My Losses

Ricko's POV

~The Next Day~

Hatori will call in the host club one by one for a week. The guys already know about it. I guess Tamaki-sempai and Hikaru and Kaoru wanted to see me, but when Hatori delivered the message he specifically told them not to come for me. I'm grateful for that though. I wouldn't have to go through saying goodbye to all of them in one day. I don't think I could handle all that emotional stress dumped on me in just a few hours. I have come to really care for these guys, and now, it comes to where they have to forget about me.

This damn curse! None of the zodiacs can ever have any friends or connections outside of the family! Especially me.

The thing that really sucks with me is, whomever I become to care deeply about, or that cares about me, will end up suffering in the end. That's what happened with my mother and father. They went completely insane after a year of my life. Their memories had to be erased so they wouldn't suffer anymore and I became the secret zodiac, the first of my kind.

Yes, Kyo is in sort of the same situation as me, but he can actually make friends and have people take care of him. I am sentenced to a world of solitude and loneliness. And, it's actually the best thing for me to go back to my cell in the Sohma estate. My curse affects the members of the zodiac as well as the humans. I've been living with Shigure, Yuki, Kyo, and Tohru for a while now, and I should move on before they suffer the same fate as my parents did.

The reason most of the zodiac don't know of me is that they had their memories erased from spending too much time with me. I don't want any of this to happen to Shigure, Yuki, Kyo, or Tohru so I am also using Akito's order as an excuse to get away from them.

I don't want any of them to forget about me, but, that's my curse.

Haruhi is the first one. We are in a room next to the room that Hatori usually uses for the mind sessions. We stand, facing each other to say our goodbyes. "I'm, I'm sorry Haruhi. I hope you have a wonderful life without me causing you any troubles anymore." I try not to start break down crying. I don't meet her eyes, figuring that there would be a hated look in them.

Hatori speaks up, "Is there anything that you would like to say to Ricko, Miss Fujioka?" I don't notice the 'Miss' in that sentence; I'm too busy trying to hold back tears.

Haruhi nods, tears pricking the corners of his eyes. He steps up to me and smiles weakly, "I'm happy that I met you, and I don't regret any of what has happened. I just wish we could've spent more time together to get to know each other a little more. And I hope you never forget me."

I smile weakly, "Thank you Haruhi, and I don't think I could ever forget any of you." I pull her into a hug and she lightly gasps in shock, "Yes, I knew all along that you're a girl, it's not very hard to figure out. And good luck with the lawyer thing, I'm sure you'll do great." I smile lightly and detach from her.

I watch as Hatori leads her into the room where she would loose her memories of the small amount of good and bad times that we had together.

'Goodbye Haruhi, I will keep the memories of our friendship locked in a box that will be sealed tightly forever.' I say in my mind jut before I see a white flash, indicating her memory loss.

God, I hate doing this kind of stuff, but this is part of the story, sorry guys!

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