Shelly's Note:
Okay so I have a lot going on but I'm trying to update as fast as I can
As always I own nothing
Enjoy!
Chapter 12: Jump
Sasuke walked into his house and let out a deep sigh. The house was dark, signaling that the maids had gone home and his parents had yet to come home. 'Like always,' he thought as he put his things down.
The dark haired teen climbed the stairs in the hallway, not caring to turn on the light. He merely let himself walk in the dark, because that's how he felt in that moment. He felt like he was walking in the dark all by himself and even though he had just got back from being with friends he'd never felt so alone.
Sasuke took a long shower; he felt he needed to relax his muscles. When he got out he looked in the mirror and still after he washed away what they made him, he couldn't recognize himself.
'What the hell is wrong with me?' he thought, as he looked at his reflection. 'I look like a miniature version of my brother this isn't me.' He shook his head, 'No this is what I have to be, I have to give in to get back at him...how ironic...become what I never wanted just to get back at someone...be made a fool because I was made a fool.'
He let out a frustrated sigh and punched the wall. "Ah!" he let out as he fell to the ground.
'Maybe I should just get some sleep,' he frowned.
Slowly the half naked boy got off the floor and made his way to his room, getting dressed before crawling into bed. The oversized bed just made him feel more alone.
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The next morning Sasuke woke up with an aching hand. He grimaced as he sat up and felt his weight leaned on the hand he'd punched into the wall the night before.
The only noises that could be heard told him only the maids were around the house. He sighed as he looked out the window to see the driveway empty, as he had expected. He looked at the sun as it came up and felt a hint of bitter sweetness in his heart. 'Maybe I should just forget everything, just jump into this thing and forget about everything that has happened...I'm done thinking about today, or yesterday, or tomorrow...I'm just going to jump into it.'
Sasuke walked away from the window and into his closet, grabbing the most shocking thing he could find, 'This will have to do.'
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Sasuke didn't wait for his new group. He was done waiting. He, instead, just went to school, deciding he'd just meet them there.
"What the hell Sasuke?" Suigetsu's voice rang through the halls.
The dark haired teen turned around, "What?"
"You didn't wait for us," the other boy responded.
"I didn't see the need to," he shrugged.
"Well, why not?" Suigetsu asked.
"Because, it's not like we'd be going to different places, I mean I'd see you here, why wait?" he said.
"We're friends," Karin said.
"But it's not that important," he shrugged. "You just want to approve my outfit, I'm not stupid."
"Sasuke that's not true," Suigetsu, said.
"Right," he rolled his eyes.
"I'm serious!" he said.
"Uh-huh," Sasuke said as he opened his locker.
"Besides we would have approved, you look hot today," Karin said as she grinned and ran her hand down his arm.
He pulled his arm away, "Don't touch me."
"Sorry," she snapped back.
"Besides you picked it out remember?" he said sarcastically.
"That's why it looks so good," she grinned.
"Whatever," he said as he pulled his math book out and shut his locker.
"Listen, let's just relax and talk about what we're going to do for the talent show," Suigetsu said.
"I don't care," Sasuke said in an indifferent tone.
Karin and Suigetsu looked at each other as Juugo said, "Are you feeling okay Sasuke?"
"I don't feel like talking right now," he grumbled.
"Sasuke what's wrong?" Suigetsu insisted.
"I'm just sick of being told what to do and so really I don't want to talk because I think because as you've showing in the last few minutes you like every once else can't help but try to control me," he replied in frustration.
They all looked away, feeling bad for being like everyone else.
Sasuke grabbed a few things from his bag before throwing it over his shoulder, "I just want to be by myself today."
Sasuke walked away and they all looked at each other, exchanging confused glances. "I don't get it, yesterday he was fine," Karin said.
"Maybe something happened that made him snap," Suigetsu shrugged as he watched Sasuke walk away.
"Maybe," Karin said.
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Sasuke knew he shouldn't take it out solely on his friends, considering he only had three. He was just sick of what people wanted him to be and he needed to escape. He wanted to forget of everything that had happened to him lately and it was stressing him out.
So, he took the day off of friends, of everyone. He knew better than to ditch class, that got him hit by his parents – or more so by his dad.
The dark haired boy was silent all day as he ignored most of the things said.
Naruto stared at the silent teen wondering what was wrong and why he was acting so weird. 'I wonder if his dad said something to him...or what if everything that happened is just starting to hit him...I hate not talking to him.'
"You're staring," Shikamaru said.
"Can you keep a secret?" Naruto asked as they sat alone.
"Yeah why?" he asked.
"I wasn't pretending to be his friend," Naruto said with a sigh.
"Who's Sasuke's?" Shikamaru asked.
"Yeah, and I actually fell for him, hell I still like him," Naruto said.
Shikamaru looked at him, "Yeah that was obvious."
"Really?" the blonde asked.
"I told you, you were staring," he shrugged.
"Yeah, but do you think the others noticed?" he asked.
"Nah, I doubt it," Shikamaru said as he looked over at their other friends.
"That's good," Naruto said with relief.
"Why?" the brunette asked.
"Because I don't want them to know," Naruto said, as if it were obvious.
"Why's that?" he asked.
"They wouldn't get it," Naruto said. "They are the reason it didn't work out, that stupid bet."
"Oh, yeah," Shikamaru sighed.
"Do you know why Sasuke is upset?" the blonde asked.
"No clue," Shikamaru shrugged.
"Okay, thanks," Naruto frowned.
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Sasuke only went home to get his guitar and work clothes then he went straight to the park. He loved to walk through the park during the afternoon. He sighed and made his way to his normal spot in the park.
The dark haired boy sat down and started to play his guitar to blow off some steam as he sang. He was so sick of everything, he had to get it off his chest.
Sasuke continued to play the guitar as he played his guitar in a faster tempo. He was annoyed with everything that was going on and he couldn't help but want to get everything off his chest before he saw anyone again.
Sasuke poured all of his feelings into the song that he was singing at the moment. He had worked the lyrics out in his head throughout the day, for the most part at least, and so it wasn't hard for him to get the song out.
It wasn't like the song wasn't true, in a way, he was broke – in that unlike his brother his dad didn't always just hand him cash, and so he had to work for it. He certainly was sick of his job, his boss was being far more pedophile like than he usually was. And he was ready to leave; he wanted to just escape the annoyances of the town.
Sasuke finished the song and he let out a sigh. He found that he didn't feel much better, even though he let it out. 'How could I not feel better? Maybe it's because I didn't say it to anyone? Or maybe it's because Naruto still isn't with me...how can I still want him? Crap this has got me no where!'
He looked at his watch and let out a curse, realizing that he had to get to work. Sasuke put his guitar away and grabbed his work clothes and ran to work.
TBC...
Song of inspiration: Jump by Simple Plan
Shelly's End Note: This chapter really was to just show where Sasuke's feelings are at this point and is kind of a filler chapter I have the chapters planned out and depending on how easy or difficult the chapters want to be to write there will be around 20 chapters at the moment though I already know that the next chapter may be one of those that gets cut so it may just skip to the next one so there may be anywhere from 17 to 20 chapters as long as I don't lose my chapter list again! I already have them listed and described so that when I get to this one in my update order it should be easy to update this...I feel this chapter was kind of blah so I could really use some feedback on it...Sorry it's so short