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(Amu's POV)

I woke up in the morning, warmth all around me. I tried to shift but couldn't find out how. It was like I was almost being held down. When I opened my eyes I wasn't in my room anymore, but somewhere else. When I was able to fully focus my eyes, I could easily tell where I was, Ikuto's room. How I got here I had no idea. It wasn't until I felt the two arms that were wrapped around me, holding me close to him.

"Ikuto," I whispered, trying to wake him up. "Ikuto," I said louder. "I-ku-to!" I pernouciated his name, almost yelling in a whisper. He only buried his head further into my neck, cuddling closer. "Ikuto!" He jumped awake, startled. I turned around, now free from his grasp. "How did I get here?"

"Huh?" He looked at me, confused, then around his room. You'd think the man was either having a really good dream or a nightmare at the way he looked around his room, trying to place himself.

"I asked you how I got here. I was sleeping in my room the last time I recall." He looked at me, trying to place my face with a name, or so it looked. "And when did you come home?"

"I carried you here," He said, still focusing on my face. "And... I came home..." He turned around, looking at the clock he'd placed on his desk that I'd never noticed. "Yesterday." He looked back at me then cuddled close to me once more.

"Hey! When yesterday?"

"When you were asleep on the couch. I didn't want to wake you. I must have been somewhere when you changed to a bath and fell asleep in there." He yawned and pulled me closer to him, rubbing his head under my jaw and against my neck. "You slept a lot today, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I didn't sleep well the night before so I was just caching up."

"I saw. Your decretive skills are amazing."

"Yours aren't to bad yourself."

He let out a light chuckle before pulling away and looking up at me. There was a look of shame in his eyes before he started to kiss along my neck. He nibbled on my ear, pressed closer to me, and let his hands move all over me. I broke into him, giving into the passionate kisses he laid upon my lips. His hands began to move under my shirt but he quickly retracted when my body stiffened. He moved away, looking down at me with concern.

"No," I said in a low murmur, "Ikuto, please don't stop." I could feel the flush on my cheeks, like I was twelve again, being teased by him again. He wasn't shocked, but he did caution on his movements. Taking things slow.

He laid shy kisses on my cheeks, then my lips. He placed both hands on either side of my face, holding me closer to him. Soon though, it was agonizing him and he demanded entrance. His shy little kisses becoming deep french kisses. Soon after, I had to take initiative and take his shirt off before he'd think of taking mine off. He was being to overly cautious with me and my nerve was beginning to stretch to unreasonable

I rolled on top of him, rubbing my chest against his as I began a new kiss. He shuddered underneath me and that is when I knew I was beginning to break his control. I moved away from his hungry kisses and started on his ear. Blowing on it, kissing it, and sucking on it. Before I knew it I was on my back again, Ikuto laying kisses from the edges of my lips to the bottom of my collar bone. He sucked on my neck and blew on my ear.

I moaned, tangling my fingers into his hair, pulling him closer. He slid his hands down my sides, slowly moving them up my stomach, then down again. "Ikuto," I called his name through jagged breaths. He stopped and looked at me. "I need you, Ikuto." He looked confused, it could be taken so many ways and in this situation it might just mean something more than, "I need you inside me." "Ikuto," I wrapped my arms around his neck and held myself close to him. "I want to be yours," I felt the tears begin but I continued, "I want to be yours and no one else's, and I want you to be mine." He pulled away from me a little, kissing the rim of my eyes. He would hum, "Mhmm" as I continued to talk. "I want to only be touched by you. I want to be all yours and no one else's. I want us to be together. I don't ever want to be separated from you."

He continued to kiss my eyes, my cheeks, my lips, and my neck. My words seised when he bit down on my neck, sucking and then blowing lightly on my ear. I released his neck, moving my hands closer to his belt line and surprise, surprise, he was making it to easy for me. He had slept in only a teeshirt, which I'd discarded of, and boxers. He sucked below my collar bone and thats when I knew that many things would go bump in the morning.

