Ah this has proven to be the hardest chapter to write so far. First off I would like to thank my friend bboysaigyoji for his help. Without him I could have never gotten this done... It took long enough, see? . But here comes that action I promised early on, hm? I was reading through the review and found one person that maybe had the right prediction about the chapter. Heheh. Well I guess I gotta warn you first before anything:

This chapter contains NC-17 of horribly written lime. Read at your own risk.

Oh boy.

Everything is dark. Your eyes covered by the black cloth, only a dim light from the moon shone and that was barely enough. You listened, footsteps walking into the cell. It was so soundless on the stone floor, only the rustling of sound that person's robe indicated to you that he or she was there.

You held your breath. Fear and confusion took over your head. You struggle, only to obtain failure yet again. The heavy metal chains tied your arms behind your back, your knees to your legs. Such an awkward position for beating, you thought, your legs wide open. You didn't understand why you were here, or who would or could defied the to-be Fei Zi's command. Your mouth is muffled but you still tried to scream, loud.

That person reaches you. You think your heart stopped for a second, but then you were still alive. You can feel the presence, so close, too close for comfort.

A silence crept in. You feel a burning stare at your body, your face, every part of you. You gulped a little, you didn't like the stare at all. It made you feel uneasy and afraid, such intense look.

That silence lasted. You stopped struggling, and breathing became more difficult.

Just when you thought this will go on forever, that person moved, not quietly anymore, but rough and almost eager and hurried.

A cold, bony hand reached inside your robe, the skin of that hand came in contact with yours. A chill ran up your bones, the hand's temperature was so low, almost like the dead. You feel your heart at your throat, because you put the jade and the letter in your new clothes. Your robe is being teared off of you, the fabric's ripping sound made an unpleasant tingle to your ear. Your skin exposed to the cold midnight air, and you gasped even with the cloth stuffed in your mouth. You know it's man's hand, the bonny structure and the size. That was no help to this situation.

A pair of cold lips on your neck, kissing your skin, tracing your features. The cold hands ran downward to your body. You immediately tensed up. What is he doing? What is he doing?

Like a captured lamb with no escape.

This could be a misunderstanding, you desperately thought. But such thoughts is driven away ever so quickly as the fingertips pinched your nipples, the fingernails kind of hurts. You felt it hardening. Something escaped your lips, like moan, like something is finally reaching to you, like you're realizing what is the meaning of this. You thought of the word to use for this, but you chased it away quickly. There is no way. No way. No way.

"Mmm-"

You tried to make a word out of your mouth, but the attempt was lost as you felt a warm tongue licking delicately on your nipple. Such tease tensed up your whole body, like an electric jolt running through your veins.

Two men can't be doing this. You can't be doing this. He can't be doing this to you. You don't even know who this person was. You remembered when you asked Iruka-niang what sex meant, and he flushed red and stumbled a definition like "Something you with a person you love". A innocent definition meant for a child, yet even you know it held truth in it. You do this with someone you love. This person does not love you. You don't even know what he looks like.

Every part your body lingered by this man's kisses, tracing through every part of your body. Your neck, your collarbone, your nipples, your chest. It was not gentle, none of this was. The man's teeth and lips left a little pain and probably marks everywhere he touched. You never had thoughts about things like this before. It was an vague image in your head, meant to be known much, much later. You thought of the dirty looks people have in their eyes when speak of prostitution. Does Sakura and Sasuke do this too? A sickening thought. But at least they're a man and a woman. But this is, this, this is merely flesh desire, corrupting your body. Not much thoughts went through, however. His hand suddenly reached inside the down part of your robe, and grabbed in a rather rough manner the hardness that was forming unwillingly by you. You gasped in pleasure, the touch by this person's hand was caress and sensesational, too much for your inexperienced body. You feel it thrusting in that man's large hands, moans escaping your lips, your mind feels clouded.

That man's hands was like a dark flame, overtaking your body, dangerous and forbidden pleasures. You don't want this, but your body did. Your conscious was overtaken piece by piece by this flame, till everything will fade.

You felt the pleasure building up, breathing becomes uneven. You felt something coming, coming, and then it was released.

That was the first time. You thought vulgarly it was like peeing, but it was not. That sensation was so strange, so alien. You felt a drip of warm, sticky liquid like thing over your crotch. The pleasure left and your body slumped down, relaxed.

Your breathing was unsteady and you felt no strength in your body, like a soft lump. You have a silver string hanging from your mouth, and though you didn't know it, how tempting you looked then.

That man did not leave you rested. He lifted your robe, and too quickly before you knew what was happening, his finger was inside you.

Imagine that feeling when something unfamiliar enters your body unwillingly, like a needle, or of that sort. Imagine that feeling of shock and the uncomfortableness. Imagine an unknown man's hand intruding the insides of your body.

One finger moving and touching your insides, teasing there and there. You struggle your legs but it does nothing. You would not give up. Two fingers. You kick your legs, but it's chained. Three fingers. Sliding through, in and out. You don't want to do as he pleases, and your body is tense, and soon your stomach starts to hurt. You clenched your teeth, fighting back the moan that's lingering around your lips. You felt dirty and low. You shouldn't feel good, you can't. Yet that sickening sound of your insides squeezing tightly on his fingers, the liquid's lewd sounds, shamed.

