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A/N: Well, hey there! Thanks for taking the time review/comment Stay! I really appreciate that. I can't say it enough. I'm glad some caught the Restricted call E got. Who was it? I believe that Edward has earned himself a lemon. What about you? But what chapter? And when will their happy bubble pop? We'll see. . . . . .
On with it!
Re-edited 1-12-11
Song for this chapter: [Playing Bella's job] My Grown Up Christmas List (Kelly Clarkson's version)- http : / / www . youtube . com / watch ? v = 5S5POcYeGvQ
Previously:
"I love you, Bella. So much."
"I love you, too," she kissed my jaw and threw her leg across my stomach. "I promise not to hump your side in the middle of the night."
"I wouldn't mind that."
"Ha ha," she giggled.
I slipped my arm under the back of her neck and pulled her as close to me as I could and snapped my fingers. The light shut off, the furnace turned on and we fell asleep in each others arms.
It's getting closer.
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BPOV
"When will Edward be back?"
"Jess, he's terrified of Tyler. Why would I ask him to come here?"
"Because he's a hot piece of eye candy," she replied.
I was busy hanging up items that had been shipped this morning as my co-worker sat behind the counter asking questions about my boyfriend: What food does he like? Is he good in bed? Would I be interested in a threesome? What the fuck kind of question is that? She had a husband for Christ sake. I looked at the clock.
"He's picking me up in, like, fifteen minutes."
"Fuck yes," she clapped.
"You're lucky Tyler isn't here. Speaking of, where is he?"
"Hell if I know," she looked at her nails, "All I heard him say earlier was that he was going to some guy named Eric's or whatever."
"Who's Eric?"
"Someone he has man sex with occasionally."
"Yeesh," I shuddered. "I love the gays but I don't ever want to picture them gettin' down. Or witness it." Jess chuckled and turned the knob on the radio, stopping on a Christmas station. We both stopped what we were working on and listened.
Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up Christmas list
"That's a pretty song," she sighed. I nodded, agreeing and went back to work. "Bella, where is he?"
"He's coming, Jessica. Chill out."
"Where'd you find him anyway? I wanna go there."
"You have Mike. I didn't exactly find him. I watched him a lot before we met. I would sit on a bench, reading and he'd pass by once in a while. The day he actually talked to me happened when I nearly fell on my ass. I slipped on a small patch of ice, my hat flew off, my book went in the air and I was waiting for the blow but it never came. He caught me." I got all fuzzy thinking about it. "So you could say I fell into him. That was our first kiss, too."
"Oh my God," Jess gaped, "I want that. That's sounds so beautiful. Mike grabbed my ass the first time we met."
"But you love him, right?"
"Yeah," she beamed, a big smile spreading across her face. "Our wedding was beautiful."
"Then it shouldn't matter if he grabbed your ass when you first met. All that matters is that you have someone who loves you unconditionally."
"You're a hopeless romantic, Bella. You know that?"
"It's not a bad thing." I heard the rumble of a car pulling up and checked the time. Edward was here. I glanced at Jess only to see her bouncing up and down on the stool, straining her neck to see if he was coming in. "Calm, Jessica. Calm." I reminded her and went to punch out and get my things. The door chimed then I heard his velvet voice greet Jessica and ask if I was ready. She choked a yes and said she'll get me. She sprinted to the back, huffing.
"Oh, my fuck, Bella. The man is in the tightest sweater I've ever seen. I'm going to keel over. I thought he worked today."
"He changes and then comes to pick me up," I giggled.
"I need to change my panties."
"Jessica! You are not allowed to have impure thought about anyone but Mike."
"Tell him not to wear stuff like that and I won't, Isabella." she grumbled. I rolled my eyes and walked to the front but stopped when I saw him. Damn! That sweater was tight. It hugged him in all the right places, his shoulders, abs, biceps. I then looked lower at his jeans. Even tighter, on his ass, that is. I whistled and fanned myself. He turned and grinned at me.
"You look hot, Mr. Cullen."
He strutted towards me and picked me up, wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed me. "Hey, gorgeous."
"Hi." I wrapped my arms around his neck in return and pressed myself into him, nuzzling his throat, breathing his scent through my nose and laid my head on his shoulder.
