Reason 2: Finn

I awaited her voice. Her voice that use to agitate me. Made me want to scream. But now it was entrancing. It captivated me because I needed to know what else she would say.

Well now that we finished my first reason it is time to move to number two. Well Finn, how does it feel to be in second place?

You were always insecure, never believing in the strength you truly did have. Always having your life dictated by the rules of high school; the norms of Ohio life. But I still believed you were a good person. Why else would you see me as something akin to human?

When I first saw, really saw you, in Glee I thought you had a voice that could match mine. You didn't have classes or training or anything that I had that insured my voice to be the best but you had raw talent. And I liked that.

I didn't see you in an entirely romantic way-okay maybe but this is my show and I'll run it how I see fit- until you kissed me. Then I thought just maybe I could be loved. But you threw that away. You had a girlfriend who fitted in your perfect world. And you left me in the dust. If Quinn took away my chance then you took away my reputation. I no longer was just the freak who sang on MySpace. I was now the other woman. The girl you ran to when the real world got hard. The girl who would always be second place.

When you ran back to Quinn because of her pregnancy I thought I lost my shot. You were gone now even if I did try to get your attention. I must have looked pathetic running after a guy with a pregnant girlfriend. But you led me on. You made me believe that there could be something. That is why I always came back, you made me believe.

But that hope was all for nothing because in the end you didn't leave the girl. You ran away when you heard of her betrayal but you didn't leave. You never left her because she was always your first. The first girl you loved. The first girl you kissed. The first choice.

At sectionals I thought we had a connection. A chance at happiness. Our voices sounded great together just how I imagined our relationship. I thought we were two people who belonged. But then we came back to school and it all fell apart.

Once again high school dictated your life. You never had to suffer what I suffered for years and when you got a small taste of it you spat it out. You spat me out. You didn't give me a chance to show you what I could have been because you were too preoccupied with everyone else. With everyone but me.

Again I was the second choice. Never the winner. Always left behind. You chose popularity over me. You chose an intangible idea over me. You chose to leave me in the outskirts. I was always looking in.

Do you know how painful it is to watch a person leave you? To find a person who talked to you as a human only to leave you behind? To always be the second one?

When I first met you I thought you were different. I bit of a sheep but you had potential. You had something that could have made you great. But you choose to go on with your life as though the spark was dead.

You don't think about me, you think about what people think of me. You don't sing, you perform what others think is good. You don't choose, you accept what others give to you. You never did anything for just me and you. You always did what was right for you, what was mandated by of social norms.

So it comes down to this:

You showed me a glimmer of hope. You took that hope away. You gave me a chance then quickly snatched it away. You took away my pride and turned my reputation into the other.

Second best. The runner-up. The loser.

So tell me Finn, how does it feel?

You could almost hear the smirk in her voice. A cruelty I never thought would come from her. Finn just looks shocked but it might be because he only understand half. But half was enough, you could see a bit of guilt. In fact you can see a bit of guilt on everyone. But most importantly you can see the fear.

If Rachel didn't stop at Finn, the man we all thought she loved, who can be safe. What other secrets would she expose?