Feeling groggy I opened my eyes and scrunched my face up as the light poured in from the window. I wasn't alone in the room. Juice was snoring, loudly, right next to my ear. I hoped to god I didn't do anything stupid as I noticed that he was wearing nothing but boxers and I was only wearing a t -shirt. At that moment the door opened... Oh my god my dad!

"Oh shit! Dad!"

"Alright you little fucker wake up!" He said whilst throwing a glass of water over Juice.

"Hmmm... What th... Oh fuck shit Chibs!" Juice jamp up and put on his clothes whille I just stood there wide eyed watching the drama unfold "I...ummm... we didn't do ANYTHING I swear!" now his eyes were wide and he had his hands in front of his crotch to protect himself, I knew what Chibs was capable of when he was angry...

"I know, my daughter isn't a whore... shes not like the other girls around here. Doesn't take cum shots to the face at every chance she gets." Juice half smiled at Chibs. He was dressed now.

"Whats up?"

"Were going out. Clay and Tig are meeting with the IRA tonight. We need to get some money... Half Sack is babysitting today." he smirked then looked toward me as Half Sack enetered the room

"I'm not a fucking baby I don..." Before I coud finish my sentence Chibs was out the door Juice followed behind leaving just me and Half Sack. "Ok I'm going to get changed and the is it ok if I watch some TV and have some candy?" I said in a mocking baby voice.

"Umm..."

"Don't answer that!" I turned to start getting undressed I was about to lift my top off when I turned around to see Half Sack still standing there. "Are you actually going to watch me change?"

He looked very uncomfortable and I cocked an eyebrow at him.

"No... sorry." He walked out the room and I quickly changed into a pair of jeans and a white tank top. I grabbed my black ankle boots and put them on. When I got out the room Half Sack was standing outside the door.

"This is going to be fun..." I mumbled to myself. Heading to the clubhouse I grabbed a beer and handed one to Half Sack. "Soooo hows you and Cherry- Bomb?"

"What do you mean?"

"You know... sex?" He spluttered his beer all over the bar counter.

"Why do you want to know?"

"Don't really, just trying to make so worthwhile small talk." I smiled and walked outside. I drew a pack of smokes and lit one of them and offered one to Half Sack. " Charming's soo quiet... its allways been quiet. I like it."

"Yeah me too. Is it a big change from Glasgow then?"

Taking a drag of my smoke I replied "Very different. But thats a good thing, I didn't have family there, I have family here. My dad and SAMCRO. So what about you? What did you do before joining?"

"I was in the army. Thats how I got my other sack blown off, hence the name Half Sack..."

"Oh! Right I'm sorry. Can you still have babies?" I looked at him. I was pretty sure I knew the answer allready as he was laughing.

"Yeah I can still have babies."

"With Cherry?" I smiled a coy smile at him and he smiled back playfully pushing me.

After that day me and Half Sack became very good friends. He had to leave for a while when the rest came back. Him and Juice were out working. I looked out the window and noticed an ambulance approaching and that Half Sack was driving.

"What the fuck?"

"Yeah we were just thinking the same thing..." Tigs voice said from behind.

Half Sack had stolen an ambulence to try and sell it to get some money. I will admit, that boy really doesn't give blondes a good name... This was my cue to walk away and not ask any questions. I liked being alone it gave me time to think about everything, like the first time I met Juice... We barely said two words to each other or he spoke to me and I giggled the whole time. I was so young and naive its amazing how certain events can change you...

"You wanting a drink there?" Opie called from behind the bar.

"Yeah just a beer." He tossed me the beer and I opened it.

I more or less grew up with Opie and Jax they were like the brothers I never had, well they were when I was in Charming. My mum was a prostitute and didn't look after me well. I rebelled in my teens, smoking, drinking doing anything I could get away with until one day when we ditched school to get drink and after drinking alot we wanted to head to this guys house who my best friend Simone liked. It wasn't that far but there was a busy road we had to cross. It all happened so fast, one minuet we were laughing and messing around and the next my best friend was face down to the road. She lived but she lost the use of her legs was reduced to a wheelchair, we lost contact her mum and dad blamed me for the incident, hell I blamed me for the Incident. After that day I calmed down. Left school and got a job. I was 17.

