Disclaimer: I own nothing LOTR or any other big copyright awesome thing I have used in reference of.

The usual, this is First POV. I did not beta this at all. I just really need to get this chapter out. Beware, there will be fragments. After all, a person's thoughts are usually jumbled about and around and incomplete. Haha. This will be in Layla's POV.

Anyway! Yes, I have not abandoned this story! I had been on hiatus for a while because my dumbass wanted to take night classes at where she worked, so it 13 hours of the day out of my house and away from my laptop. It was only for a small program (was about 4 months) and my car broke. So now I have no car (again) and I'm back to taking the bus. It's no biggie about that. Hopefully with this class under my belt, I can get hired. Plus, my dears soncat, Lunarcat died from a hit and run. I've cried, ate lots of bad food cause I'm an emotional eater, gained weight, and became really depressed for a short time. We had only had a year together, but he was the most talkative, loving, and affectionate cat I ever had. I picked him off the streets last year as a skinny little guy, and he got fat when he started living with me. I could bring him inside from the outside, but I couldn't get the love of the outside out of him. I know he was happy with me. I just wished that driver would have slowed down and paid more attention…

I'm so sorry. But I have grieved, even though it has been quieter in the house, and I have been trying to eat right and exercise, trying to get back and track and stuff. Things are pretty calm right now.

Sorry for the short chapter. Just needed more of her side of what was going on. The fun parts are soon to come.

Again, there are swear words! :D And sorry it's so short. :[

Thanks for being patient! Now on with this story!

Chapter 10: One Minute I Got This, And The Next…

It has been over a month since my feathery outburst and my energy is usually down to zero by the end of the day… So it has been a little over… two months since being here in Middle-Earth.

And soooooo I've been in Lothlorien… Middle-Earth for about… two months now? I count a little bit on my fingers… yep… a little over two months…

Do you ever wake up one day and just suddenly realize or think…

"What… the fuck… am I doing?"

Every point in our lives, we think of that very question. What the fuck am I doing? People tell me that I'm too laid back and that I accept things very easily… but with recent events, it really has opened my eyes. I crash landed onto a tree practically naked save for the lucky pieces of corset that covered me up and then it turns out I'm some sort of angel in disguise?

WHAT. THE. FUCK?

I'm a nobody back home. No one important. I'm not the daughter of a millionaire, martial artist, dancer, singer, scientist, psychologist, no weirdo family background, no boo-hoo sob story…

I'm a professional assistant. AKA an administrative assistant by day, and a raver at night. Plus I love going out, I admire art, I play videogames and sit on my ass all day doing whatever.

I was a simple administrative assistant hoping to be promoted to be an executive assistant later on in the future. I created spreadsheets, reports, memos, filing systems, handled complex calendars, making travel arrangements, creating documents of law, doing everything and I absolutely loved it. You know I'm just the type of person that will go ape shit in Staples or Office Depot.

Then me and Elena would get all dazzled and jazzled to go to a rave. I mean, the music, the lights, the people-you don't get judged! Everyone is really happy! Sure give or take that most of the rave goers are high as fuck, but they are hella friendly. One of those druggy happy people nicknamed me "Starfish" before she passed out on the grass. Don't worry. She had friends near her… I think… they fell asleep on top of her…

Anyway. I have no survival skills whatsoever. I'm the kinda girl who likes to shop at the Gap, Banana Republic, Chinese Laundry, and Nordstrom Rack… even with my salary, I choose to not shop at the actual Nordstrom store… ridiculously and unnecessary high prices! I got a great dress for ten bucks at the outlet version while it was retailed at ninety-eight dollars… booyah. Always always wait for the sales!

I hated hiking, and I loved the internet. Now I miss it like hell and I go batshit crazy. I miss Facebook! I wanna know what everyone is doing! Can you imagine if Lady Galadriel and Haldir had a Facebook?!

I can see it now…

Haldir's Status: Practice makes permanent on your abilities to do far greater things in the future.

Okay, now that I think about it that is pretty inspiring.

