Author's Note: This so sad to write but I was wondering about what May would be like on her own, and found myself picturing this. Although she is a tough member of the team she will have her weakening moments, starting with this one. I really hope you like this and thank you to my sister for helping me to rewrite some of my complicated sentences (I have a few rants sometimes and can create complete nonsense).
Do enjoy and review, and begin to delve into the rather disturbed feelings of Agent Melinda May...
Disclaimer: I do not own Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (if only!) :)
The pain in her head grew stronger as she rolled over on to her front. Grabbing hold of her head between her hands, she tried to maintain control of the tension that bubbled away in her mind. It was becoming too much; the thoughts and flashbacks were fighting back and they became clearer every day. She was used to it though, living with the consequences of her actions. But now Coulson had been found lying helpless and alone on a slab, his mind being picked apart. She just couldn't bear the thought she could have found him sooner. Why had she not gone with him? He had to stand alone; she would've done anything to stop him from being kidnapped. It was too late now, and she yet again had to deal with the consequences. In her case, guilt.
Slowly sliding off the bed May walked over to the dresser, and poured herself a whisky. She downed it in seconds before pouring herself another. The strong liquor tingled at the back of her throat as she emptied her third glass. Turning her weary head to her right she looked at herself in the mirror, her hand clasped tightly around the glass.
She heard distant echoes in her head calling out to her, "May! Where are you? May!" She knew who the voice belonged to instantly, the guilt draining out of her body in a long sorrowful sigh. Raising the glass to her lips she looked at her tired reflection, the rings under her eyes and her bruised cheek staring back at her. Looking down at her hand, her knuckles white with rage, she released her feelings and felt the glass crack.
And shattered glass lay on the ground about her feet…