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Song for this chapter: Animal by Neon Trees (.com/watch?v=gM7Hlg75Mlo)
Re-edited January 11, 2011
Previously:
"You don't know me," Edward replied, making Emmett and Carlisle laugh. Alice looked at me with a questioning gaze, wanting to know what happened. I waved her towards me and whispered in her ear.
"I have to change." Her hand slapped to her mouth. "No!" she whispered, excitedly.
I nodded and put my index finger and thumb close, not touching. "I was almost there."
She squealed, clapping her hands, making Edward look at her. I looked at him, smiled, and went upstairs, Alice on my tail, wanting to know the details, God knows why.
Oh yes, he's definitely closer. Definitely.
EPOV
"So you nearly fucked her?"
"What the hell! Shut the fuck up, Em!" I whisper-yelled at my brother as he practically and blatantly screamed the question at me in the middle of the restaraunt. "I didn't almost "fuck her", you ass-clown. I would never do that. I almost took her, yes. The first time was in the guest room because I had to use the bathroom and she was in there, in a god damn towel, might I add. Then after Thanksgiving dinner, in the gazebo. We were dancing and started kissing and got caught up in the moment, but you, being the cockblocker you usually are, had to come out there." I put my fork down and ran my fingers through my hair.
"Ha! I rule!" Em fist-pumped, laughing. I rolled my eyes, silently thanking God Rose was in the bathroom and couldn't hear the conversation. She didn't need to know everything Bella and I did, unless Bella told her. I knew Ali knew minutes after the gazebo incident because she squealed and was standing next to Bella. I rolled my eyes, knowing there would be questions from my baby sister. Isn't it a little strange that a member of your family, a close member, wanted to know details of your sex life? I thought it was disgusting if I saw Emmett and Rose kiss because he always had to use tongue in front of me. I shuddered at the memory, making Em stop what he was doing to look at me.
"Are we cold, Edwina?" He only called me a girl's named whenever he figured I did something feminine, like getting a chill, getting scared or shuddering, for example.
"Ha ha, fuck off, Emma," I retorted, calling him his girl name. "I'm not cold, I was remembering how much of a horn dog you are."
"Edward," he smiled, touching his chest and batting his eyes at me, "I hate to break your heart but I'm your brother and that is incest and I don't play for the other team, buddy."
I punched him, laughing. "Sit and spin, Em," I flipped him off. "You are a horn dog. You have your tongue down Rose's throat seventy five percent of the time." He shrugged, digging back into his food like a pig. We were at Elliott's Oyster House having lunch and I swear he didn't have manners anywhere we went. I rolled my eyes at his sloppiness and looked over towards the bathroom. Rose walked out and headed back to the booth but not before being slapped on the ass, by what looked to be a 17 year old kid with bad skin.
She turned around, glaring at him, grabbing his wrist. "Hands off the merchandise, you perverted little bitch boy. Have some respect."
I was trying to not to laugh at the poor kid as he cowered into his buddies, trying to get away from the fiery tempered blond. "My friends dared me. I'm sorry, lady."
"This is the reason you don't have girlfriends, you little assholes!" Emmett got up to get his wife before she stooped to beating the shit out of the teenager. "Rosalie, baby, come on. You don't want the cops involved."
He wrapped her in his arms and looked over her shoulder, glaring at the boys, making their eyes bug out. I tried not to laugh, not because the boys were being yelled at but because I knew Rose would kick their asses. "You need better friends, bud. If they're daring you to touch women without their permission, and you listen, being friends with them doesn't make your future look good. Learn to keep your hands to yourself and stop trying touch my wife. I've been watching you this whole time, you waiting for the right time. Hands off."
The boys were shaking in fear and nodded, looking like they had learned their lesson. Wrong people to fuck with, I tell you.
They came over and sat back down and finished eating. "You guys okay?" I asked, they nodded. "Do you want to leave?"
Rose nodded. I could see that their food was gone so I called for the check and payed for it. We left, getting in Em's Hummer, driving off.
"Hey Rosie, did Edward tell you almost fucked Bells the other day? Twice." Emmett asked, breaking the silence and Rose's eyes widened, looking at me through the mirror.
"Goddammit, Emmett, I didn't almost fuck her!"
"Oh whatever. Fucking, making love, taking, bumping uglies, hoppin' on the good foot and doin' the bad thing. Same diff. Who the hell cares?"
"Edward how did that happen? You were with us the entire day," Rose questioned. I ran my hands through my hair, shaking my head.
"Just talk to Bella," I told her and smacked Emmett on the back of his head, adding "I hate you, Em. You and your big mouth."
"Love you, too, little bro." I glared him, almost smiling. Fuck my life, I hate being the middle child. I'm the biggest piece of gossip in the family right now. If it wasn't Ali, it was me then Emmett. He was 25 I was 24 along with Jasper, and Ali was 23, same age as my Bella. They knew everything about each other and included Rose, who was also 23, in most of the gossip. Rose nodded and I pulled out my phone and texted Alice.
