A/N I'm baaacck! This one's a romantic angsty Jace scene. Based on The Only Exception by Paramore. I know it's a girly song for Jace but it fits for him. If you haven't heard it you have to listen to it. It has everything to do with all the messed up stuff that happened in Jace's life, even his childhood. Here goes it.
Disclaimer: If I owned Paramore or the Mortal Instruments I would be rich and a Shadowhunter (cuz I would drink from the cup *teehee*) and I am none of which sooo you can figure it out.
Jace POV
When I was little I was told that to love was to destroy. My father made sure of this. He wasn't even my father, and the affection I thought I felt for him has been replaced with a mix of sorrow and hatred. All my life I wore a mask of arrogance and carelessness. I did it so I could be sure that I would never give myself completely to anybody. When I met the Lightwoods I gave bits of myself to them, small parts for each, but they never fully knew or understood me. I knew that love never lasts. I made sure I would find other ways to distance myself from people and make it on my own, keeping up the pretense that I was satisfied with my life. Never once did I let real emotion leak through my carefully put together façade. I kept a straight face, and kept a safe distance. I had made a silent promise to myself to never feel love that didn't exist. Then Clary came. She had fiery red hair to match her temper, and a smattering of freckles to disguise it. She seemed so mundane, yet her existence changed his life. Love made her stronger, and helped her to become a real Shadowhunter. She made me realize that love was not to destroy. Sometimes I feel as if it's all just a dream, and in the morning when I wake up she'll be gone. My grip on reality is pretty tight, and it keeps telling me that she's too good for me; surely I did nothing to deserve this kind of happiness. I have allowed myself to break my promise; she had been the only exception. Now I feel love, real love. It's clear to me that my father lied to me, love made people stronger. When Simon was in the Hotel Dumort love drove her after him, and when Jocelyn fell into a coma love forced her into Idris to find a cure. Love helped them stay together after I was almost killed by Jonathan, it made me think of her and all I had to lose. My mask of arrogance has now turned to one of happiness, I could never ask for anything more in my life. I already had it all. A few weeks ago it was clear to me that I wanted to be tied to her in more ways than just dating, and I was now on my way to pick out the engagement ring I would propose with. When I had found the one a thought occurred to me, on the back of the ring I had it engraved with five little words that explained everything that needed to be said, "You are the only exception"
A/N Was it sweet? I thought so. Love it, Hate it? Song requests? Tell me in a review!
Ta-ta!