Hi!

Let me start off by saying don't hate me, I have a plan.

That said, I think I was putting off writing this cuz I knew how I wanted it to end.

Anyways, enjoy?

Beck's POV

A day passed and nothing had changed. Her doctors said she was responding normally, but I was still worried. Shouldn't she be awake by now? I wonder if she can hear me.

I hadn't left her bedside, but neither had Kris. I looked up to see him staring at Jade like usual, the sunlight from the open window hitting his face.

I couldn't stand being in the same room as him, but if I picked a fight, we'd both get kicked out. Instead, we sat in silence in our places by Jade's side.

"It's weird isn't it?" He broke the quiet yet again. "How she gets under your skin…" I looked at him while he seemed to be having flashbacks. "When you first see her, it's like you know there's something different about her…then you meet her and she does everything in her power to push you away," he described Jade accurately. "But that just makes you wanna try harder…because you know she's worth it."

I stared at him like I was seeing him for the first time. All this time, I'd thought he was a douchebag, and…well he was, but he was a douchebag who genuinely loved Jade.

Where I'd struggled to figure out if she was worth all the complications she came with…Kris had already known she was. I felt like an idiot, sitting there telling her I love her, when I hadn't been sure myself.

"Yeah," I nodded solemnly. "I know what you mean."

He didn't say anything back and once again we sat in silence. At around 4 o'clock, Tori, Cat, and Andre came back to the hospital to visit.

"How is she?" Tori asked after our initial greetings.

"Same," I said monotonously with a shrug while Cat took my place next to Jade.

"JJ, I made you a scarf," Cat said to Jade while she brought out a dark blue hand knitted scarf. "You can have it if you wake up…" She pouted when nothing happened.

"Cat, she's just not there yet," I tried to make her feel better, but didn't even convince myself.

"Have you gone home yet?" Tori asked me, sounding concerned.

"No, not yet."

"Beck." She gave me a look.

"I lost track of time," I shrugged. "I want to be here when she wakes up."

"You should go get some rest!" Tori whined.

"Yeah, man," Andre chimed in. "You look like shit."

"Thanks." I rolled my eyes.

"Go home," Tori ordered. "We'll stay here and call you if anything changes, okay?"

"Ehh," I started to shake my head. I don't want to leave until she's awake, and even then I don't want to leave her ever.

"Beck, you look exhausted," Tori pointed out. "Go shower and take a nap. We'll be here." She gave me a reassuring smile that Cat reciprocated.

"I guess so," I shrugged. I am really tired. And I'll only be gone an hour. I looked over to see Kris still staring at Jade and decided I'd only be gone half an hour. "Bye, guys. Thanks."

I left the hospital and went straight home to take a shower. It was only Thursday afternoon, but it felt like years since I'd been in my RV. I rushed through with shampoo and conditioner, and only slowed down to check my email.

I sat on my bed for two minutes, and then decided to lay down for five. A five minute nap and then I'm going to leave, I decided. That was before sleep deprivation took over.

My eyes drifted closed and my mind let all my worries float away. I curled comfortably on my bed and was fast asleep before I knew it.

I was in the middle of the most incredible dream with Jade, though. We were on an island in Hawaii and she was standing on the shoreline waiting for me. She had on a red bikini top and a white sarong that exposed her legs in the blowing winds. She smiled and waved at me to come to her, and I did.

I began walking towards her as she played near the water, but I couldn't seem to get to her. She was calling my name, and I started running but she only seemed to move further away. I sprinted towards her when a loud ringing shook me from the dream.

I sprang up in my bed and searched frantically for my ringing cell phone; how long had I been out? I found my pearphone and answered asap.

"Hello?!" I said in a frenzy.

"Beck?" Tori's voice responded.

"Yeah, what's up? What happened?"

"She's awake."

Jade's POV

The second I woke up, I was confused. Where the hell am I? And why was everyone talking so loud?

"Jade?!" I could hear Kris' voice coming from somewhere. Why were my eyes all blurry?

"JJ!" Cat's squeal hurt my eardrums.

