Chapter 9- Had Enough
(Sora's POV)
A little over a month has passed since I realized I was an idiot for losing Kairi. She is my everything and I completely took something so amazing for granted. Everyone goes through phases in life wondering what they want out of it. Some figure it out almost instantly and don't make stupid decisions that could possibly ruin their entire life. Some, on the other hand, don't really think through things throughly, like me.
Life can throw you for a loop sometimes and that's when you have to take a step back and really consider your options. If you come to a crossroad, you should really think about the pros and cons of each leading action. Figuring out what's important to you and what it can do to your loved ones is a very big deal and everyone needs to remember that with each action they decide to do. Nothing is ever fully easy but as long as you're aware of possible consequences you could possibly save yourself from hurting you or someone close to you.
Unfortunately, some have to learn the hard way to realize what they have. It's definitely not something I am proud of. When you're in a very committed relationship, you really need to think about things from their perspective and how your actions can effect theirs. You could quite possibly do something that seems little to you personally, but it can cause more than you bargained for with that special someone. My own advice to the world: Never take advantage of something so great, especially when you know you can never find something as wonderful as what you have.
-Sora
"I love it." Kairi whispered into my ear. I was sitting at the computer typing up a personal entry of my own into her diary. She was leaning against me from behind reading what I had to say. Her soft cheek rubbed against mine before I felt her lips leave their mark.
"I was only being honest." I replied turning to face her. She smiled softly as she pulled me up into a hug.
"Do you ever regret taking me back?" Kairi asked quietly into my chest.
"Of course not." I said, kissing her forehead. "I wouldn't have wrote that entry if I did." She muffled a laugh as she pulled away. We both looked around the apartment. Just a couple weeks ago, Riku moved out to a new apartment with Amanda. It was kind of quiet but we had our privacy back. Of course we still didn't do anything sexual even though our friends don't seem to believe us. Even though we both were dedicated to wait until after marriage, it was eating at us both. After all, we are only human.
"Hey Sora," Kairi said, breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Hum?"
"I was thinking about it earlier," She pulled me down onto the couch. "I was thinking about my first day back to Destiny City and my first day of eleventh grade. I remember that you and Christy had broken up and I've heard the story of what happened prior to the break up, but what really happened right before school started and that first day?"
"Oh God, you're really going to make me try to remember, aren't you?" I said making a stressed out face.
"Of course." She smiled happily at me.
"Okay, well..."
Flashback
"Man, Sora, you're moving so slow." Riku sighed heavily as I walked out of my house. I looked over at my best friend with tired eyes.
"Don't even start with me today, please." I replied looking over at the houses across the street. They had been up for sale for almost a year and just a couple weeks ago, two families moved in at the same time. Riku and I had yet to introduce ourselves, but we, well at least I had a very good excuse.
"So how did the break up with Christy go?" Riku and I started to walk down the street toward Destiny High School. Christy and I had been dating for a number of months, almost a year, but she went and ruined it all.
"Well, she pleaded to me that it was nothing." I rolled my eyes. "And stupid me actually believed her."
"Billy's an asshole, we should beat the hell out of him." I looked over at Riku and smirked a little.
"Anyway," I continued. "I don't know why, but I figured we should try to work it out. I mean, I seriously loved that girl. I look back now and don't understand why though. She pretty much used me."
"Namine, Selphie, Tidus, and Wakka always believed that she was just using you." He admitted to me.
"Oh geez, thanks guys for telling me." I said sarcastically.
"It's not like you would have listened to anything negative anyway." Riku had a point. I sighed again.
"Well yesterday, Christy was over at my house and we were in my room. Things were pretty much back to normal, I was over it and Christy really seemed like she wanted me back. We were making out (A/N: ew, freaking Sora, geez). Right in the middle of it, her cell phone rings. She quickly pulled away to see who it was." I said looking at the sky wondering what I did to deserve what happened to me this summer.
"Let me guess," Riku said as we began to turn the corner. "It was Billy."
