A/N I am so sorry this took so long i haven't been able to upload anything for a few days so again i am so so sorry, i am working on the next chapter now although it may take a little while before it is up, I'll be busy the nest few days (Wont bore anyone wiht the details) but thank you to those still reading i am going to continue wiht this story i just have to find the time Please bear wiht me
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It was a little after 9 when Olivia arrived at Ilsa's apartment, she wasn't nervous exactly but was feeling awkward about meeting Josh, she had known Ilsa for years and somehow Ilsa had managed to keep this a secret, it puzzled her how she managed to do it, a child isn't something you can hide easily.
Olivia knocked on the door and heard footsteps on the other side the door opened slowly when it was pulled back Olivia saw Josh standing there, his face blank
"Hi" Said Olivia
Josh remained silent just holding onto the door handle
"Who is it?" She heard Ilsa call from somewhere inside
Josh was still quiet
"It's Olivia"
"Let her in honey!" Ilsa called back
Josh stepped aside and let Olivia walk past, he shut the door and went to sit on the couch
Ilsa walked out from her room
"Hey Olivia" she said as she headed for the bathroom "Want a drink?"
"Sure" Said Olivia watching Josh as he picked up a control pad and went back to playing a video game.
Ilsa smiled "What do you want?"
"Oh right um coffee" said Olivia walking into the kitchen "Is he ok?"
"Yeah he's fine why?" She said getting the coffee ready
"He hasn't said a word to me"
Ilsa laughed softly "Want to see something?"
"Ok" Olivia said slightly confused
Ilsa walked out of the kitchen and sat next to Josh, he paused his game when Ilsa leant closer and whispered something in his ear, he looked up at her and she smiled down at him and nodded her head.
Josh got off of the couch and walked up to Olivia
"Nice to meet you Detective Benson" he said holding out his hand
Olivia smiled 'how did she get him to do that?'
"Nice to meet you too Josh, but you can call me Olivia"
Josh smiled and Olivia couldn't help but notice how much like his mother he looked.
Ilsa got off the couch and stood next to Olivia
"What did you tell him Ilsa?"
Ilsa chuckled "I told him that you were my friend and that he could trust you"
The two detectives walked back to the kitchen, peering out to check on Josh every now and then
"I taught him not to talk to strangers so he doesn't" Ilsa said grabbing two cups from the cupboards
"So that's why he didn't say anything to me?" Olivia asked
Ilsa nodded "But he'll talk to you know, if I can trust you so can he" she said with a smile "Is he?" Olivia asked leaving the rest of the question hanging
"Slow?" Ilsa offered "I don't think so he might just be a late bloomer, he's a great kid"
Ilsa handed Olivia the coffee and smiled "Still mad I didn't tell you?"
Olivia sighed "Yes, but I should have known you were still hiding something, you always hid things"
They stood silent for a while, Ilsa leaning against the kitchen counter, Olivia standing in the middle of it
"So tell me about his father" Olivia said
Ilsa sighed "I thought you wouldn't ask me about that"
"You tell me know that you have a son" Olivia said calmly "It's only natural I would ask"
"Sam is his father"
"Sam?" Olivia asked
"You know tall blond" Ilsa started to describe her friend
"Your best friend?"
"Don't sound so upset Olivia, you're one of my best friends too, Sam takes Josh when I cant, which sadly is a lot of the time" Ilsa said looking at Josh from the kitchen
"He's a good kid" Olivia said putting her hand on Ilsa's shoulder
Ilsa smiled "Thanks hun"
"Hi mum" Josh said as he walked into the kitchen "I'm going to go to bed" he said with a big yawn
Ilsa hugged him and kissed him on the forehead "Alright sweetie"
Josh looked at Olivia and smiled "Good night Miss Benson" he said as he walked up and hugged her, before walking off down the hall to his room.
"He's got to be your son" Olivia said "He's so much like you""I know" Ilsa agreed as she walked into the living room with Olivia, taking a seat with her on the couch"You were really only 16 when you had him?"Ilsa nodded "Yeah, it hurt but everything I went through was well worth it because I've got him"
Olivia smiled "he must be one hell of a kid"Ilsa chuckled as she took a sip from her cup
"Is there anything else your hiding from me?" Olivia asked looking over the top of her cup
Ilsa smiled and nodded her head "yes"
Olivia sighed "You've had it hard, haven't you?""Yeah, you should know Liv, you never had it easy either"
They sat quietly for a while in a comfortable silence Ilsa was curled up with her heard resting on her knees.
"So…" Olivia said "What's going on between you and Casey?"
