A/N Another chapter, sorry it took so long i was having fun catching up wiht my brother, i hadn't seen him for a year and it was great to see him, out me in a much better mood, i hope this chapter is good and i am working on the next, or at least it will when i wake up in the morning :P
"You have a brother?" Asked Elliot a little surprised
"So that's your brother" Stated Olivia "How come I've never met him?""He was in the army, he was a pilot" Ilsa said, to her it wasn't anything that needed to be talked about, sure it had been nearly a year since she had joined but she didn't want to tell them everything about her upfront. Her brother hand talked to her in some time, she had thought the worst.
Elliot Fin and Munch all thought the same thing why had she kept this a secret, weren't they friends, they had gotten used to her antics her strange mood swings, but the fact that she was still keeping secrets, and something as small as this was so strange, it didn't seem like a big deal and if she was keeping the fact she had a brother a secret, was else was she not telling them
"I've told you about him Liv"
"Why not the rest of us?" Asked Fin
Ilsa just shrugged and silent 'I don't know'
"If your not telling us something like you have a brother, what else aren't you telling us" Said Elliot
Ilsa didn't like his tone, but she couldn't say she wouldn't be upset if someone did the same thing to her
Ilsa walked out of the room, deciding to try and avoid yet another bout of question asking she walked to the bathroom "Did you know she had a brother?" Elliot asked Olivia
"Yeah, but I never met him" she said "She told me a lot about him that he's a pilot and was sent away to protect our country, and something about her being young and him being taken away from her"
Just then the grey haired man walked in
"Ilsa in?" he asked
"She's gone to the bathroom can I help?" Asked Elliot
Ilsa's brother held up a purse "She forgot it"
"So tell us about yourself" Said Olivia as she took the purse form him "Like what's your name"
He laughed "It's Lewis Valentine"
"I thought you two were related, why different last names" Said Fin "Unless the girl is married too and didn't tell us"
"No from what I've heard she's single, had been for a long time, and" Lewis stopped and looked around, making sure Ilsa wasn't in the room
"Don't tell her I told you or she'll kill me, she wont let me say it, but were only Half Brother sister"
"Oh" Said Olivia Before she could say anything Lewis cut her off
"Same mother, different Father , no offence to our mother or to Ilsa but I couldn't stand that man"
"He wasn't a good father"
"If by good you mean diabolical and just plain wrong then yes"
"What did he do?" Asked Fin
"I was never told the whole story, but i knew all about it, Ilsa would barely talk to me about it, My Father came and took me when I was younger, Ilsa was about 8 almost 9 when I had to leave, I remember her crying and telling my dad she'd protect me and look after me if he let me stay" Lewis looked sad as he retold the story of when he had to leave his sister behind
"I don't think I've ever seen someone look like she did when I turned to look at her as I was being lead away"
"What look?" Asked Olivia leaning in a little, hearing more about Ilsa was intriguing to them, it was starting to make more sense, though the whole story would be more helpful, from what they were gathering, Ilsa didn't have a great child life
"Like…" Lewis had to think of how to describe it "someone had taken the one thing she had left to hold onto, like someone had sucked the life right out of her, even that doesn't come close to what she looked liked…Like the one thing that would keep her safe and protected had been ripped from her when she most needed it" his eyes were going red as he remembered with great detail the day he had left and the sad and empty look on her little sisters face
"You know what she did as I was driven away"
Olivia shook her head "What?"
Lewis opened his mouth a few times trying to find the words "She smiled, and waved, but even that couldn't hid the pain she felt, it just made it worse, the look in her eyes was so heartbreaking"
"Lewis, tell us more about Ilsa's past" Pushed Elliot"I blame her father for a lot of her problems, if he were never apart of her life she might not be as messed up as she is now" he said bitterly
"Messed up how?"
"I heard him some nights, when I was still there, he used to go into her room and close the door, sometimes she screamed, I wanted to help but I didn't, all I could do was comfort her when he left"
"Lewis what did he do?" Elliot asked looking at the other detectives, they had heard the stories before, from other victims, but that one of their own may have been a victim to was strange, but it would explain why she felt so strongly for the victims, why she got defensive when ever someone bought up her father, why she was hostile towards people, mostly men.