"I'll get a doctor!" Was that Tori? I blinked my eyes a few times. A doctor? Ugh, don't tell me I'm in a hospital.

When my vision cleared up I looked around to see that I was indeed in an awful hospital room, complete with tacky paintings and bland color schemes. I tried to sit up, but my head was killing me.

"Ow," I said as I reached a hand up to pat my forehead…which was now wrapped in something? What the hell? "What the…"

"Jade?" A woman wearing a white coat called my name when she entered the room. "I'm Dr. Easton, how are you feeling?" she asked as she shined a light in my eye.

The brightness made my head throb and I knocked the light out of her hand instinctively. Cat giggled while the doctor took a step back.

"That hurt," I justified; my voice sounded hoarse and I realized how thirsty I was. "Can I have some water?"

After I was given water, the doctor continued her exam, more careful with what she did to me now. She explained what surgery had been done on me and why, but my memory was still a bit hazy. I'd passed out in class?

I remember doing the scene with Beck…and he was so angry, I thought he hated me…speaking of. Where is he? I scanned the room to make sure I hadn't missed him, but he wasn't there. He must still me mad at me for lying.

"So we'll be monitoring your condition closely, but you should make a full recovery," Dr. Easton finished her spiel. "Try not to over exert yourself, though."

"Kay," I replied simply, wanting her to leave. I hated doctors. This whole place was wonky. When she finally left, Tori and Cat made up excuses to leave the room too. Now it was just me and Kris.

"So…" he said, standing next to my bed.

"So?" I repeated. He looked different. And kind of mad. What had I missed?

"So I know." he said, looking at the ground.

"You know?" I repeated again. "You know what?"

"I know about you and that Beck guy," he sounded disgusted, and my heart dropped. What the hell? How did he find out?

"H-how?" I stuttered, still a little shocked that he was even here.

"He told me. He told everyone."

"What?" Why would he do that? And where the hell was he?

"Yeah, I guess he was there when you hit your head?" He shrugged, and I couldn't read his face. "When you were…getting out of the shower?"

Dammit. This was bad. This was so bad. My headache got worse as my face felt heated, I dreaded this day.

"Jade," Kris shook his head slowly. "What the hell?" I couldn't bring myself to look at him. "Why? Why the hell would you do this?"

"I…" I said after a long pause.

"Are you that unhappy with me that you have to go find some loser to fuck? I thought we had plans! You and I were supposed to…nevermind," he shook his head again. "Why did you do this? Answer me!"

"I'm sorry," Was all I could think to say. "I never meant for things to get this far, and I—I don't know what to say."

He sighed and sat down on a chair next to my bed. He stared daggers into me while I did everything to look away.

"Do you love me?" He surprised me.

"What?"

"Do. You. Love. Me?"

"Of course I do."

"Then why?"

"Kris—,"

"Why would you embarrass me like this? What did I do to deserve this?"
"This had nothing to do with you!"

"Yeah, clearly," he scoffed. "Look, Jade, I'm willing to look past this indiscretion and move on with our lives." he spoke so professionally, he reminded me of my father; speaking of, where was he?

"You…you are?" I waited for the catch.

"Yes," he nodded. "Under a few conditions of course."

"Of course," I rolled my eyes, forgetting I was the one in the wrong here.

"The main one being, you can't see him anymore."

"What?" I tried to look unaffected. Not see Beck anymore?

"You heard me," he crossed his arms.

"Kris, we go to the same school…" I tried to find an excuse as I felt that pain in the back of my throat you get right before you cry.

"Jade," he looked at me seriously. He wasn't joking. "Think about it. I'm not being unreasonable."

He expected me to consider reason? Beck and I never made any sense, that was the problem.

"Look," he said a bit softer. "I know you think the two of you had something…but he was just fooling you." What? Beck wouldn't do that to me. And Kris didn't know anything about us. "He doesn't really care about you."

"He…he said…" My voice shook.

"I know," Kris nodded sympathetically. "He lied, though Jade. Come on, you must know that on some lever. He doesn't love you like I do. No one does."