"Bingo." I said through clenched teeth. "Well she looked at her phone and said it was nothing, but little did she know, I actually saw his name appear on the screen. I told her to put it on speaker phone and talk as if I wasn't there. She seemed really hesitant to do it. I assured her it was okay because we were perfectly happy together and nothing was going to change that again. God, I'm so stupid!"
"Sora," Riku said snapping me back into the present day. "It's over and done with now. Tell me what happened."
"Anyway, she put her lips on mine and told me she loved me. I kissed her back and said the same thing. Christy sighed and turned her phone on speaker." Just thinking about this was making me boil inside.
-flashback within a flashback-
"Hello?" Christy said into the mic. She was sitting on my lap and I had my head on her shoulder, breathing in her sweet blonde hair as I listened in.
"Hey baby." Billy's voice echoed into my room. My head immediately jerked up as I looked at my girlfriend's face. Her eyes were shut tight.
"Hey." She replied sounding casual, yet strained.
"Man, last night was amazing." He laughed. I didn't know what to think. I felt frozen in time. "You left me completely speechless."
"Y-yeah, it was okay..."
"Okay?" He sounded surprised. "Last night you were telling me this was the best time you have ever had with a guy. You said Sora never would have done it with you."
"Uh, Billy, can we talk about this some other time?" Christy whispered. My stomach started to twist and turn, making me feel nauseated.
"Why, is something wrong?"
"This just isn't the time to be talking about it."
"But you said you were coming back over for more after you were done at Sora's house. You said you'd be here at seven and it's already passed seven." Billy said. Christy and I looked at the clock that read 7:10.
"I-I know." I felt Christy tremble on my lap.
"See you in a little bit, babe. Wear something sexy." The line went dead. I was stunned. She cheated on me, again, only further than just a kiss.
"Get off of me." I said in a very low tone. Christy quickly turned her head to me.
"Sora-." She started.
"Get off of me." I said a little louder.
"No, Sora, you don't understand." Christy pleaded.
"You're right," I said standing up immediately, causing her to stumble to her feet. "I don't understand what I ever saw in you. I don't understand why I took you back. I don't know why I would date a slut like you."
"Wha-?" She was left speechless.
"Get out of my house." I glared. I took her by the arm and escorted her to the front door myself. "It's over."
"Sora." Her hazel eyes glimmered with tears under the porch light. I shook my head and closed the door in her face.
-end of flashback within a flashback-
"That's so... nasty." Riku said shaking his head. "I can't believe Christy and Billy Heart did it. Ew."
"Yeah..." I said looking at the sidewalk. I was still very hurt by it; after all, it was only last night that it happened.
"I'm sorry, dude." I felt Riku pat my back.
"Yeah, me too." The rest of the way was silent. About five to ten minutes passed and we were arriving to the front of our high school. There were people everywhere and since I knew how fast word traveled here, it would be only a matter of hours before I would be hammered about the break up. I was just hoping I wouldn't have a class with either Christy or Billy.
"Since the seniors left already, I wonder who's been placed in group B with us." Riku said as we walked up the stairs to the front doors.
"Who knows, let's just hope we can get along with them." I said making my way passed the other students in the hall. Right before we made it up to the stairs leading to the second floor, someone stopped me.
"Hey Sora." I turned around to see Billy Heart smirking at me with his arms crossed. Billy was a football player with a lot of charisma. I know I had nothing to worry about with him trying to over rule me since for one: he was a year younger than me, and two: his cocky jock attitude pissed everyone off.
"What do you want?" I glared angrily.
"Your girlfriend showed up to my house last night." He grinned menacingly.
"Ex-girlfriend." I corrected him.
"She was still your girlfriend when we got hot and heavy together the first time." Billy leaned in closer to me. "And she was just as good when she was upset last night too." Before I could do or say anything, Christy ran up between us.
"Billy, shut up." She glared at him. "You need to grow up."
"I know you'll be back for more." He kissed her cheek before leaving.