Ilsa smiled "We're totally sleeping together"
Olivia had a shocked look on her face and her mouth was hanging open
"Nothing is going on between us, why do you ask"
"She's been asking about you, even asked me if you were gay"
Ilsa laughed "What did you tell her?"
"To ask you"
Ilsa was still laughing, Olivia found it hard not to laugh when Ilsa was, it was a contagious laughter.
"So do you like her?"
"If I didn't like her Liv I wouldn't talk to her, of course I like her"
"You know what I mean" Olivia said in a serious tone
Ilsa shrugged "I don't know, but even if I did isn't it against the rules?"
Olivia leaned close to Ilsa "I wont tell" she whispered
Ilsa picked up a throw pillow and proceeded to hit Olivia with it
"Watch it coffee!" Olivia protested
Ilsa leaned over Olivia and pulled the cup out of her hands and placed it on the table in front of the couch, with a sly smile Ilsa smacked her again with the pillow.
"Ok, ok stop" Olivia said between laughs "I wont tease you about Casey"
"Yes you will don't try to deny it"
Ilsa got up off the couch and took out her empty cup, looking at the clock she noticed how lat it was, she looked back to see Olivia dozing on the couch 'poor thing'
"It's late Olivia" Ilsa said as she walked back in
"Yeah" Olivia said with a yawn "I'll go now"
"You can stay if you want to" Ilsa offered
Olivia had leant her head back on the couch and was dozing, it had been and hard day and she really wanted to sleep
"You can go home in the morning, I don't want you driving if you're tired" Ilsa said
"Nothing will happen I'll be fine" Though Olivia made no attempt to move from the couch
"Just spend the night, it wouldn't be the first time" Ilsa said with a smile "You know I wont do anything we've been friends how long, and you've slept at my place how many times? What so weird about adults having a sleep over" she teased
"Ok" Olivia groaned "I'll stay"
Ilsa walked over and pulled Olivia to her feet "You can sleep in my bed"
Olivia didn't say anything, but let Ilsa lead her to the bed, kicking her shoes off along the way Olivia flopped onto the bed, got under the cover with some difficulty.
She was to tired to think about how awkward it might be sleeping at Ilsa's place, or what people would ask if they knew, though it was true it wasn't the first time, she'd spent the night before, nothing ever happened, they'd talk it would get late and Ilsa didn't like people driving if they were to tired she'd make Olivia stay. Olivia didn't mind, if she stayed Ilsa might even make her lay on one side of the bed dozing, listening to the noises through the house, she heard a door creak open and Ilsa whisper something, most likely to her son, he seemed like a nice kid, a lot like his mother, Olivia couldn't help but wander what else Ilsa was hiding, she wanted to know, knew Ilsa didn't have a good childhood, some times she just wanted the woman to open up and say what was bothering her, not bottle it up like she did.
A light switched off in the bathroom and Olivia felt a weight on the other side of the bed
"Not sleeping on the couch?" Olivia asked, it didn't bother her that Ilsa was climbing into bed, after all Ilsa had changed in front of her before this was by far the least awkward thing Ilsa had done
"Don't worry honey" Ilsa said, her voice sounded tired "I wont do anything"
Olivia smiled and settled in for the night
"At least not while your awake" though Olivia couldn't see, she knew Ilsa had her cheeky smile on
"And what do you think I'm going to do with you?" Olivia asked trying not to laugh
"Nothing you'll be asleep"
Olivia laughed
"Oh don't forget that I'm a-"
"I know" Olivia said
It was nice to see Ilsa relaxed, or at least relaxed as Ilsa got. Olivia had long ago gotten over Ilsa's sense of humour, though yes she was a funny person, a lot of her jokes were crude and sexual Olivia still couldn't help but laugh, she knew Ilsa was just playing, it seemed at times that Ilsa didn't give a damn what other people thought that she didn't have any shame. Olivia knew that Ilsa wouldn't do anything that made her feel uncomfortable she also knew it was hard for Ilsa to get this comfortable with people, she didn't let everyone in so Olivia felt happy that Ilsa had let her in so far, one day Ilsa might tell her those secrets that bother her so much.
Olivia hoped that this night would be different, once when she had stayed Ilsa woke up screaming and covered in sweat, she said she had a nightmare but it must have been one hell of a nightmare to have that effect, Olivia had woken up and tried to comfort her, it had taken some time but eventually Ilsa had calmed down and laid back down, though Olivia doubted she had gone to sleep again after soft breathing let Olivia know Ilsa was asleep, Olivia felt something warm against her side and felt an arm drape across her, she turned her head to see Ilsa snuggled into her side, Olivia smiled, Ilsa had told her that she was a snuggler, Olivia didn't mind it was…interesting to have her friend curl up into her side, but Olivia still managed to fall asleep.
