Chapter Thirty Two
The next few weeks I spent more and more time with both Edward and Jackson. Me and Edward seemed to be getting back what we had before I messed it all up. We were on our way home from Seattle from taking Jackson to the zoo. He had fallen asleep not long after we had started driving.
"Bella." Edward asked from the driver's side.
"Mmm." I hummed lifting my head from the window.
"Move in with me and Jackson." He slowing said making sure I heard what he said.
"What?" I asked anyway not sure if we were ready for that step in our relationship.
"You heard me." He smirked knowing that I had heard him.
"Don't you think we're moving too fast? I mean we've only just discovered this side of our relationship again and I haven't even got a job here yet and Jackson is still getting use to me being around." I tried to tell him.
"Bella we've always moved fast it's the way we are. I got you pregnant after being with you for what a month? Don't worry about a job I'm earning enough so we can live comfortably and that way you can spend as much time with Jackson as you want. And don't try and use Jackson as an excuse he's been asking me why mummy doesn't live with us. Please Bella I think it would be good for all of us especially Jackson." He pleaded.
"Fine." I huffed even though I was excited about the idea of us moving on with our lives.
"But only because you used Jackson against me." I leant over and gave him a kiss on the cheek to show him I was joking.
"If it means you'll say yes so quickly I'll use him more often." He laughed. We pulled into Edwards's driveway about an hour later where I lifted a sleeping Jackson from his car seat and place him in his bed. I was just standing in the doorway watching Jackson sleep when Edward came up behind me placing his hands on my hips and his chin on my shoulder.
"He's something isn't he?" Edward asked.
"Yeah I can't believe we made him, he's so perfect." I sighed as I leant my head on his shoulder.
"He's so prefect it makes you want to have more." He whispered into my ear.
"Edward" I warned knowing where he was going with this.
"What." He asked stupidly, turning me around so that I was facing him.
"Please don't ruin this moment." I begged.
"I wasn't trying to ruin anything, I was just stating a fact." He reasoned. I pushed him out of the door way and closed Jackson's door so we wouldn't interrupt his sleep.
"I'm really not ready for this conversation. You've already asked me to move in with you today." I said to him as I poured myself a glass of water.
"Why aren't we ready to have this conversation? We already have a son together, your moving in I don't see what the issue is." He said frustrated.
"Because we're not married." I replied trying to think of reasons to make this conversation go away.
"Well marry me then." He said throwing his hands up in the air annoyed.
"No." I stated firmly.
"Why?" He asked
"Because." I bit back.
"Because why?" He asked again.
"Just because." I stated not wanting to talk about this anymore.
"Just because why?" He asked again, but this time it was more annoying.
"Stop acting like a child." I snapped.
"Then stop acting like one yourself and just tell me." He said to me. It took me a minute before I let out a breath to tell him.
"I'm scared I'm going to resent the next child like I did Jackson ok? I'm scared I'm going to run off again if things get too hard with a baby. I'm just scared of everything to do with another baby. Now can we leave this please?" I said defeated. He came around the bench that was separating us before pulling me into his arms.
"Bella you have nothing to be scared of I'll be here all the way. If you do happen to have depression again then we'll get dad to give you something to help you, we know what to look for now. I know you're not ready now but I want more children with you in the future and if I have to wait 15 years for you to be ready then I'll wait. I just want you to know where I stand on the subject." I nodded into his shoulder grateful that I had a man in my life that would put up with everything I chucked at him and still come back. He turned us around so that he could sit on the bench and pull me in between his legs.
"I'll be ready one day I just don't know when." I said as I looked up to him.
"I understand that believe me I do but don't you want a sibling for Jackson? I mean you knew what it was like growing up by yourself." He said as he placed a piece of hair behind my ear.
"I do but can't we wait a couple of years." I sighed.
"I think it would be really nice to have them close in years they can grow up together and have that strong relationship like me, Alice and Emmett. I know it's not the same because I'm adopted but we all had fun because we all the same age." I could tell looking him in the eyes he really wanted this and I felt that I needed to give this to him because of everything I had put him thru.
"I'm not saying yes right now but give me a couple of months and we'll talk again." I smiled at him.
