The bell rang loudly in the corridor as it sat situated outside her class room and Sophie looked at her eager class with a smirk. They tried to pack their possessions away secretly and she attempted not to chuckle at their desire to escape. "Go on, get out of here." Sophie finally gave in under their desperate eyes. "Don't forget your homework for Monday. When I say an essay I mean more than a paragraph! Yes I'm talking to you James!" She shouted over their scrapping chairs and instant watched the last 14 year old leave her room and she was alone. Sighing deeply she slouched down in her chair at the front of the room while pulling her phone from her top draw. The screen was that of her nephew, no new calls or messages. She closed her eyes in frustration, willing for some kind of connection from Sian. It had been over a week since she had last seen the blonde and she had only heard from Sian once, a message that simply stated 'I love you'. Although the message had caused her heart to soar, it had now crashed to the ground and now lay torn and bloody on the floor. The horrible part was that Sophie was now accustom to this feeling, it felt like she was living a half life scrambling for moments with Sian to get her wanted to text the blonde, tell her how her day was, tell her that all her thoughts were consumed by her but she couldn't; they had agreed. Rather Sian had agreed that Sophie should not phone or message her, Sophie understood but it didn't mean it did not hurt. The brunette was unable to control her emotions and Sian had explained she couldn't risk Ryan seeing anything on her phone. So Sophie had agreed while the blonde had trailed soft kisses down her neck leaving a mark as she sucked and bit down on Sophie's skin. She felt like she was living her life waiting, waiting for a sign from Sian, a little glimmer of light and stolen time rubbed her face as she tried to drown out the sounds of the children outside, envying their innocence of youth and their belief that real love existed and it did so forever. She only had one option when it came to drifting away from the world and that was slipping into memories of Sian. The blonde was the only thing she knew of that could calm her busy mind. She thought of the way Sian would straddle her waist, lean down and kiss her as though they were the last people alive. How her hands would caress her, taking her time as if memorising every inch of Sophie's body. The way she would whisper dirty ideas into her ear, driving Sophie's body to edge without ever having to touch her. Or the way Sian would pull her closer when Sophie's fingers were buried inside her, needing the deeper contact. They had a passion that could set the world on fire leaving them alone, standing in the rumble they had caused. Her body trembled with these thoughts and she suddenly became hot to her core. She shifted uncomfortable as she felt the wetness grow between her is not to say that this was all that subsisted between them, although their relationship was intense There were moments of calmness and stillness that completed them. They would lay there intertwined, not knowing where one began the other stopped. Together in these moments their fingers would idly trace shapes on exposed flesh while they talked, sharing secrets they feared to utter to another living soul. There was only one topic that stayed hidden in these times and that was Ryan. Talking about him would only bring the world they'd built together crumbling down, so Sophie ignored it until Sian left her to go back to him. The thought of him touching her, tasting her and filling her the way she did made her skin crawl with jealousy and sometimes she couldn't even recognise herself in the mirror."It's lunch!" The shout from the door made her jump and she couldn't contain the small yelp that escaped her lips. "Oops, sorry did I scare ya!" The male chuckled at seeing the girls reaction."Not half." She replied shaking her head while waiting for her heart beat to return to normal. Alex was the science teacher at the school and one of her closest friends. Although he was unaware of her relationship with Sian, that remained a secret that was disclosed to only them."You want me to check you over? I am a doctor." He said with a smirk and she narrowed her eyes playfully at him."You teach science." She replied with an even tone."Biology. It's all about the body." He continued as his smug grin became wide and she smiled back him unable to resist. He was charming, there was no doubt and when she had first started teaching at Weatherfield High school he had asked her out. She had been flattered by his attention and wandering eyes but she knew who she was and even if dating him made life easier she wouldn't deny her sexuality. After his embarrassment had died away and inappropriate jokes had subsided they had become friends."Until I see a PhD you aren't coming anywhere near me." She told him as she collected her bag, tossing her phone into it, trying to hide her annoyance with the inanimate object."I could show a Ph-" He began with a twinkle in his eye that certainly melted many girls