Beck's POV

After the incident at the hospital, I drove straight home. I'm not one to cry but I couldn't help it this time. She was done. Really done with us.

She'd joked about breaking up with me before and we'd had fights but this was different. I could feel it. I could see it in her eyes, she didn't want me anymore.

I stayed in my RV for the remainder of the weekend. I ignored all my calls and even kept the door locked when Tori, Andre, and Cat came to visit. I wasn't in the mood to talk. The only person I wanted to see was Jade. And she was the only one not calling me.

Monday morning I couldn't drag myself out of bed for school. I didn't know if Jade would be there...and if she was, she didn't want to see me. I can't believe that asshole convinced her that we were wrong for each other. When I'd been so close to her believing I was true to my feelings.

Missing one day of school turned into two. Then three. Then four days. Friday morning though, my parents intervened. I was in the middle of my new morning ritual, staring at the few pictures I had of Jade, when a knock on my RV surprised me. I figured it was the gang again, and ignored it.

"Beck honey?" My mother called and knocked again. "Open up. It's your dad and me." I sighed and stood up to open the door. I unlocked it and returned to my position under my covers.

They walked into the RV and turned the light on. Something I'd had off all this time. The brightness startled me and illuminated the true state of my life.

On my floor lay dirty clothes thrown about, along with empty food wrappers. My TV was on but only static showed. In the background, depressing love songs played at a low volume from my iPod.

"Beck?" My mom said as she sat down on the edge of my bed. "Honey, the school called. We're worried. Are you feeling okay? What's wrong?"

I didn't even know how to answer those questions. Am I feeling okay? No. I feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest. I feel like I need to scream but no sound comes out when I try. I want to cry but I'm all out of tears. And more than anything, I wish Jade was here. I don't care if she yells at me or throws one of her tantrums. I just want her here. My face remained emotionless while my mother waited for a response I couldn't give.

"Uh...honey why don't you let me try." My dad said and he ushered my mom out of the RV. "Son," he took my mother's place seated on my bed. "This about a girl?" I nodded. That was an easier question to answer. "That Jade girl we met?"

I cringed at the sound of her name. The word had been consuming my thoughts for so long, it sounded weird to hear it out loud.

"Did she uh...break up with you?" He seemed uncomfortable talking about this with me. Again I nodded from my fetal position. "Look son...maybe it's for the best?" I gave him my version of a death stare and he stood up. "Alright so you want her back?"

I nodded and sat up a little. I'd do anything to get her back.

"You want to know what to do?" He looked at me seriously and I sat up completely.

"Yeah. I do." My voice sounded groggy from not speaking in so long. "But...there's no way, dad. She gave up on us." My own words only depressed me further.

"For that other boy from the pizza place? The blonde with a k?" I nodded. "Hmm...alright beck. This is crunch time" he talked like a coach. "How long has it been since you've seen her?"

"Almost a week." Why did that matter? "Ssss," he inhaled. "That's not good." He concentrated for a moment and clapped his hands together. "Okay there's what you do. You go to her and tell her how you feel."

"I did that already. She...says she doesn't believe me. She's too used to that other douche bag." I hung my head at the thought of them together.

"Doesn't matter," he shrugged. "You tell her how you feel and you keep telling her until she listens. Until she sees that you're the better man for her."

I let his plan sink into my mind. It seemed so simple. Why hadn't I seen it sooner? Jade never believed me because people are all talk. If I wanted her back...I had to act.

I stood up fast and practically bear hugged by father. It might be false, but I have an ounce of hope.

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An hour later, I was showered and walking into Hollywood arts. Cat had sent me a text on Monday that Jade was released from the hospital so I figured she'd be at school.

By the time I got here it was already lunchtime and the hallways were crowded. I pushed my way through the passing students, ignoring their stares and whispers; someone must have told them the situation. I made my way to the cafe and walked directly to the table with all my friends.

"Beck!" Tori shouted when she saw me. "How are you?" She put on a sympathetic face.

"Where's Jade?" I scanned the table but she wasn't there.

"Ugh," I heard Ally scoff and look away.

"She's not here," Andre informed me. "She hasn't come back to school."

"What?" I directed my attention to Cat. "I thought she was released Monday!"

"She was," Cat said with wide eyes. "She still hasn't come back to school though."

"Her dad talked to Laine," Tori stayed calm while I started to hyperventilate. The plan was already falling apart. "He said she needed time to recuperate then he checked her out. I don't know for how long, she stopped returning my calls."

Calls. The word hit me.