"And of course married can't forget to be married before this one right?" He asked smiling back.
"That couldn't hurt but we've already got one child out of wedlock so I suppose it doesn't really matter." I stood on my tip toes to give him a kiss, which he deepened.
"Why don't we take this to my bedroom just in case Jackson wakes up?" He said as he jumped down before lifting me up so my legs wrapped around him.
"Edward I love you." I told him as he laid me on his bed.
"I love you to Bella." He said giving me a breath taking smile before kissing me again. He made quick work of my clothes before I started on his. As soon as we were naked he pushed into me.
"Oh God." I moaned.
"Are you alright baby?" He asked.
"I'm fine just don't stop." I moaned again when he pulled out and pushed back into me. He set a pace which was bringing us both to our ends.
"Bella I'm going to come. I uh can't hold it." He groaned into my neck.
"Do it." I told him as I grabbed his ass feeling it tense as he released into me. We laid there panting for a minute before he rolled over pulling the covers over me and wrapping his arms around me.
"That was amazing." He said as he nuzzled into my neck.
"I know." I replied as I snuggled in closer to him.
"We should probably get dress just in case Jackson comes in, in the middle of the night." He said as he got up to grab clothes.
"Here wear this." He threw one of his shirts at me before I picked up my underwear. He climbed back into bed wearing a set of boxers.
"Let's sleep, we have a big day tomorrow moving your stuff in." I nodded against his shoulder.
"I still have to tell my dad and Sue." I mumbled.
"I think he knew it was coming but we'll talk to him tomorrow." We both fell asleep not long after.
Edward was right Jackson came in at about one in the morning, I knew this because he patted my arm till I woke up. This was the first time I had actually slept here in Edward's bed.
"Mummy wants you doing in Daddy's bed?" He asked sleepily.
"I was sleeping. Come up here baby." I said to him as I held my arms out to him to help him up. He climbed up and snuggled into my chest before falling asleep. I leant down and gave him a kiss before going back to sleep myself.
I was the first awake in the morning, I was going to get up to make breakfast for both of my boys but I was stuck in the middle with Edward hugging me from behind and Jackson still asleep where he was. I knew when Edward was waking up because his hold on me became tighter before he sighed and let his grip loosen.
"Morning." He mumbled.
"Morning." I whispered back. He looked over my shoulder and saw Jackson and realised why I was whispering.
"He come in last night?" He asked continuing to whisper.
"Yeah about one." I looked over my shoulder so I could look at him a bit more, even in the mornings he was gorgeous.
"He normally wakes me up." He said as he frowned.
"He woke me up and asked why I was in Daddy's bed, I told him I was sleeping. I thought you could tell him today while I tell my dad and then we can pack my stuff up. I think I've only got a bag and a few boxes." I told him.
"Whatever you want love." He said as he gave me a kiss and got out of bed leaving me with our sleeping son.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"To make us breakfast so we can go and get your stuff." He said as he walked out of the door.
About an hour later we were all awake, dressed and on our way to my dad's. As soon as we had let Jackson out of the car he ran up to the house yelling out for my dad and Sue.
"He really does love them doesn't he?" I smiled at Edward.
"Yeah he does." He said as he took my hand leading me towards the house.
"Thank you for letting them be a part of his life even when I wasn't here." I told him as I put my head on his shoulder.
"I wouldn't have had it any other way." He gave me a chaste kiss before opening the door where my dad was walking down the hallway with Jackson on his hip.
"So mummy was sleeping in daddy's bed huh?" My dad asked Jackson as he gave me and Edward a look.
"Yeah and then mummy hugged me and I fell sleep poppy." Jackson enthusiastically told my dad.
"Right why don't you go and find Nanny and tell her, I bet she would find that really interesting." He said as he place Jackson on the ground. Jackson quickly ran off looking for Sue.
"So something you want to tell me?" My dad asked.
"Um yeah dad, me and Edward are sort of together." I told him nervously.
"And she's agreed to move in with me and Jackson." Edward butted in.
"Well it was about time, I knew you two couldn't hate each other forever. It's good to see because that little boy deserves a proper family." My dad came over and gave me a hug before giving Edward's shoulder a squeeze.
