer and she really wants more chapters so this chapter is dedicated to this special girl. Stay strong.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Vampire Diaries…Well I would like to own a Damon Salvatore and have him for my own but…Anyways Anna isn't the original character but a fanfictional one and Emma Stone (Brunette) portrays her.

Now let's head to the story and I hope I will not disappoint you in this chapter.ツ

Previously

"You have to go away" I said, holding back the tears. I would compel her right now after I say goodbye.

"Goodb-"but she cut me off.

"Stefan, I have already lost so many people in my life, and yeah, when I followed you I was scared but not now, now I feel safer than ever, because I am near to you. My whole life I wanted a normal life, but who says that the things we want make us happy? When I was a child I used to chase the rainbow but I never caught it. And then I thought why to chase something when I cannot have it? In life we chase the things that we cannot have. Things that we think that they will make us happy, things that we believe that they are the best for us. The things that we dream for our lives are like the rainbow. They are beautiful but we will never be able to catch them and then we have to see the things that we have. I believe that it is possible to have whatever we want and not know it until something big happens and we wake up. Because sometimes the rainbow is right in front of our eyes, we just can't see it…" I was speechless, maybe Elena had told me things but her voice telling that stuff sound magical in my ears. "…You are the rainbow in my life, Stefan."

And then I crashed my lips to hers and for the first time in my life I was sure what I was doing.

She was right, I was her rainbow and she was mine. I had to protect her and I will until the very end.

They say that before you die your whole life flashes in front of your eyes. And yes they were all there. My dad smiling at me for the last time, my old friends, everyone I met at Mystic Falls, Stefan hugging me and the creepy dark man. Only that I wasn't the one dying, it was my mum. But yet, it felt like a part of me died with her. It was the only part that tied me to my old life. Yes maybe I always thought that my mum had nothing to offer me and that she was nothing but trouble for me. However now that she's gone I feel like maybe she wasn't so bad after all.

Funny when you die, how people change their opinion about you.

The day after her death, I woke up late in the afternoon and even though my house seemed to be absolutely the same as the day before, I knew it wasn't. It was empty, since the only person that has been left in it was empty too.

Yes I was empty.

I might have kissed Stefan the same night my mother died and acted like nothing terrible had happened and you guessed right if you thought that it was all pretending. But now I was alone and I didn't have to pretend anymore.

I went in the bathroom and stared at my reflection in the mirror. Physically you could say that with a little make-up and a nice outfit, I would look presentable but mentally I was screwed up.

Thank God that no one can read my mind.

After a while I decided to stop staring at the mirror and make myself look presentable so I could go and find the person that I wanted to find since last night. Damon.

I learnt the man's name just yesterday but something about him made me feel drawn, connected…bonded. Maybe this is how you feel towards your mother's killer. Or maybe this is how you feel towards anyone when you just need someone to save you from the emptiness that your life has begun.

Pushing all these thoughts out of my mind, I took a deep breath and walked out of my house. Elena has taken care of my mother's body so I didn't need to arrange anything like a funeral or something. Stefan even texted me saying that he would drop by the police office to take care of these things too. It was kind of relieving, just knowing that there was someone out there who cared about me and was willing to help. It was nice knowing that maybe things would get better. Stefan's smile gave me hope and I am trying so hard to remember nothing but it…It's hard though. I guess that's the thing about pain. It demands to be felt.

Walking down the streets was easy, since I haven't been in Mystic Falls long enough for people to know me. Only some days and my whole life has come upside down. Vampires entered my life and took my only relative that was alive. I tried to think that everything was a lie but denying reality wouldn't help a lot at this very moment. I had been at the Boarding House before but then it was only for a party and now it was for yelling at a vampire.

A vampire. A word that I never thought I would use if it wasn't for twilight or any other fictional world. But here I was ready to enter the garden outside the big mansion. I walked through the garden really quickly, almost nervously but I stopped dead (yeah what a nice time to think about death) when I saw that front door was wide open, like it was waiting for me to step inside.

I thought about it for a moment. Should I enter the almost frightening big house? Or should I just leave and don't look behind?

Then I reminded myself that this place wasn't only Damon's house, but Stefan's as well. And Stefan wouldn't let anything happen to me, but what if he wasn't there? What if I was left alone with the scary dude?

Some minutes passed, although they felt like centuries, till I remembered that the reason I had came here was to find the guy that killed my mother and try to at least get an explanation out of him.

And there I was getting inside the house, only to find the same place I had at the party. I waited for some seconds to pass, so I could catch the breath that I had run out of during getting the decision to either step in or not. I took another of my deep breaths and I called out for Damon.

If you can hear silence, then that was all I heard and for a minute I thought that maybe I should try again but I decided to go with the easiest and definitely safer option to just leave. And that was I doing until I heard a strong husky voice calling for me

"Looking for something?"

I was afraid to turn around. The person I wanted to find and yell at all day was finally in front of me, well behind me but anyway. In my mind it was easy imaging yelling at Damon since he couldn't do anything to harm me but right now he was there, starring at me. Yes I couldn't see him, but I knew that he was starring at me because I could feel it. He was there, alive. Well, undead, but anyway again.