Lewis went to tell them, but stopped when he saw Ilsa walk in
"Just can't get enough of me can you" She teased, wrapping her arms around Lewis in a big hug
"You forgot your purse, I don't know how considering I paid for everything"
Ilsa took her purse from Olivia "Must have been when I was showing you pictures of Josh at lunch"
"Right well I'll see you later ok" He said giving Ilsa a kiss on the head
"It was a pleasure to meet you finally Olivia" He said holding out his hand waiting for her to take it "Nice to meet the person my sister talked so much about"
He left after that, leaving Ilsa with a smile of her face and everyone else with more questions on their mind, probing for more information now would most likely send Ilsa into one of her bad moods, not one where she just got angry and yelled, they all got moods like that, one where she would walk out, come back later and sit down, only after some amount of time she deemed worthy would she talk again, pretending like nothing happened,
***
It was nearly 6 when everyone was heading home, Casey walked in and Sat on the edge of Olivia's desk"We still on for tonight?" Casey asked softly not wanting everyone to hear them"Sure" Said Olivia "I'll meet you there, is Melinda coming?"Melinda walked into the room, not in her normal clothing but something light, casual and fun"Sure I am" she said, noticing Ilsa sitting at her deskIlsa got up and walked to the small lockers located near Olivia's desk"Are you coming Ilsa?" Melinda asked"Coming where?" Ilsa asked, figuring that all the girls were going out,, but she had not been invited…again, sure it hurt a little, she thought they had gotten past not asking each other out, but still she was used to it."Were going out for drinks, want to come?"
Casey and Olivia looked at Melinda as much to say 'no you cant invite her', the looks didn't escape Ilsa"No thanks hun, I don't feel like going some where I'm not really wanted"
At that Casey and Olivia started to feel guilty, not that they didn't want her there, but the other girl who was going out with them might not, Ilsa was a hard person to like when you first meet her.
"Why don't you come Ilsa" Offered Casey "It'll be fun"
"You don't need to invite me because you feel obligated too, I don't mind really, go and have fun""We want you to come" Said Olivia looking at her with a smile "Your our friend too"
Ilsa smiled "Ok I give in, where am I to meet you ladies tonight?"
***
It was a nice place, not really classy but not a rat hole bar either, Melinda Casey and Olivia sat at a table with another woman, talking and laughing, seeming to have a good time, Ilsa was nervous about coming out, if she wasn't wanted it could make the night awkward.
She walked in, taking of her hat and looking around for the other girls, Casey saw her and waved, raising an eyebrow and the detectives choice of clothes
"Hey" Ilsa said as she got closer
"Who are you?" asked the other woman
"Who are you" Ilsa retorted
"I asked you first" she said
"Now now play nice girls" Olivia cut in
"Texan?" Asked Ilsa looking at the woman
"Yeah" the woman smiled "What are you, English?"
Ilsa's face dropped "And here I thought it was going ok" she said rolling her eyes "I'm Australian, why do people keep saying I'm English"
"Nice out fit" Said the woman
Ilsa looked herself up and down "It's leather so what" she said, she was wearing a white leather jacket with a black stripe down the arms, a pair of jeans and some boots
"Feel happy I didn't wear the whole outfit"
Olivia looked at Casey, nice to see the two were getting along
"Let me guess" Ilsa said still standing in front of the table "You're a lawyer"
The woman smiled "Yeah how'd you know?"