"I have something for you," he kissed my hair. I picked my head up and met his emerald gaze.
"What is it?"
"Bells," he tsked. "It wouldn't be fun if you knew what it was."
"I don't like a surprises, Cullen"
"Tough." He put me down and grabbed my hand. Before we got out the door, Jess spoke up again.
"You two..."
" 'You two' what?" I asked.
"You're so adorable, it makes me wanna puke. But in a good way."
"There's nothing good about puke, Jess."
"Just go," she shooed. I rolled my eyes and walked out with Edward, waving at her.
"I want my prezzie," I shook his arm. I sounded like a four year old but I didn't care right now. I wanted whatever he got me. He covered my eyes and walked us to his car. He took his hands off my face but told me to keep my eyes closed. "Edward..."
"Hold on, baby. Keep those eyes shut." I heard him open the car door and the sound of him rustling around in the seat. (A/N: You would've killed me if I stopped right here but I was tempted.) He shut the door and told me to hold out my arms and placed something warm in my arms. "Open them, Bell." I opened my eyes and looked down.
A Beagle puppy.
"Oh, my God. Edward! You got me a puppy?"
"Do you like her?" he asked, running his hand through his hair, shyly looking at his feet.
"I love her," I kissed the sleeping puppy's head. "What's her name? Where'd you get her?"
"Maggie."
I grabbed the back of his neck and brought his lips to mine for quick kiss.
"I got her at the shelter. She's had her shots and she's papered and she has a name tag but she only half trained. She'll yip or whine when she needs to go but if you don't do it then and there, she'll go on the floor. The woman said she can be paper trained as well and she'll sleep in a little dog bed. I got all the things for you earlier today."
"Hello, Maggie," I whispered. She was so cute and tiny for a Beagle. I looked at him and a tear fell down my cheek.
"Why are you crying?" He asked, his voice filled with fear.
"I'm happy. You got me a puppy. I love you so much, Edward." He blew out a sigh of relief and kissed my forehead.
"I love you, too."
"Thank you," I hugged him, Maggie still in my arms. "She's perfect." He smiled and got in the car after I got in and we left.
"We're gonna go to my parents for a little pre-Christmas get together. That alright?"
"Okay."
- - *S* - - *S* - -
Maggie woke up on the way to The Cullen's so when we got there, I walked her around until she went pee. She was a happy, carefree puppy. She was very social and she licked me every couple minutes. I already loved her and so did Edward and everyone else, especially Emmett and Jake. Edward had my bestfriend from high school, Angela and her husband Ben, flown in out of Phoenix. Jake and Leah and his friend Quil and Quil's girlfriend Claire came as well. My dad couldn't make it because he had to work but he would be here for Christmas. I went through the hugs and hand shakes and introductions. When I got to Leah, I asked her how she was doing and if Seth had given her my message.
"I'm okay. Yeah, Seth told me. Emily and I still don't speak. I don't...I can't talk to her and act like everything's alright. "
"I get that, Lee."
"She's tried, though. I saw her at Newton's the other day and sprinted out to my car to get away from her. She looked so sad but I can't. It's too hard. Jake helped me through it and for that, I'm grateful." She pulled Jake over and hugged him.
"I'm glad you have someone, Leah." I passed them and went into the living area and saw Emmett still playing with Maggie. "Em, are you finished?"
"Come on, Bells. She's a cutie. And fun to play with. You'll get to see her every hour on the hour for the rest of her days. I want to give her some of my love, too."
"Okay, Em. You don't have to cry." I teased. He chuckled and went back to his business. I plopped down next to Edward and laced my fingers with his. Alice leaned forward, "Bella, who gave her to you?" I patted Edward's thigh, indicating it was his doing.
"Awwww, Edward."
"What, Ali?" He question, his eyebrow quirked.
"You're so sweet!"
"That he is," I interrupted and leaned my head on his shoulder.
"You really gave her a puppy, bro?"
"Yes, Emmett, I did," Edward answered.