"Sora, I'm sorry." Christy said hugging me. I stood there for a second before pushing her back.
"Don't talk to me." I said to her. "I don't want to be seen with someone like you. You can just go back to your little lover and screw him again for all I care. Just don't come back to me when you get your heart broken. Let's just say that'll be karma." (A/N: woo! Go Sora!) I pushed passed her and walked up the stairs with Riku close by.
"You'll come back to me, Sora!" Christy called after me.
"Wow Sora, it's so unlike you to be so angry." Riku said as we walked up the stares, ignoring every word that just came out of my ex.
"I am so not in the mood to deal with anyone's crap today." I said speeding up my pace toward room 203.
"That's understandable." I heard Riku say as he walked behind me. I saw my Math class up ahead and I was determined to get there before any more unwanted attention happened. Namine was at her locker just up ahead and I would have stopped by to say 'hi' but I decided otherwise. Right as I passed Namine, a girl with brownish hair stood up and bumped into me. I wasn't in the mood.
"Watch where you're going." I said harshly to her as I pushed on passed everyone. I wasn't normally this way but the whole situation from last night to this morning didn't exactly make me look like Mr. Good Guy.
"Cloud, no!" I faintly heard the girl say as I disappeared into class.
"Hey Sora." Selphie, a friend from elementary school and middle school grinned from a group of small people. Even though Selphie was sometimes a little over happy, I knew she would be able to snap me out of my funk.
"Hey there Selphie." I said sitting backwards in a chair to look at the bouncy brunette.
"So how have you been? I haven't seen you in a week!" She said eagerly.
"Eh, I've been better." I sighed.
"I heard about what happened between you and Christy." Some guy from the other group in our class said.
"I knew it wouldn't take too long."
"I tired not to bring it up." Selphie frowned before glaring at the other kid. The classroom door opened. Riku, Namine, some blond haired kid and the girl that bumped into me walked in. Namine led them to the side of the room closest to the windows. They started to talk and Selphie looked over. "Well, I think I'm going to go sit over there."
"Okay." I nodded. Selphie got up and made her way to where the other four were. I continued to talk to the other kids for a little while before our teacher walked in.
"Hello class. My name is Mrs. Lawson." She announced to us. "Could group B please sit on the side closest to the window and group M sit closest to the door." I got up and made my way across the room. I sat down next to the window and next to Riku. "After roll call, I'll just pass out some papers about this class, then you can talk until class ends." She called through our names while I spaced out into oblivion until I heard my name and only went back into my thoughts. After that, she passed out some papers on something. Everyone quickly returned to their conversations prior to class starting. I felt Riku backhand my arm. I looked at him.
"Be back in a second." I said getting up. I went to Mrs. Lawson and asked if I could get something to drink. My mouth was dry at the thought of what happened and I knew Sprite would do the trick. It was kind of like a comfort food of mine. I walked out of class and paid for a Sprite out of the soda machine right in the hallway. I walked back in happily and sat back in my seat, leaning against the wall. Riku, Namine, Selphie, the blond haired kid and the red-brown haired girl looked at me. I smiled like nothing was wrong.
"Sora." Namine said. I turned to look at her.
"Yeah?"
"Remember that cru-." Before Namine could finish, Riku and Selphie covered her mouth. They all glared at each other as they let Namine go. I raised an eyebrow. They sure were acting weird.
"Anyways, Sora. Do you remember her?" Riku pointed to the girl sitting behind me. I looked to my right and examined her face. She sure was pretty. Her face slowly turned a light shade of pink as I continued to stare. Suddenly my cell phone vibrated and I jumped causing her to do the same.
"Oh crap. Sorry. Hold on real fast." I opened up to read a text message from Christy that said that she was very sorry and still loved me. I thought about it and got kind of frustrated. How did I manage to get so caught up in something like this. I closed my phone and returned it to my pocket before looking at the girl next to me again. Namine and her were talking and suddenly the girl smiled. My stomach immediately dropped. I recognized her.