You feel yourself getting hard again, and his fingers in and out, faster and faster. Like last time it built up and to one point where everything is loose. Nothing came, but vaguely something did. You can feel your insides being sticky by your own body's production, and that sickened you the most. You wanted this to end right now. You wanted to go. You don't want to feel this anymore, this pleasure that makes you feel so dirty.

Sound of robe loosening. Your heart is beating in fear. Escape, how can you escape this, how do you escape this.

Something hot and hard, right next to your entrance, oozing with sticky liquid. Your body shook. No. No way. Not this. Anything but this.

Even though you didn't really know what it meant then, it still was clear to you that that will be the end to ruin you fully, to bones and pieces. Fear, fear, so scared, like a child lost in the dark. Can't run, can't do anything.

"Wuuu-" You tried to scream. Someone please hear you. "Wuu-"

Enter.

"AHHH!"

Pain, all you felt was pain.

This pain was not like when you scrape your knees. It's that inside ripping apart, breaking. You didn't know that lube existed at this time. You didn't think. You couldn't. This big thing inside you, breaking everything apart. Your body, your heart, your soul, your pride. That last piece of hope left you. You know what's coming out this time. You know the smell. Blood.

Your body shaking, your screams wooed, your soul aching. You clenched your jaw and your fingernails dug in to your skin, your hair standing from the roots. You choked back your tears. You didn't know how you have done it. Perhaps too many tears these days have already left you. You struggled, but that cold chain brought you down, again and again.

You heard a tiny grunt from that man from the first time through your pain. It was of pleasure, you can tell, and that disgusted you.

Home. From all this time the word comes to your mind. You want to go home, safe in Iruka-niang's arms, asleep on your bed, eating ramen the next day. Please. Please. Let me go. Let me go.

He started moving. Not gentle, not slow. Rough. Like he's been this whole time. This man, this man you don't even know the face of.

It hurts, it still hurts. Him moving in and out of you, blood triggering. There was no pleasure. Your heart and body feels like broken to pieces, torn apart.

That man came inside you. Warm and sticky. Your body shook. He didn't stop. You don't think he never will. You thought how this whole time it was hopeless, you were hopeless. Your humiliation, your body dirty and corrupted, your pride and confidence crushed to dust. You realize that he never kissed your lips once, the show of affection. You don't know this man's face, voice, anything. You wondered if anyone could ever like you again, if they knew what have happened tonight. You're a doll, a puppet, your strings attached and no escape. He came a second time. This time you felt the pleasure too, and it getting easier. You think you are going to throw up, but everything felt empty now. Like your body is an empty black hole, swallowing everything, thoughts, feelings, pain, pleasure.

Your body was beginning to get tired. Your conscious is fading away, to this darkness. Nothing. Nothing. See nothing, hear nothing, feel nothing.

At last that last bit of strength drenched from your body, and your mind with the most willing fallen to slumber.

/ / / - - - = = = POV = = =- - - / / /

His hands trembled. The blond boy's head fell to the side, and he went closer, slowly.

His hands shook as he reached for the boy's face, loosening the black cloth around his eye, taking out the cloth that was shoved in his mouth, gently, gently. He notice a trail of tear falling across the boy's face. He pulled his face closer and kissed it, lips quivering. The tear so bitter on his tongue. He stared at him, as if memorizing every features on his face. The full, round lips. The three scratches on each side of his cheeks. The wavy lashes. The messy blond hair. And he knows under that eyelid is the azure eyes. His fingers traced through it all, lightly, ever so gently. He stopped at the boy's lips, a little parted, bleeding just a bit, probably from biting from the pain. He landed a peck on his lips. Another, and another. He kissed him, cautiously, almost scared to break.

Just earlier. He thought. If I were to reach out my hand right now, you will become mine. Is there anyone who could defy such temptation?

He was alerted to hear a sound. Something fell to the ground. He picked it up, under the moonlight shine, he saw a jade. He picked it up and studied it. This jade. The jade. 助皇君桃缘. His heart felt a wretch. He could almost laugh from the irony. He held it up to the blond boy's face, the pale pastel green fitted him well.

"It's not hers..." His voice shaking, so small. "It's not hers... Never hers... Never hers..."

Almost a tear, but nothing.

He kissed his lips once more.

Here it was. I tried very hard to stick this as close as possible to reality. Often I read yaoi and it's the uke's first time and they go Oh it feels so good I kind of think myself where is the logic in this..? It's proven to be very, very difficult for me to write lime. I have written it many times in Chinese, but doing it English require somethings that first language people would know. Choice of words was the hardest. I do live in America, but I didn't find it very helpful.. References were used and it turned out this way. Hopefully you liked it..

So you notice the POV change was formatted really.. uniquely. fanfiction documents has been really mean lately, can't type anything like - dash or * * * anymore. It's proven to be frustrating and I'm trying to fight it. -.-

Finals are up allll this week, and I will be in China soon. But do expect more chapters, because after this, it will be easy breezy too write. Also the main line begins from here. So look forward to it!