"Isn't this the best part of breaking up

Finding someone else you can't get enough of

Someone who wants to be with you too"

Beck's POV

I walked out of my last class of the day feeling kind of good. I know it sucks that I'm feeling fine while I heard Ally was still in the bathroom crying, but I couldn't help it. It's not that I was glad we were broken up, it's that I was happy I didn't have to lie to her anymore.

It made me angry that I'd kept up with the lying for as long as I did, but now Jade and I could be together with no guilt. No strings holding us back. I was more relieved than anything.

Still…I couldn't get Allison's face out of my mind when I ended things.

"You're breaking up with me?!" She'd screeched in the middle of the hallway at lunch. "Why?!"

"I just need some time to myself," I'd said calmly. "It's nothing you did, it's me."

"Oh my god," she had looked stunned. "Are you cheating on me?!" What the?

"What?! No!" I'd said quickly. I guess she really was suspicious. And I guess I wasn't done lying. "This isn't about anything you did. It's all me, okay? I'm not in the right state of mind to be with anybody, and it wouldn't be fair to you to stay with you. You deserve better." She really did.

"Oh my god," she said again, but this time she walked away. I hadn't seen her cry at all, but Tori said right after we talked she ran to the restroom and stayed there till her mom came and picked her up.

I really felt horrible about hurting her, it was the last thing I wanted, but at least this way I was setting her free…right?

My phone buzzed from a text, and I read a message I'd just received from Jade.

"Janitor's closet. NOW."

Jade's POV

What the hell was taking him so long? I'd sent him that text…three minutes ago, I realized as I checked the time. Still, it was a two second walk from his locker to the closet! The door finally opened and he strolled in casually like nothing was wrong.

"Hi," he smiled at me. Ugh! He drove me crazy.

""Hi'?!" I yelled. "That's all you have to say to me?!"

"Umm how was your day?" he shrugged his shoulders and crease his eyebrows like he was confused. Really? He had no idea why I might be pissed?

"It was going really well actually," I started sarcastically. "Until this idiot I know broke up with his girlfriend!"

"Am I the idiot?" He asked, playing dumb. "Because I resent that."

"Beck! Stop messing around!" My head started to hurt as I felt myself grow madder and madder. "What the hell were you thinking?"

"I was thinking now we can be together!" He said as if it were that obvious.

"What?!" I spat out. He was crazy. "Did you not understand me ending things between us last night? Was I not clear enough?"

"No, you were perfectly clear. You said you hated lying, and so do I! So I broke up with Ally. Now we don't have to lie anymore!" He looked at me like I was insane for not seeing his genius.

"Yeah, except the problem is still there, Beck!" How did he not understand. "Ally is still here, and she still loves you. If we were to get together the day after you guys broke up, she'd know something was up! Everyone would." I sighed, how could he think it would be that easy. "And there's still Kris."

"What about Kris?" He shrugged and shook his head. He never did like when I brought him up.

"I mean, you didn't expect me to break up with him just because you broke up with Ally did you?"

"Well…yeah," he as if that was evident. "That guy is and asshole, and you don't love him."

"Don't tell me how I feel," I said to him. What was his problem? "You don't know Kris and you don't know me."

"That's a lie," he shook his head and looked away. "I know you Jade. I know you want to be with me just as bad as I want to be with you. And I know you deserve better than 'Kristofer with a K'." He mocked Kris.

"You don't understand," was all I could say. He really didn't. He was right, but so wrong at the same time. Kris could be a jerk sometimes, but most of the time he was trying to make sure I was happy. Yeah he acted like a tool at times, and dragged me to lame parties, but he loved me. Like no one else had before.

"What is there to understand?" Beck asked. "I care about you Jade. And I know you care about me too."

"Yeah, but…" But what if when all the lies were done, and the excitement of keeping us a secret was over…what if you don't like me as much as you thought you did. What if this was all just the thrill of the chase?

"But what?" He questioned, and I realized I never finished my sentence out loud. I couldn't tell him all that…he'd think I was crazy for thinking that far ahead. But I had to.

"Never mind. This conversation is pointless. Nothing's changed. I meant what I said last night. We have to stop seeing each other."

"That's not gonna make me go back to Allison," He challenged. Why did he have to make this so difficult?

"I don't care," I shrugged as if I didn't. "Do whatever you want Beck. It's your life."

"Jade—"

"I shouldn't have called you here. Sorry I wasted your time," I said before leaving the room. I had to force myself not to look back, but I managed to make it to my car before breaking down completely.

I couldn't even cry, my eyes were so sick of it. I just sat there until I thought I was sane enough drive.

Hours later, I was sitting alone in my living room sulking. I missed Beck already, and I'd just seen him six hours and twenty minutes ago…not that I was counting or anything.

