The shifting of the bed caused Sophie is stir. She didn't need her eyes to adjust to the dark to know what was occurring next to her. She sighed loudly as she reached out and touched the bare back of the person sitting on the edge of the bed. Sian turned back and Sophie could make out those crystal blue eyes looking down at her. She was sure than even in the darkest places of earth those eyes would still be able to stand out. Sophie knew what was about to happen the same thing that happened every time but it didn't dull the ache that was growing in her chest. There was only one thing that would stop the pain growing inside her, and she knew that all her wishful thinking was not about to make it come true. Sophie squeezed her eyes shut trying to push away her raging emotions, she should have been use to this by now…however she wasn' breathed deeply as she felt the soft finger tips of Sophie tracing her skin, her touch seemed to be leaving a scorching mark in it's wake. As though Sophie was leaving her presence known, tangible prove of what was happening for the world to see. Yet the blonde didn't lean forward away from the other woman, instead she rocked back slightly allowing Sophie's fingers to reach the nape of her neck. Her head fell back as she enjoyed the soft feeling of being exploded. Those hands that touched and caressed her, entered her and pushed her past and through ecstasy, she would never tire of them, Sian would always come back for their touch. She didn't care that she sat naked and exposed to Sophie completely venerable, the brunette would never take advantage or ridicule those parts she detested of herself. This was the only time she ever complete, like herself, like Sian Powers."You're leaving aren't you?" Sophie said softly and Sian hated herself instantly. She didn't reply for a few moments knowing that the second she did the brunette would cease to touch her. Allowing herself to savour the moment a minute longer she nodded silently and Sophie's fingers stilled. "I have to." And just like that her back felt cold from the lack of contract. "Stay…stay here with me." Sophie almost begged and the strings of Sian's heart tighten. She couldn't look behind her, she couldn't see those intense blue eyes, she didn't want to see how they looked broken. "I can't." She replied simply, the regret and sorrow evident in her voice but to Sophie they just cut her already wounded core. "You can't or you won't?" There was a new hard edge to her voice and Sian brought her hands up to her face, roughly rubbing her brow. "It's not that simple, you know that." She muttered through her fingers, her words were barely recognisable but Sophie heard them."No it is that simple Sian." The brunette said as she sat up covering herself with the sheet. They'd had this discussion before and Sophie knew how it would end but she still continued anyway. She never knew one day it might end differently. "I can't leave him." Sian stood up and reached for her white shirt that had been discarded on the hotel's chair in the far corner. Slipping it on without a bra she began to button it turning to face Sophie as she did so. Sophie could not stop her eyes from travelling the length of Sian's tanned body taking in the beautiful form that she had loved since she was 15. Her mind betrayed her angry, hurt demeanour as it flicked through her memories of that body; the way her back arched and caused her stomach to tense when she came around Sophie's fingers or the way her leg would rest over Sophie's shoulder while her tongue tasted the blonde. Having those slender fingers treaded in her brown hair as she held her head in place. Subconsciously she licked her lips before silently cursing herself for getting so easily distracted. "Soph…" "Don't okay. Don't keep giving me your excuses, I don't believe them and I don't think you do either." She said bitterly. Sian walked back to the bed leaving the top buttons of the shirt loose, she reached out to the brunette as turned her head away. Sian's heart broke at the gesture and she couldn't stop her eyes from glazing over. "Just go, it's what you're good at." Her words were like venom and Sian thought they could have cut through her flesh, she winced and it took all of Sophie's strength not to comfort her. "Do you think this is easy for me? Do you think I wanted this?" She didn't raise her voice, but Sophie heard the cracks causing the brunette to swallow hard fighting her own tears. "You're the one who married him!" Sophie shouted unable to control herself. Throwing the sheet back she picked up her black bra from the floor forcefully doing it up. She couldn't sit their naked any longer she felt to exposed to the pain, as thought clothing herself might somehow add some sort of protection. "It