Yup, it seems I'm getting back to updating earlier again. ^^ Well, Enjoy.

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After getting what they needed, Canada and Russia headed for their train. The station wasn't overly crowded, but still had enough people to get lost in. Though, it would be pretty impossible to get lost here anyway with Russia, for one thing he wouldn't let go of the leash, for another he was taller than almost anyone else here, Canada could easily spot him. Once they found their train, they stepped on board and made their way to the very back, which was where their seats were. Canada examined the inside of the train. Looked pretty normal, nothing too fancy. It had old heaters on the sides of the inside of the train to keep the inside warm, doors that would slide open to the small space with the passenger seats, and regular lights on the ceiling for those night trips and dark tunnels. All n all, it was nothing special, but the seats looked comfy so that was a bonus. Soon enough, the train began to move. Canada watched everything pass out the window. Everything started out slow, but the objects began to speed by, if you blinked you'd probably miss something. This seems nice, I don't know how long it's been since I've been on a train. Canada stopped in front of the door with their number on it. The very very back, figures.

Suddenly Canada felt Russia grab him; Russia picked up Canada and opened the door to the outside. The wind blew Canada's and Russia's hair once he stepped outside.

"Sorry Matvey, I can't afford to keep you on the train, I'm going to hold on to the leash and when I throw you off-"

"W-WHAT!" Canada shrieked as he struggled to get free from Russia.

Was he really serious about throwing Canada overboard while holding the leash? He could break his neck that way, but that was the least of his worries in this situation. Immediately Canada broke free from Russia's grasp and without thinking, he tackled him to the floor and clung to him. Russia stared, mouth open and eyes curious at his trembling servant.

"Matvey... I was joking" Russia said.

Canada peeked up. He lifted his head to look at Russia better.

"Why did you tackle me?"

"W-Why else? I thought you were actually going to throw me off!"

"...I see" Russia said as he sat up right, Canada doing the same, To Russia it was amazing that Canada had the strength to knock him to the floor in the first place. He couldn't have before, so why now? Was it fear that caused his strength? "Well, let's get to our seats then~" Russia smiled.

Canada pouted as he stood up and off of Russia. Russia got up and patted Canada's head before taking his seat. ..ok, maybe it was just a joke... maybe I'm overreacting Canada thought as he folded his arms staring at the floor. Canada wondered if he was just getting mad for no real reason, but, why was he so mad?

"Matvey~ Are you going to sit down?" Russia asked impatiently but not angry.

Russia, even if he is kind of cruel, even in his jokes, he's still a good guy at heart. I really shouldn't get so upset with him.

Canada looked up to see Russia, sitting properly in his seat, hands on lap and back against seat, but not into a slump.

"...Do you think China will become one today? I have a good feeling about it" Russia giggled, deciding to change the subject.

Immediately the anger rose in Canada once again. Oh yeah, China... that's all he had on his mind right now. Russia liked the guy so much it was ridiculous. He'd take a train, this train right now, every time he got the chance to just to see him hoping he'd say 'yes I'll become one with you'. It made Canada so angry just thinking about this... but it never bothered him before in the conference's, so why now? Perhaps it was because he got to know Russia better?

"Matvey? You look stressed"

Canada, fists clenched, shot a glare in Russia's direction before grabbing the two slide doors and slamming them together. Fortunately, the leash was thin enough to fit between the doors making it possible for Canada to lock it from the outside, but unfortunately the leash was too strong for the doors to cut it.

"Ah?" Russia got up from his seat and tried to open the door, but couldn't.

Canada just continued to glare at the Russian, until he turned around and sat down on the floor, crossing his legs, arms folded, and angrier than he's ever been before. Then, Russia glared, his more menacing of course. He began to 'kol' but that didn't get the Canadian's attention.

"Matvey, open this door"

No answer. Canada knew Russia wouldn't break down the door in a train, especially not one in his own country, so he ignored him. Russia stepped back, then tugged on the leash causing Canada's head to slam against the doors. He yelped as soon as it hit. He leaned forward and held his head. He could feel the pain throbbing, creating a small headache, the headache didn't last long thankfully, but the pain stayed.

"My patience is wearing thin with you, open the door"

Canada didn't want to open the door to him. He just wanted to be away from him already, then he wouldn't have to hear 'China this, and China that'. Canada felt, he couldn't wait but go back to being his own invisible country again already... but, he just couldn't do that. He looked back at Russia, glaring. He wasn't going to get anywhere doing this, it was pointless... So, Canada just stood up, and unlocked the doors. Russia opened up the doors and continued to glare at Canada.

"Why the sudden rage towards me, Matvey?" He said angrily.

Canada, once again, did not answer; he only stared at the floor hating his emotions, hating Russia.

"Fine, do not answer me... but you do realize I will have to punish you later for this, now sit down"

Russia went back to his seat and sat down; Canada didn't do the same however. Too deep in thought to care if he was to be punished when they get back. Besides, he didn't believe Russia really would, he had hesitated last time after all. Canada sighed and decided to sit down across from Russia, He didn't deserve that... but, I feel so selfish around him...

"...Ivan" Canada said almost in a whisper.

"Da?"