It was nearly half past two when Ikuto and I woke up, closely cuddling to each other. A blush crossed my face as he cuddled close, burring his head into my neck. "I-Ikuto," I hissed the whisper, trying to bring his attention to me. He just shook his head, rubbing against my neck some more. "Ikuto!" All I could hear was an heavy sigh as he moved away from me and looked me in the eyes.

"What?" He whispered back, hissing.

"We don't have to whisper," I said, whispering once more. He just glared at me, a glare that was short lived, a smile replacing it. "I need to take a shower, you made me all sticky."

"Me? Made you sticky?" He looked at me as if I was saying something absurd. "Well then I need a shower as well," he gave me one of his smirks.

"I called dibs though," I told him, looking at him like he was mad for trying to take the shower from me.

"Since you want one, and I want one..."

"I'll use the other one. Or you can use the other one." I said, inching away from him, trying to scan the floor for my cloths. Did not find them and decided they were either on Ikuto's side of the bed, at the foot, or vanished in thin air. All were possibilities.

"...We can share the shower," Ikuto finished, less hope shone in his eyes. I just blushed and scampered off, grabbing onto his rob that hung on the back of his door and wrapped it around me. I went to the bathroom that was across from Hikaru's room and quickly got in and locked the door.

I turned the shower on then turned around to see my reflection. When I slid off the rob I gazed at myself and saw how un-average I'd become. My breasts were slightly swollen from Ikuto's sucks, my curved had become more defined and curvier, my stomach smaller. I cursed and thanked Ikuto for this all. My face seemed to mature even after I should have stopped my growth or structure. I swiftly turned away and jumped into the shower and nearly jumped right back out.

The water was so cold. And then really hot. Then freezing again.

I quickly washed myself, my hair (shampoo twice, conditioner three times), my body (four times), and my other hygiene, shaving. Okay, so it wasn't quickly but after forty five minutes the water became regulated and taking a shower started feeling nice. For about ten of the minutes I was in the shower I was just standing, letting the water hit my face. Enjoying.

When I walked out my body felt clean and refreshed, a nice warmth left by the hot water made it so when I walked back to my room, only in a towel, I slid on a pair of shorts that were attached to a shirt. Now, it wasn't like overalls, but came up in front , splitting like a V-neck and wrapped around my neck, my whole back was exposed from the black cloth. I left my hair down to dry naturally while sliding some black bracelets around my wrists.

When I walked out of my room I was face to face with Hikaru. "Mama, let's go out and play or something." He didn't seem happy recently but before I could answer Ikuto was coming down the other side of the hall. His face was serious as well.

"I'd like to talk to you as well." I looked between the boys and sighed. I couldn't choose. But Hikaru did ask first, first come first dibs. But Ikuto's face was much more serious. I just looked between the boys, backed up and slammed my door close, quickly moving things in front of it so no one could enter.

"What the hell, Amu?"

"Mama, that isn't cool one bit!"

I heard the two yell as I tried to think of a way to escape. "Maybe another time, Amu isn't in right now," I said, trying to make another kind of accent. Did. Not. Work. I lightly scratched on the walls, trying to escape but was yelled at in return. Hikaru's and Ikuto's voiced rose, fighting one another. "All right! All right you hear!" I said, moving things away from the door. "I can't chose." I said in a whisper, a faint pink staining my cheeks as I looked down at my hands.

"Go with Hikaru first, I'll talk to you later tonight." I looked up at Ikuto, his face was still incredibly serious. I nodded and held onto Hikaru's hand as he walked me outside the house. We went down to the gravel road and walked into the forest behind our house.

"Hikaru, what is it? Why have you been so depressed lately?"

"I have a confession..." He paused, then looked up to me, stopping dead in his tracks but never letting go of my hand. "I..." He paused, then looked away, down at the ground. For only a moment I thought I could see a faint blush on his cheeks.

"Hikaru, you can tell me anything," I told him, bringing my hand that he wasn't holding up to his face to rub his cheek with my thumb.

"I think I might like a girl I played with..." He said it so softly I almost didn't catch it.

