OMG ITS ABOUT DAMN TIME!

Ikuto/Akki: ...

Me: What?

Ikuto/Akki We dont know if we should be happy or if we should hit you because you take so long

Me: O.o Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry!

I have homework eveynight of the week so be happy this week Ive got time 2 write

Ikuto/Akki ...Bu-

Me: NO BACK TALK!

On with the good old disclaimer

oh how Ive missed typing this...

Ahem: I DO NOT own Shugo Chara or any of its characters

I do own Zane Akki and the Doctor

(character stealers have their fingers cut off ^.^)

Ikuto/Akki: O.o

Chapter 22

Harsh Words

Foolish Actions

My jaw is killing me.

My fangs always make my jaw feel as though its been broken. But my jaw is the least of my problems. Doc slides to the floor, gasping for air now that he can breath. My ears lie flat and then vanish, and my tail isn't far behind. Slowly, the anger ebbs out of, replaced only by a sense of lose. And complete and utter failure.

"Akki, enough"

I turn around, slowly. Zane was the one who spoke. He walks toward me, as if he plans on comforting me. But I'm in no mood to be coddled like a child. Stepping around him, I walk straight up to Ikuto. He does nothing, not even when I stick my face in his. He just looks me up and down and then sighs.

And what are you so relived about?

He's new to mind talk. Didn't know the tone of voice is transmitted along with the thought. My tone must have betrayed my feelings. From the look on his face he knows how PISSED I am.

Akki...I'm-

"Save it" I snap, aloud.

That got Zane's attention. He had been attending to Doc, who was back on his feet. I could feel Doc's freezestare on the back of my neck. I decide not to show him my scary face. Might stop the old man's heart.

"Akki, take it easy." Ikuto says.

"One control lapse is enough." Zane continues.

I look back at him, and I'm serious he flinches when he sees my face. I don't need to lose control to be scary...and Zane's reaction proves it.

"Relax Zane I'm fine." I say, looking back at Ikuto.

He isn't quite as effected by my stare, to my extreme disappointment. Instead of getting scared he sighs. Again. The urge to strangle him almost overwhelms me.

"Mad again Akki? You never could control your temper."

"Excuse me kitty cat, but I think I've got every right to be mad"

"And why's that?" he asks.

"Don't mess with me!"

Quick as lightning my hand flies toward the back of his head. A nasty backhand is just what he needs. Sadly I never connect. Just as quickly, Ikuto ducks and then does a backflip. The showoff. He lands a measly three feet away. Definatly within my strike zone. And he knew that.

I 'm torn between screaming and crying.

I can feel tears forming behind my eyes. Bitter tears wasted on something as stupid as regret. Tonight, my entire reason for being has been destroyed. All the suffering...all the pain I'd put Zane through...

"It all means nothing" I mumble.

"What means nothing?" Ikuto asks.

I find myself glaring at him. Tears threaten to spill out, but I'm not about to look sad right now. I wipe my eyes on my torn and bloodied sleeve. I haven't changed clothes since my fight with Zane, I look a mess. But I would hate to get fresh blood on new clothes.

"...Everything was. Me leaving, willingly particpating in these God awful experiments...all the pain and misery me and Zane have dealt with for all these years...it all means nothing now."

Zane looks over when I mention his name. He shakes his head but says nothing.

"You know Akki, I never asked you to do any of this."

Ikuto's voice calls my attention back to him.

"You didn't have to do any of this. You could have stayed home all those years ago."

You could have heard a pin drop, it got that quiet. Not even the doctor dared to inturrpt this conversation.

"Don't you think I wanted to stay?"

I blinked back tears, despite the fact I just want to break down and cry. I debated stalking off to cry alone, but something told me this was one problem I couldn't walk away from.

"Do you honestly think I didn't think about staying?"

"The fact we're all here means you didn't think on it hard enough." Ikuto replys.

"Oh so that's what you think? You think this all could have been avoided if I had stayed? Well I've got news for you, it would have been you who disappeared not ME"

"If that's true and you knew that...then why did you go? It could have been me instead of you."

Now that is just wrong.

It's amazing how that simple statement turned everything I'd believed for the last seven years on it's head. He's right. I COULD have stayed. I knew full well it was either me or him...but I'd thought...it would be better if it was me.

He's right...

Akki, it's not...it's not that simple and you know it.

Zane's thoughts sound frantic, as if he feel he has to reassure me.

You know as well as I do your not as cold hearted as you can seem We both know you couldn't let it be...him.

From the way Zane said...thought him...I knew he wouldn't have cared if it had been Ikuto. The only reason he left was because of me. If I hadn't pushed him...he'd be fine now...instead of a ticking timebomb. Neither of us wold be heading toward an early grave.

"So...what your saying...Ikuto...is you wish I'd let this happen to you? You think it would have been easier for all involved?"

Rather then saying anything, he just gave me that look. that look that says:

I'm not going to argue with you because there's no point.

"...Well then..."

I take a step forward, running my hand along the tabe where Doc keeps his needles. I find myself tracing the patterns engraved on the old table with my finger. A complete and utter look of disintrest. Ikuto looks on warily, but says nothing. Even as a kid, he was a man of few words. Oddly enough, I liked him because not ony did he know how to shut up, he knew how to do it without being told. Unlike Zane, who not only never stops talking, he never knows when to keep his mouth shut. Except today. He's been quiet pretty much this whole choice, at this point I might jut cut his tongue out if he says the wrong thing. When I lose control, I'm nothing more then a wild animal on a rampage. When I'm pissd and in control...it's even worse. It's like that old saying; Hell hath no fury like a womens scorn...or something like that.

My fist closes on a syringe.

Careful to keep it hidden, I poke the end with my pinky. I feel a prick and a tiny drop of worn blood, so it's sharp. Doc's always leaving his toxins out in the open, me and Zane know enough not to inject ourselves. We don't need to rexpierence those stinkin side effects. Aches and pains. Cramps. Feeling as though your insides are being shredded. The majority of the crap in thses needle are designed to mimic what the Doc did to us over three years. Only...instead of years...the drug's designed to work within weeks. The result are intenser side effect with a ninety percent chance of killing the poor sucker who has it running through them.

Perfect.

Ikuto didn't see me grab the syringe, so he didn't look alarmed as I got closer. I've always liked to scream in peoples faces...and I mean that literally.

"Akki...all of this was pretty stupid on your part." Ikuto shakes his head.

I almost stop cold when he says stupid. He's acting as though everything I've been through has been easy...that it's no big deal. Well...we'll see how he feels a couple hours from now. I stop in front of him and sigh.

"I know...maybe running away was stupid. But"

My thoughts must have slipped, because Ikuto looked very alarmed all of a sudden. Too late.

Ikuto can read my mind, but reading it and reacting to it are two very different things.

Before he could move backward, I grab him by the arm and pull him closer. A looooooooooooooot closer. I mean, he blushes.

"Running away was stupid maybe, but a girl never likes to be told how stupid her actions were"

And before he can respond, I take that needle and stick it right in his shoulder.

OMG

What a ending!

Well peoples Im still writing. Im still going to finish this story...even if it kills me.

Akki: Its not that serious

Ikuto: *rubs sore sholder* Akki, your the queen of overreacting.

Akki: *death glare/pulls another needle* "You want your rabies shot?

Ikuto: *shakes head* O.o

Akki: *smiles* Then shut up

Me: *rolls eyes* idiots...T_T

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