((is it obvious enough that I just don't like Masako? I know I know..well enjoy))
Sigh. As soon as I left my office I knew that I would be taking this case, regardless of the merits. Once there's a child involved Mai pretty much demands I take it. Doesn't matter if it's a hoax or not. She will never forgive me. I can't deal with the look of disappointment in her eyes if I turn down a child that could be in danger. I'm a lot of things, but unfeeling isn't one of them.
Seeing the bruising on the little girl's neck and back was only the icing on the cake. I had a feeling if I didn't agree to the case that she'd have gone with the irregulars on her own to help. So I suppose that's how I ended up here, trapped in my own body.
Not that I blame her though. She couldn't have known. Besides when she wears those skirts and tank tops I'm pretty powerless against her. What I wouldn't have given for a strong breeze today to just lift the skirt..
But now she's got tears in her eyes and she's in danger. This just isn't acceptable. For the hundredth time I press my will against the spirit possessing my body and Lin's wards. For the hundredth time I'm smacked back down.
This whole thing has spiraled out of control. It wasn't just a fox spirit. I'm only glad that I had asked Lin to get Mai out of there. Better in me than her. I can't imagine what it would have done.
The spirit taunts me with visions of Mai. Some are meant to tantalize me and other horrify. In some I'm not alone on this matt. Mai is beneath me or above me. In either case she's wearing only a blush. I want nothing more than to run my fingers over her body. Read every part of her like braille.
In some visions I've got my hands wrapped around a neck again. Only it's not the priestess beneath my hands but Mai. I can see first the fear then the hate in her eyes as I choke the life out of her. I can feel myself trying to stop my body but I'm not able to. The spirit laughs at me.
I'm so angry at myself. How could I have put her in so much danger? I shouldn't have tried to go toe to toe with the spirit, but how could i have known it wasn't just a fox spirit. As I hear Mai my name I wish I could rise.
I will my eyes to open but they just won't. Lin's too damn good at what he does. I'll have to make use of this time another way. I can see everything around me. I see Mai watching over me and the tears in her eyes that have yet to fall. When they were being attacked last night I wanted nothing more than to hit everything with a blast of my power. What use is it being the most powerful pk user on the planet if you can't even protect the girl you love and friends?
How long can they keep this fight up with out me! The monk is waning and now the priestess thinks she can cleanse the spirits? This I need to see. I keep her around for two reasons and neither of which is her supposed ability with spirits. The first is to please Mai. The second is to care for Mai when she's inevitably hurt.
I do wonder what she was dreaming about when she was smiling this morning. Was it me? Does she know the dreams I have about her? Perhaps she has similar ones..Somehow I doubt it. I can't picture my innocent Mai dreaming of the things I'd like to do to her. Those mini skirts are killing me. Lin has suggested that I implement an office dress code. Apparently he doesn't think mini skirts and tank tops are professional. He wants her to wear slacks and a full shirt. Not bloody likely. I'm eighteen. I might not be able to act on it but I LOVE. Those. SKIRTS. I love them even more with the thigh highs. I would give my eye teeth to bend her over my desk and run my hands up her legs.
ABOUT TIME! I can feel the spirit leave me. I feel lighter. Days being possesed. I'm going to eviserate this puny God.
"Pride means nothing when someone else does everything for you! GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEAD!" She's really angry. You know, I'm pretty hurt to. I do everything I can to please her. I took this bloody case for her.
I can't get mad though. She doesn't know the truth. If she did would she pity me?
"I'm sorry Naru.." The monk squeaks. This God is stronger than I gave it credit for.
"Point taken." Just turn around and Go Mai. You'll be safer outside. I'll handle this one.
I just have to focus and let down my blocks. I've got all this power so damned up that I have to let down the fail safes that Lin helped me build. I can feel rather than see Mai behind me. So long as she stays there I can keep the energy from hurting her. I just have to focus my will.
As I draw the sword from another realm I can feel Mai's wonder. Do you see me now Mai? I'll keep you safe. I promise.
When the God is no longer an issue it's time to get out of here..I'm so tired. I can see my team ahead of me. I'm so tired. the last thing I remember before I collapse is Mai screaming for me.
How long have I been out I wonder? As I drift through my own mind I wonder if this is death or something else. I don't think I'm dead. I can hear slight beeping. Am I possessed again? I feel outwards from myself to make sure there is no foreign invader in my body. No. Not possessed.
I must have used too much power. I'm sure Lin is having kittens. Well, serves him right. Had he done his job better I wouldn't have had to step in. Yeah that's it. I'm still sure I'm going to get an ear full though. I only pray he didn't tell Martin and Luella or I'll be on an plane to England so fast my head will spin.
I'm tired but I don't have the luxury of sleeping. So time to wake up.
Gods what a beautiful sight to see first thing. Mai's smiling for me. Of course it's ruined by Miss Hara sticking her face into mine.
The smile on Mai's face is incandescent. I don't think I've ever seen someone so happy to see me. One day I hope I can reward her warm smiles with one of my own. Once Gene is found I can tell her everything. Till then I'll just have to bide my time.
As everyone mills about annoying me there is only one thing I can think of to settle my mind.
"Mai, hot tea."