Jade hadn't called Tori to say when she was released...she told cat. There's no way she'd stop talking to cat, she had a soft spot for her.

"Where is she?" I asked Cat bluntly.

"What? I don't know!" She answered fast and I knew she had the information I needed.

"Cat!" I raised my voice. "Where is she?!"

"Ah!" Cat squealed and covered her ears with her hands.

"Don't yell at her!" Robbie stepped in. "She doesn't know anything."

"Yes she does! Cat!"

"Beck, give it up," Ally said with attitude but I ignored her. I walked over to Cat and gently removed her hands from her ears. She looked up at me guiltily.

"Cat," I said more calmly. "I just need to see her...I love her...please. Just tell me where she is." She made a face as debated the consequences of spilling the location in her head.

"I won't tell her you told me." Once I reassured her, she seemed to cooperate.

"She's staying at her dad's beach house," she sighed and the group gasped, obviously oblivious to Cat's ability to keep a secret.

"Address?" I pleaded. She paused for the longest time but finally spoke.

"152 Brooke Haven Road" The second she gave up the information, I ran from the table, ignoring their voices as they tried to call me back. Nothing could stop me from leaving.

After I speeded way above the limits, I arrived at the beach house in half the time Google maps said I would. I parked on the street and ran down a long sandy driveway till I got to the door marked 152. I took a deep breath and knocked lightly.

I didn't hear any movement, so I tried again louder. Was this the right place? Maybe I shouldn't have trusted Cat's memory on this. Just as I doubted, the door opened halfway, revealing the girl I'd been dying to see.

She wore short black shorts and a loose gray t shirt. The bandage was gone from her head but she looked tired to me. More than that, she looked worn down, defeated.

The second she realized it was me, I saw a spark in her eyes. I'm not sure if it was true or if I was just fooling myself, but she looked happy to see me. Whatever it was, it was gone in a second, immediately replaced by a look of annoyance. She slammed the door shut before I could stop her.

"Jade!" I banged on the door. Seeing her in front of me gave me a whole new motivation. "Jade! Come on, open the door. I just want to talk to you!" I banged on the door steadily until it opened slightly again.

"Will you stop?!" She whisper yelled. "You're gonna disturb the neighbors!" I looked around, the houses along this street were so far apart, I'd doubt if anyone heard a peep.

"Jade," I exhaled. "Please. I just wanna talk."

"I have nothing to say to you," She started to close the door again, but I stopped her. I pushed it open, making her jump back as I forced my way in.

"Good." I said as I shut the door behind me. "Then just listen." I took a deep breath as she crossed her arms and looked away. "Jade, I love you."

"I heard you the first ten million times," She spat back at me. "And I don't-"

"I know, I know, you don't believe me. And for awhile that threw me. I mean, I really thought we were building something, Jade. For you to just throw that all away for some asshole that treats you like—like a doll he can put on display...I just...you're better than that. You're better than him."

"You don't know him." she said quietly.

"You're right," I'll give her that much. "I don't. But I know you and I know me. I was so stupid to think I could ever be done with us. With you. Because I can't...I love you too much. And I—,"

"Stop saying that!" She seemed to explode out of nowhere. "Stop saying you love me. You don't! You're confused and you—,"

"What?!" I raised my volume to hers. "No, Jade. I'm perfectly clear on how I feel. You're the one who's confused. You love me, I know you do. And I love you. And I'll keep saying that as many times as it takes for you to believe it."

"Don't." She shook her head and I could tell I was getting to her.

"I love you."

"Stop it."

"I love you so much." I took a step towards her.

"Beck, I'm serious." She looked up at me, the fire returning to her eyes.

"So am I," I took another step forward, forcing her back against the closed door. I saw her eyes dart around, not wanting to make eye contact. "I love you."

"Stop!" She finally looked at me.

"I love you."

I was standing right in front of her now as she uncrossed her arms. She looked furious as she drew her arm backwards. Before I knew it, her open palm had connected with my cheek in a loud slap. I froze for a second as her eyes began to water.

"Stop...just leave." Her voice was shaking now.

"I'm not going anywhere." I spoke quietly now I was so close I wanted to reach out and hold her. "I love you."

"Stop it!" She screamed at me as her small fist hit my chest in an attempt to push me back. I stood my ground though, not budging.

"I love you." I said while she tried with both hands to push me farther from her. She was crying now, and trying with all her might to push me away.

"Jade!" I shouted as I grabbed her wrists.

I could feel her shaking as I pinned her wrists above her head on the door and took a step closer. Our bodies were practically one as I tried to get her to look at me.