"Kairi?" I said with my mouth dropped open. Everyone near by was staring at us.
"Heh, yeah?" She looked at me nervously. I swore I thought I wouldn't ever see this girl again. I had known her since elementary school and had the biggest crush on her that only Riku knew about. After she moved away before sixth grade, everyone noticed how sad I became and that's when I admitted my feelings about Kairi to everyone, including her best friend, Namine.
"Bore a hole through her, why don't-cha?" Selphie said snapping me out of my trance.
"Sorry." I said quickly. "Wow, you look different."
"Is that a good thing, or a bad thing?" Kairi asked uncertainly.
"A good thing." The five of us replied. She seemed shocked to get so many answers. She looked at the blond boy next to her. They started talking about his response. I looked over at Riku.
"Hey," I said getting his attention. "You know, Kairi might be the perfect person to get my mind off of Christy."
"You should ask her on a date or something." He said. I smiled and turned to face Kairi but before I could say anything, the bell had rung.
"The bell already?" Kairi asked as we stood up.
"Yep. Time for English in 325." Namine answered as we entered the hallway. We stuck together through all of our first four classes. As the bell for lunch rang, I headed out with Riku to get a table. As we were heading toward the cafeteria, the blond guy, Cloud, called out my name.
"I'll go see if our table is open." Riku said walking through the lunch doors. I nodded as Cloud ran up to me.
"Hey." He said.
"Hi." I replied kind of unsure about what he had to say.
"Look, I've heard a lot about you from Kairi. She's been my best friend since she moved to Star City and trust me, she brought you up a lot." His blue eyes stared at me.
"Really?" I asked surprised.
"Yeah," He nodded. "Look, she really really liked you and if you do anything to break her heart, it won't be pretty."
"I'm glad that you're protective of her." I said sticking my hands in my pocket. "Trust me, I wouldn't do anything to hurt her. If she's the same Kairi I knew back in elementary school, I will probably fall for her quickly. I actually was thinking about taking her out sometime soon."
"She'll be happy to hear about it."
"Just wait until I clear up a few things. I want to be the one to tell her." I said sternly.
"Hey Sora!" Riku called from the open lunch doors. I looked over to see Kairi and Namine on the ground just behind the doors. Riku noticed them too. "Oh crap!" Cloud and I ran over to help them up. Cloud pulled Namine to her feet and I pulled up Kairi. She had her eyes closed and went limp for a second so I had to catch her again.
"Thanks Cloud." She said rubbing her head.
"For what?" He asked looking at Kairi. Kairi slowly opened her eyes and saw me.
"Oh, heh. Thanks for helping me up Sora." She said stepping away from me.
"No prob." I grinned stupidly. Kairi's face lit up a little before she looked at Riku and glared. She slapped his arm.
"Riku!" She exclaimed.
"Ow! I'm sorry! I didn't see you guys there!" He pouted pathetically causing the rest of us to laugh. We walked into the packed lunchroom. I turned to Kairi.
"Want to eat with us?"
"I was going to eat with Namine and Selphie." She said hesitantly. I knew she was trying not to insult me.
"Actually, they eat with us." Riku said to her.
"Oh, heh, alright then." She smiled. We headed over to our usual table and reacquainted ourselves. After P.E. we had Computers which unfortunately had Christy's group. She tried to talk to me a couple times but I just ignored her. School went by a lot quicker than I thought it would. Riku and I headed home after turning down the offer for ice cream with the group. We sat down on my porch talking about today when I saw Kairi and Cloud walking down our street.
"Do they live near here?" I asked curiously as we watched them approach the house in front of Riku's.
"I don't know." Riku said. "Uh, I hope Kairi see's that skateboard coming up." Cloud slowed down and Kairi turned to look at him. She stepped on the skateboard which flew out from under her.
"Kairi!" I yelled bolting down my lawn and across the street. She landed on the ground. Her eyes were starting to close as Riku, Cloud, and I looked down at her.