"Cool." Maggie wriggled out of Emmett's grasp and jumped on me, nuzzled my hand and licked my fingers. I chuckled and petted her and then she hopped over on Edward's lap and licked his face. I was surprised he didn't stop her because he isn't normally an animal person. I squeezed his fingers then got up and padded into the area where all the women were.
Esme was stirring something and Rosalie was holding her kitten, Skyler, Leah was talking to Claire and Ali was sitting on a stool, swinging her legs back and forth. The guys were in front of the TV except for Edward. His hands were around my waist, his chin on my shoulder.
"I want these people to become your family, baby."
"They are my family."
"But for real."
"Edward," I turned in his embrace. "they are my family. I know it in my heart. It wouldn't matter if we weren't together, they would always be my family."
"I just love you and I want to marry you, Bells."
"We'll get there." I kissed him and heard 'awwwww' in the background. I turned and glared at them but smiled after.
I yawned.
"You tired?" Edward asked.
"Not really. What time is it?"
He looked at his watch. "Nine-thirty."
"Hey guys," I called. Everyone dropped what they were doing and gave me their attention. "I'm sorry to do this but I'm beat. Do you mind if we head out?"
"Belly, can I keep Mags for the night?" Em called.
"Emmett, I just got her."
"Oh, come on," he whined. "you'll get her everyday. Just this one night, please?"
"Baby, it's alright. Besides, I have things planned for you that a puppy shouldn't see," Edward whispered, his voice husky and nibbled my ear.
"Eddie, don't do that in front of me," Alice snapped.
"Don't watch if you don't want to see it, Ali." I laughed and squeezed his arm then went to say goodbye to everyone. I told Em to get everything out of Edward's car that Maggie would need. Her dog food, bed, puppy pads, her leash, and her chew toy. He grinned, kissed my cheek and thanked me for letting him have her for the night. I looked at Rose.
"Will Skyler be okay with Maggie?"
"Yeah, she'll fine. Skyler likes Maggie already. They were playing earlier and Maggie was licking Skyler's little ears. It was so cute!" Rose squeaked.
"That's good."
"And I gotta tell Em some news."
"What news?" I eyed her.
"I'm eating for two nowadays!"
"Holy shit, Rose! You're pregnant! That's fantastic. Does Ali know? Esme and Carlisle. Jasper?" I whisper-yelled.
"Not yet. You're the only one who knows."
"How far along are you?"
"About seven weeks. Bella, I'm so excited. I can't wait to have a baby!"
I hugged her. "I'm so happy for you, Rosie."
"Thank you, Bella." I smiled and waved at everyone then pulled Edward out the door so we could make sure Em had everything. He nearly forgot her puppy pads but I hollered at him and he ran back, Maggie and her stuff still in his hands. I kissed her head and got in the car, waving at Emmett before we pulled out.
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"I'm really glad everyone took to Maggie so well and so quickly," Edward said as we walked into my apartment.
He had to stop at his place and pack an overnight bag first before we came here. It was about ten-thirty and I couldn't wait to see what he had planned for me. I was ready. I felt we were ready for the next step. We hadn't had sex for almost three months and I was beginning to ache for it. Last night's session was mind-blowing. He'd slipped inside me just a little and I exploded, triggering his own release. I apologized profusely but in a way I wasn't sorry at all. It felt fucking amazing but I didn't want him to think I went against his wishes by nearly impaling myself on him. Tonight was the night. We'd waited long enough and I know he wants it just as much as me.
"Bella." I turned around after hanging my coat up and looked at Edward. He was staring at me, desire clear in his eyes. I gulped and walked toward him.
"Edward."
"I'm going to love you tonight, sweet girl." My body filled with heat and my face flushed. So many emotions washed over me.
Excitement.
Nervousness.
Love.
Lust.
Shyness.
Fear.
I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him softly then pulled back. He bent and swung me up in his arms and walked to my room. When we got there he walked in and shut the door with his foot. He put me down and cupped my cheek. "Are you ready for this?"
"Yes," I gulped. "Little nervous but yes, I'm ready."
"Why are you nervous?"
"I don't know. I just am. I mean I want you and I want to do this but I'm nervous."
"I want you, too, honey." He murmured. His emerald eyes were a dark jade color as they roamed seductively over my body. I flushed and ran my hands down his sweater-clad chest. His hands roamed under my shirt and caressed my back and tummy.
