It Started With Coffee

I do NOT own Degrassi

You're Eyes

Ellie's P.O.V

My shift had just ended and I was walking out the door when I spotted his car, all the fears that had built up that he wasn't going to come get me, I had been prepared to take the bus home. He was here though leaning against that orange Honda of his; walking towards him he gave me a cocky half smile. "Think I was going to leave you here Red?" I thought about lying but what was the point we both knew I had been. "Yes, after you walked out I was afraid it was for good." I said stopping in front of him.

Still leaning against his car he reached out and grabbed my waist, pulling my body into his and wrapping his arms around my waist. "It's going to take more than Marco to scare me away Red, I've got an investment in all this too you know." I rested my hands on his chest and arched a brow. "Investment?" I had no idea what he was talking about, but that wasn't unusual this was Jay Hogart. He nodded his head and looked down at me, meeting my eyes with his. "Yes, an investment...look I'm not happy with the whole situation and we shouldn't have gotten into it at your work." I nodded my head, he was right they shouldn't have.

"Can we finish this at home?" I asked with a sigh, I didn't want to have this argument or discussion on the street in the cold where everyone could hear. He nodded his head and let me go pushing away from the car, walking around to his side he opened the door and got in, I followed, buckling up and reached forward to fiddle with the radio even though I know it drives him nuts...hell maybe that's why I did it. Finding a song I liked I sang the words under my breath as we drove towards my apartment.

"Just tonight I will stay, and we'll throw it all away, when the light hits your eyes it's telling me I'm right. And if I am through than it's all because of you, just tonight.

Here I am and I can't seem to see straight, but I'm to numb to feel right now. And here I am watching the clock that's ticking away my time, but I'm to numb to feel right now."

I looked at Jay out of the corner of my eye and for some reason I think we fit this song, not all of it, but a lot of it. I can't even explain why I just could picture the two of us in this song, sighing I noticed him pulling into the familiar parking lot, and I unbuckled my seat belt and grabbed my bag as we got out and headed to my apartment, I walked slightly ahead of him in silence as we got to my apartment. I watched as he decided to lean against the wall near the door rather than sitting on the couch. "Look Red, I've done some pretty shitty things, I'm the first to admit that I'm an asshole." I looked up at him from where I had dropped my bag, not expecting him to be the one to start.

"But that doesn't mean that I can't do or want to do good things." I nodded my head; I wasn't the one calling him an asshole. "Alex and I had a toxic relationship, there was love but it wasn't like the love you had with Sean." I knew that, I had talked to Alex on more than one occasion. "The way I treated her was disgusting, I know that and I want you to know that I have been doing everything in my power to change, it's not easy. I'm not the kind of guy who see's themselves settling down and raising a nice little family."

I swallowed looking at him know, I didn't know what this was supposed to mean, hadn't he said just hours ago that he wanted a relationship with me? Hadn't this morning meant something more than the idea of getting sexual release? "I wasn't aware I was asking you to play house, Jay." It came out in that sarcastic way I have, protecting myself and pushing him away. "Don't start that shit with me Elli." I flinched a bit at the use of my name; he hardly ever called me Ellie. "What do you want me to say Jason? I've known you for a long time, I know how you are." I watched as his jaw clenched and he fisted his hands.

Most people were afraid of him, but I wasn't he wouldn't hurt me. "I also know that you've changed. Jay we spend all the time we can together, watching TV and movies." I took a deep breath and walked a little closer to him. "If you where the same guy that drove all of us to Wasaga Beach you wouldn't be here in my living room trying to convince me of it." I smiled a bit as I took another step towards him. "And if you hadn't stormed away like that you would have heard me tell Marco that I don't care about all the things you've done, because I like you."

I watched a mixture of emotions flicker across his face as he reached out and pulled me the rest of the way to him. "You like me, eh Red?" I nodded my head as I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck. "Yes, but don't let it go to your head." I said smiling; he leaned down bringing his mouth closer to mine. "I might just let it go to my head." I couldn't help myself I rolled my eyes. "Of course you wi..." I never got to finish my sentence his mouth was on mine and he was kissing me like it might be the last thing he was going to do.

He pushed his tongue into my mouth, not waiting for me to open to him, no Jason Hogart hardly wanted for anyone to do anything for him, he took what he wanted and I gave into him willingly. I liked the way he demanded a response from me, his hands tangling in my long red hair, pulling my head back slightly as he depended the kiss. His hands moved up and down my back before he slipped them under my shirt and then up my bare back. I moaned against his mouth as he finally pulled away so we could both take a much needed breath.