"So can I expect wedding bells soon?" Sue asked as she walked in carrying Jackson.
"Not yet." I said giving Edward a look telling him not to go there right now.
"Well doesn't matter as long as you two are happy." She said as she cupped my cheek giving me a motherly smile.
"I just came around to get some of my stuff, do you mind helping me Sue? Edward still has to explain it to Jackson."
"Of course not." She wrapped her arm around my shoulder pulling me away from Edward.
"Come on little man, we have things we need to talk about." Edward took Jackson from Sue's other arm before walking towards the lounge room.
"Oh I have to watch this." My dad chuckled.
Like I predicted it didn't take me and Sue long to pack my stuff into boxes. We had just brought the last box downstairs when Jackson walked towards me.
"Mummy?" He asked quietly.
"Yes baby." I placed the box down and kneeled in front of him.
"You move in with us."
"Yeah if that's ok with you?" I asked hoping he was ok with it.
"I love you mummy." He said as he wrapped his arms around my neck giving me a hug.
"I love you to baby, so is that a yes." He nodded against my shoulder. I was little worried because he was being really quiet. I stood up picking him up at the same time.
"You ok?" I asked as I put my hand to his head which was a little hot.
"I not well mummy." He mumbled. I walked with him in my arms to the lounge room where Edward and my father were having a discussion.
"Edward." His head shot up at my voice and he went bright red.
"What were you two talking about?" I knew him and my dad were discussing something important about me because Edward was acting nervous.
"Nothing uh what's wrong?" He said as he walked over to us.
"He's not feeling well and he's a little hot." Edward brought his hand to Jackson's forehead like I had done.
"What's wrong little man?" Edward asked as he looked into Jackson's face.
"My tummy." Jackson didn't even lift his little head from my shoulder.
"I think we need to take him home and let him sleep it off. I don't think it's too serious probably just a 24 hour bug." He brushed Jackson's hair out of his face before turning to my dad.
"We might go Charlie get him settled."
"Sure you go and make sure my grandson is fine." He came over and gave me and Jackson a kiss on the cheek before shaking Edward's hand.
"Bye Sue." I said as I walked past her to the door.
"Bye sweetie bring him over when he's better." I nodded my head before giving Jackson a kiss on the top of his head and walking to Edward's car. While I put Jackson in his car seat, Edward and my dad quickly put my boxes in the car.
"Alright let's get this little guy home." Edward said as he got in the driver's seat.
"He'll be alright Bella." He grabbed my hand giving it a squeeze.
"I know I just don't like seeing him like this." I looked in the backseat to see Jackson already asleep.
"It never gets easier you just have to remember he'll get better it's a part of growing up." He gave me a little smile before turning back to the road.
When we got home Edward got my boxes out of the car while I took Jackson inside and got some soup ready for his lunch.
It was a while later when I was putting my stuff away when I walked into the lounge room and found Edward and Jackson lying there together. Jackson was fast asleep while Edward stroked his hair.
"Hey" I whispered, kneeling next to the lounge.
"Hey" He whispered back.
"He asleep, do you want me to move him?" I smiled just looking at Jackson he was the most beautiful child I had ever seen and I was so lucky that he was my son.
"No he's fine, he sleeps better if he's with me when he's sick." Edward said.
"I wish I knew all of this." I told him.
"You will one day it'll just take time." He offered me a smile.
"I've unpacked all of my stuff, I cleared out a shelf in the bathroom for my stuff, I hope you don't mind." I tore my eyes away from my sleeping angel so that I could look at Edward.
"I wouldn't have it any other way." I bent forward and gave him a kiss.
"I love you." He said as I pulled away.
"I love you to."
The rest of the afternoon we spent with Jackson just laying in the lounge room and watching movies because he didn't feel like doing anything else. I loved that we could have this family day even though it was because my baby was sick. Looking at Jackson, I knew I wanted to have another baby one day because I had missed out on so much of his life but I wanted to be able to focus on my relationship with him for a while before me and Edward had that discussion again.
Sorry I'm getting slack on my updates. I'm going to try and wrap this story up soon.