heart. But it would be pointless to melt hers as it already lay in pieces in her chest."Please." She interrupted him with a knotted brow. "I beg you do not to use that joke. It would end our friendship on account of it being so bad and the mental image is just too much." She told him and he laughed loud and deeply before holding the door open for her."Worth a shot. I'm still convinced you are gonna drop women and give me a go. I mean what do they have that I don't?" She looked over to him as her eyes settled upon his chest and the corner of her mouth lifted. His eyes dropped while Alex's hands went to the area and ran over the flat form beneath his shirt. "Well...that could be arranged, a diet of KFC and McDonalds and I'd have a great pair." She bumped her hip into him as the rounded the school's reception heading towards the stairs for the staff room."Miss Webster?" For a few second she forget that it was her name, it still threw her being called by her surname but she turned back to find the receptionist smiling at her."Yeah?" She replied noticing the way the woman's eyes looked over her. She wasn't conceited enough to believe the woman was interested romantically in her but rather she was curious. All the staff were aware that Sophie was gay, she had spent her teens hiding and denying who she was, she did not plan to continue that into adulthood. They watched her sometimes as if trying to put her into the stereotype of a lesbian, but that was like trying to fit a square into a triangle. It amused the brunette as they tried to work her out. Alex stopped midway up the stairs when he realised he was alone."You have a visitor. I tried your office but I got no answer." She explained and Sophie frowned as she craned her neck to see into the waiting area."If it's my sister can you tell her I have a meeting." Only Rosie visited her at work, usually requesting a babysitter but Sophie had plans that evening that she'd already rearranged twice. However she knew that if she saw her nephew; Blake his big brown eyes would win her over and she'd call for a rain check again."It's not your sister." She didn't have to explain further because walking into her line of sight stood the last person she expected to see; Sian. Her body wanted to run over and embrace the girl, take in her vanilla scent and she hated herself for the automatic reaction. She was angry. Sian had communicated once with her, a simple text and nothing more. Sophie had literally burned holes in her phone with her eyes waiting to hear from the blonde, and her heart ached every night she went to bed without any contact. So she stood still as if her feet were made of stone. Sian seemed to sense her concern and moved towards her cautiously, her eyes were soft and Sophie could feel her resolve starting to crumble. She detested the way Sian could effect her like the full moon to the tide, it was out of her hands and beyond her control."Hey." The blonde said although Sophie didn't hear any words only saw those full pink lips move."What are you doing here?" She finally managed to speak through her dry mouth, but the sentence came out harder than she intended it took a few more steps forward until she was directly in front of Sophie. "I wanted to see you." Her voice was like honey, sweet and yet sickly, drawing her in and yet stinging her all at once. She placed her slender fingers on Sophie's waist and the brunette stepped back instantly as though the touch burned through to her skin. The pain of the rejection flashed across Sian's blue eyes and Sophie immediately wanted to reach up and cup Sian's face, and ease her away her aching. "I'm at work." She hissed out turning to look at the receptionist who was now busying herself but when her eyes looked to Alex he wore a confused expression. "Sorry, I missed you." She leaned forward and whispered into the brunette's ear and shivered as Sian's hot breath tickled her neck. Sophie had adjust to the way her body would betray her when Sian was around but that didn't mean she was happy with it. The problem was Sophie was elated that Sian had just turned her, it caused butterflies to be released into her stomach and heart beat had quicken at once. Sophie felt as though she was constantly in the middle of a war zone with her heart and head battling for control, the battle had been won many times but war waged on. "Well you should have-" She started but the cough over her shoulder caused her to stop and turn around to see Alex; who's eyes were roaming Sian's body. The blonde was dressed for work in pinstriped trousers and a matching waist coat the outfit was completed with a crisp white shirt and a pair of black stilettos. She looked stunning, breath takingly beautiful, but the truth was she was always heart stoppingly gorgeous; which only ever made it harder for Sophie to pull away."Who do we have here?" Alex said moving past Sophie and extended his hand to Sian. The brunette was not happy with the way her friend was staring at the blonde, stripping her slowly with his eyes and she unconsciously elbowed him in the ribs. He jerked his hand back before Sian