"Jade," I whispered this time. She shook her head slowly, her mind still trying to put up a fight. Her cheeks were full of tears as she looked into my eyes. "I love you. And I'm NEVER going to leave you."

Before she could react, I bent forward and kissed her as passionately as I knew how. With her wrists about her she couldn't push me away, but after a minute I knew she wouldn't.

She kissed me back with that same fire I'd seen in her eyes. I could feel her letting go and I as soon as I release my grip on her wrists, her hands flew to my hair as her body clung to mine.

I don't know how I ever thought I could survive without moments like this with her. I wrapped my arms around her tightly and shoved her back into the door, my hands roaming freely over her body as if it had been years since I'd touched her.

We stayed this way for as long as we both could last before we wanted more. I felt her reach to unbuckle my jeans and I knew where this was going.

I grabbed her thighs and lifted her till she had her legs wrapped around me; her hands running along my chest as her tongue explore my mouth.

"Where?" I pulled back for a second to ask. My breath was uneven as I returned to kiss her, not happy with having left them in the first place.

"Upstairs," She answered in the same breathy tone.

I carried her upstairs, oblivious to my surroundings, focused on the game our tongues played. I was so hot now, I had to get out of my clothes; more importantly, she had to get out of hers.

At the top of the stairs, she let herself stand and walked us backwards till we were inside a bedroom. I let her lead us to the large bed in the center of the room as I pulled the tank top off her body.

She wasn't wearing a bra and I was more than excited to start kissing at her bare chest. I took her nipples in my mouth separately, sucking and running my tongue over them till she moaned.

She reached to take my shirt off and I obliged, not fast enough as she went to completely take my pants off. I hovered above her, and returned to kissing her lips.

My body ached for hers and I knew she could feel how hard I was through my boxer briefs. Her hand lowered itself to touch me, and my whole body pressed itself to her closer.

I tugged her tiny shorts off so she was completely naked and ran my middle finger along her wet core. She nibbled at my lip and moaned again, the sound driving me crazy.

She pulled my underwear off, releasing me to feel her skin against mine. My dick was lined perfectly with her as it started to rub against her waiting lips below. The sensation on my tip was amazing, but I broke apart from her kiss anyways to sit upright.

She pushed herself up so we were both kneeling on the bed, her arms around my neck and mine around her lower back.

"What's wrong?!" Her breathing was more erratic than before.

"I…," I didn't really wanna say it, but I knew it would hold me back if I didn't. "I'm…kind of a virgin…"

"Kind of?"

"Okay…I'm a virgin." I said quietly and gauged her reaction.

"Hmm…" she nodded and looked thoughtful as she caught her breath. "That makes sense, I guess." What was that supposed to mean? Before I could ask, she spoke again. "Do you want to stop?"

"No," I answered fast and she smirked mischievously, her hands running up my chest as she leaned in to kiss me again.

The burning desire I had for her returned as I gripped her behind and pulled her closer to me. She pushed me back onto the bed and fell on top of me, her lips still connected to mine.

I felt her legs straddle me and I let my hands touch her body every possible way. I could feel her move her body till my tip was once again pointed at her entrance.

She pulled back from the kiss this time to look me in the eye as she let me slide inside of her. I gasped immediately while she bit down on her lip. The feeling of her around me was better than I could have ever imagined.

She restrained herself when just my head was inside her, and looked back at me as if I'd want her to stop. I gripped her hips and pushed myself further into her as she bent down to kiss me again.

The feel of her lips on mine while I was inside her was more than my mind could handle and I could already feel myself getting ahead. She let gravity play its role as her body came down on top of mine completely.

I wondered how she felt for a second before her hips rose slowly, the feeling making my eyes roll back.

"Mmm…" She moaned against my lips as came back down on me. My lips froze in place and I couldn't manage my thoughts any more.

She pulled off me again and again, each time riding me a bit faster. I kept my hands on her hips, feeling how her body grinded against mine.

I knew I wouldn't last much longer with each passing second. She felt so good and I couldn't control my own hips from pushing back into her. The more she gave me, the more I wanted; not able to contain myself.

"Jade…" I said through gritted teeth. "I…I…" Before I could warn her, I felt myself erupt inside her. The warm feeling of her around me soothed me as her walls seemed to tighten further.

She waited a few moments as I calmed my breathing before she pulled herself off me to lay beside me.

Without delay, I turned on my side to pull her body closer to mine. I took in the moment as she laid her head against me.

That was it. That was my first time.

I knew people would ask about this time for the rest of my life.