Chibs' phone started to ring and he said it was an emergency. I'm sure it was because they left in the amubulance. When they finally got back I noticed they had someone with them who was injured. I knew it wasn't Clay, but maybe it was Tig. They rushed him into the room that they use for Church. Everyone else left except my dad and Juice.

"I'm going to drop Jaime off at my mums, she'll be safe there. Then I'll head to Tara's and get the medical supplies."

"Wait! What the hell's going on?" Jax grabbed my shoulders and looked me in the eye.

"We have to get you out of here, something big is about to do down." At that I grabbed a couple of my things and headed out the door. Climbing on the back of Jax's bike I knew it was serious. Fear washed over me. I felt numb and cold. I really didn't want to loose any more family. I couldn't handle that.

I couldn't sleep so I just stayed up and talked with Gemma late into the night. Gemma was more like a sister to me than a mum. I could tell her everything. Even when I lived in Glasgow I would phone her first if I had a problem. She was the one who told me about sex. That was an awkward day. At around 11.45pm she got up and started getting ready for bed, before she left the dining room she turned to me.

"One day I'll teach you how to shoot a gun." She smiled at me and walked off.

I took one last drag of my smoke and put it out and headed off to bed. That night I dreamt about everything I had been through and just how thankfull I was that I had a really great family.

/ The next day /

I walked into the clubhouse and it was unusually silent. Gemma followed close behind me. I opened the door to the meeting room...

"Hey! Hey there Jaime!" I looked Juice up and down not really focusing on him but on the man lying down next to him.

"Hi Juice... I just wanted to ask... Oh my god, do you have your finger in his ass?" He looked a little embarassed and awkward

"Umm not in his actually asshole but in his ass cheek." He kinda smiled. I grimaced.

"Yeah thats kinda still gay. Ok well when you get your hand out of his ass we need to talk." I went to hug him and realised that it would be very awkward and ended up half hugging him.

"I know. Ok I'll see you later then."

I headed to my room and started getting undressed to go for a shower. When I was all clean and washed I grabbed a denim skirt and vest top, shoved on my brown Ugg boots and headed back into the clubhouse. Half Sack was there and I really needed to talk to someone. He was the only one I could tell.

"Sack could I maybe talk to you?"

"Sure whats up?"

"Like in private?"

"Ok give me 2 secs." We headed outside together and I sat down on the bench just outside the clubhouse. I pulled out a smoke and lit it.

"I've got to tell someone this."

"Never start a sentence with that around here... Its never good news."

"Well then your not going to like whats coming... The real reason I left Glasgow is because of my ex, he was violent, he hurt me alot." I paused and looked at the cigarette I was holding not making eye contact with Half Sack. "Him and his friends left me for dead one night after they..." I stopped tears were starting to form "They beat me, because I wouldn't have sex with them. Luckily it stopped at the beating because someone must have heard my screams and phoned the police."

I turned to him and he put his arm around me and pulled me into an embrace. There was nothing romantic or sexual about it. He was just letting me know that he was here for me.

"Hey Jaime! Gemma said I might find you out here with..." Juice came strolling out of the door and I as I looked at him I realised what he thought was going on...

"Oh shit!" i jamp away from Half Sack and started running towards Juice he was storming towards me, well maybe it was Half Sack. I swear if looks could kill...

"What the fuck? Last night you're telling me how much you like me and that you have liked me since we first met and now I find you out here with him!"

"I'm just going to you know take a walk..." Sack looked awkward and started off away from me and Juice. Juice went to go after him...

"NO!" I grabbed his arm and he turned towards me he tried to shrug me off but I was alot stronger than I looked. "Listen to me, there is nothing going on with me and Half Sack. Were just friends, Ok?"

"Oh yeah? Looked like you's were more than just friends!"

"Ok maybe best friends, but nothing is going on. Like I said last night I like you! Not him you! I don't deal well with jealousy so please deal with i." I seemed to get through to him and he calmed down.

"Ok." He inhaled and his nostrils flared. "I'll try. Its just that around here you never know who a girls been with."

"Excuse me! I'm not a fucking sweetbutt or a fucking crow eater either! Anyway I did actually want to talk to you about something..." I walked back over to the bench again and told my story over again about my ex and his friends. I told him about when my best friend got knocked down, my drinking, drug abuse. Everything. I was falling for him. No wait I had allready fell for him when we first met. I was allready in love.