***
It was early morning Olivia woke up to find that Ilsa wasn't in bed, she stretched and sat up, smelling the air 'mmm breakfast' she thoughtShe walked out to the kitchen to see Ilsa hard at work cooking"Morning" Said Ilsa with a smile "Hungry?"
Olivia nodded "When you make something like this it's hard not to be"
Ilsa pulled out three plates and loaded them up with scrambled eggs, bacon and sausages
"How many people are you planning on feeding?" Olivia asked seeing how much food their was
"What do you mean?" Ilsa asked seriously "This is all mine you can get your own"
Olivia laughed and saw a young boy walked in
"Morning mum" he said wiping the sleep from his eyes "Did Miss Benson spend the night?"
"Yeah, that ok?" Ilsa asked, Josh nodded his head and sat at the table
"You're asking if it was ok that you had a friend over?" Olivia asked"I wont do anything if Josh isn't happy, I want him to be comfortable, but he likes you so he doesn't really care" "You really love him" Olivia more stated then asked"Nothing in this world could make me love his less"
Olivia could tell by the look on her face that Ilsa was serious
Ilsa set the table and brought the plates out, along with some juice and coffee
Olivia took a mouth full of food and smiled "This is great Ilsa" she said taking another bite
"Yes contrary to popular belief I can cook"
"It's official, I'm coming to live here now" Olivia said
"So you can eat all my food gee thanks"
"I don't mind if she does" Said Josh from his seat "I like her"
"I was only kidding little man" Olivia said rustling his hair "But I might come around again to eat your moms food"
"It's the best food ever" he said with a bright smile
Ilsa smiled too, loving that her son was so comfortable with her friend made her feel better about telling everyone, if this was how they reacted it would be good.
"Ok hurry up or you'll be late" Said Ilsa raising an eyebrow at Josh
"Ok" he said shoving a fork full of eggs and a piece of bacon into his mouth
"Josh!" Ilsa said with an un-amused look on her face "I didn't say eat the whole plate in one bite you'll choke"
Josh smiled then swallowed the food and ran off before his mum could do anything else, Ilsa just shook her head and sighed"Need a ride to your place?" Ilsa asked as she cleared the table"No I'm alright my cars outside, thanks for letting me spend the night"
"Your welcome anytime Liv, I wasn't about to let you drive when you're falling asleep"
"That's just the cover, you wanted me in your bed"
"True" Ilsa said with a smile "It has been my goal for a long time"
Olivia got up and walked to Ilsa "I'm going to head off, see you at work"
Ilsa turned and gave Olivia a hug "See ya" she said
Olivia left and headed to her place to get ready for work, she was happy that Ilsa hadn't had another nightmare, maybe she was getting over what ever had caused them.
Ilsa went about getting herself and Josh ready to leave, she had to get him to school and then get herself to work. Ilsa was happy too that a nightmare hadn't woken her, she had slept well, happy that she hadn't made Olivia feel to awkward she left for work with a smile on her face.
***
"Good morrow to thee" Ilsa chimed as she walked into the precinct"What?" Asked Fin looking confused
"She said good morning" Said Munch
Ilsa had just thrown her coat over the back of her chair when Captian Cragen walked in
"how far are we on this new case?" he asked
"Not far, talked to a few people but nothing solid" Ilsa said
Cragen gave her a look that told her to get on with it"I think we need to go and talk to Emily again" Ilsa said to Fin "Care to tag along?""Sure" he said and the two detectives were out the door and on their way to see Emily, hopefully she'd shed some light on the events.
***
Emily was still in the hospital, though she desperately wanted to get out, she was looking out the window of her room when, watching the sun as it moved across the sky, she heard the door open and turned to see who it was, a sigh escaped when she saw Ilsa walk in.
"Hey" Ilsa said softly
Emily didn't say anything; she walked back to her bed and sat down
"I can't tell you anymore I don't remember"
Ilsa walked up and stood next to her a soft smile on her lips "I know, I'm here to ask you about Carl and Mitchell Reyes"
Emily stopped moving and turned her head slowly and looked at Ilsa
"Yes…" she said slowly
Ilsa raised her eyebrows, wanting Emily to continue
"It wasn't them" Emily said quickly
"I thought you couldn't remember?"