"You're so soft, Bella."
The raspiness of his voice, the rough, husky growl nearly made me lose it. His hand moved from my hip to rest beneath the swell of my breast. The light stroking of his fingers there made my breathing speed up, my nerve endings become sensitive. Sensations whipped through my whole body, tendrils of electricity flickered over me, hold me in sort of a trance as his fingers curled in the fabric of my shirt and began dragging it upward. I stared up at him, fighting the need swirling inside me. He leaned down and licked across my bottom lip, the taste of him lingering as the cool air met my flesh, the higher he lifted my shirt.
"Edward." I was shaking, my breasts so swollen and sensitive, the thought of his hands on them, stole my breath. Never, in my life had arousal been so intense or pleasure so fiery.
"Yeah, baby?" The hungry groan weakened my knees as I felt my shirt lift slowly over my bra.
"Kiss me." My hands gripped his arms, even as they rose, his hands lifting them as he whisked the material over my head.
"I will." He nipped at my lips. "I promise but not yet. I want you to feel this first. I want you to know it, need it, hunger for it before I kiss you." I panted as he pushed me back on the bed, settling between my thighs and caught my hands and lifted them, holding my wrists in one hand and stretched them over my head as the other flicked open the latch on the front of my bra.
"Edward."
I fought to control my pants as the cups parted, the lace scraping against my sensitive nipples. He smoothed his hands over swollen mounds of my breasts, making certain to press them on the burning tips. I cried out at the feeling as flames of wicked fire shot from the tips to my womb. I closed my eyes, my body jerking in sensory overload as his breath whispered over my nipples.
"So pretty," he cooed. "The softest pink in the world."
His tongue licked over my nipple roughly. Just once. I arched against him, my center convulsed as warm liquid flowed out of me. I twisted in his grasp, trying to get closer to his mouth, wanting to feel it again. When he licked it again, I nearly screamed. His lips covered the tender peak, drawing it into the fire that was his mouth as he began to suckle it. His tongue flickered over it wildly as a growl echoed around the room. Heat ripped through me as he sucked harder at my breast, nibbled at my nipple and tortured me with a pleasure I would probably never forget.
"Edward..." My hips arched against the wedge of his erection as his knees bent and thrust against my jean clad sex. I could feel him. Thick and hard. Between layers of clothes, he burned me. He stole all reason and pushed me closer to the edge and over, into a sea of ecstasy. His tongue flicked at my nipple, suckling at me with purpose.
"God, I can fucking smell you." He moaned, smelling the air around us, his mouth drawing my gaze, the swollen, lush curves of it. "Toe your shoes off." I did as I was told and kicked them off. "Good girl." He lowered my arms, releasing my wrists and placed my hands against his lower stomach. He gripped his sweater and yanked it over his head, staring at me with a nearly blackened gaze. "Unbutton my jeans."
"Edward, I can't think," I whimpered, the heat of his flesh soaking into my skin.
"Don't think then, Bell. Unbutton the jeans and I take your hair down." He lifted my hair and pulled the hair tie out, smoothing the mass around my head as my trembling fingers flipped open the button. "Unzip them now, baby. There you go." I pulled on the tab of the zipper, carefully lowering it over his straining erection. My thighs clenched in burning need. The denim parted and I pushed them off with my feet as his hands went to my pants and pulled them down to my knees. "Lift," he tapped my thigh. I lifted my leg and he pulled it off, repeating it with my other leg.
All that protected me now was the wet lace of my panties. Edward situated us so that we were both laying on the bed right then sprawled out next to me, caressing my breasts and belly. My chest heaved as his fingers circled my nipples and watched in fascination as they hardened further under his ministrations then slipped his hand down and landed at the elastic of the waist band that held my panties up.
"Off." He patted it.
I hooked my fingers in them, lifted my hips and forced them down to my lower thighs but my hands couldn't reach further so he finished it and threw them on to the blue chair. He then focused on my body, running his palm over every inch or skin, making it sensitive to the touch. He touched my stomach, shoulders, arms, chest, neck, lips, ears, thighs, inner thighs, but avoided my sex completely. I was on fire by the end, so sensitive and swollen to the touch, if he kissed me, I swear I could explode.