was you who left me remember, not the other way around." Sian shot back as she watched Sophie throw her black skin tight dress over her head. "I never left you Sian, not really." She replied as she pulled the dress down hard."You went to America for 18 months, what did you expect me to do? Wait for you? I didn't even know if you were going to come back." It had left her shattered and a shell of herself when Sophie had gone."I asked you to come with me!" She shouted back her face flushed with rage, they'd had this fight a thousand times and yet she could still feel the same amount of anger."I couldn't just drop everything. I had a life Sophie, one that I wanted you to be a part of." Sian's voice raised a few octaves, she hated the way Sophie could make her blood boil, but she was the only person who get under her skin in this way, and she revelled in it. "So you showed me that by marrying Ryan?…Argh!" She cried out in frustration. "I can't keep going around in circles with you Sian." Her aggravation gave way to tears and Sophie stood in the middle of the room looking completely broken, her chest heaving fist clenched unable to take her eyes of Sian. "Walk out that door then. If you can walk out of that door you'll ever hear from me again. You'll be free." Sian said standing up on the other side of the room staring at eyes that owned her soul. Sophie's jaw set as she tried to will herself to move. "You'll meet someone else, have it all." Sian went on walking slowly over to the brunette. "But she won't be me." She stated and Sophie wanted to roll her eyes but she couldn't stop staring at the blonde intensely. "She won't know that your right eye has flecks of gold." She continued walking forward and Sophie knew she was helpless. "She won't know how to make you moan the way I do." They now stood face to face and Sophie hated herself for allowing the blonde to have this effect on her. "She won't know you like I do Sophie, she won't love you like I do.""Do you love me though?" She said barely a whisper. "With every inch of me." Her breath was hot on Sophie's lips and she had to stop herself from leaning forward and capturing Sian's bottom lip between her teeth. "Leave him." "Give me time." She said and Sophie was too lost in those blue eyes to know if that was a promise or an excuse. And she didn't care as she crashed her lips into Sian's, holding the girls small frame flush against her own. Wanting and needing the contact, the reassurance that Sian was hers if only for this second she belonged her and her alone. Silent tears cascaded down Sophie's cheeks as Sian sucked on her tongue tasting the salty droplets. They were constantly raw and on the verge of falling apart, ripping their world apart and yet they couldn't stay away. They were like two reactors unable to escape the other, they had tried. Honestly. They had never planned for this. What had started as a stolen kiss two months ago and snowballed into an affair that consumed them. The duo lived for moments together, where it was just them and the only witnesses they had were the stars that shone down on them. Sian's teeth firmly tugged on her lip and they pressed their foreheads together taking much needed breath. Sophie's hand's rested loosely on Sian's hips as she cried openly. "I wish I could hate you." The words hurt the blonde but she understood the sentiment. "I wish I could walk out that door and never look back." Sian removed her hand from Sophie's neck grabbing the brunette's own hand and bringing it to rest on her chest. "Do you feel that? It does that for you. No one else has that effect on me." She pleaded. She loved Ryan, but she had realised too late that she had mistake that love for something more. He had become a good friend after Sophie had left, and she enjoyed his company. But they had no passion, no desire for each other. Her body constantly craved Sophie, her skin crawled with need for the brunette. It was a craving she never experience for Ryan and it broke her heart. With that said however they had only been married four months and she couldn't leave him, she couldn't hurt him. So she stayed, sleep walking through her life with him only really feeling alive in these moments with Sophie. "But it shouldn't hurt this much." She managed to say as Sian used her other hand to wipe Sophie's tears away, feeling her own eyes start to match the action. "I love you so much. I get you for stolen moments and he gets you all of you.""Not my heart and not my soul, they have always been and always will be yours Sophie Webster." She kissed the brunette's forehead as she wrapped her arms tightly around her knowing she would have to leave any moment. Back to her husband. Back to her normal life. And leave her heart in this room in Sophie's hands.