I couldn't stop the slow tears that fell from my eyes as he kept talking. Beck had said he loved me.

"I mean, who stayed by your side when you would say a word after your mom died?" Kris did. "And who always defends you against anybody?" Kris did. "You and I belong together, Jade. This other guy doesn't know you. And he obviously doesn't care about you. He didn't even care to show up. Look around, Jade! Who's here for you? Me! Not some guy you just met."

He stayed quiet as I took in his words. He was right. I hated it, but he was right. Everyone talked about love and care, but the only person who'd ever proven it to me was Kris. He always came back to me…even after I cheated on him.

As I wiped away the tears that wouldn't stop, there was a light knock at the door. I looked up and saw Beck walk inside the room, a smile on his face.

Beck's POV

I couldn't believe it. There she was. Alive. Awake. And crying? What the hell? Kris was sitting beside her and she was bawling. What was he saying to her?

"Hey," I walked over to her and took her hand. She didn't hold it back, but at least I could feel the life inside her. "What's wrong? What did you do?" I directed at Kris.

"You're the one who did it," he said bluntly, only confusing me.

"What?" I looked back at Jade, who was wiping her eyes and breathing heavily. "Jade? Babe, what's wrong?"

"Don't call her that," Kris scowled, and I didn't even realize what I'd called her.

"Shut up," I said to him absently. "Jade?"

"Kris," she whispered when she had calmed down a bit. "Can you give us a minute?" He gave her a look and she returned it with a nod. "Please?"

"Fine," he huffed as he stood up. "I'll be right outside."

"What's wrong?" I asked again when Kris had left the room.

"We need to talk," she whispered.

"Yeah," I nodded slowly. "I know. I'm so sorry I told about us. It's just…the doctor needed to know what happened and I—I couldn't—,"

"Beck, it's okay," she shrugged. "It was bound to happen sooner or later."

"Oh…" she wasn't mad? Then what did she need to talk about. "Then…?"

"We need to talk about us," she clarified as her voice seemed to gather strength.

"Yeah, I know…look, I know things seem crazy right now, but as soon as Kris is out of the picture, I'm sure Ally and the gang will come around. Once they see how happy we are, they'll be fine with it. We just have to wait it out…Jade?"

I called her when my words seemed to be making her cry again. What was going on?

"Jade? Hey," I put a hand on her cheek. "What's wrong? You can tell me anything."

"I…we…" she sobbed lightly. "I can't see you anymore."

My heart sank in my chest. What? No.

"W—What?" I shook my head. "No, Jade. It's gonna be okay. We can—,"

"There is no 'we'!" She said louder. "I can't see you anymore, and we're never gonna be together." Her words cut deep.

"Jade…why are you saying this?"

"Because it's true," she wiped the last of her tears and gained full control. "Look, Kris said he's willing to move on from this, but I have to stop seeing you."

"What?!" she can't be serious. "Jade, you're—you're going back to him?!"

"He cares about me."

"He treats you like shit!"

"He loves me!"

"I love you!"

"I don't believe you," she said quietly, and it all made sense. Sort of. She was so twisted mentally…she really didn't believe me when I told her I loved her.

"What?" I whispered. "Jade, come on…don't do this."

"Don't make this harder than it has to be, Beck."

"I love you. And you love me. I know you do!"

"You don't know anything!" She screamed at me now. "You need to leave. I don't want you here, and I DON'T love you."

I felt the pang in my chest slow as my face felt hot. Why was she saying these things? And how did I make her stop?

"Beck…" she whispered softly. "Please…just go."

My legs were stiff when I tried to move them. They finally budged and dragged me unwillingly towards the exit. I stopped at the door, though, my mind not able to let this happen.

"Jade," I called quietly and she looked up. "I do love you, whether you believe it or not."

I turned and walked out the door despite my mind's objections. I didn't want to fight, not when she was still sick. Instead, I let her go. I left her sitting on that hospital bed, holding my heart hostage.

The end.