And more than that, I knew I'd never regret it.

Jade's POV

We'd been lying on this bed in the same position for what felt like hours before I even thought to speak.

I hugged his body closer to mine, feeling his warmth as he tightened his arms around me. He was so cute, I thought as I remembered his expression as he came for the first time.

Part of me couldn't believe he'd been a virgin, while another part thought that explained why he'd been so shy sexily. I felt myself smile as I recalled the look on his face when I'd given him a blow job, I wonder if that had been his first too?

I wanted to ask, but I knew it would only ruin this perfect moment we were in the middle of. I looked up at him only to see his face in a look of deep thought.

His chest rose and fell steadily like he was asleep, but his expression made me wonder what he was thinking.

"Beck?" I said quietly, my voice cutting through the silence. He reacted to my voice instantly, looking down into my eyes with the same chocolate shade of brown I'd seen on the night we met.

"Hmm?"

"What's on your mind?" I tried not to sound so cheesy, but something was off, he seemed distracted.

"Mmm, nothing," He shook his head. I knew he was lying, but I didn't push it. I let my body fall so I was lying on my back and closed my eyes.

I started to replay the scene that had just happened, slowly, while I felt him move beside me. I couldn't see it, but I knew he was staring at me.

"Did you…" he asked me nervously. That's what this was about? I almost chuckled, but managed to contain myself with a smile.

"It doesn't matter," I whispered, looking up at the ceiling.

"What the? Of course it does!" He sounded outraged, and I could feel his eyes bearing down on me.

"Beck, its fine, really," I closed my eyes again. "I'm sleepy, anyways. Let's just get some rest?"

Instead of complying with me, I felt him move on top of me, and I laughed at his determination. "Beck, this really isn't necessary." I said with my eyes still shut.

"Shh…" he said, and I felt his lips collide with mine. I had to admit, the kid had guts. And his lips felt like fire on mine. He moved his kisses down my neck, and I tilted my head, loving the way it felt.

"Mmm…" I let the sound escape from my lips, and it seemed to motivate him. He lowered himself to my breasts, and used a hand to massage one while he kissed the other roughly.

"Ah," I sighed. He really was pretty good at this. He removed himself for a second, and spread my legs open with him between them. I braced myself for his entrance, and was completely shocked when a different touch rocked my body.

I gasped, and my eyes flew open to see him bent down, now licking me below. Good god, this boy learned fast. He looked up at me and smiled, realizing he'd done something right. He went back down, licking me shyly in soft circles, then moved on to harder kisses, digging deeper inside me.

"Oh god," I exhaled. His mouth felt amazing on me; I'd never had this done to me before. Within seconds, I felt my orgasm building up. He licked faster and deeper, making me scream. "Beck! I, I, I'm…oh god Beck!"

One last kiss and my legs shook as my body convulsed with pleasure. I felt my eyes roll back in my head, as the sensation took control.

"Oh my god," I sighed. My body was still trying to recover from the greatest orgasm I'd ever experienced, when I felt him move to kneel in between me.

He leaned up to kiss my trembling lips as he plunged inside me. My mouth froze on his as I drew a quick breath. His dick filled my inside walls completely, and already I felt another one coming.

He wasted no time with a slow pace like I had; instead he thrust in and out of me like an animal, the whole time watching me for a reaction. Knowing his eyes were on me, I tried to hold it together, but utterly failed as he hammered me into the mattress.

The entire bed shook and I shut my eyes in anticipation. "B-Beeeeck!" I shouted as I climaxed. He kissed my lips again, biting my lower lip lightly as it quivered.

I had no time to recuperate because he didn't stop grinding into me. I could feel his arms shaking around me, and he was starting to sweat, but he only sped up his pace.

"Beck…no more," I panted. "I can't…I can't…take it. Oh god…Yes, oh my god yes!" He ignored me, and pounded into me full force now. I could think of nothing but him, as my body began the cycle all over again.

I felt him shift his weight, and suddenly his thumb was rubbing gentle circles on my clit. At his touch, I came immediately, digging my nails into his back and screaming with no shame.

"Jade," he said roughly.

I hadn't realized that he too was building up to something until I felt him discharge hot fluids inside me. I'd never seen a guy come twice like that before.

Before he could say anything, he collapsed beside me once again, out of breath. My body shuddered with small aftershock tremors and I couldn't even find the strength to move.

It was long after that, we still lay awake next to each other, not speaking. I finally moved myself closer to him, and he responded putting an arm around me.

"I love you," he said, and I knew he meant it.