"I got a chill that went straight for my soul" Ilsa said, sure it was mean but she found it funny
The woman did not look happy, Ilsa just smiled a cheesy smile "I could say more but I don't think tonight the night for one of my lawyer rants"
"Rants huh? You got something against us Lawyers?" she asked placing a hand on Casey's shoulder, she was clearly unimpressed with what Ilsa was saying
"A few things actually, but lets not discuss them tonight"
"I'm Abbie Carmichael"
"Nice to meet you" Ilsa said with a smile as she took a seat "I'm Ilsa Couri"
Abbie gave a smile "Your Ilsa, the one Casey kept saying was a total bitch!" She exclaimed loudly
Casey went red in the face "shut up" she hissed
"No, No don't shut up, what else did she say?" Ilsa smiled as she leant in closer
Casey covered her face "I'm getting a drink"
Ilsa grabbed her arm "Oh no, your staying, tell me"
"She said you were a know it all bitch who needed to get put in her place…either that or…what was it you said?" Abbie teased leaning into Casey
Casey groaned "That you need to get laid…"
Ilsa's jaw dropped though she wasn't to insulted, it was just she never expected to have someone say that about her "Oh that's nice Novak" she said with a chuckle
"You're not upset" Asked Abbie, if it were her she probably would have been angry or something
"Pfft no, I've been called worse, but as for the other part, Casey are you offering your services" she said with a playful smile
"You are not funny" said Casey
"On the contrary I'm hilarious"
"So what are we going to drink?" Asked Olivia
they all said there order, except for Ilsa
"Not drinking tonight?" Asked Melinda
"No…yes…maybe" Ilsa said with a confused look on her face
"You come out drinking, but you won't drink?" Asked Abbie
"Any beer" she said and Olivia moved to get up "As long as it's Australian" she added
"Got something against American beer?" Asked Casey
"Australian beer is stronger, so I've been told"
"Really?" Asked Casey
"yeah..and i'm feeling a little home sick"
After the first round of drinks the second was being ordered, save for Ilsa who was still slowly drinking her beer
"Looks like someone is getting looks" teased Abbie as she nudged Casey, Casey just rolled her eyes and then noticed the man looking at her across the bar
"Maybe one of us will see some action tonight" the Texan teased again
"I don't think Melinda will find anyone in here for tonight" Ilsa said and they turned to look "Unless her husband come through the doors" she added
Melinda chuckled "Right" she agreed
"That's guys nice, but not as nice as Ilsa brother"
Casey went wide eyed "You have a brother?" she asked
Ilsa smiled "Yeah he came by today to see me, lousy bastard" she said before taking a drink "hasn't said a word to me in almost two months"
"But you've never mentioned him before" Said Melinda
"Didn't seem so important"
"You two look alike" said Olivia
Ilsa looked down and smiled "Thanks, and sorry to ruin your fantasy" she said giving a sly grin to Olivia "But Lewis is married"
"aw" Olivia said with a look of sadness on her face, though she was only playing.
"is her brother that cute" Casey teased
"Well I got the looks and the brains but he's ok I guess" Ilsa said "I have picture if you want to see"
Casey nodded as Ilsa pulled out a picture hand held out for Casey and who ever else want to see
Ilsa had a huge smile on her face, and Lewis had his arms wrapped around her picking her up off the ground and giving her a bear hug, Casey couldn't help thinking that Ilsa looked so happy in the picture.
"Are we getting checked out by girls now?" Abbie asked looking at the bar where a young girl stood looking over at them.
"Don't flatter yourself" Ilsa said "This one is for me"
They watched as Ilsa walked over to the bar and smiled at the girl, it was the same one from that morning Olivia noted.
She looked so nervous as Ilsa walked up, though Ilsa on her part seemed fine, calm collected.
"Who have thought that girl would be a player" Commented Abbie, although she had only just met Ilsa, she didn't think Ilsa was the kind of girl to go picking up people in a bar, and a girl at that
They watched as the girl laughed and blushed when Ilsa put her hand on her shoulder, Ilsa nodded and the girl smiled brightly, she walked off and Ilsa waved before heading back to the table with her friends….Plus Abbie
"Ilsa the player" Said Olivia
"Yeah" Ilsa said "And I didn't even use my charm" she joked
"So how long do you think it'll last" Whispered Abbie to Casey
"You want to take bets on my love life?" Asked Ilsa with a smile
"Of course not" Said Casey
"Well if you are can I get in on the action"
"No, you might fix it" Said Abbie
"Why would I ruin what could be a good thing" Ilsa asked seriously "But really…I give it until she find out what I do for a living"
Ilsa picked up her bottle and drank until it was finished
"Want another beer to chug?" Asked Olivia
"I did not chug it, I just drank it quickly with out taking a breath"
The night went on, there was more drinking, and joking
Ilsa couldn't help but laugh as they got onto the topic of dating
"What's appropriate for a first date" Asked a slightly intoxicated Abbie Carmichael