Lady Galadriel's Status: Walking with your husband by the river can certainly relax the nerves. Haldir needs to stop being so strict… XP

Haha, okay that last part sounded more like me.

If you are a child of the internet, you will go crazy. I can guarantee you that. One minute you have the access to the information of the world, and then the next, you don't. Remember going to the drawers in the library and having to dig through those cards to find the address of the book you want? Yep, worse than that…

Being here, I'm freaking out a little every day. I never thought I would end up in a place like this. I've only read about it and seen the movies, but to actually be in it, it's hella scary and amazing at the same time. The scary parts are: I am away from my family, my friends, cars, cellphones, AC/Heating, internet, my music, and a ton of other shit. I miss Elena so much, and I have psychcotic moments too… when I feel that I miss her, I'll pretend to dial my phone, which is shut off by the way, and hope that I'll hear her voice.

I know. I'm nuts…

The amazing parts? Meeting Haldir. Haldir has been my true treasure of being here. I was seriously feeling that I was going to die myself that day if I didn't heal him. And that day I figured out that I was actually in love with him.

Would I give up all my worldly possessions and luxuries to be with him… I still stand by my statement.

In a heartbeat!

I've learned so much about him. Not just the typical background stories and what he likes and dislikes, but really learned… I know what his eyes look like when he worries, when he's glad, when he's sad, paranoid, strict, respectful, angry, shocked, and his lips just quirk up in a corner when he smiles or struggles with his lips when he's down a bit when disappointed in something. You learn what his voice is like in different tones, how he sips his teas… gawsh…

Fuck my life, I'm in love. I fell too hard and too fast… huge mistake!

And I haven't told him yet. I know he cares about me, he adores me and I adore him. Should I tell him about my lovey love past? Being a woman my age and being only human, you've had a couple of serious boyfriends. I lived with one of them for a good few years until we called it quits. I plus I had another one that was pretty serious before him.

I ain't no hoe. I take relationships seriously and faithfully. The first one cheated on me and the second guy said, "Sorry Babe. I haven't caught feelings for you." Caught feelings for me? Asshole… few years of my life gone down the drain…

I think I've really adapted to life here in Lothlorien. I absolutely love the fashion, the food here is so natural compared to back home, but damn… fuck… holy shit… I fucking… and I mean I FUCKING… miss chocolate. Luckily with this new elf body I have transformed into I think I have slimed down a lot. I see no bulges! Plus, I haven't had my period since. Thank God almighty! Or is it Eru…? Do elves get periods? Fuck it. Haven't got mine.

Anyway, life here has been pretty peaceful. When Haldir has time off though, he does get a little clinging at times. There have been times where I have cut myself with my fingers, hit my head against walls er doors really, tripped and fallen, and yep, you guessed it, I still feel absolutely no pain whatsoever. Okay, I can see why anybody would be clingy… he worries about it. This scares me too. Why can't I feel any pain? That answer has yet to be revealed… as I think about the theme song to the X-Files.

I'm still a freak of nature. Oh Higher Power help me… I'm a freak of nature. I'm from a completely different world where this one, what I thought and millions of others, thought this was just all in someone's head.

Lady Galadriel has said that possibly it could be between Elena and I. Oh Elena, I miss you so much. I really do. That bitch is like a sister to me, and I can only be sure is that she is safe. I think in my previous vision she was doing fine. I think I saw Lord Elrond and he was taking care of her. I don't even know if she is going to be a part of the Fellowship or not. Is she going to come look for me? Should I even stay here longer? It's so hard to figure this out, but if I can see what Elena is doing, I can find out. So far though, no visions since then.