I almost jumped when my doorbell rang. He'd come to see me! I sprang up from my couch and tried to fix my hair on the way to the door.

Unfortunately when I swung the door open Kris was standing in front of me, not Beck. I couldn't mask my disappointment as I crossed my arms and sighed.

"JJ," he grinned at me. "These are for you," he said as he handed me what looked like three dozen red roses. I'd have fun cutting those later…

I took them from him and chucked them on the sofa. Like those made up for anything.

"I'm sorry," he said from my porch. "I really am. I didn't mean to say those things, I just…you know how I get. I was an idiot. And I'm sorry."

"You said that already." I don't have it in me to fight anymore. "Let's just forget it okay? It never happened."

"Really?" he looked shocked. I'm usually much harder on him, but it's not the same anymore for some reason.

"Yeah," I nodded and forced a smile. "It's in the past. I umm I'm really tired right now, though. So I'll just see you tomorrow?"

"Sh-sure," he said, still stunned. "I'll pick you up for school." He smiled from ear to ear and pecked my lips before leaving.

I closed the door and leaned against the back of it. Things were fine now. Kris and I were good. Beck and I were over. This is how things were supposed to be.

While my conscious tried to convince me of all that, my fingers had ideas of their own. I had pulled out my phone and already sent Beck a text before my brain could stop me.

"Where are you?" Would he text back? I bet he was still mad. This was a bad idea. Why did I text him?! Now I look desperate.

"Studying at Andre's. What's up?" My heart skipped a beat at his reply.

"Meet me at your RV at 10:30?" I practically died of anticipation waiting for him to respond. Would he ask questions? Was he still mad? This was such a bad idea.

"Okay." He texted, and I just about fell over with relief.

I needed to see him. I needed to apologize, and make things okay between us again. But this apology would need something extra to push it over the edge. I got up, grabbed my purse and the shopping bag from the mall yesterday and headed out to Beck's house.

This was going to be fun.

At least I hope so.

Beck's POV

After Jade's text, I stayed at Andre's house as long as I could wait without getting anxious, which wasn't very long. I had excused myself and drove to my house not able to handle the suspense.

Why did she want to see me? I thought we were done. Had she changed her mind? Or did she just want to finalize the goodbye? I pulled up to my house and saw her car already parked next to my RV.

She was way early I realized when I saw that it was only 9:47. Whatever the reason, I was glad I didn't have to wait any longer to see her.

I walked into my RV and looked around. Her purse was on the floor next to my bed and there was slow R&B music playing at a low volume. What was going on here?

"Jade?" I called, looking around. She was nowhere in sight.

"Beck?" She sounded alarmed. I followed her voice to my small bathroom where I could hear my sink water running. "You're early," she said through the closed door.

"Uh yeah," I said. "I couldn't wait. What going on?"

"Umm, I needed to talk to you," she said while I heard the water shut off.

"Well come out here," I prodded.

"Uhh okay," she stalled. "Close your eyes."

"What? Why?" She's lost her mind.

"Just do it!" she yelled and I obeyed immediately.

"Okay, closed," I said with my eyes shut. I heard the bathroom door open and smelled the scent of her shampoo near me. "What's going on?" I repeated.

"I umm came here to apologize," she mumbled. I'd noticed that she wasn't that great at apologizing.

"Ohhkay? Why do my eyes have to be closed for this apology?"

"Just wait!" she hushed me. "I feel really bad about what I said today. I didn't mean to make you think that—that I don't care about you…because I do. I really do. I just don't want you to do anything that you'll regret. But still, I shouldn't have said that I wanted to stop seeing you because I don't. That's the last thing I want."

I can't believe she's here saying all this. I hadn't stopped thinking about our fight all day. It had only been hours, but I felt like it'd been years since it happened.

"Say something," she commanded at my silence.

"Uh…wow," Was all I could get out. "Uh…its—its okay…I mean, I forgive you. And I don't want to stop seeing you either."

She breathed a sigh of relief and hugged me. Her arms around my neck mad me remember that my eyes were still shut, and reminded me how badly I wanted to see her.

"Jade?"

"Yeah?" she answered, pulling away from me completely.

"Can I open my eyes?"

"Oh shit, sorry!" she laughed. "I forgot. Open them!"

I opened my eyes but felt like I might still be imagining what I saw. Jade stood in front of me wearing…well almost nothing. She had on a black see through night shirt thing that belonged in a Victoria's Secret catalog and the smallest pair of underwear I'd ever seen.

The way her porcelain skin looked against the fabric made her look like some kind of dark angel. I finally tore my eyes off her body and up into her crystal blue eyes. The look she was giving me made her look…naughty.

"I uh picked this out for you in case you didn't accept my apology…" she said in a low voice.

"Uh…I….I…I…me? For me?" I managed to say.