"So this is where drinking has gotten us" Said Ilsa from her seat
"What's your opinion? Asked Abbie
"Whatever you want" Said Ilsa, the other just looked at her
"Oh not for me, If you are dating someone you like, you should do what you feel is right on a first date, whether it be a quick kiss good night" and she paused "Or throwing them against the door and ravishing them"
The girls let out a laugh "Ok what would you do?" Asked Casey
"Take me out and you'll find out first hand" Ilsa said with a wink and a smile
Casey didn't do anything
"Joking" Ilsa said, making sure this night didn't go awkward in a hurry
Ilsa sat their rubbing her chin "A kiss….maybe" she said
"Maybe?" Exclaimed the girls
"You wouldn't do more?" pressed Olivia
"I don't know what you girls would do, and I don't judge so don't worry about that" She said leaning back in the seat "I mean it when I say a kiss maybe I have never and probably will never have sex on a first date"
"Even if there really cute?" Asked Olivia
Ilsa shook her head
"Or if they make your heart beat fast and you legs turn to jelly?" Asked Casey
Ilsa looked at her for a minute she smiled and shook her head
"What if you're really horny" Added Abbie
Ilsa laughed but still shook her head
"You can not be that kind of girl" Abbie added
"I am, I have never had sex on the first date, and I don't do one night stands, nothing like that"
"Why?" Asked Abbie "I mean apart from you I say everyone here has done something like that"
"It's a personal reason, one I don't much like to talk about" Ilsa said then got up and headed to the bar, Melinda followed
"Do you want to talk about what bothering you?" she asked
Ilsa shook her head "No"
"Does anyone know?"
Ilsa turned, confused "Know about what?"
"I saw you with him, the other day I didn't know you had a-" Melinda didn't finish what she was going to say as Ilsa cut her off
"Don't tell them, please, it" she paused and took a breath "I was 16, young, i've done alot of stupid things I'm dealing with it but I don't want anyone to know"
"It's been a year" Melinda said "Don't you think you should tell them…tell me"
Ilsa sighed, she had been on the squad for just over a year and she was still hiding things, simple things, though to her they felt momentous
"I'm here if you want to talk" Melinda said placing her hand on Ilsa shoulder
Ilsa didn't move she smiled "I think I'd like that some time, but if you want to better understand why I wont talk about it, you can check my file, I wont tell"
They walked back to the table in silence; Ilsa had a glass of water
"It's late and I should go" Said Melinda grabbing her handbag
"Bye" Chimed Casey
"See ya later" Said Olivia
"Later" Abbie said
Ilsa gave Melinda a hug and said goodbye
"So what about a first kisses" Said Abbie
"On to dating again" sighed Ilsa
"I think people put to much thought into it" She said
"I don't, I think you can tell a lot from a person from the first kiss" Said Casey
"Oh that's bull" Said Ilsa "Kisses can be misleading"
"From a first kiss I can tell" Casey said "From the nervous guy who says he had a great time and gives you a gentle kiss to the guy whose all hands, you can tell"
Ilsa nodded contemplating then shook her head "Nah don't believe it"
"Oh really" Casey said
"Yeah I mean, I could kiss you, it could be sweet and gentle… but that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about taking your clothes of at the same time, kisses can be misleading"
"You make a good point Ilsa" Said Olivia
"You should be a lawyer" Said Abbie with a smirk
Ilsa laughed "I do have a way with words, so I'm told; it's a gift I think"
"What is?" Asked Abbie
"My ability to articulate inane ramblings and make them sound intelligent"
"That's all it takes to be a lawyer" she said with a smile
Ilsa looked at her watch "I think it's time to call it a night, before we go from 'what appropriate for a first date' to sex, and I don't really want to talk about that"
"What sex? it's a natural thing" Said Abbie, finishing her latest drink
"Yeah" Ilsa said
"Aw what's wrong haven't had any in a while"
"Hah!" claimed Ilsa "A while is an understatement"
"What a few months"
Ilsa shook her head "try years"
"Damn girl!" Abbie exclaimed "What happened?" she asked in all sincerity
"I never met anyone after my last relationship, was working a lot, sex isntt that important to me"
Abbie lent across the table, almost knocking the other cups off as she did, she placed her hand on Ilsa head "You feeling ok? I mean something 'must' be wrong if you're thinking like that"
Ilsa pulled Abbie's hand of her head "I think we need to call you a cab"
"I agree" Said Olivia
They walked out the front and put Olivia and Abbie in a cab together
Casey said she wanted to walk home, and Ilsa refused to let her go alone
"it's dangerous" Ilsa said
"I'm a big girl" Casey said getting alittle ticked off the Ilsa wouldn't let her walk home
"Then I'll walk with you"
Casey sighed and gave in "And they say chivalry is dead"
They walked in silence for a while; Ilsa had her hand in her pockets and he head hung low
"You know" Said Casey looking up at the stars as they walked "We've been working together for a while and I still don't know so much about you"
Ilsa nodded "What do you want to know?"