could accept it and he looked at Sophie while rubbing his side. Sian knew that look, the flames behind Sophie's blue eyes, and she enjoyed the jealousy Sophie was displaying. It restored the hope that had started to flee at Sophie's rejection. "She's married. Leave her alone." Sophie said trying to sound playful but Sian could hear the firm edge to it. Sian adored the way Sophie's emotions where worn on her sleeve, she could read the brunette like her favourite book. Sophie was like Wuthering Height's she had read it over and over but she still pick it up re-reading her favourite lines. The brunette was her Heathcliff, nothing could keep them apart. They transcended logic, love and reality. "Sorry, this is Alex and this is my friend Sian." Sophie introduced them and the blonde watched his face trying to see if her name caused any recognition. His features remained in a smile and it confirmed to her that Sophie had not told him about them. In a way she was glad, but Sian had heard about Alex and yet Sophie had never mentioned her to him as though she was ashamed or it was just a dirty secret. It was an irrational pain she knew this, but being around Sophie caused her emotions to become that of a teenage and they raged against her control. "The pleasure is all mine, you coming up with us?" He asked gesturing to the stairs and Sian gave Sophie a smirk before nodding. Sophie rolled her eyes, she was having trouble managing her feelings and she wasn't sure how much longer she could keep this up. Although she was angry and hurt every part of her ached to grab the blonde and kiss her, slip her tongue into her mouth and pull her body close. Her fingertips shook with excitement at the idea and she swallowed her feelings down."Yeah! I always wanted to see what was behind that staffroom door when I was at school." Sian smiled as she walked behind Alex, she let her hand run down Sophie's arm and noted the way the brunette's eyes slipped shut at the touch. It sent a wave of excitement through her, how one simple gesture could have such an result on the brunette."You went to school here too?" Alex asked."Yeah, me and Sophie went to school together.""Yeah I know Sophie did but I didn't realise you went so far back together, you must have some great stories on our Soph." He said turning back and poking his tongue at Sophie who lowered her brows shaking her head back at him. Sian felt the instant pang of jealous 'our Soph', Sian never wanted to call herself possessive but when it came to Sophie she didn't want anyone else having claim on her. When it came to her oldest friend it was like having a raging creature released into her chest, ripping her part with want and desire and the inability to share the brunette with anyone else. "I might have a few." Sian tried to say light heartedly and flashed him a forced smile. "But if I told you I'd have to kill you." She chuckled and Alex joined her. Sophie rolled her eyes again behind them, feeling uneasy as she approached the door. "Where have you been hiding this one." He said as he stopped at the door. "So what do you do Sian, model, beauty queen?" He asked and she shook her head with a grin."Wow, does that ever work?" He shrugged his shoulders, laughing. "I'm training to become a barrister, I'm in my last few months of my pupillage.""Okay that's impressive, and you seriously went to this high school?" Sian smiled, she'd worked hard after school to achieve good A-levels and get a good career. Truth be told it had been Sophie who had pushed her, worked with her, encouraged her, loved her. Even in her moments of complete self doubt the brunette had been there guiding her on, holding her hand and pulling her though it. She owed it all to Sophie. Sian hated the way things were, she wanted to be able to walk into this building and kiss Sophie, for them not to be a secret behind closed doors. As much as she knew she did, she never wanted to hurt the brunette. But it was too late now, she was beyond the point of return, beyond addiction. "Okay." Alex's words brought her back and she nodded, hoping he hadn't been saying anything else. "You are about to see the teachers in their natural environment, please do not make eye contact with them and if they approach you just smile politely and move on." Sian laughed lightly and Sophie let out a frustrated sigh at the attention that Alex was lavishing on her. He opened the door and gestured for Sian to enter, the blonde walked in followed by Sophie who shot Alex a warning glance. Sian stood there trying not to smile, as she scanned the room. The teacher sat in different groups each with a mug which she suspected were probably coffee. They all seemed completely subdued, she wasn't sure what she had expected but it hadn't been this. "This is a little disappointing." She said and laughed. "Yeah me and Sophie are like the jocks of this place. Prom king and queen if you like." Alex explained with a snigger. "You want a coffee or cuppa?" Sian nodded, she had a long day in court the afternoon and needed all the energy she could get and then she had the entire weekend off. "A coffee