"Mmhmm," she nodded and picked up the sides of the shirt a little, revealing a split in the middle of her top. I stared at the opening that exposed her pale stomach and let my eyes trail down to the black stud on her belly button. "Do you like it?"

"Yes," I gulped and tried to breathe. "Yes. Yes. Yes." I repeated the word like a chant. She laughed and moved towards me, putting her arms around my waist.

"Good." She smiled. "I thought you might." I lowered my head to kiss her red lips and put a hand behind her neck to pull her closer.

She tilted her head back to speak, "I missed you," she said against my lips.

"I missed you more," I admitted. I felt her smile as she returned to kiss me. She started walking, moving us to my bed, and pushed me to sit down. She looked down at me mischievously before putting her legs on either side of me and sitting on my lap.

I ran my hands up and down her thighs while she kissed me intensely, making it hard to contain myself. She moved her hands down my chest and slid her fingers onto abs from under my shirt before removing it entirely.

Just as I had grasped her backside in my hands, I heard the loud noise of my door opening. I gripped her hips and pulled her to the side of my bed as fast as I could, standing up just in time for my little sister to throw her arms around me.

"Beck!" she cried into my bare torso. "I had a bad dream and I can't find mommy or daddy!"

I looked to my bed to see Jade looking astounded and a little embarrassed. I shrugged with the same shocked look she had and patted my sister's head.

"Shh, it's okay…it was just a dream," I tried to sound comforting, but only sounded out of breath. She unwrapped her arms from me and looked up at me with teary eyes.

"Who's that?" she asked when she noticed Jade. "And what is she wearing?"

Jade crossed her arms and looked away. This was so awkward.

"Uh Hannah, this is my friend Jade," I said trying to make things seem normal. "Jade, this is my sister Hannah."

"Hi," Jade faked a smile. "It's nice to meet you Hannah."

"What is she doing here?" Hannah asked innocently.

"Well she uhh…she…" I ran out of lies.

"I...," Jade took over. "Had a bad dream, too. Beck was just making me feel better." She explained. Hannah nodded like she understood.

"Beck, can I sleep here tonight?" She asked me. "There are monsters in my room."

"Umm I…I…," I glanced at Jade who looked panicked, then back down at Hannah's terrified expression. "Of course you can." I said, giving in.

"Yay!" She said as she jumped on my bed next to Jade, looking pleased.

"Look, Jade! My mommy got me this bracelet for Christmas," Hannah said, holding her wrist up to show her the small charm bracelet. She was obviously trying to make friends.

"It's pretty," Jade feigned enthusiasm. Hannah brought her arm down but stopped when a charm got stuck on Jade's top.

"Hey! Give it back!" Hannah yelped.

"Wait, it's caught on my shirt. Let me—," Jade stopped and gasped when Hannah yanked her arm away from her, ripping a new slit in the sheer fabric of her outfit. Jade looked up at me with an open mouth, and I saw her stifle all the negative comments she'd usually spew out.

"Oops…sorry," Hannah said, looking down.

"Its…fine," Jade replied through a tight jaw. She stood up, grabbed her purse, and walked to my bathroom without another word.

"I'll be right back okay Han?" I said quickly before following Jade. She was in the bathroom tugging on a pair of black jeans.

"Don't leave!" I begged her.

"Beck," she gave me an exasperated look. "You've got stuff to do. I'll just see you tomorrow or whatever."

"No!" I pleaded. "Look, she'll be asleep in ten minutes, I'll take her inside, and then we can go back to…" I didn't quite know how to finish that sentence.

"Its fine, Beck," She said as she zipped her jeans. "It can wait."

"You don't have to go," I tried again. "I want you to be here."

"Yeah," she said before putting her arms through her coat. "And I want to be here, but this is too weird." I sighed realizing she wouldn't stay.

"Let me walk you out?"

Jade's POV

After I said bye to Hannah, Beck walked me to my car and we stood in the open door.

"I'm sorry," he said shaking his head.

"Don't be," I smiled. It wasn't his fault. "There was nothing you could do."

"Yeah, but…I really wanted you to stay," he pouted. I leaned in and kissed him sweetly.

"Another time," I said. "Maybe at my house."

"Yeah, definitely," he laughed. "Being an only child seems like a perk right now."

"It is," I chuckled. "Goodnight."

"Sleep tight," he said before kissing me. He pushed me against my car and put his hands on my waist. Maybe I should stay…

He pulled away and winked at me before stepping out of the doorway. I got inside and closed my door. I started my car but rolled my window down for one last goodbye.

He leaned down and kissed me through the open window, making me see stars. I had to break us apart before I died of oxygen deprivation.

I started to back out of his driveway but savored the sight of him waving goodbye to me with his shirt off.

Maybe this night wasn't a complete disaster after all.