I can only hope that she is alright. I will wait until I can try to get another vision out of myself of her and see what happens then. In the mean time I have to keep up with my training with Lady Galadriel in the healing wards. And training with her is nuts! Hovering my hand over the injured, trying to focus my energies or whatever onto that person and heal them. I would joke and say "Behold! The Power of Eru compels you!" Of course I would be the only one to get that joke… weird stares from proper elves aren't the cutest sites from them. I am hovering my hands over cuts, scrapes, and even "moved" gravel and/or dirt away from the injured sites to clean it up, but I still have some training to be done…

So as I was saying earlier, I have been to the healing wards and doing some light work. I have hovered my hand over some gashes, scratches, and that came pretty easy to me, but when it's punctures like arrows, broken bones, and deeper longer gashes, those are harder. When I fail, it only gets partially healed. My ever the patient bright white mentor had said that I must access my energy and spirit deeper and bring it out. To focus, concentrate, grasp it… blah blah blah so boring… to actually lift out objects and mend things together if I were to succeed. I feel as though I do have a sense of warmth, but it's so hard to grasp it.

I'm just an administrative assistant! I'm not a sorceress, witch, wizard, nothing magical that is until I got to this world. Here, I can't do my job. I can't file, make spreadsheets, create reports and presentations, but I guess I can still concierge, make travel arrangements, schedule, and organize… scrolls?

An administrative assistant doesn't really scream out "hero" does it?

I sure as hell don't think so. I never go hiking, do any martial arts except for that women's defense course that Elena and I took once when we had our evening jobs. It never screamed out "fuck with us and we'll fuck you up" kinda shit.

Paperwork energy to heal elves? If that was true, I'd be an expert! I did just start out as a medical biller and coder! I'll translate the numbers to get you the maximum reimbursement on your insurance claims!

I sigh… moving on…

Haldir still trains me in archery, and I'm starting to really get the hang of this. I feel like I'm starting to be like a… Robin Hood, or Hawkeye, or Green Arrow now! Nah just kidding, I ain't that good yet. My new reflexes, hearing, and eyesight are truly a blessing. Plus, I'm pretty in tuned with nature now and I can actually feel what nature is feeling! Okay, I just make pretty awesome guesses right now… a tree will get mad at me if I trip on its root or it will ask me if I was okay… depending on the tree. CRAZY! I KNOW!

Sometimes I be like, "Sup Tree? My bad yo." And I pat it on its roots… you know… cause that's where I fell… I feel the attitude from the tree and it can either say if I gave it words like my language… "Bitch! Watch yo self!" or "Sa'll good homie. Watch your back though, cause youz be bleedin' like it was day two on you flow days."

Ewww… gross… so when you get older, you become more open about your period. Elena and a few other friends of mine would joke about that. Got a bloody nose? We'll say things like, "Your nose is perioding" or something like that.

Anyway…

I feel bad that that I didn't recycle as much as I should've back home…

I still get bored pretty easily here, but I'm practicing my new magic abilities that it seems to pass the time. It's been great.

So freeing…

I wonder if I can fly once I have my wings achieved again…HOLY SHIT! COULD I FLY?! CAN I FLY!?

Of course I could fly… I can fly… unless I'm like a penguin or an ostrich… they have wings and don't fly… oh ho ho ho ho ho…. This is gonna be bullshit if I can't fly… then again, heights make me nervous…

Fuck my life… but hopefully Elena isn't having too many "FMLs" in her life…

I sigh… I was an administrative assistant… I was a party girl… I was just living the dream. I miss the music and the lights. I miss everything. But I have also gained everything. I have Haldir now. I almost forget what I have lost, until he goes on his job as a super important marchwarden. When that happens, I hang out with his bros or with Lady Galadriel. I share memories, they share me theirs. It's really nice. Back home, I would still be on my phone texting, looking at websites even while I'm talking to someone. Damn when I look back, that is really fucking rude.

Shame on all of us who keep checking our phones every twenty seconds while we are hanging out with someone else on a social convection!

Yep, I miss watching The Big Bang Theory… I miss television! What's going on!? Okay, you go berserk when you drop from the world grid of everything, and this is probably what could happen to you.

I wish I had M&Ms or something!

I sigh and close my diary journal thing that Lord Celeborn has given me. He said it will help me share my private and very scattered thoughts and POSSIBLY help me relieve my brain from all this ADD I have. I just went writing form having a crisis to ending it that I want M&Ms. Do you think Middle-Earth has heard of ADD or M&Ms?

