Afraid to Take The Risk

I do NOT own Degrassi

A/N.

So it's been a while since I updated this story, sorry guys, got wrapped up in a couple others. That and I wasn't sure what I wanted to happen next for out Misfits, still not 100% sure so I'm just gonna write and see what happens. Sorry again. 3

Break the Night in Two

Eli's P.O.V

I silently lead Clare through my house and up the stairs to my room, the combination lock now gone from its spot on the door, I looked over my shoulder and flashed her a smile. My room was clean and it was all thanks to her. Setting my hand on the door knob I turned it and pushed in stepping into the room before her so I could turn on the light. "Welcome to Hotel Eli." I said turning to look at her; I felt her hand give mine a squeeze. "This is amazing Eli." She took in everything around her the walls that you could now tell where covered in posters, the floor that was a nice wood with a couple area rugs.

"I'm so proud of you." She said moments before her mouth was on mine, I was slight taken aback, but that didn't stop me from returning the kiss...no I simply wrapped my arms around her pulled her close and deepened it, when we pulled apart from each other we were both panting trying to catch our breath. I smiled a bit when she leaned her head against my chest, her hand finding mine. "What do you want to do?" I asked looking around my room; we could watch a movie...

"I have movies, video games, books and the laptop...and music." I said rubbing a hand up and down her back. "Well how about we watch a movie?" She said stepping away from me and walking to the bed, it was a good idea to me so I clicked on my TV and looked through my movies. I hadn't realized that I had so many movies till I cleaned. I searched until I found one she would probably like, I mean we've gone to the movies but it's always a battle to pick something we both want to see. So I settle on The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus, since it was a pretty good movie. Putting it into the dvd player I walked back to the bed and sat down beside Clare.

We watched the movie cuddled together for almost a half hour before I felt Clare's hand on my thigh, I smirked she was so shy it was me who usually started anything so it was kind of cute that she was taking that step or at least making some kind of step. Setting my hand on hers I very slowly slid it further up my thigh towards my groin; I did it slowly so that she had the chance to pull her hand away. She didn't soon she was palming me through my tight jeans, biting my lip I moaned, removing my own hand to make a fist in my bed sheets. I seriously didn't want to push her but damn, it hurts being in pants so tight pressing against an area that is already sensitive. "Clare..."

God the smirk she gave me made me a part of me melt and another part of me get a little bit harder if that was possible. "Yes Eli?" She asked to innocently to innocently if you ask me. "What are you doing?" I asked, no I'm not stupid but it's good to know for sure how far things are going...however she didn't answer the question, nope she reached up and used both her small hands to undo the buckle of my black studded belt, the clink of metal on metal momentarily distracted me that is until I felt her pop open the button on my jeans before slowly pulling the tab of my zipper down.

She stopped suddenly and I leaned up on my elbows so I could get a better look at her, she was sitting on her shins looking at me intently...so intently that I shifted a bit I've never seen that look in her eyes before it was intense. "What's wrong?" I asked softly still looking at her. We've gone this far, hell I've gone farther on her so I wasn't sure she was suddenly regretting it or what. She cocked her head to the side and smiled. "Nothing, I was just admiring you." She said she reached forward again and grabbed the hem of my shirt in her hands pulling up.

I had to sit up to help her remove the shirt but I didn't mind though, I even smirked as she tossed it to the floor before I grabbed her and pulled her close leaning in to steal a kiss, there was nothing slow about it either, our lips met in a fevered frenzy and one or both of us let out a strangled moan, my hands moved to the hem of her shirt pulling it up only breaking the kiss to remove it completely. Then I let my wandering hands roam. I groped her over her bra, before pushing the cups down so I could take one of her puckered nipple into my mouth, her moans egging me on.

Reaching behind her I unclasped her bra, removing that too. I love the feel of our skin touching, and I was so hard right now I'm sure she could feel it against her jean clad thigh. Her hands where all over me, and then they were pushing my jeans and boxers down and I froze, we've never been completely naked together...and even though she had her own jeans on, as much as I didn't want to pressure her but I couldn't make that promise if all the clothes were going to be missing in the equation...

Despite better judgement I allowed her to remove my clothes, letting them fall off the bed, I even watched as she bit her lip and slid her own jeans and underwear down her shapely legs...even worse I let her come back to me and press all that soft skin against me. "Clare." I mumbled getting distracted by the feel of her breasts pressed to my chest as she nibbled on my neck. I couldn't take it anymore and I flipped us over so I now rested on top of her. Her legs opened to accommodate me and I groaned out loud as my erection pressed against her. "Shit." She chuckled and I looked down into her crystal clear blue eyes.

"I'm ready, Eli. It's okay." I frowned and looked down at her trying to make sure she was talking about the same thing...all I saw in her eyes was trust and love...I swallowed and leaned down pressing a sweet kiss against her lips. "Are you sure?" I knew this day was coming but her faith meant so much to her. "I'm sure I want it to be with you, and I'm sure that right now is the right time." I nodded my head before kissing her again building it back up to the fevered pitch, my hands playing with her willing body.

I used my right hand to fondly her breast and the left to make sure she was ready; I used my thumb to massage her clit while I dipped a finger into her wet heat. I know what she likes when we did this as it's not the first time, before long I added a second and then third finger, stretching her body...you see my worst fear is hurting her and this was going to hurt. Only when she was moaning and writhing against my hand did I pull away, reaching in my bedside table for the box of condoms my dad had bought just for this reason.

Using my teeth I ripped it open and slipped it on, looking at Clare one more time. "Are you sure?" I asked touching her face gently."Yes Eli I'm sure." I nodded, reached down and grabbed myself so I could position myself at her entrance I very slowly pushed myself in. "Jesus fuck Clare you're so tight." Okay that wasn't very romantic but hell it was taking everything in me not to just thrust all the way in. I stopped when she moaned in pain. "I'm sorry." I said starting to pull out, we had gotten that far it was fine...

"Don't even think about Elijah, do it already please." She said smiling as best she could at me. I did as I was asked leaning down to kiss her as I pushed through the barrier that branded her a saint...We moaned at the same time, me in pleasure and her in pain. I stopped allowing her to get comfortable with the intrusion, when she was ready she moved her hips... I started slow, but with her meeting me thrust for thrust it didn't last and soon I was a biting my lip to keep myself from finishing before her.

Reaching down I stimulated her clit as I pumped in and out of her body, I could feel her start to tighten around me and I moaned her name. "Clare." Her nails scored my back as she met my pace moaning and than before I knew it she was tightening around me and crying my name as she came. "Eli!" It was probably the sexiest thing I have ever heard. And I trembled before falling over the edge and joining her in post sex bliss, which evidently lead to us falling asleep in a tangled mass of limbs after I cleaned up. "I love you Blue eyes." I mumbled pulling her to me as she slept.

A/N

Okay, so that was my take on their first time, nothing crazy or wild...If you didn't like it. I'm sorry but that's how it goes. Um I dunno really, review I want to hear from you.

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