Emily took a deep breath and closed her eyes "I can't…but I know they wouldn't"
"Carl said he loved you" Ilsa said, Emily's eyes snapped open
"He does, but were friends, he's like a brother to me I don't love him" Emily paused trying to think of a word
"Romantically?" Ilsa offered
"Yeah" Emily said "And Mitchell is just a friend too, I know they would never hurt me"
Ilsa nodded "Anything else you can tell me?" she asked
Emily shook her head
"You ok?" asked Ilsa
Emily just looked at her, clearly unimpressed
"Sorry stupid question" Ilsa said "Maybe how are you doing"
Emily held up her broken wrist "hurts" she said simply
"I know what that's like, broken bones are a bitch" Ilsa said, Emily chuckled a little
"I don't know what else I can tell you" Emily said
"Maybe.." Ilsa said "You can tell us what you were doing walking around so early"
Emily didn't say anything, just shuffled in the bed until she was comfortable
"I'm tired" she said
Ilsa placed her hand softly on her shoulder "Rest honey, if you think of anything else you have my number"
Ilsa walked out of the room and saw Fin sitting in one of the chairs
"Nothing" Ilsa sighed "But I think she might be hiding something"
"Like what? Why would she protect the person who did this to her"Ilsa shrugged her shoulder "Lets go and do some digging" Ilsa said as they left.
***
They pulled up outside a church, it was big with stained windows, stairs led up to the doors
"What are we doing here?" asked Fin
"Getting in touch with out spiritual side" Ilsa said as she got out and ascended the stairs to the church.
The doors let out a groan as they were pushed open, the people inside stopped to see who was walking in, Ilsa poked her head in and gave a sheepish smile "Sorry" she said
Fin followed after her
They walked slowly through the room, their shoes echoing in the large building
Ilsa noticed Carrisa standing with some other women
"Hello detective" she said as Ilsa and Fin walked closer "Have you found anything?" she asked
Ilsa shook her head "Still looking but I do remember you said I could come by the church sometime, I hope this isn't an inconvenience"
"Of course not detective can I help you?"
"We just need to talk to the people here, find out anything we can"
Carrisa looked over Ilsa's shoulder and saw Fin
"Oh where are my manners this is Detective Tutuola he'll be working this case with me"
"Pleasure" Carrisa said
"Ok lets see what we can fine out, I've talked to a few of these people making sure Carrisa was where she said" Ilsa said as she looked around the room "Lets see what else they can tell us"
Fin and Ilsa each talked to the men and women in the church
Ilsa walked up to a group of young girls "Hi" she said with a friendly smile
"You're that detective" One of them said "Right"
Ilsa nodded "Right an either of you tell me about Emily, or maybe Carl and Mitchell Reyes"
"Yeah, I'm Amanda, a friend of Emily's but not those other two" she sounded disgusted at the very mention of the two boys
Ilsa nodded "Ok Amanda why aren't you friends with Carl or Mitchell I heard they come here"
"Used to come here" one of the other girls said "They not allowed to anymore"
"Why not?" Asked Ilsa
"Because of their sister"
Ilsa's eyebrows raised "Why? What did she do?"
"She's a slut and a sinner, how they can even stand to be related to her I don't know" she said
"What else can you tell me?"
The girls looked at each other "Sorry we have to go" Amanda said and the group walked off
Ilsa rolled her eyes "I hate when people don't tell me everything" she mumbled
"Bad day?"
Ilsa jumped and clutched at her chest "Asael" she said catching her breath "You scared me"
He laughed softly "Sorry Ilsa"
"It's ok" she said "What's up?"
"I heard you came in trying to find out more about Emily and those Reyes boys" he said
"Yeah but so far I haven't gotten much, perhaps you can shed some light for me"
Asael smiled "I've told you everything about Emily I know and what I was doing that night, and about those boys"
"I heard something about their sister, what about her"
"She's a sinner"
Ilsa sighed quietly "yeah I've been told, among other things anything else?"
Asael looked across the room and saw some people wave to him, calling him over
"I'm needed somewhere else but perhaps we can talk again" he said quickly and left walking quickly across the room
Ilsa shook her head again "Yeah sure that's fine I'm just trying to investigate" she said to herself "but go I'll figure out, no I don't need your help I'm fine"
Ilsa was making hand gestures while she talked to herself, looking like an idiot
"You know talking to yourself is a sign that you're going insane"
Ilsa jumped again "Fin!" she said loudly "don't sneak up on me" she gave him a soft slap to the arm while he just laughed
"What did you fine out?" Ilsa asked
"Not a lot" he said opening the doors for Ilsa
"Oh that's good, me neither"
Ilsa leaned against the car and looked at the church "All I got was that the Reyes Daughter was or is a sinner"
"Same here no one would clarify, but I did hear something about her not wanting to repent"
"Lets go back to the station, we'll go see the 'sinner' later first lets see what else we can fine out about Emily and her family there is something these people are not telling us and it's annoying"
"I know what that's like" Fin said as he got into the car and waited for Ilsa
Ilsa just sighed and got in, not saying a word on the drive back to the precinct, it was going to be a long day…