"Look at me, beautiful," Edward crooned.
I looked at him. The love, longing and lust in his eyes nearly made a tear come to my eye. God, I loved him.
"I love you. I love you so much, it takes me to my knees sometimes. I would do anything for you. I would take a bullet for you. No one, and I mean no one loves you as much or ever will as greatly as I do. You are my future, my everything. I'd go to the ends of the Earth to make you happy. You mean the world to me, Isabella Marie Swan. Nobody can take me from you. I promise you, I swear to God, I will never hurt you again. You're it for me. The one I wanna spend the rest of my life with. If anything happened to you, I wouldn't live, I swear it would crush me and I would never recover from it if I lost you. It happened once and I never want to go through it again even though it was my fault. You are my baby, the love of my life and I will never let you go. You are mine. I love you with all my heart. You have me. I feel like the luckiest man in the world because you're in my life. I love you, baby. Don't cry, sweetheart."
I didn't realize I had been crying until he wiped them away with his fingers and kissed me softly. I laced my fingers through his hair and threw my leg over his hip and pressed myself against him. I licked his bottom lip and sucked it into my mouth as my tongue emerged and danced with his, fighting for dominance. He reached down and took of his boxers and settled between my thighs, our mouths still together. He broke the kiss and opened the drawer for a condom but I stopped him, shaking my head. "I wanna feel you."
"Are you sure?"
"More than anything," I pulled his face back and kissed him before whispering, "I love you. I don't care if I get pregnant. I want your baby."
"God, I love you." Joy flared in his eyes and he kissed me hard then placed the tip of his erection at my entrance. "Ready?"
I nodded and gripped his shoulders and pushed inside of me. My back arched and he groaned as I whimpered. God, I was so full. My hips swirled, trying to get him to move. "Stop, baby. I'll lose control if you keep doing that," he rasped. I panted as he kept still, the wait was driving me crazy.
"Please, Edward. I need it." He buried his face in my neck, put his arms next to each side of my head, pulled his hips back and plunged in again. My neck arched and I raked my hands down his back and and thrust my hips up, trying to make him go deeper. My moans echoed through the room; his hard rasping breaths filled my senses.
Wrapping my legs around his back, I fought to hold on to something, anything that would help me match the rhythm he was was making. His hand went down to my hip and smoothed along it as his other arm rested on his elbow and his hips moved faster. He thrust inside me with hard even strokes. I felt my orgasm building, my womb tightening, my clit throbbing for his touch. So damn close. My legs tightened around him and he picked me up and sat back on his heels and pulled me into his lap.
He mixed up the rate of his thrusts. One second they would be hard and fast, the next slow and long. My orgasm was coming closer but he kept the teasing strokes and kissed my shoulder, then wrapped his arms around my lower back and pressed me closer to him, my clit hitting his pelvis every time, sending little flickers of fire throughout my lower body. "Come on, baby. You're so close, I can feel you tightening around me. Come on." He groaned, thrusting deeper and faster, over and over, kissing and biting my neck and shoulder.
"More," I panted, swirling down on his length. "Please, do something."
"Come, Bella. Come for me, sweetheart. You can do it."
His thumb reached in front of us and rubbed my clit, thrusting faster until the coil broke. I screamed and clutched around his neck, thrusting my hips over and over and over, my vaginal muscles milking his erection, twitching, setting his orgasm off. He groaned into my neck and I felt thick ropes of semen shoot inside me, coating my womb. I buried my face in his chest, panting and sweating as his release jerked through his body. I kissed his sweaty chest and looked at him. He was smiling down at me.
"That was amazing, baby," he swallowed.
"I agree. I love you, Edward. Thank you."
"I love you, too, baby girl. It was perfect. You're perfect." I hugged him and we laid down facing each other. I brushed some damp hair away from his head and reached up and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me and we fell into a deep slumber.
A/N: Damn, I swear that was the longest effing chapter I have ever written. My fingers are a-crampin'. Well, how was it? That was my first lemon. I hope I didn't disappoint. *crosses fingers*
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