I stand up from my bed and smooth out my light silver dress. Then I just start jumping on it! It's not bouncy… drag. Oh well, soft enough for me to just flop back down. I get my feet on the floor and slip on my matching flat shoes… I love how these dresses match the shoes… Then I decided to run right out into the halls.

I know. I get it. I'm 28 years old and I still get giddy running through the halls. Being an adult isn't about how mature you are all day. You were a kid once. Enjoying the simple things in life and when you're adult, shit gets complicated. Might as well do those simple things that made you laugh and be happy.

I run through the halls with a smile on my face and enjoy my speed and nimble abilities moving in between other elves, halls, and other obstacles. I proceed to the outside ground area and just stop. I breathe in and really look around my scenery. No way in hell would have I wanted to do this back home. So clean and fresh here… nothing industrial and all naturesque. I start to walk down on a path where Haldir first took me down to go near the river.

I still have to return before the evening sun shines on the mountains…huh… I'm starting to talk all magical like an elf now. Suh-weet!

I arrive to the spot by the river. It's not that far from the spiral staircase at all. It's just a nice place to getaway really. Hm… I wish I could watch Supernatural now… or just some classic Buffy… Gawd Angel was soooo hot… I'm in the mood for old skool stuff when I'm at peace.

I cross my arms and sit on the ground to better admire the river flow.

Layla… you are here… in Middle-Earth… quit being such a little bitch and do what you have to do.

"What the fuck am I doing here? Seriously…" I just bury my face in my hands. "I have no idea what I am doing. I have no idea why I'm here. I have no idea to even start anything." I drag my hands down from my face.

I'm a complete freak. I'm supposedly an "angel" or whatever, that can barely… BARELY access her powers after about a month of practice and I can't feel pain. I'm practically the worse elf ever.

"I'm human. I'm still human. At home I was human… here I'm an elf." Sometimes when you turn into a completely different species, you tend to have minor freak outs.

I remember when I was first here, I gave the healers, The Lady, and Haldir the craziest times. Throwing things at them, having arrows pointed right at me and I freeze from my bed where I was recovering from. Haldir looked so mean! The Lady just couldn't help but lightly giggle at my panicked behavior. That a grown adult, or what appeared to be an adult at least, was throwing a fit as if I was some toddler.

Lady Galadriel really had amazing patience with me. I remember Haldir would just wait outside her chambers as we talked alone in case I were to throw something at her again. But she… what a woman… she-elf… elf maiden…

Female motherly goddess entity!

Fucking Christ… I adapt too easily to things around me.

Then it starts to hit me like a brick at a time.

"Layla, is everything alright?" I turn around to see Haldir dressed in his more relaxed garb of clothes. Nice browns… sorta like the movie. He marches up to me and offers me his hand. I smile and I take it and he helps me up.

"Yep. I'm fine. Just admiring this body of water." I try to smile and let out a sigh. I was never good at lying.

He cups my face to make me look at him and then he brings them down to his side. "Tell me what troubles you so. I haven't seen you for a couple of days since I have been patrolling the boarders. I wish to see you smile, but only if it is true."

Might as well let it all out.

"Alright. I was just having moment. A moment to really think as to what I'm really doing here in Middle-Earth. Back home, I was a nobody. I mean, I'm nobody of special interest. Plenty of people could do my work back home. I have no powers, I have no special abilities, I have nothing special about me that it is even worth to bring here. Why was I chosen? I'm no one." He closes his eyes and sighs and stares out into the river.

"When I first laid my eyes on you, you were very peculiar. You were a naked elf maiden that had no proper manners and quite the foul mouth. I honestly thought you had lost your mind when I first assumed you had no idea of what you were. A lost little girl found in the forest who had this body of knowledge, but a little difficult to be taken seriously appeared within the borders of Lothlorien." Oh well great.

