Chapter One:
Though he may not know what he is meant to become, he shall know what he is not.
The morning came too quickly for Harry. He felt his friends shake him, telling him to get his arse out of bed and down the stairs for breakfast. He only groaned and rolled over. He remembered Goyle making a comment on how he'd eat Harry's breakfast for him. That didn't surprise Harry, Goyle was always eating.
After several minutes of fighting with Draco, Harry finally pushed the blankets off him, and rolled out of his bed. He regretted staying up so late in the common room, but there was nothing he could do now. No, now he had to go to his classes, deal with other students and try to avoid detention. It seemed like to much work. He groaned as he passed Draco fixing his hair in the bathrooms.
"It's about time you're up, mate." The blonde boy spoke.
"Et was late nighet" Harry muttered.
"What?" Draco looked at him, "man, learn to talk." Harry watched as the boy fixed his tie. "I'll save you a seat, hurry up." After that he left. Harry sighed as he brushed his teeth and hair, pushing it out of his eyes. Slowly he got ready before heading down to the great hall.
When he got to the Slytherin table, Draco kept true to his word and saved him a seat. As he sat down he grabbed some pumpkin juice. He wasn't in the mood for food. He hadn't slept well. Once again he had haunting nightmares. He wasn't sure why, but ever since Draco started pushing him to become a death eater he had these awful nightmares. Like every morning it just confirmed his need to escape London when he was of age.
He was already prepared to leave. He would pack a week before graduation, and have his stuff ready to go as soon as he was announced a full wizard. He didn't have people to say goodbye to. He purposely made sure of that. He had friends, but none of them would he miss enough. No, he'd only miss Ayesha, but he's suffer through that. He'd find another girl to snog.
"You ready for Potions?" He looked up from his glass at Pansy. He never liked the girl, but she followed Draco around, and that boy couldn't ignore the attention.
"No." Harry simply said.
"Someone didn't get much sleep. He must be grumpy. Maybe you shouldn't stay up all hours." Draco said with a smirk.
Sure the bloke was Harry's best friend, but it didn't mean the boy didn't want to rip the smirk right off his face. Not to mention he didn't actually like Draco. They were more friends for the benefits that came to them both. Harry had very few actual friends. He liked it that way. The fewer ties he had, the easier it was to leave.
"Ahh. Does Potter need a nap?" He hated Pansy. Everytime she was near his stomach turned and he fought to keep his food down.
"I think Pansy needs to shut up." He grumbled. He was so sick of this. So sick of all of them. He was the butt of their jokes, and he was done with it.
"Come off it" Crabbe said, before shoving his mouth with another roll.
"He's got a point." Draco said, shaking his head. "Pansy was just having some fun. Chill."
Like aways, Draco told him what to do. Harry always took orders from the blond boy. He wasn't sure why either, it was just how things went.
Harry just rolled his eyes. "I'm going to see Ayesha." he said before standing up, heading over to the Ravenclaw table. He saw the blonde girl and smiled. Ayesha was the closest thing Harry had to a girlfriend. The only reason she wasn't was because she'd be something he had to leave behind. She'd just be a goodbye. If they stayed this way, then he didn't have to worry about her when he left. She wasn't something keeping him back. Sure, it made him an asshole, but he didn't care. He cared about one thing, and that was him leaving this awful place.
"Hello beautiful." he whispered in her ear, he watched as she turned around and smiled. He gently kissed her cheek. "Fancy a walk real quick?"
"Of course." she said, smiling. She placed her hand in his, and the two of them walked out of the Great Hall.
"I heard you got in a duel last night." she said, crossing her arms over her chest.
"Ryder told you?" Harry hated Ayesha's no good brother. He was the Gryffindor seeker, a git, and often told Ayesha to cut off all ties with Harry. Harry wanted to duel him, but it'd only hurt Ayesha. Even though she was going to be left behind, Harry didn't want to hurt her more then he had too.
"Of course Ryder did. You know him and Granger are a couple." she said, before leaning against the stone wall. "Listen, I know Granger is awful, I do. I just wish you'd stop picking fights with her. It only upsets my brother, and that's all I hear. Please, spare me from my brother and his lectures." she said, sticking her bottom lip out. Though he hated to admit it, he was a sucker for her. Ayesha was beautiful in her own way. She had long blond hair that sat past her shoulders. She had these amazing dark blue eyes that reminded Harry of the ocean. She had few freckles across her nose and cheeks, and beautiful lips that Harry loved to kiss.
"Your brother is a foul git." he said, before leaning next to her, taking her hand in his. "He, however is your brother, and I guess I'll stop picking fights with that disgusting mudblood."
"Thank you." she said, before turning and kissing him.
He wouldn't lie, he was going to miss Ayesha. He was going to miss her a lot. He did make up his mind though. He had to do what he felt was best. He wasn't going to stay around and watch as the Dark Lord took over. He wouldn't join him either. He was dead set against that. He would never serve a man that killed his family. He never saw why the Malfoys did not understand that.
"Anything for you." he said, before kissing her back. He still had months to graduation and for right now he liked spending his time here, snogging Ayesha.
He planned on spending everyday till he left like that. Then he'd just have the memories. He'd live with that. But, until then he'd just worry about now, and her lips.
AN: I stayed up till almost 4 am typing this up. Sorry it took so long. What do you guys think? I promise it'll get better, I just had to introduce Ayesha, and give you some info on Ryder. Both will be major parts sooner or later.
Oi. If you haven't please read Unwanted Affairs. I'm hoping to have chapter 2 of that up very soon. Like this weekend. Chapter 2 of this should be up soon too. I hope.
Much Love, Steff.