"Played with?" Past tense, so it has been a while since he's played with her? "I don't understand..?" I said, cautious as to what he was really trying to say.

"Before we moved, I think I like this girl that I used to play with..."

Call me dense or stupid, I really couldn't understand what he meant by that. "We can go and see if she wants to play this weekend," I said, his blush was now evident on his cheeks.

"Mom I think I love this girl!" He screamed, heavily breathing afterwards. His face became bright red, a pink hint hitting his neck and ears. I could only stare at him but soon we were walking deeper into the forest, an awkward silence fighting over the atmosphere of the calming forest.

Hikaru stopped in front of me, making me nearly trip. He shushed me, pointing off into the near distance. When I looked where he was pointing I couldn't really see anything, but then a head moved. Deer. There was a mother and her two fawn eating, and when we looked to the left, papa deer was watching us closely. The two fawn were oblivious to our presence while papa deer and mama deer watched us closely. We didn't move, and I could feel my lungs burning for air. Realizing I wasn't breathing I let a light puff of air out, and another in.

We stood there, watching the deer, as the deer watched us. Hikaru's hand was still holding onto mine and he gave it an excited squeeze. "Mama, deer," he whispered. I nodded slowly, trying not to scare the animals away. We tried to slowly turn around so we could leave the deer to feed in peace and walked away, not looking back. When the gravel road could be seen again Hikaru stopped me once more.

"What is it?" I asked, looking back at him.

"I broke your promise, mama. I said I wouldn't fall in love, but I did." He was looking down, a saddened look in his eyes.

"I never told you not to fall in love, I told you... Hikaru... When you fall in love you shouldn't be threatened by it. Just float in it. You'll know if she's the right one in your heart." He looked at me then smiled, just nodding his head.

When we walked in the door Hikaru's face still had a hue of pink. He let go of my hand and scampered off to his room. I smiled at his back and walked to the front room, sitting down on the couch and resting my head back. I looked over to where the kitchen was, through the arched entrance to see Ikuto leaning against the wall.

"Can we talk now?" I smiled at him and nodded.

"You won't believe what Hikaru and I saw." I gave a pause, looking at his confused face, then continued. "I'm sure he'd prefer to tell you than me ruining the amazing view." I stood up, walking over to him only to interlock my fingers with his. "So what is it you want to talk about?" He just sighed, pulling me outside to the deck.

"I want to know what happened between you and Tadase." His eyes met with mine and he was being extremely serious. I sighed, looking into the forest, so pretty.

"I was in middle school, year two, when Tadase and I started hitting it off," I began, swallowing whatever little saliva was in my mouth creating a large 'gulp' sound. I took a shaken breath in, trying to continue. "I wanted... I thought that if I fell in love with Tadase again, I'd be able to forget the pain that was left in my heart when you vanished."

"How long after?" I looked over at him, confused at what he meant. "How long after I left did you and Tadase get together?"

"Two... Three weeks maybe." I looked away, to one of the trees in our backyard. "He was really mad that I wouldn't tell him why I was so upset, but over time I think he figured it out..."

"Two... Three weeks? You gave up on me after such little time?" He asked, bewilderment on his face, along with a hint of anger.

"I looked for you everywhere. I even went to your house and saw the "sold" sign. I looked everywhere." I emphasized the word, "everywhere" the second time I said it. "After two weeks of looking I didn't know what to think. I thought you abandoned me, left me to rot in my own skin. I didn't like how I felt in my own skin, Ikuto! Do you know how horrible that feels?" He just shook his head, surprised by my outbreak. "Anyways,.. Tadase and I started to get into a more serious relationship in the first year of our high school years.

"A few months before I turned seventeen, like... five or six months before, Tadase wanted to try something new. Now, I didn't know he had planned it but we had unprotected sex. I found that I was pregnant a few months later."

"And your lack of period didn't notify you of that?" He asked, interrupting me with a skeptical look.