Emmett decided to ask Rose if she knew if I almost 'fucked Bell' the other day so you need to fill Rose in. -E
OMG! Why did you tell Emmett? -A
He kept asking me what we were doing out in the gazebo and he wouldn't accept dancing so...-E
God, Eddie, now I have to tell Bella that they know. -A
I'm sorry. He wouldn't drop it. So I was forced to tell him and he fucking told Rose. I don't know why everyone is interested in my damn sex life? It's weird you care to know, Ali -E
Cuz it's about Bella, duh. -E
It's also about me, Al. -E
Your point being? -A
It's weird as hell. -E
Oh shut up. I care about Bella's happiness. The sex part is just a bonus. -A
That makes me feel real special, Ali. -E
Hush it, Edward. You're my brother so I'm required to care. -A
Mhmmm. -E
Lol. I love you. That help? -A
Yeah. Love you, too Al. -E
:) -A
Bye. -E
Bye big brother! -A
I smiled at her message. She called me 'big brother' when she was apologetic and it always managed to work. Bella was leaving tomorrow to get her stuff from her dad's house in Forks so she could move in with Alice. It was better having her live with Alice a mile away then it was living with her dad far away from me in Forks. It would be great if she moved into my apartment building and even better living with me but she would never do that. I had to work for it and I would just as she told me.
Emmett dropped me off at my building only after I promised to come to Mom and Dad's Tuesday for dinner. I opened my door and headed for the kitchen and opened the fridge to get a Pepsi. "I gotta get groceries," I thought out loud, looking at the bareness of my fridge. There was nothing but sour milk, I'm guessing, a can of beer, some ketchup, and a twenty-four pack of the Pepsi I bought yesterday.
My cupboards were probably bare, too, I guess but I didn't bother to look. I shrugged, walking to the couch and sat down. Oh, well, I would do it sometime this week. I picked up the remote from the coffee table, turned the television on, sat back and took a drink. I flipped through the channels, finding there was nothing on, settling on a music channel and closed my eyes as the music played.
Here we go again
I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid
You're never satisfied
Here we go again
We're sick like animals
We play pretend
You're just
A cannibal
And I'm afraid
I won't get out alive
I won't sleep tonight
Oh oh
I want some
More
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
Take a bite of
My heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some
More
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart
Tonight
Here we are again
I feel the chemicals kickin' in
It's getting heavy
And I wanna run
And hide
I wanna run and hide
I do it every time
You're killin' me now
And I won't be
Denied by you
The animal inside of you
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight
Hush, hush The world is quiet
Hush, hush We both can't fight it
It's us that made this mess
Why can't you understand?
Whoa, I won't sleep tonight
Here we go again
Here we go again Here we go again
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Here we go again Here we go again Here we go again
Say goodbye to my heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight
Good song, I thought to myself. I needed to figure out something to do for Bella to show her that I want her back.
Think, Edward, think.
Knock, knock, knock sounded at the door.
Who the hell is here? I got up and went to the door and looked in the peep hole to see who it was. I couldn't see anything so I assumed it was Alice, her being only 4 foot and nine inches tall. I opened the door, expecting Ali but was presented with Bella. She was bent over, amidst tying her sneakers, her shirt riding up in the back, displaying the dimples on her back and some of the smooth, pale skin above it. She didn't seem to know I had opened the door so I reached out and ran the back of my hand across the visible skin, causing goose bumps to rise, surprising her and making her squeak. Bella being her adorably, clumsy self, tripped over her other shoelace and hit her head on my door frame.
"Oof!"
"Oh, shit! Bella, are you alright, honey?" I asked, concerned. I put my hand on her head, making her look at me. Her nose was scrunched up, lips in a tight line, tears filling her eyes. I helped her into the room, closed the door, and took her in my arms, kissing the area she hit, softly. "I'm sorry for scaring you, baby. I didn't mean for you to get hurt, I swear!"
"It's okay. I'll live, Edward. It's just another result of my klutziness," she replied, trying to pacify me.
"But I scared you, therefore, causing you to trip over your shoelace, leading you to hit your head." I helped her to the couch and went to get an ice pack from the freezer, brought it back, sat next to her, and gently placed it on her head, replacing my hand with hers. I touched her cheek and wiped a tear that fell. "I'm sorry, sweetheart. Please don't cry. It didn't mean for you to get hurt."
She shook her head. "It's okay, I'll live. It's not like I haven't had a bump on my head before."
"You fell in the shower that time. This time, it was my fault. I scared you because I couldn't refrain from touching the skin that was sticking out of your shirt." She smiled, blushing and looked down, suddenly finding the color of the couch interesting. I put my finger under her chin, making her look at me. I cocked my head to the side and grinned at her.
"What? Why are you smiling?"
"Nothing. It's nothing," Bella replied, shyly.
"Bella..." I warned.
"Edward..."
I laughed, realizing I had to force it out her, somehow.
"Come on," I teased, poking her side gently, "what is it?"
"You just can't keep your hands off me, can't you?" Bella giggled. I threw my head back on the couch, laughing. She was right; I couldn't keep my hands off of her. I couldn't not touch her whenever she was around. She was warm and her skin was so soft, I had to touch her anywhere, anytime I could.
