if you came back from heaven Chapter 4, a hannah montana fanfic

Disclaimer - i own nothing...which sucks but what ya gonna do eh? lol im writting for fun, not profit.

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I decide to call every hotel in Malibu till I find her, I still feel like a complete loony for buying all this stuff but I just have to know. Is it possible for her to talk to lilly? See lilly? I mean no one would be sick enough to lie about that sorta thing? She hasn't asked for money or anything so she really has nothing to gain…does she?

I decide to take a brake from calling round til I relax my train of thought a bit. I sit at my piano for the first time since lilly….left. Running my fingers over the keys I think about lilly. I think about our love. I think about talking to her again…I mean…how crazy is this?…I put all doubts…melinda..lilly being gone…it all out my mind. I focus on lilly, I focus on us. that's when its there… that's when it comes back to me…

The last conversation I ever had with her….

The first and only real fight we had….

''miley this is stupid….we're fighting over nothing'' lilly sighed sitting down on the bed that held so many amazing memories for both girls. ''lilly…….how could you not tell me…you're thinking about children?'' miley asked getting worried, I mean lillys thinking of that, it hadn't really crossed the brunettes mind till now. ''miles..I was just reading up on it. I wasn't planning on attacking you with a turkey baster while you sleep tonight'' lilly shouted partly trying to lighten the mood but she really couldn't believe the thought of kids with her puts miley off so much..she didn't want them right away but it was nice just think about it…nice just to talk about it.

''not funny.'' the brunette sighed leaning her back against the wall across from the bed where lilly was. ''I thought it might have been, listen I was just looking, just thinking, thinking far future plans, as in years down the line. It was just nice to think about us having our own family.'' Mileys head shot up like someone had just hit her…her eyes widened and staring right at her wife, ''listen miley. I was thinking future plans, im sorry that the thought of us starting a family scares you so much…the thought of us having kids or maybe even just a puppy seems so off putting'' with that lilly walked out. Leaving miley with her thoughts.

It had been 2 hours. Lilly hadn't called or anything. Oliver hadn't seen or hear from her…no one had. She was pacing the floor thinking of where the love of her life could be…at first she just wanted to shout at lilly for walking out, she had never done that before…although they hadn't ever really had a fight before….

As she paced up and down a photo caught her eyes, it was of her and lilly. They had been together 1 year in it. Lilly was wearing big sunglasses that covered most of her face, a huge smile on her face. She was posing with one of lillys ''gangster'' caps. They looked so happy. Moving along the mantlepiece she saw a picture of them on there wedding day…lilly was wearing a really sleek dress, it hugged her amazing curves…looking at the picture miley realised that she was stupid. Seeing how happy they made each other. It was all she needed to know. that's when it hit her…

She was ready to start a family.

Quickly dialling her soul mates number she felt herself loosen up, relax.

''hello'' she heard the sweetest voice say. It sounded so full of hurt.
''lilly..im sorry. I completely over-reacted. Please come home?'' the brunette pleaded.
''miley…im sorry. I should have talked it all through with you. I love you so much'' miley felt her heart skip abeat, even after all this I time it did that every time lilly said those three words.
''no lilly listen…im glad you did..it made me realise…I am ready'' miley couldn't help the smile that crept across her lips.
''really? Oh my god im so happy to hear that'' lilly almost scream down the phone she was so happy.
''yes. Im certain. Now hurry up and get home, we have some making up to do'' her tone was seductive…miley couldn't help it. wasn't this the best part of fighting? The ''making up''?
''I am home se..'' suddenly the phone cut off, miley had no time to think cause the next thing she heard was a loud crash outside.

Running outside she could feel her heart jumping into her throat…but nothing could have compared to what she saw when she got outside…

Suddenly I realised I was playing the keys, I was no longer just running my finger over them. I was playing a tune..a lovely tune. Full of all the sorrow I was feeling. All the confusion. Finally everything I wanted to make sense of was coming out…….

I wouldn't know what to say
I wouldn't know what to do
If you came back from heaven
And I could look at you
Would I fumble for the words?
Would I be a little shy?
Would I bust right out with laughter?
Or break right down and cry?

Everything was just coming out, every thought. Every feeling. I just went with the flow, said what my heart was screaming..

Oh, if you came back from heaven
Would it be like it was then?
Could we just pick up, where we left off
And try it all again?
Oh, if you came back from heaven
It would freeze me in my tracks
And I hope God knows, if he let you goI'd never send you back

What if its true. What if I will get lilly back…for a little while.

Do your kisses feel the same?
Do you still have the same touch?
And will you whisper softly
'Coz you've missed me so much?
Have you heard all my prayers
When I lay down at night?
And did you feel my body
When I held your pillow tight?

every night since I was forced to sleep alone I held lillys pillow, sometimes id close my eyes and take in her scent...I swear it was like I was holding her. Then my eyes would open…she wasn't there. She never would be again.

What if lilly did come back…what if somehow this was a second chance. In some crazy way lilly wasn't gone…my heart would be returned…my life would be whole again. I would have a reason to live again.

And if, God forbid, you leave this earth again while I see
I hope he knows if you go you'll be bringing me

Was it to crazy to wanna be where she is…to think I should be with her. I should leave with her.? Is she waiting? is she coming back? My life isn't even a Iife anymore….not without lilly. Us.

Slowly I took my fingers away from the piano. Realising what's going on. I just had to get my answers…I had to work out if I was gonna get to talk to my one true love again.

I had to find that damn woman.

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A/N- yeah finally got the laptop back [smiles] working on the next chapter.
thank you to everyone whos reviewed & added me to alerts, means alot.
really gives me the confidence to write not just more of this but other stories i have in the making.
im greedy so im gonna ask for more reveiws please? [puppy dog eyes] hehehehe

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