"I was a little busy to care when my period came or not," I said, looking down, feeling a dark shadow coming over my heart. "Anyways, I graduated high school, and married Tadase. After a few years I divorced him and moved, trying to hide myself from him. Sometimes I had to move in fear, some in knowing that he would be waiting for me in front of my door when I came home from picking Hikaru up from daycare." I took an uneven breath. "And then that night, it'd been a few months since I'd seen his face, but then you were there, saving me." At this I looked up into his eyes, trying to show him how grateful I'd been. "I thought you were a ghost, coming to haunt me."

He quickly pulled me into a tight hug and I felt if he ever let go I'd fall through the earth. I wrapped my arms around his neck, holding my body as close as I could to his. "Amu, I won't push you into it, but I want you to tell me every detail from when you were seventeen to the night before I saved you." I nodded against him, but my whole body began to shake from the memories. He lifted me up and brought me inside, sitting me down on the couch. "You don't have to right now, I need to start on dinner. But after dinner, will you tell me?" I looked into his eyes once more, nodded with a small "Yeah" escaping my lips. He smiled, laying a light innocent kiss on my cheek.

"Hikaru, what do you feel like dinner?" He yelled it out so loud I thought Scotland could hear him!

"Waffles!" Hikaru called back. What was this, a screaming contest? After Ikuto yelled, Hikaru yelled louder, and in response Ikuto yelled, "Okay!" louder, which made Hikaru yell "Yay!" extremely loud. After a few minutes there was a loud pounding on our front door, and when I answered it there was a couple who were simply pissed. They yelled about our yelling and how we needed to keep it down. I bowed, saying my husband was half def and my son was obnoxious and liked to yell back. They nodded and excused themselves leaving me to sigh and close the door, the yelling continued until dinner.

We made our own waffles. Hikaru had the most disturbing one, a "hot fudge sunday" waffle he called it. It was a thick waffle with two mounds of ice cream and tons of hot fudge. Ikuto talked me into letting the poor boy have a celebration dinner for still being in such a strict environment and not knocked some poor kids teeth out. Ikuto had a waffle with a mound of nattela, a chocolate hazelnut butter, with bananas and strawberries. These two boys were not going for a healthy meal, were they? Well... Ikuto's was a little healthy. On the other hand I had my waffle with tons of berries. Blue berries, raspberries, black berries, strawberries, some pieces of apple, whip cream and some crushed up nuts on top. I do say mine was the healthiest and the tallest.

After dinner I cleaned up the dishes and counters... and the table. Suddenly I was dusting the TVs in the family room and front room. Two arms slithered around my waist, pulling me away from the TV and in turn dropping my duster. There was the sound of heavy breathing that filled my ears and my thoughts turned to the worst. These arms were very familiar but what if... someone broke in with a similar built... Or Ikuto's a creeper... Yeah... I turned my head to see his eyes locked with mine. Ikuto's a creeper.

"Let's go take a walk or something. Hikaru is doing his homework and I need to talk to you in solitude." I nodded as he put me down, only to throw me over his shoulder. "Hikaru, we'll be back soon," He yelled, and again Hikaru yelled louder, "Okay!" back. He walked us to his car, which he nearly threw me in, tying my hands together and a bandana around my eyes.

"Where are you taking me that demands this kind of treatment?"

"It's to take your mind off of things for a little while," he said and soon closed the door. I was so confused, and then a door opened again, the car moved a little. Door closed and a 'click' sound rang in my ears which was followed with the car turning on and Ikuto shifting. I was starting to get ahold of my senses and what was going on. "Let's play a game, you have to guess where we're going."

"Blindfolded and handcuffed?"

"Yup."

I sighed, trying to think of just random places. "The store." He laughed at this. Okay no... "The park." Again, a faint laugh. I heard him say "No," when suddenly he took a sharp turn, making me fly across the back seat. "Ow," I complained.

"Guess again," he said, laughter hidden beneath.

"Can I have a hint?"

"It's an "our" place."

An "our" place? What was he talking about? I thought and thought, for about thirty minutes we were driving, or it felt like and all I could think about was what an "our" place was, or where it was. Ikuto slowed the car and, as ridiculous as this is, I turned my head from on side to the other, trying to figure our where I was.