please." She smiled sweetly at him and Sophie thought that she saw the man swoon slight. With him gone Sian moved closer to Sophie, needing to feel the body heat of the brunette, to be close to her, maybe have their skins touch briefly and in that moment to feel alive. Her mind was suddenly taken over by thoughts of Sophie above her, her weight between the legs, Sophie fingers inside her pushing hard into her aching core, making her feel complete and it took every thing she has note to crash her lips into the taller woman. "Sian, what were you thinking?" Sophie asks in a hushed voice looking around to see if anyone was watching them."I wanted to see you." She explains sadly and Sophie hated that those words have caused her heart beat to quicken even more, if that was possible. "I haven't seen you all week." "And who's fault is that." It was not a question it was an accusation."Mine, I know that. But I haven't been able to get away. I haven't been able to get you out of my head." She looked at Sophie with those full blue eyes, a look she had mastered when they were 15, a look that caused Sophie's resolve to drift away. Despite herself Sophie smiled. "But I have good news." She went on with a wicked lop sided grin."Which is?" She was almost too scared to asked, a stolen hour in a hotel room? "Ryan is going away tonight until Sunday, so it's just you and me all weekend baby." She looks so happy and Sophie was wounded that she cannot return the same excited look. Sian looks at her with a knotted forehead. "Don't look too happy.""I am, I mean it. But I can't do tonight. I'm sorry. But Saturday and Sunday we can be together." The confused expression on Sian seems to spread to her entire face, with a side of anger added as well. Sophie again scanned the room quickly to make sure they weren't attracting any attention. Sian lets out a mouthful of hot air, her eyes burning into Sophie."We hardly get anytime alone together, and here is a whole weekend. What's so important?"Sophie bit her bottom lip considering her answer, she had two options, the truth or a lie…"I have dinner plans with my family, I can't get out of it." Sophie prided herself on her honest nature and couldn't help but be disgusted at the way her lie had rolled off her tongue so easily. She saw the sceptical look in the woman standing in front of her and held her breath wondering if her words had been before Sian could speak a tall tanned woman stood beside her. She was wearing a black hockey skin that showed of long slender, toned thighs and a tight black polo shirt that seemed to hug her body in a way that was inappropriate for a teacher. Her long black hair cascaded down past her shoulders in natural waves that seemed to frame her attractive olive face. Sian didn't know why but she instantly didn't like her. "Hey, sorry to interrupt Soph, but are we still on for tonight. Or am I getting another rain check?" She smiled warming at the brunette, and Sian noticed the way Sophie's cheeks coloured slightly at the stranger's appearance. Sian couldn't work out if her anger was due to this woman looking at Sophie in such a delicate way or because of the blatant lie she had just been 's felt her cheeks redden at being caught out on her lie so quickly, if she still believed in God she would have thought he was punishing her. Like most of hopes and beliefs, her idea's of the church had come crashing down around her. "Erm, yeah, we're still on for that." She said with a forced smile, Ellie was the school's P.E teacher and she'd been asking Sophie out for the past month. She was pretty and funny and Sophie could not think of a logical reason to say no. She wasn't in a relationship and the person she loved was not hers to have, so she'd said yes with a heavy heart. Feeling brave she risked a glance at Sian. She knew that look on the blonde's face, it resulted in either tears or an argument; sometimes both and in their environment right now she couldn't risk either. "If it isn't my favourite love birds." Alex came back and Sophie couldn't help but wish the ground would open up and swallow her. "God they make me sick these two. With all the lovey dovey eyes." He laughed and handed the mug in his hand to the blonde, her eyes had glossed over and Sophie could only watch her helplessly. "Here ya go." But Sian didn't take the cup instead she shook her head, as if trying to erase the last two minutes from her memory. "Thanks, but sorry I've got to go. Gotta be back in court. Forgot." She mumbled before fleeing the room, Sophie watched her go feeling completely conflicted on what she should do. On one hand she had a perfectly attractive, lovely single woman standing beside her and then on the other there was Sian."Wow, remind me never to hire her if I need someone to defend me." "Sorry, be back." She didn't wait to hear if they said anything to her, she knew the pull to Sian would cause her to go chasing down the stairs, jumping down the last three to catch the blonde before she reached the car. Sophie knew she had a good person interested in her up stairs but there was only one problem; she wasn't Sian. The