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Stephanie Meyer: Damn right, you don't!
Me: GAAH!!!!!!!! Where the HELL did YOU come from????
Stephanie Meyer: Dear child, the answer is simple. I am the Tooth Fairy!
Me: AAAAAAH!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY??????? Oh, God….. I'm, like, your BIGGEST FAN!!!!! I mean, your work is amazing!!! Who else can drain life, control shadows, AND dance among the stars??? You're INCREDIBLE!!!!!
Stephanie Meyer: Ummmm……. I said Tooth Fairy. Not Dark Fairy……
Me: Oh…….. Well, you're cool, too……. I guess……………
Stephanie Meyer: Oh, Jeez….. I'm not the Tooth Fairy. I'm Stephanie Meyer. You know….. the creator and owner of the Twilight series…?
Me: GASP!!!!! Your books are AMAZING!!! But… (Gasps in shock) You're a LIAR!!!!!!
Stephanie Meyer: Uhh…. What….?
Me: You lied! YOU'RE NOT THE TOOTH FAIRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrr…………….. (Glares murderously)
Stephanie Meyer: Okay, readers….. If you know what's good for you, just move on to the story……. Please. Go. Now. Read. Read already!!!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU??? SAVE YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Runs for life)
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I knew those eyes. I didn't need their identity confirmed by a face or a body. Those were the eyes that, for so long, had been pools of liquid-gold love and safety. They were the very same eyes that searched by expressions for answers, the eyes that I based my "favorite gemstone of the day" on, and the eyes that I had once looked forward to seeing every day.
Those were his eyes.
My tears flowed faster and in a larger quantity than I ever thought possible, and they weren't silent anymore. The occasional sniffles and whimpers that escaped my mouth had transformed into full-blown sobs.
"Edward?" I managed to choke out between shudders. "Edward, please!! I know that you can hear me!! I hope you're happy now!! You can see me, I know you can!! I know that you're watching. You said that it would be healthier for me if you were gone! You LIED, Edward!! Look at me!! You call this HEALTHY??"
I don't know if I meant to sound that harsh, but I did. Truth be told, I didn't know I was that angry with him until that moment. Sure, I was sad, alone, depressed, and more or less catatonic, but anger never crossed my mind. But, now that it did, I had to admit that it felt good.
Suddenly, a gust of wind coursed through my room. I figured that it was just because I had my window fully open, but… the trees weren't swaying…
Now, you might be thinking that there was a little "Twilight Zone" thing going on, but I knew exactly what it was. I looked down at my window sill, and, sure enough, there was the letter, but there was a new note attached.
In that same graceful script, he had written Please, Bella. Just read it.
My tears subsided to a fresh wave of rage that washed over me.
"Coward," I said. "Sure, you can write me a letter, even blow through my room uninvited and leave a note that you wrote at your stupid, unnatural, inhuman super speed. But can you just TALK to me? Noooo….! God, Edward….. Sometimes…….. I swear……..! Fine, I'll read your stupid letter, but I won't like it. I'd much rather just burn the thing!"I would never actually burn it, but he couldn't read my thoughts to tell that I was lying, so I figured that I would just rattle his cage a bit. After all, he DID deserve it.
When he did his little speedy maneuver through my room, he took the liberty of removing the letter from the envelope and opening it for me.
Wow, I thought sarcastically. What a gentleman…..
I took one look at the letter, and my anger instantly faded. I wiped the tears away before they even formed.
When I picked it up to read, my breathing became unsettled, but I forced myself to be strong and push through it.
My Dearest Bella,
I know that you don't fully understand why I must leave you, but that is why I have written this for you. This letter may come as a surprise, but then again it might not. With you, I never know…..
I understand that my leaving may have caused you pain, as being away from you has caused me much. I love you more than anything in this and any other universe that there may be, and I must keep you safe so that I don't lose you. And if leaving is the only way to protect you, so be it. It may not make much sense now, so let me try to explain.
Being away from you may be more painful than anything I've ever experienced, but I know that you're out there, alive, and safe, and that makes it easier. If you… If you weren't…… I just… I just don't know what I would do.
What happened on your birthday opened my eyes to the reality of our situation. Jasper is a vegetarian now, and even he couldn't control himself when you bled. He was stopped from attacking so easily because he knew deep down that it wasn't right. He didn't WANT to hurt you. Think, Bella .Think of what a "normal" vampire would have done. If you ever got hurt, I would never be able to forgive myself. I care too much, Love.
Every day hurts just a little bit more than the last. I suppose you could use poetic metaphors and other meaningless figurative language to describe it, but they wouldn't quite capture the emotion. I hope that you're not in as much pain as I, but I suppose it's a natural feeling. I don't understand these human emotions, as I've never loved anybody this way before. I'm not even sure if sending this letter is the right thing to do, but it's been almost six months now, and I decided that you deserved an explanation.
Ah! I found a proper explanation. Do you remember James? Well…. Of course you do…. Well, do you remember how close he came to succeeding? He was an amateur hunter, but he still almost…. I can't even think about it. Just think about what would happen if a more experienced vampire decided to drop in on us. What would happen if he or she decided that they liked you a little bit too much? It kills me to just think about.
Do you see my side of the situation, Love? Do you understand why I had to leave? As painful as this may be, it's just better for you. I know you may not see the benefits of my decision, and sometimes they're blurred in my eyes as well.
There are nights when all I want to do is run to you and lie with you as you sleep, and days when all I can think about is whispering lines from Romeo and Juliet in your ear and watch as your face turns that adorable rosy color. Alas, knowing the danger that would put you in is too much to bear.
Bella, my love, I am deeply sorry for putting you through this, but I just can't risk losing you. I love you, Bella.
Eternal Love,
Edward
By the time I finished reading it, my face, and my shirt for that matter, was thoroughly drenched with tears. I threw the letter down on my pillow and went into the bathroom to splash some cool water on my face.
When I returned to my room, I changed into sweats and a fresh tee shirt. I picked up the letter from where it was laying to prove to myself that I hadn't dreamt or imagined the whole thing.
It wasn't a dream. It was really there; I felt it and heard it as I crinkled the corners. There was something on the back of it…..
I turned it over to find a note taped to it. It wasn't there when I put it down.
I'm sorry, Love……
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