I slowly turned around only to find a just showered Damon with nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist and water still dripping from his hair. If sex was a person, it was definitely this man. He looked right at me with his piercing blue eyes for a while and a slightly smirk made its way to his face. Was he amused? That's when I realized that I had been starring at him instead of answering his question.

Breaking my gaze from his body really quickly, I decided to do the thing I had come here for.

"I am not afraid of you." was all I said in a small, but loud enough to hear voice.

"Well you should be." he said and his smirk became wider.

"Why did you do it? Why did you kill my mother?" I really tried to say this in a way that wouldn't make me sound weak or broken but I don't think I did since a small sob left my mouth.

"Oh little bird, I had to protect my girlfriend you know. Your mother was pretty crazy last night. Someone had to stop her. Don't you think?" what did he just say? He was protecting Elena? He was protecting a vampire from what? My drunk mum? And little bird? This guy might be even crazier than my mother and he's even sober. I think….I can't know for sure, considering the tons of bourbon bottles he has. And yes I noticed that while he was talking.

"You were protecting Elena? She is a vampire for God's sake! My mum was just a weak drunk woman and you killed her, just to save your vampire girlfriend." I am pretty sure that my voice cracked up the moment the word weak left my mouth but I didn't care.

"Oh, you can't save everyone. Hasn't my brother taught you that already?" did he just blame Stefan? I didn't say anything but just stared at him desperately trying to find any kind of emotion in his face, but it was as dead as he was. He stared back and in a flick he was dangerously close at me.

"I wish your blood didn't taste that good. I wish your blood was ordinary. I wish it was nothing like it is." that sounded as creepy and pervert as you thought it did.

"I don't understand…" and I really didn't. Was he going to kill me? Was he going to hurt me? Was he going to feed on me?

"You don't have to…" he said and stared right into my eyes "you just have to not scream or do anything. Just stand there. I might even do pleasurable for you as well if you let me, little bird" his eyes flickered the same time mine did too. And there he was, the real him. Fangs, red eyes, veins everything that showed who he really was had just come out. I wanted to scream, I wanted to run, I wanted to leave and forget everything. But I couldn't. I tried to move or scream, but I couldn't. He didn't let me.

I felt him leaving small kisses and then a sharp pain in my neck and him sucking at the wound he had just created. The pain was undeniably awful but it soon was replaced by something else. Pleasure?

No it couldn't be. I surely wasn't enjoying this but still here I was biting my lower lip in order not to let that small moan escape my mouth. He couldn't know I was enjoying this. He just couldn't. He had told me that he could make it feel pleasurable for me as well, did that mean that he was feeling the same? Either way I couldn't let him know that he was succeeding. However I don't think that I needed to since I felt another smirk making its way to his lips while he was pulling away from my neck.

"It felt good, didn't it? You don't have to deny it. On the contrary little bird…embrace it and soon enough you will scream my name and pray that it would never end." this wasn't real. This wasn't happening. I wasn't having a conversation like this with a vampire. The vampire who killed my mother. But I did it.

"You don't have to feel embarrassed about feeling that way. I understand it. No one can resist my good looks and my special ability to make them feel so good." what was he thinking while telling these words? I opened my mouth to speak but I stopped when he started talking again. This time his eyes never left mine and his words weren't like before. His words were gentle and almost sincere. And one was for sure, those words never left my mind.

"You came here and asked me why I killed your mother. We argued a lot but in the end you just decided to forgive me. While you were leaving you fell and hit your head and that's why you're feeling a little dizzy. Now I will give you some of my blood but you will not remember it, you won't remember anything rather than what I told you before." He bit his wrist and brought it to my mouth. The liquid made its way down my throat and it tasted like metal. When he thought I had enough he just wiped the blood that was dripping out of my mouth and did something that took me out of surprise. He kissed my forehead and for a moment I swear I saw his expression becoming a softer one.

He patted my back and stopped staring right into my eyes. Then I closed them and when I opened them I was outside in the big garden that I had walked though before.

"You won't remember anything rather than what I told you before"

I really didn't know how I came to forgive Damon for killing my mother. I couldn't remember what he said that made me forgive him but I guess they were nice words. I left the Salvatore house with the impression that everything was perfectly fine.

That night was nothing like my previous one. My sleep was nice, gentle and almost peaceful. For a moment I had a feeling that someone was caressing my hair but I just let it go…

How could I know that it wasn't just a feeling? How could I know that the beginning of the end was even closer than I thought?

How could I know that we were all in each other's veins?

AN: Okay I hope that this chapter was good enough to make up for all this time. You Danna fans, I promised you that this chapter would be big for you. However don't worry Stefan fans, because Anna will not caught up in Damon's game so easily. After all she does, love Stefan truly. Come on I want to hear your opinions and guesses in reviews! They motivate me to update. Anyway if you want to help with some of the chapters or give me some ideas/feedback you can PM me.

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