"I'll give you another hint," he began, "Teacups."

It was like multiple lightbulbs lit up in my head finally. "The amusement park!" And then there was light bursting into view. Once my eyes adjusted I saw Ikuto right in front of me with a smile. "Why the amusement park?"

"We can be alone here and talk."

It all hit me. I was going to tell Ikuto about my past from seventeen to a day before I met Ikuto again. I bit on the inside of my cheeks as he helped me out of the car. He undid my hands, telling me there wasn't really a reason for them except to make sure I kept my blindfold on. We walked through the nearly demolished park. "They had to delay the destruction for a long time, rain and electrical wires." I looked at him curiously, because they made sure the electric wires weren't affected by the rain. "They didn't want to work in the rain and there was a huge problem with the wiring and taking things apart to fully demolish it." My face twisted into realization. "There isn't much left but where would you like to talk about this?"

"The teacups?"

"First thing to go, but I took some pictures," he said, a light pink hue forming on his cheeks.

I sighed, thinking about what else could be a place. "The merry-go-round?"

"Almost gone, not really the safest place to be," he told me. I huffed out in frustration.

"Then what else is left?" He thought for a minute and a sadistic smile formed on his lips. "What?" I almost backed away from him before he grabbed my wrist and started walking.

"The haunted house is really the only thing left," I heard him say and I gulped, scared for my life. He pulled me into the dark fun house and towards some random direction.

"I-Ikuto!" I screamed, holding close to his back.

"It's okay," I heard him say, "I'm right here." He brought me to the middle of the dark palace of screams and horrors when he decided that, "This is the place," he said in a cheerful voice. We sat down and instantly he was rubbing my back, holding me very close. "I'll be here so don't get scared." He rubbed my cheeks then moved his hand back to the small of my back, rubbing again.

"On my seventeenth birthday I told my parents..."

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Okay! So this is the chapter, going to start working on the next immediately! I'm trying to get these chapters going again really fast because the end is nearing, though I guarantee the next is not it. :) A few more. Anyways, sorry about the cliffy but I don't really want to loose most of the next chapter in explaining everything in this chapter.

Next chapter, Amu's past with Tadase, thick detail... or such... The chapter may start off wired, it'll still be in Amu's POV but it'll be a memory in first person for most of it... or all of it.. Haven't written it so I don't know how long it'll be.

And Cg2 nenetwin, somewhere between Pages, Office and Fanfiction, your name was not allowed to be shown, or something.. .-. Trying to figure out that one. Sorry I didn't mention it earlier, but I did try to fix it many times. Many. Times. Haha.

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Responding to the Reviewers Corner

londonbridgesfalling

It's getting close, to my sad but cheerful dismay. A few more chapters... like... 2 or 3... 3 being the most. Haha. I'm glad that you're enjoying, it brings me great glee.

TheQueenOfMe

Yeah, the complexity of the relationship between Nagi and Rima is confusing. Rima got together with Tadase for a week in Amu and his relationship, then dumped him, started dating Nagi, cheated on him with Tadase who was cheating on Amu. When Amu said, "Enough" and left, Tadase and Rima made it official... Though after a while Tadase inherited some problems so Rima dumped him again. After a few weeks of hanging out with Nagi again, she and him hit it off again. Herf, that's some complex stuff going on there.

Ikuto is a violin player, though he's trying (and I believe by now in the story successful) quit the job because of his manager. He wants to do what he loves without some manager breathing down his neck.

Cool. I'll see what happens. :)

CreativeJournalist

Chapter10 - Thank you. :) Did you read about the dedication? I'd like to know if you have any preferences on it or what your thoughts are. When I was writing the eleventh chapter I was going, "Where's CreativeJournalist? Where's the review? :( I miss!" Haha.

Chapter11- Haha, you remember what the last dream meant? I'm still not sure myself... Haha. To be honest about that.

Vacation was fun, tried a lot of new things like white water rafting. :) Now I'm back, still on vacation but that was vacation away from vacation. Haha. Found out I can cook on whim better than reading directions... Woo hoo!