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gotten so mad"

"Da, you're right you shouldn't have" Russia took a second look at Canada, Canada's head hung down staring at his hands on his lap. Shame was written all over his body language. He truly was sorry. Russia's anger calmed the longer he stared at Canada, "Matvey, what made you so mad that you had to slam the sliding doors in such a disrespectful way?"

No, I won't tell him... Canada could never bring himself to tell Russia what was going on; that he felt jealous... it just wasn't going to happen... ever.

"I'm sorry..." Was all Canada said in reply.

Russia folded his arms, his eyes averting themselves from Canada. His anger starting to return, but not as bad as before.

"Fine..." He growled.

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From the remainder of their trip to China's house Canada slept. He was lying on the comfortable seat on his back, hands on his stomach and face pointed to the side. Russia watched the boy as he slept peacefully, his chest heaving calmly and position seemed relaxed. Something inside of Russia found this kind of, adorable. Russia couldn't help but want to actually get a better look at Canada, Russia never got a real chance to see Canada up close without Canada backing away, whether he was scared or mad. Though, he did get to hug him a couple of times. He had to admit to himself, the boy was soft. Russia got up from his seat and kneeled beside the seat Canada was laying on. He removed his glove, reached out his hand and softly stroked Canada's forehead. His fingers moved from his forehead to his head allowing his fingers to run through Canada's hair. Russia felt almost as calm as Canada looked at that moment.

"Perhaps, it was wrong of me to take your freedom... little Matvey" Russia said, hoping Canada could maybe hear this in his dreams, but also hoping Canada wasn't awake to hear it in person.

Then, America's words came back to him, as if to haunt him once more. 'Canada's been nothing but nice to you from what I've seen and you still act like a bitch!'. It was the truth, and like the old saying 'the truth hurt', it really did hurt.

"Is that why you are always so mad at me now? Or... was it because..."

The memory, of that one night Russia was drunk. He could barely remember it, but that painful memory came to him. Russia remembered, he had grabbed Canada's hair and dragged him to, what Russia called, the silent room. The tears in Canada's eyes, his shrill screams... the whip marks on his back. Even after all that, he insisted on caring for Russia, even after all Russia had done to him. Canada, he really was a peacekeeper. No matter how much pain Russia had put him through, he still tried to help him.

The train started to slow down. Russia looked out the window; finally, they made it to their destination. Russia stood up, put his glove back on and shook Canada's shoulder gently, but quickly enough to wake him up.

"Time to wake up Canada" Russia said expressionless.

Canada groaned at first, but he soon sat up, rubbed his eyes, adjusted his glasses and looked up at Russia. His eyes still looked tired and he was a little tired himself. But they both knew that he'd get over it.

"Come"

Russia stepped out of their seat area and made his way to the exit of the train, Canada followed close behind. As they walked off the train and through the station, Canada didn't bother to look around. He had seen China's house before. Yes, the whole country, all the land that belonged to the nation was called their 'house', basically because the nations land was their home for them and their people. But each nation had their own real house too of course. Still, Canada was a little too depressed at the moment to care about what was going on.

"Canada, remember. We are in China now which means you have to call me Mr. Russia again, Da?"

"...Da... Mr. Russia"

As they walked by, people gave the two strange looks, some people, mostly children, even pointed at them. This was no surprise to Canada though; this is what he expected being on a leash and having to follow Russia around everywhere. Though, Russia didn't seem too stressed out, not from behind anyway.

It didn't take too long to find China's house, seeing as Russia knew the way already. Russia stopped in front of the door and knocked lightly. His smile was bigger and more cheerful than ever. His posture was a bit childish however. He waited for China to answer the door, hands behind back as he swayed side to side. All he needed was a few hearts over his head and he'd be set. The door opened, and there stood China, not looking too pleased with seeing Russia at his doorstep again.

"Let me guess, aru. Become one?" He said.

"Da! Will you?" Russia answered cheerfully.

China sighed.

"No aru... I will never become one with you"

"But China, you will, and we will be happy, You, me, the baltics and Canada"

"Oh yeah, I've seen how happy the baltics and Canada are with you. No thank you aru"

With that China shut the door on Russia's face. China seemed a bit more than just angry at Russia, but Canada couldn't blame him after all the harassing Russia's done to him. Russia, on the other hand, was probably used to having the door slammed right in front of him, but he still looked a little upset. Canada looked up at Russia, just seeing his sad expression, it made him feel guilty for what he did on the train.

"Mr. Russia" Canada said, "...m-maybe... maybe you'll have better luck next time..."

"...Da..." Russia looked down at Canada, his sad eyes showing no tears, but enough sorrow to make Canada feel sorry for him even, "Let's go home, Canada"

They both headed back to the train station.

Russia seemed to have his hopes up so high when he talked about visiting China, was he always like that when he went to visit him? If so, then he was always crushed afterward. Just seeing him get so upset over China like that... he likes him a lot... I should accept that. Yet, I feel so heartbroken, I must really be... No. I can't accept that, ever.

Once at the station, Russia and Canada boarded the train, this time their seats somewhere between the end and the middle. They were the last ones to board so it didn't take as long for the train to get going. Canada kept his eyes on Russia, waiting to see if he'd say anything about, well, anything... No luck...

Canada didn't bother to say anything to Russia, he thought it would be best just to let him think this over. So, Canada just looked out the window, wondering if things would get better for him, and for Russia.

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