((Yes, I know but I just haven't wanted to write this story because it's just so sad for me, but here goes, and thank you yes I know about the sequel, it's just a matter of if I want to end the story or keep following it which I haven't decided. Thanks!))
He was blocking the previous night out of his mind. The feel of Mai's skin so close to him. The way the warmth came off of her body, and how he wished he could have could have warmed himself by it.
He had waited months to find Gene's body. He had formed a plan in his head and gone over it time after time. Once he found Gene he could be his own man. He'd gone over it time and time again. The end result was that Mai was going to be his.
He'd dreamed of her for a year now. The way her hair fell, the soft scent of lilacs that he could smell whenever she was near. How her small hand would fit in his. How she'd flush when he kissed her. How she'd sound when he was on top of her, how she'd feel when he was in her..
He'd been tormented for months. The mornings after were always the worst. Going into the office, seeing her there, so sweet and innocent in those small skirts and tank tops.
It was only years of schooling that kept his face impassive. The things he dreamed of doing to her, the things he'd longed to do to her made him blush.
But here he was, packing up his things in his temporary home in Shibuya to return to England. None of this was going how it was supposed to.
He had to face the facts. He loved Mai. Mai loved Gene. Gene was dead. Life was all fucked up. Everything was all fucked up.
He looked down at the picture in his hand. The one of him and Gene on their 9th birthday. Gene wore his smile and he wasn't scowling.
He set it down and closed his eyes.
Nothing was going right. He wasn't supposed to be dead. She wasn't supposed to love him. He wasn't supposed to be here.
He was broken from his thoughts by a knock at the door. He sighed and went to answer it.
He didn't look before he did. he just assumed it was Lin coming to get him. To take him back to England. When he opened the door and she was there his heart stopped.
"Mai." It was all he could say.