brunette wanted Ellie to be enough for her, for Ellie to be that someone to her, but she wasn't and in all honesty Sophie wasn't sure anyone ever would be. "Sian wait, seriously, wait." Luckily the blonde had clearly parked her car off school grounds so they were away from the pupils and the teachers. "Why? So you can lie to me some more?" She replied bitterly but didn't stop her quick pace or turn around. Sian pulled out her car keys and Sophie heard the doors unlock. Speeding up her jog she reached the car as the shorter girl pulled the door open, Sophie slammed the door shut ripping the handle out of Sian's hand. "I've got court.""Not yet you don't, you're lying.""Well you'd be the expect on that." She shot back as she sighed heavily. "Let me in my car." She said through gritted teeth."What do you expect me to do Sian, wait around alone until we can be together?" Sophie asked sadly refusing to move out of Sian's way. She didn't understand why they did this two each other, constantly hurting and mending the other in a vicious cycle that neither could break. The blonde wanted to scream 'YES', to say that she didn't want another soul on the planet to touch Sophie, that she'd die if another person pressed her lips against the brunettes. She wanted to be selfish and shout out that Sophie was hers and hers alone, but instead she bit her lip to bite it back. Sophie watched the blonde struggle with herself, trying to articulate her thoughts, step into barrister mode. "I…" She tried but she couldn't, her eyes that had been threatening tears gave way and a single salty droplet rolled down her cheek slowly. "I'm numb Sian." Sophie tried to explain. "I spend my days unable to feel anything and the only time I do is when I'm with you.""Surely that's a good thing, that I make you feel." "Not when it feels like I'm fading without you.""Don't go out tonight, stay in with me please." Sian almost begged stepping closer to Sophie and snaking her hands around her waist. "We can stay at yours and order take out, watching rubbish television and then I can make love to you all night. I won't have to leave you, it'll be just us all alone." As if to embellish her point she began to trace soft kisses up Sophie's neck until she reached her earlobe and sucked it into her mouth causing the brunette to let out a soft throaty moan."And then…and…then Sunday I'm left with a cold spot beside me?" She managed to say through her words were quiet and gravely, thick with a desire she was trying to ignore. Sian pulled her head back so she could look into the blue eyes of her first love; her only love. "Sophie…" She trailed off. The brunette brought her hand up tenderly and wiped away a stray tear."I know…this isn't forever. But it feels like it right now. I'll see you Saturday." She tried to say firmly. "I love you." "I love you too." She stepped forward again closing into Sophie, now suddenly able to feel the brunette's heart pounding. "Please don't go tonight, please." Sophie stepped back, hanging her head low in anguish, slowly she shook her head fighting against the impulse to cancel her plans in favour of time with Sian. "I can't. I need this. I need to be wanted.""You are wanted, I want you." She pleaded, lacing her fingers with Sophie's. "And you can have me, all of me, every inch…" Sian smiled hopefully but when Sophie began to speak again it all plummeted to the ground. "…When I can have all of you." She with drew her fingers, flexing them trying to disregard how easily her fingers fitted between Sian's. "Is it serious…I mean with that woman?" Sian asked nervously."It's only our first date, nothing is serious.""But Alex said you two were-""Ignore Alex, I hold open a door for a woman and he is imagining that I'm having a full blown affair." Her attempt to make it light heart failed. "I hate her, just for the record." Sophie couldn't help but chuckle softly."I would be hurt if you didn't." She smiled warmly before leaning forward and brushing her lips against Sian's cheek, she turned and began to retreat back towards the school. "Hey." She called back over her shoulder and saw that Sian was watching her leave. "Just so you know, she's nothing compared to you, no one ever is." Sophie admitted although she knew that they were both aware of this fact already, she wanted Sian to know that she could go on 50 dates and she'd always end up coming back to the blonde; blonde smiled softly at Sophie's words as her eyes continued to stalk Sophie as she left her. But the girls words did not completely calm her, because despite what she'd said she was still going out with another woman. Another woman who would be able to gaze at her across a table, perhaps hold her if they went dancing…walk Sophie back to her door, kiss her lips, get invited inside, strip the clothes from Sophie's toned body. The bile that climbed her throat produced an end to her nightmare of thoughts. And in that instant she was aware of only one thing, she could not allow Sophie to go tonight. Yes she was selfish but Sian didn't care the raging monster in her body was taking control and she was willingly allowing it.