"If I asked would you really tell me?"
Ilsa just shrugged "Ask and you'll find out"
"Tell me about you mom"
"My mum was an amazing woman" Ilsa said
As she spoke about her mother Casey couldn't help but notice how her face lit up, how beautiful she looked with a smile on her face
"I mean she was an angel" Ilsa finished "Always knew what to say, what to do to make me feel better"
"Where is she?" Asked Casey as they crossed a street
Ilsa didn't look at her, her face dropped and went from happy to sad "Shes….dead" Ilsa said sadly "Died along time ago" she added
"I'm sorry" said Casey; she had no idea that Ilsa's mother was dead
"Not your fault" She said softly
After a few minutes of silence Ilsa looked up and smiled "Anything else you want to know?"
Casey shook her head, though there was more, she didn't feel right now was the best time, she was just enjoying the company, she had been dealing with strange feelings since Ilsa had first joined, the flirting had been strange and she couldn't tell if Ilsa was serious or just having fun, Ilsa was a kind woman, and beautiful, but Casey didn't know if Ilsa was gay or not, though the scene tonight with the girl at the bar would point to yes, yes she is, Casey didn't want to ask, didn't want to ruin a good friendship for something that might not even be there.
Ilsa put her arm around Casey shoulder and pulled her closer, snapping Casey out of her thoughts, Ilsa smiled her eyes bright and Casey smiled back
"Here we are" Said Ilsa
"Seems we do this a lot" Said Casey remembering all the times Ilsa had walked her home after a night out with friends, or even when they had a dinner together, whether it could be called 'dating' or not, Casey thought it was sweet
"Yeah" Ilsa said looking a little nervous "I like to make sure you get home safe" she added
"Well thank you, and I hope you didn't mind Abbie"
"nah, she's cool"
"For a lawyer" Casey joked "Oh and her convocation about dating, didn't make you feel uncomfortable I mean you did tell me about your last relationship"
Ilsa smiled, it was nice that Casey cared about her "If I was really uncomfortable I wouldn't have told you the truth"
"That was the truth?"
"Yeah, no sex, a kiss if I like the person enough"
"And here I thought you were joking, but then again you did go and tell me how kisses can be misleading"
"They can, but only if that person wants it to be"
"Because you're the expert on dating and kissing" Casey said with a smile
"I've kissed my share of people" Ilsa said pretending to be smug about it "I could show you but that might be awkward for you"
Casey and Ilsa laughed
Ilsa smiled as Casey reached into her bag and pulled out her keys, Casey fished them out and looked at Ilsa again, and she knew the woman wouldn't walk away until she opened the door
Ilsa didn't know why but something compelled her to do it, maybe it was because she thought Casey to be a beautiful person, or the few drinks she had consumed at the bar, but she walked up to Casey and pressed her lips to Casey's, she kissed her softly, quickly.
Casey had had a bit to drink, and maybe it was the alcohol clouding her brain, but she didn't pull away until Ilsa did.
"I'll see you later Casey" she said, and once Casey had opened the door Ilsa walked away, hailing a cab to take her home.
Casey shut the door 'did I really just kiss my friend?' she thought what would Ilsa think? What would Ilsa do? She might have just ruined a good friendship! Oh how would she work if she couldn't look at Ilsa again? Had she liked the kiss? She couldn't tell had it really happened? She had been drinking maybe she just dreamed it, did it mean Ilsa was interested in her…but what about the girl at the bar… Maybe Ilsa was just proving her point about first kisses
Still Casey went to sleep thinking about the detective, well that and a headache, she was tired along day a work, a rather confusing ending to a nice night and alcohol, she knew without a doubt she would wake up with a bad headache to deal with in the morning.
A/n Please read and review, i would like to know Good? Bad? Terrible? i wont be upset i just want the truth :) thanks for reading!