Chapter one: Revelations.

This was it.

I, Bella Swan, had finally graduated high school.

How I graduated, I don't know. I had healed since my birthday enough to study for my final exams. For seven months I was a living zombie, barely living. I had worried Charlie to death and I didn't really see that until last April. I wish I never have to see my father cry again. When I walked past his room that day and saw him sitting there, head in hands and shoulders shaking. I think that finally snapped me out of my daze. I was still depressed though, but at least I was responsive.

I turned the engine off, stepped out of the truck and walked onto the trail. I marked my way with orange tape, stopping rarely on my two hour walk into the wilderness before I found it.

There, under the breezy June sky, was our meadow.

I made it to the centre before I dropped to my knees and cried. I had to will myself to stay there as I sobbed, yelling out my pain into the sky. After the tears would no longer come I lay down on my side and sobbed quietly. I thought about Edward, trying to find closure in what had transpired between us. My birthday played in my mind, I could see the hungry look in Jaspers eyes when I got that paper cut...hungry but not feral...

As I saw Edward push me into the table, something in my head clicked. Jasper didn't really snap until after my arm had been all sliced up. This could have all been avoided if Edward hadn't pushed me.

We could still be happy if he didn't place me on such a high pedestal.

I was starting to get angry now, finding flaws in Edward and everything he did. Like how we would never let me get too close to him, always stating his control was not great. Always insisting on keeping me safe from danger even though I could easily take care of myself. In fact Jasper was about as much harm to me as Jacob was.

Edward was the one to put me into the most extreme amount of danger simply by pushing me into glass in a house full of vampires. Honestly Edwards stupid mistake was what was making me so unhappy...making my dad cry.

Suddenly I felt a strong wave of displeasure toward Edward. I started to yell obscenities directed at him. "Edward you're an idiot! You could have avoided all this pain and hassle if you hadn't held me wrapped in cotton! I'm human Edward not fucking porcelain! You hear me!" I stopped and felt it. It felt like I was no longer guilty, I no longer felt the burden. "Oh my God I'm over you."

I stood up from my position, the sky starting to darken and I left the meadow. It no longer held anything there for me. By the time I got back to my truck it was dark out. I climbed in, started the engine and left for home, my mind a buzz the whole way home. I had to leave Forks, nothing kept me here any longer. Now that I was able to get over Edward I could finally see that living here with the memories was simply living in the past, clinging to a memory as I slowly drove myself insane.

I shook my head. No, I need a change.

I climbed out of the truck, slamming the door and heading inside. "Dad I'm home."

Charlie came to the living room door and frowned. "You were gone a long time Bella."

"I know dad, I had some thinking to do." I explained as I sat down at the kitchen table. I motioned for him to do the same. "Dad I'm over Edward completely. I thought about it and decided that I'm not going to cling to a memory anymore."

When Charlie smiled his whole face lit up. I felt the guilt boil inside me as I knew that what I was going to tell him would break that. "That's why I've decided to move to Canada."

"Why Canada?" He asked finally.

I took a deep breath. "Well I've decided on British Columbia so I can still be close to you, but this way I can put Edward in the past where he belongs."

"Well Bella, this is a very mature decision to make." Charlie replied. "If you want to get away please make sure you've gone through all the avenues you have to. Do you have any money saved?"

I nodded. "Dad I worked at the Newton's store for over a year saving for my college fund, but I don't want to go to school anymore. I want to experience the world. I'm going to go upstairs and try to plan where I want to go and what I'm going to do when I get there."

I went up to my room, booted up my laptop, the only thing I've bought since I started at Newton's, and started researching British Columbia. Everywhere looked beautiful. I decided on a place named Kelowna. It looked pretty, beautiful lake, Mountain View and it was a small city. I could get everything I needed in one place. I looked up apartment listings and job openings online and emailed my resume out. Tomorrow was Sunday so I'd have a day to write out my financial plan before I called for apartments on Monday.

I slept soundly that night, not dreaming finally.

XOX

I took a quick flight to Kelowna the following Friday for the weekend to look at a few apartments and attend a few interviews. I scored myself a sweet little apartment downtown, beautiful wood floors; lovely view of the city and it wasn't too expensive. I had a few interviews, one at a coffee shop called Tim Horton's, one at Kelowna Kostumes and another at the public library. All three told me that I would be contacted Monday, so I enjoyed the rest of my weekend, walking along the shore and taking in local sights. Sunday night I flew home and began packing my things. I started with my closet and moved on to my dresser. I got half of my room done before I stopped for the night.

Monday afternoon the library called and offered me a nicely paid job that I could start as soon as I moved to town. I called the man about the beautiful apartment and told him I could move in on the first of the month. Glancing at my calendar, I noticed it was a mere week away. I had to finish packing, talk to Charlie about everything and cook enough meals for him to fill the freezer.

"Better get to work then." I said, standing to finish packing.

By the time I was done, my entire room was packed except from the clothes I would need for the week. I still needed to cook for Charlie, which would require a trip to town. I sighed and slipped my jacket on, heading toward the door.

XOX

Walking through the aisles at the grocery store, I bumped into someone I could have done without.

"Hi Bella." Jessica Stanley said, smiling at me. "How are you?"

I nodded. "I'm good. Busy lately."

"Oh, are you getting ready for college?" She enquired in a friendly manner.

"No actually I'm moving." I replied, throwing some spices into the cart. "I need a change."

She nodded. "Can't hack Forks anymore? Where are you headed?"

"Canada." I shrugged. "Close to Charlie if he needs me but far enough away..."

"Yeah...So personal therapy?" Jessica's face lit up. "You're trying to get over him aren't you?"

"I am over him now Jessica." I sounded a little clipped. "I'm simply driving the final nail into the coffin so to speak." Ironic.

Jessica took the hint and left me to my shopping.

After everything was paid for and in the house, I turned on some music and started cooking. I didn't even register the time until I heard Charlie come into the kitchen.

"Hey Bells how was your day?" He asked setting his gun holster down on the kitchen table. "I can see you've been cooking up a storm."

"Yeah. I replied. "I've got good news."

He sighed and waved. "Go on. When are you leaving? "

The first." I went back to my cooking quietly, finishing up supper and laying it out on the table. After supper I cleaned up while Charlie relaxed and I packed up all the things I cooked.

Before I knew it, moving day way here.

XOX

All of my stuff was loaded into my truck and I was ready to go. I hugged Charlie goodbye. "I will call often I promise. You have enough stuff to last you until I come for a visit okay?"

"Okay." He hugged me real tight. "Please take care of yourself Bella I do worry about you."

I climbed into my beloved truck and took off toward my new home. I had one stop before I left Forks for good.

Driving up the familiar path I pulled up in front of the beautiful Cullen house.

"I can do this." I assured myself as I walked up the path toward the front door. Opening the door, I was hit by a rush of memories, smile filled days sat here with Edward and the family, playing Scattergories and Uno. I sighed, walking up toward Edwards's room. I walked in, smelled his scent everywhere and left. I had to; it was a little too much too soon. Making my way back down to the entrance hall, I stopped right before I opened the door; I turned and looked back one last time at the house I had shared my first love in.

"Goodbye Edward, I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted."

Closing the door behind me, I climbed into my truck and began my days drive to Kelowna.

XOX

Mass Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I simply use them to write Twifics (secret shame)

So this is chapter one I have decided that there will be three chapter in total and one prologue. I'm writing this fic purely because I want to put my idea out there, I could care less about reviews, but if you do leave one flames will not be appreciated.