"I'm going to go get my mom." Cloud said rushing into the house we were in front of. I leaned down and picked Kairi up.
"Do you think she's okay?" Riku asked looking at her head.
"I sure hope so." I said looking down at Kairi's face. Even though I'm sure she had changed in some way from when we last saw each other, I knew I was falling for her and quickly too. Cloud and his mom ran out. His mom went to the house next door and unlocked the door. We all walked inside where Cloud led me up to Kairi's bedroom. I gently laid her down under the covers and brushed away her hair from her face. Riku called up Kairi's mom and told her what had happened. She wanted us to stay with her until she got home from work.
As we waited, I looked around Kairi's room while Cloud played on her Playstation and Riku called up Wakka telling him what happened. Her room was a typical girls room. She had a lot of pictures from her childhood taped to the walls. I looked out the window toward my house before heading to the one facing Clouds. I noticed the tree branches and how they were perfect access for sneaking out or sneaking in... either way. Maybe about half an hour after Kairi passed out, her mom came home.
"Hey Cloud." I said since he was going to stay here until she woke up. "Can you give Kairi this." Riku and I had both written down our phone numbers for her. I also added Namine's just incase. I figured she'd want them sooner or later.
"Sure." Cloud said as I placed it on her bedside table.
Riku and I headed back to my house and hung around for a while. My parents invited him to stay for dinner. Since I couldn't wait to eat, I went downstairs to grab a couple cookies without my mom noticing. As I walked back upstairs, I heard Riku on the phone.
"I'm glad we're friends too, Kairi." I heard him laugh from my closed door. I opened it and looked at him. His eyes met mine with a huge grin. "Hey, here's Sora." I looked at him weird and took the phone.
"Hello?" I said.
"Sora?" Kairi asked nervously. "Who was I just talking to?"
"Oh that was Riku." I replied looking at him. He was trying to hold in laughter only making me more confused.
"Can I talk to him again?"
"Sure." I handed Riku the phone.
"Yeah?" He said to Kairi. I heard her yelling at him about something only making him laugh more. "Don't worry, I won't. Here's Sora." He handed the phone back to me.
"What was that about?" I asked her.
"Nothing. Anyways, I was just calling to thank you for earlier today." She said.
"Oh, no problem." I replied.
"Well, I better go. See you tomorrow."
"Okay. Bye Kairi."
"Bye." We both hung up to phone and Riku burst into laughter. I just stared at him until he calmed down.
"You're weird." I said to him.
"If only you knew what I knew." He said smiling at me.
"What is it?" I asked curiously.
"Oh, nothing. You'll have to find out yourself." Riku reached down for one of my cookies. I hit his hand.
"Get your own cookies." I said stuffing one into my mouth and covering the others while Riku frowned.
End of Flashback
"Wow." Kairi laughed as she stroked Princess's golden fur.
"Yeah, that was one crazy day." I said putting my head down on hers.
"Well it led us up to where we are now." She smiled up at me.
"And I couldn't be any happier." I replied kissing her.
A/N: (Starting date: January 20. Ending date: January 20 - yep, same day) Aw lol Yeah there was no real point to this chapter. It's just nice seeing something from someone else's point of view. I feel bad for Sora but at least everyone, well the important people, happen to be happy. Lol and poor Riku at the end of the day, Sora had to be a cookie monster and not share haha. Okay, anywho, reviews would be awfully nice. They also receive sooner updates!
A/N (prt 2): So I was rereading Dear Diary (obviously I had to remember what happened to write this chapter) and man have I come a long way. I'm pretty much proud of my writing (and being able to catch spelling and grammar mistakes better than before). Anywho lol a side note: I tend to get titles from song titles that can fit each chapter. You should really listen to Had Enough by Breaking Benjamin, it really works for Sora's emotions during his flashback. Yup, also, his advice in the beginning, you should definitely take it! (My own advice to people who have had or are having relationship problems). Welp, that's it n.n
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