I know I'm immature, but damn. I glare at him and share a smirk. He turns to smirk at me right back as he tugs a few hair strands behind my ear. "Now do deny it Layla. You have definitely surprised me and have challenged me while you have been here while no other damsel has."

I roll my eyes and pout. "I know. I'm not your average female… I just happen to react differently to stuff." I sway my hips side to side as if I were some little girl trying to hide something. "I get it. But seriously, why am I here?" I then lay my hands on my hips, but Haldir takes one of my free hands and rubs his thumb across my knuckles.

"Now I don't know what has brought you here to this world, but I do know that if a woman from your world had to be here, I am so very blessed that it is you. If it were any other, I would not be feeling this way, or she would have liked one of my brothers better." I couldn't help but giggle at that comment.

I rub his arm with my free hand and rocked him a bit. "I think you're right. No other female would be able to handle your ego, strictness, and your meanness at all. I'm probably the only one out there in all the universes to take all your annoyances…" I stick my tongue out and put it to the side of my teeth and smile. He just laughs and wraps his arms around me and brings me to his embrace. My head lays on his chest and I can hear his heart beating.

"This is true. I have turned away many maidens in my time, and courted very few. I know I am the only one who can time someone as wild as you." Oh ho ho… now he's playing with me.

I lift my head from his chest to see his face. "Oh really?"

"But of course. Someone to bring you down to the ground if your head is in the clouds, to help you focus is the key." I just pft him.

"Oh please, my parents tried to make me focus. My education wasn't always the best when my teachers told me to pay attention or sit still. I have so many things on my mind, I can't help but to let it wander!" I stick my tongue at him and laugh. He then uses his hand to pull my chin up to face him and he looks so serious, but I see his eyes are full of devotion.

"Yes, but if your focus is on me, and mine on you, we will never lose each other. No one else will be able to be in our way. No one else will make me lose my focus on you." I saw him smile and I could tell that he sees my glossy eyes. This elf can really put hardcore dating into such romantic words…

"I'll never lose mine on you. You can count on that Elf Boy." I try to seem cool even though happy tear just slipped out. He embraces me tighter and we stay like this for a few seconds before he broke it.

"I know you are worried in wondering what your purpose is, but we will find it."

"I'm not sure if I want to. I don't know what will happen once I do find it."

One minute I'm in his embrace while standing, then-

Pain.

Sheer utter pain.

I scream.

I hold my head. I feel something moving on my back. Parasitic? It feels really gross!

I start to collapse in his arms losing my stance. "Layla! Layla! Tell me what's wrong!?" Then I stopped feeling my body move and everything goes dark.

I'm in a forest.

I hear a river near me.

Shuffling. A lot of shuffling. I run towards the sounds and I see bodies. But not normal bodies.

They were of the Uruk-Hai.

"Fuck!" Forest, Uruk-Hai, then that means…

"No it's me! Legolas it's me! Don't shoot!"I look to the far off distance. On the ground I see Boromir. He had already been dead and Elena was standing over him using her arms to form a big "X" in front of her chest. "Elena?!" I start to run toward her, but she is so panicked in her eyes. Such fear! I decide to stop and turn to see what she is facing. At some distance, I can see someone readying their arrow and it is aimed at Elena.

Who is that? I try to focus more on who this person is.

"Legolas?" Oh my God. It's Legolas! Legolas!

"Legolas what are you doing?! Stand down!" I tried to yell but to no avail. I felt like I couldn't move. No sound was coming out of my throat.

"Disgusting demon. Now die!" He lets go of the arrow.

"ELENA! MOVE!" Oh God, I tried. I made it in between the projectile and my friend. But the arrow went through me like a ghost, and it struck her. It had struck her in her abdomen. Her eyes are wide and she lands on her knees and she is stunned. She looks down at the arrow clutch it with her trembling hands and then she stares into my eyes.

"Layla. Help them Don't doubt him…" Her last words right before I see her fall back-

"ELENA!"

"ELENA!"

"Layla! Be calm. You are safe. You're here in the healer's hall. Shh…" I hear Haldir's voice. I'm breathing heavy. And fast. Fuck. Fucking fuck. Shit…

What just happened?