"You're so fucking cute."
"I do what I can," she teased.
"So what brings you here?"
"Oh, um, I needed to get that picture of me and my dad. You 'member?"
I nodded. "Yeah, I remember. You want me to get it?"
"Sure. It's in the same place isn't it?"
"Yep." I got up and went to the room and grabbed the picture frame and brought it to her. "It's a shame. I kinda wished you came here to visit me." I sat down, giving her the picture.
"Edward, if I was here just to get the picture, I'd be gone already," she teased, lightly elbowing my side.
I beamed.
She was here to see me and not just get the picture? I grabbed her hand and leaned back, tracing little circles on the palm. Bella shuddered, more goose bumps rose. I smiled. "Are you cold?" I asked her.
"No," she shook her head, "you're touching me, it's bound to happen." Her other hand reached up, taking off the ice pack and set it on the end table. "The swelling is going down."
"I make you feel like that?" I asked, running my fingers from her wrist to the tips of her fingers. "I give you goose bumps?"
"Yes. You know what you do to me." I got down in front of her, facing her knees, spread them and laid my head on her thigh, near her stomach and sighed.
"Edward? What?"
"You still feel something for me?" I asked.
She started running her fingers through my hair. "Why do you assume I ever stopped?"
"Bella, I hurt you. Hurt you so badly, you thought you weren't enough for me."
"Edward, what are you getting at?" Something broke inside me, making all the anguish and hate for myself, spill out.
"You should hate me! You deserve the world, yet you chose to deal with all the shit in my life. Never doing anything for yourself, always trying to please me. Sticking around even after you found out about Tanya!" I got up, putting space between us, pacing. "I'm the one not good enough! You shouldn't want anything to do with me, Bella!"
"Edward..."
My eyes started to fill with tears. "You should move on, find someone who won't hurt you as much as I have. You don't need all this stress I throw at you. Waiting, with bated breath, until I break you completely, wondering if this is the last time you'll see me. I am terrified of losing you. I get sick to my stomach wondering if the day will come that you get tired of it all and want to find someone without so much turmoil in his life. You deserve so much more, Bella."
She was looking at me, sadness etched on her beautiful face, tears falling as she got up to walk toward me. "Edward...I didn't know you felt like this. I always thought that...that if I left permanently, you would try to move on."
Horror consumed me at her confession. I cupped her face, shaking my head frantically. "I wouldn't know how, baby."
"I don't want to move on. I don't want anyone else," she told me, reaching up to hold my wrists.
"You should, though." My head hung. I dropped my hands and walked back to the sofa and sat down, tears still coursing. Bella followed, standing front of me, bent and picked my hands up, before straddling me.
"Bella, what..."
"Shush." She put her hands behind my head, pulling at my hair, making me look her in the eyes, as her tears fell.
"I'm just as scared of losing you as you are me. Not because of Tanya but from any force of nature and you told me to move on. You could be gunned down one day because you happened to pass by at the wrong time, not even being the target or get hit by a car because you tripped over the curb. You could be smashed because a semi driver fell asleep at the wheel and you were driving by or you could be mugged and shot because you were pegged as the type to chase the thief. There are thousands of scenarios, Edward. Millions that could cause me to lose you. I believe you when you say that she's gone. She's the least of my worries because what if I did move on and you spent the rest of your life alone, still loving me? Then you died with a broken heart because you were never happy again? Do you how much that would kill me? Knowing that if I would have stayed with you, it would be different? It would be my fault."
"It wouldn't be your fault," I whimpered.
"It wouldn't matter if it was or not. I would still blame myself because you died alone, still holding onto us all because I listened to you when you said I should move on. Moving on wouldn't make me love you any less. Moving on wouldn't make feel any less guilty if all those things happened to you. Now put yourself in my shoes and think about what you would do if it was me."
"I don't want to think about it," I whispered.
"I'm not moving on. I wanna do this, Edward. You're stuck with me."
"What if she starts again, Bella? Tries to ruin us?"
"I won't let her. You're mine and I don't share."
"Can I kiss you?" I asked meekly. She nodded and I cupped her cheek, and pressed my lips to hers, softly at first, testing how far she would let me go. When she didn't pull away, I licked her bottom lip, she opened her mouth letting my tongue inside. I moaned at her flavor, tasting mint and vanilla, slid both my hands to the middle of her back, pressing her closer to me as I licked and sucked at her tongue, wanting more of the flavor.
She whimpered, fighting for dominance against my teeth and tongue with fervor. Somehow, without my knowledge, my hands had managed to slide under her shirt, past her ribs and caress the undersides of her breasts, eliciting the most beautiful moan from her into my mouth as she still tried to lick at my lips, nibbling on my tongue. My hands reached her breasts, testing the weight of them, finding her nipples through the lace, started pulling and squeezing them.
As soon as Bella felt it, her hips bucked against me, awakening the frenzy to have her from deep inside.
A/N: What will happen?
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