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''um….do I know you?'' blunt I know but im not just gonna invite a stranger into my house, that would be crazy. ''no but im a friend of your wife's'' she sighs. Wait Melinda? Lilly never mentioned her. Oh god don't tell me this is gonna be on of those freaky Jerry Springer things. don't tell me lilly was cheating. No wait…lilly would never do that. Miley shut up. Stop thinking so much. ''a..are y..you ok?'' I hear her ask, I must have zoned out or something cause she's looking more and more nervous.
''come in'' is all I can muster up to be honest. I slowly walk over to the sofa and she follows. ''so…how did you know lilly?'' I don't bother looking at her, I just wait for the answer ''well…lets just say I saw her around'' she sounded so cryptic ''o..k. im guessing you know…that…she…well..'' thankfully she cuts me off. ''yeah, infact that's kinda how I ended up here'' what the hell? At what time will she be making sense? Im starting to get those crazy thoughts about lilly and an affair because I sure as hell never heard lilly mention this woman before neither has Oliver. ''was she sleeping with you?'' I cant take it anymore I have to know. This time I look at her, her expression is shocked but understanding, ''no..no no! not that I have a problem with homosexuals but I like my men…well…my man…my husband'' she says slightly confused by what she was saying. I feel a rush of relief fall over me, I cant believe I would even think lilly would do that to me. Stupid miley. ''so…why are you here?'' she looks down at the floor then back at me ''lilly asked me to come see you'' ok now im confused. Why would she ask a stranger to come see me? Infact how could she. She's……she's…gone. ''when? How?'' I can feel my tummy doing flips, im so confused but for some reason I feel anxiety, like when your on a roller coaster. ''this is gonna seem hard to believe but I've been visited by the spirit of your wife. Infact she hasn't left me alone for almost 6 months, she wouldn't till I came here'' suddenly my stomach feels like its been punched. What is this nutcase talking about. This must be some sick joke. An evil twisted sick joke. It feels like the worlds slowed down but im moving fast, I feel like there's a fire where my heart used to be…filling with rage as I take in what's just been said. What this loony is saying.
''GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE'' I scream pushing Melinda or what ever out the door, she's pleading and begging me to hear her out but I don't wanna hear anymore of her sick lies. ''STAY AWAY FROM ME'' and with that I close the door.
This cant be happening. I feel my legs lose all strength and my body falls to the ground, I try my best not to cry so far im succeeding. Im holding back the tears like I have done since the day….the moment….lilly was gone. I look up and see the clock on the wall, I slowly focus on the small hand moving round, going past each number…listening to each tick…just watching time go by…looking past the clock…looking into the nothingness that has become my life.
that's when it hits me. I know its crazy but what if she wasn't a loony, what if lilly was talking to her. Why wouldn't she talk to me instead though? Does this mean I could talk to lilly again? I could have lilly back? No! stop! Miley your talking crazy! Im brought outta my thoughts by two arms wrapping round me ''miley…what's wrong? What happened?'' I hear Oliver say, he must have let himself in ''Ol..Oli..Oliver…is it..possible to..to talk to the dead?'' I merely whisper, he pulls back in shock a little, I think he's about to call the loony bin if im honest ''miley I know you miss lilly but…you have to move on. Its hard but..shes gone'' I turn around to look at him, he has tears glazed in his eyes. I hate doing this. Making him remember his best friend is gone. ''Do you know a woman named Melinda?'' I asked trying to ignore his expression. He just shakes his head so I countue ''she showed up here…she said lillys sprit has been talking to her'' I feel the lump in my throat but I swallow it back down.
''did you ask her anything?'' he suddenly seems really interested, like maybe he's crazy enough to buy this shit. ''no I threw her lying ass out my house'' everything's feeling more and more mixed up, I thought he would say she was nuts. ''that's probably for the best'' he sighs. I just nod in agreement. ''I think im gonna go to bed, im so tired'' with that he takes the hint and leaves. But im left…thinking about today's events. Getting more confused than ever. Only one things is going round my head…
Should I believe her?
''Miley why do you have to be so stubborn..why wont you just listen'' lilly yelled at the brunette girl who was standing on the beach, it was a cold night, the 16 year old best friends had been fighting the whole walk from Oliver's house to the beach. ''how could you show up with her? With joannie? Of all people?'' miley screams her brown locks blowing in the wind ''cause you turned me down. You said you didn't like me like that'' lilly had asked joannie to forget her broken heart, the numb the pain she had been feeling. Miley hated this. This was her fault. Still if lilly loved her so much, wanted to be with her so much how could she just be all over joannie in front of her so quickly? ''god lilly. Am I that's easy to get over?'' the brunette threw her hand in the air trying to get rid of some of the anger building up inside her, noticing this lilly walked over so she was closer to the girl she was crazy about ''miley would just listen…I want to be with you! I love you! Im madly deeply inlove with you! Why cant you believe that? Why cant you believe I was only doing that to try and get over you? Failing miserably may I add!''
there eyes met, miley felt the anger replaced with relief but also sorrow ''lilly im so sorry, I was so scared. I love you. God..seeing you tonight…seeing joannie all over you. Kissing you the way I have wanted to kiss you for so long, seeing you in her arms like you should be in mine, seeing her have everything that should be mine'' the brunette stopped as tears were forming behind her eyes but this time..she was gonna let them show.
For once she let every tear drop fall. she let it all out ''im inlove with you lilly. I just…got so scared..I just..I was scared. I want it. I want us. I want it all.'' with that lilly pushed her lips against Mileys who in return made it more passionate, neither girl wanting it to stop till the had to. Till if they didn't they would stop breathing. ''so..miley…will you be my girlfriend?'' lilly asked nervously without a second thought miley looked deep into her best friends eyes ''id love to''
It was the happiest moment of both girls lifes..so far although both girls had worries and doubts. Was it going to last? What if they end up hating each other? What if this moment of sheer bliss causes years of hurt and pain? Neither girl voicing these thoughts out loud. Neither girl knowing that 3 years later they would be married, one girl completely oblivious to that thought that in 6 years…her soul mate would be ripped from her.
When I wake up I look over to my clock, 6:30am. I close my eyes again hoping ill fall back asleep but as soon as I wake im thinking of her. Of lilly. Of Melinda. I realise I only have one choice.
Im gonna have to talk to Melinda.
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