I noticed I'm sitting up right from one of the beds in the room. I grasp the sheets in between my fingers. I look around and I see Lady Galadriel and Lord Celeborn at the foot of my bed and Haldir to my side holding one of my hands.

"Holy shit…" I hear Lady Galadriel clear her throat. "Sorry… it was just… so intense. I haven't felt pain in months, and then this happens."I take my hand away from Haldir's and use it to run it through my hair while my other hand is helping to stay propped up.

"Layla, what in world happened? One minute you were in my arms, and the next you on the ground." Haldir had put a hand on my shoulder and then I took his hand into mine this time. He moves away from something, but I'm too preoccupied to notice.

"You saw something. Something that has yet come to pass." The Lady asked me. Her eyes grew wide.

"Tell us what you have seen." Lord Celeborn insisted.

I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. I squeezed Haldir's hand tighter. "I was in a forest with Elena. She was over a dead person. She panicked to someone who wouldn't listen to her. Accusing her to be a disgusting demon being and he had shot an arrow and it struck her. I know who did it, but I'm not sure if I should say everything." Haldir then began to rub my back soothingly and it's quite nice. Helps get rid of the lonely feelings.

"A vision you've seen that will occur to your friend. It may be fate for it to pass or it may be your chance to save her. I do not know for certain." Lord Celeborn said. He has that face where he seems so sure but he's not sure. "Being sure that you're not sure or not sure if you are for sure?" I sighed.

"Story of my life…" I said discouragingly.

"Lady Galadriel, this is really hitting me. Why am I here? Why me?" I asked her with sad eyes. This subject has been avoided for so long. I can tell this is going to take some time to talk about as Lord Celeborn brings a chair for his wife and Haldir a chair for himself to sit on.

"I only know as much as you know now, or that I believe. I have told you that two forces have penetrated through Arda. You are here for a balance of power, chosen by The Valar. I can only see so much, and even through with my mirror, you will soon be granted with great power when you are needed most. I know that you are the most important person in the whole world right now." She closes her eyes and sighs. "It is all the information that I know. I'm so sorry I cannot help you any more than to only train you."

Damn it all…

Damn…

"Fate is such bullshit." I scowl and bury my face in my hands. They didn't bother to mention that I had cursed. I had to shift my weight. I must feel really out of it. I turn to my back and then I turn straight ahead to them again.

"My wings are out again." Haldir squeezes my hand. "They are."

"It may be that when you feel a surge of power that you are unable to control, they are to be released, and it has chosen this method. When you regain control of your feelings and powers, this will cease to happen. For now, your powers are wild as they are so new to you." The White Lady had said to me.

"Good grief. I turn back to them and they kinda flinched outward and then relaxed. I don't even know how to move these properly. "I guess let your people around here at least to not be afraid if they see someone with wings rolling around." As I raise my arms to show a gesture of annoyance, my wings outstretched in front of me causing me to push forward and Haldir simply leaned forward, not letting go of my hand. I noticed that the Lord and Lady only merely stepped back. "Whoa! Don't know what happened there…"

"This will take time and training Layla. You will overcome fears and continue to learn and adapt. All in due time." I looked towards Lady Galadriel and she gave a soft smile. "You can do it. You will do it." Lord Celeborn said.

"And I will be there right beside you. I will help in any way I can as well." I turned to Haldir and he gave me a devoted smile. He really is dreamy. He really is there for me. I return a smile to him and then my wings finally retract behind me and they relax. Once they do he straightens up his back and I giggle.

"We'll leave you to rest, Layla. We will be in our rooms if you need us." Lord Celeborn… I can tell that he meant himself and The Lady. "No. I think I'll be okay. I'll just wait it out till these suckers behind me fade away." Its only the second time, why am I so whatever about them? I see them turn and leave

"Is there anything you need right now Layla?"

"Just hold my Haldir and tell me how your day was. I need a distraction…"

Fuck my life… I wish I had a shot… Tequila sounds hella good right now…