Reason Ten: Mr. Shue
No matter what comes next I won't break, I told myself. But would I? Half of the people are already in tears and the other half is filled with dread. Three guesses as to whom.
They say great teacher do more than teach you of a subject, they teach you about your soul. Well if your mouths are not open in shock then I guess I should just come out and say it.
Mr. Shue you are reason ten.
The look on Mr. Shue really was shock but there was also a bit of sadness. To be told you are the reason of something horrible is tragic. To be told that when your job is to stop that then it is catastrophic.
When you first formed New Directions you say me as someone who you could fix. I had talent but I needed to work as a team player. You're lessons are probably done out of the goodness of your heart but you never really understood me and that hurt.
You always said that I needed to work as a person as part of a team. Well it's a bit hard to be a team player when you don't play for a team. You never really saw that. You only saw what you wanted to create.
Telling us that Glee was suppose to be like family might have been true for most of the members but it was never for me. I lied to myself and made myself believe that we could be a family but we all know it was a good lie. We all are excellent liars after all.
As a teacher you are the person that is shields the students from pain. You didn't have to stop it. All you had to do was lessen the blows. When we had Glee meetings you always tried to unify us. When we sang you choose songs that meant something to the world. When you had projects you tried to make us stronger.
When I first didn't want to be in Glee you sought me out. You made me believe that I was worth something. Even if after a while you forgot about me and pushed my worries in the background I still remembered the gesture of faith.
For a while that was enough until the day you yelled.
A teacher is not supposed to have a favorite student but they all do anyways. It is a part of the teacher student relationship. I can understand why you favor Finn. He is like a small puppy in need of guidance. Maybe you see a bit of yourself in him. Maybe you just want to save him. Maybe you could have saved me.
When I came in and refused to sing you yelled at me. You did not try to talk to me after Glee and try to figure out why I refused to sing. You did not try to understand me reasons. You did not try anything.
When Finn quit Glee after he found out that Quinn lied to him you went and comforted him and he joined Glee again. Maybe if you did the same to me we wouldn't be in this mess.
You were the person that should have seen me as a student in pain. You were the person that could have made me great. You were the person that was going to show me my soul.
Well you did that. You showed me that even adults who should know better can't learn to give me a chance. You showed me that my soul really is not worth saving. You showed me that I am worthless.
The shock of the truth was not as shocking as the break in her voice. She sounded so vulnerable and so alone. And that made it all the worse.
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