Hands still tangled in my hair he pulled my head back and pressed his lips to my throat, and I couldn't help myself as I moaned again, he knew what he was doing. It was new having his lips on me, Sean hadn't been as demanding, hadn't been as sure. Jay knew what he wanted and he took it, but not without giving in return. I tangled my hands in the hair at his neck and pulled him closer to me, as he turned us so that I was pressed against the wall his body covering mine. His body was so much bigger than mine; bigger than Sean's that he would never have to worry about me mistaking the two, I know that's what he was worried about.

I moaned again as he bit down on my neck, than licked the sting away his hands left my back and were suddenly on the back of my thighs boosting me up so that I wrapped my legs around his waist. I grinned and pushed against him loving the way his hands gripped my thighs and he moaned. "Dammit Red." He pulled me closer and slammed back into the wall and I hissed. "Sorry." He said against my lips, I smiled pressing my lips to his. "Bed El?" He asked walking that way with my arms around him making sure that I didn't fall. I didn't bother answering; he already knew I was okay with this. I chuckled against his mouth as we fell onto my bed, him rolling slightly so that he wasn't laying on top of me. "God El." I chuckled again as he sat up and pulled my shirt up and over my head. His hands touched my skin and I sucked in a breath as he trailed his fingers down a line of old scars on my ribs.

Blue eyes met my hazel and I gave him a weak smile. "If people couldn't see them they believed I stopped." It was easier that way and got people off my back. "You have right." He asked swallowing as he looked at me again. "Right?" I sat up a bit and touched his cheek with my hand. "Yes, I've stopped. I haven't cut since we started hanging out. I swear it Jay." He nodded his head and leaned down capturing my lips with his, it was a sweet kiss that held emotions and words he wasn't ready to speak and I wasn't ready to hear.

He never rushed, he slowly slipped my jeans and panties off, letting them fall to the floor as he touched the newly exposed skin, he moved long enough to strip out of his clothes, and then he was there covering me with his body as he explored. He was so slow in his exploring I wasn't expecting him to slip his fingers into me and my nails dug into his back and I moaned. "Oh..." He hissed and bucked into me as I arched my back. "Oh Red, you're so fucking tight." I snickered and he pulled away causing me to whimper at the loss.

The rip of foil filled the room and than he was back slipping between my parted thighs. "Raise one of your legs." I did as he asked bending my leg at the knee as he moved forward and slowly started to push his way in. Biting my lip to keep from saying anything as I adjusted to the pain, it had been so long. "I'm sorry El." I shook my head and lifted my hips. "Just do it." He didn't need further encouragement he thrust his hips and then pulled out, creating a steady rhythm.

My legs wrapped around his waist and I met him thrust for thrust, my nails digging into his back I was sure he would have scratches but at the moment I couldn't bring myself to care. I wasn't expecting the first time to be good, or slow. But it was both, Jay took his time as played with my breasts and clit, bringing me up and then stopping, it was a slow torture and I pushed against him trying to get some release. He chuckled and met my mouth with his deepening the kiss as he quickened his pace and then finally I was allowed to fall over that edge.

My orgasm had me moaning his name against his mouth and digging my nails down his back. He pushed himself even deeper into me if that was even possible. I felt him still and his body grow taunt as he pulled away moaning my name. Not long after he was laying on me his hands playing with my hair. "I'm staying the night again Red." I chuckled and nodded. "Okay.' I wasn't going to send him away. Yawning I pushed the sweaty hair of his forehead as he slipped out of me and pulled the used condom of grabbed a tissue and wrapped it in that before tossing it into the trash beside the bed.

He was back before I had time to cool, pulling the blanket up and over us as he pulled me into his arms. "Are we going to sleep?" I asked with a yawn. He made an hmm noise and rested his head in the place between my neck and shoulder placing a kiss there. "I was thinking about it, yes." I nodded my head and closed my eyes, content to let myself drift off into sleep into his arms. "Night Red." I heard him whisper before we both drifted off into a stated sleep.

A/N

Okay so it's been forever since I updated but I lost my muse and a lot of my stories are taking a lot longer to update than I want. But they will be updated. I promise. This week coming is my birthday! So I would love lots of reviews.

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