Reason Nine: Santana
The tape was noisy. The background was that of passing cars. Was she really recording this outside?
Do you hear that? That is the sound of all the traffic that passes by a particular hotel. Your hotel Santana.
I snuck a glance at her. Really I just couldn't help it. Santana looked shocked. Fuck I would too if I was in her position. Rachel just said that she is in front of the hotel in which Finn lost his virginity.
If you were outside with me you would see what I see. A small building that looked like it could use a fresh coat of paint.
I always thought you were one of the most meanest Cheerio. But I never thought you could also be a murderer. Not in a physical sense but in an emotional. The day you told me about you and Finn I was destroyed.
You stole my security. I thought Finn was the one. I thought Glee was the place. I thought I had found happiness. You showed me that I was wrong.
I could accept that you slept with Finn. I forgave him like I always do but your words hurt me more than anything else.
You told me not Finn. You told me New Directions hated me. You told me I was worthless. And you took pleasure in my pain.
To have the lover of your boyfriend tell you about their rendezvous hurts. A pain you cannot imagine. To be told that a whole group of people hates you is shocking. Especially if that group is full of people you thought could be friends. To then have the same person take away the one thing you thought was secure is death.
See when you sang that solo you didn't just take a song you took the one thing I always thought was constant.
You have always insulted me and your insults always had a small degree of effect but when those cruel words escaped your mouth it killed my soul. You showed me the dark truth I was hiding from myself. You showed me the flaws I kept concealed in my imaginary world. You stole the security that made me think my dreams could be a reality.
Lets us go back and connect the dots. First Quinn, the queen bee, unleashes the bullying. Then Finn destroys my reputation as the best. Shelby shows me that I am replaceable. Jesse teaches me that I can never be a star. Then you show me the truth I was burying all along.
I don't think you were born to be cruel. I think life must have shown you some things that forced you to be what you are. Even so it does not give you the right to be malicious.
That day at sectionals I had to dry up my tears and pretend to love you and the rest of the club. I had to go on stage and pretend to be happy. I had to go and stage my life.
I should have been use to it. After all the world is a stage is it not? I might have been blind to it but you stole my mask. I wonder what you think of me when you found out I stole something of yours too.
It was a short confession but that did not make it less hurtful. A small choking sound filled the room.
It was Santana. She was not crying but she did have a look of shock. I wonder what it was that Rachel stole.
A/N- So this is the last update for today. I should be finishing the story by tomorrow because I don't want to lose the creativity nor the voice I have maintained so far. So keep a look out for constant updates tomorrow afternoon.
Thank you kaycedilla2011 for your review. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Also congrats on guessing the narrator.