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Nine: Someone Who Gets Me
I could not tell you HOW awkward I felt sitting there in front of Roxas, back straightened, shoulders back, sticking my chin out in front of me as if I were some snooty teenager who thought she was better than anyone else. It wasn't right. At ALL. I was the one that did the drawing. From all my years of drawing and painting, this is my first time actually being the drawing. I HATED it.
"You can stop staring at the trees now." Roxas told me with a laugh.
I have stared at the wide oak trees in front of me the moment we came out here, a safe distance away from Twilight High. Though I did not mind at all. The Oak's stood tall and proud, the only movement or sound it would make was when a slight breeze came through, making the leaves whisper and dance under its invisible gust.
"I don't mind staring at the trees." I answer, my gaze not leaving from the oaks.
Roxas chuckled. "Well, you can at least relax your body a little. You're too damn stiff."
My lips quirked and I drooped my shoulders and slouched, that caused Roxas to laugh.
"Okay...not that relaxed!"
I rolled my eyes playfully before shifting a little in the soft grass to get settle in a casual sitting-position. If there's such thing.
I heard Roxas laugh, and this time I laughed with him. We were slowly starting to break out of that awkward silence. Well, it was awkward for me, I have no clue how he feels about this.
"You're quiet, Namine." Roxas tells me, and it was enough for me to shift my gaze from the trees to him. He was about a couple of feet away from me. I could smell his cologne, which tickled my nostrils every time I tried to inhale. The strong, spicy smell slowly taking over me with every breath that I take. Those bright blue eyes, a light green that encircles around his pupils.
His skin, so clear, yet pale. My eyes dropped to his lips, and I had the sudden urge to kiss him. Imaging them slowly ghosting over my very own, falling over and covering them like a blanket. His lips, and mine, moving together in a perfect sync.
"Namine?" I watched his lips mouth, the sound of my name coming out from his mouth, the way it sounded, how he said it sent chills down my spine. I swallowed before bashfully looking up at him, under lashes that wouldn't stop fluttering. Did he REALLY make me that nervous? Who am I kidding? Of course he did! He's gorgeous! He's like, the guy every teenage girls dreams of... mysterious...and sexy...and I'm just...this weird awkward loner who can hardly start-up a normal conversation!
"So...so are you..." I find myself murmuring, my cheeks started to grow hot and it felt like my stomach was twisting itself up in a tight knot, I just realized now I've held my breath, I exhaled loudly so I wouldn't pass out in front of him.
Now THAT would be awkward!
His lips curved into a small smile for a moment before he continued to sketch me.
"That's true. Maybe I have a reason."
"Well...so do I!" I nearly shouted in my defense, he looked back up at me. He studied me with curious and oblivious eyes. I stared back, thinking quickly on what I could say if he started asking me a hundred questions at once, but he stayed silent. Just staring at me, but not in that usual creepy stare. It was the kind of stare somebody would be giving you to show you that they were listening.
I looked down at my hands that I've awkwardly folded in my lap, I was absently sliding them across one other like they were cold, but the weather was far from cold. It was actually a very warm day, and I was sort of glad that Roxas has taken me out here.
"What is it?" He asks, his voice was mellow and patient.
"What's what?" I ask, hoping to play dumb with him so that he'd drop the subject.
"Don't play dumb with me. What's going on?" Roxas questions me further, It was like he had just read my mind. I couldn't fool him like Kairi, Yuffie, or Olette, he could tell when someone was lying, just like Mom did, Nora as well.
"What's...your reason?" I asked, my voice hardly audible, my cheeks burning.
"I asked first, Sweetheart. If you tell me yours, I'll tell you mine."
I swallowed. I've told Kairi, Olette, and Yuffie...so It wouldn't hurt to tell just one more person now would it?
"It's...Complicated..."
Not really, I'm just being stubborn...but why? He seems trustworthy...he rarely talks so...who would he tell?
"I'm sure mine is a lot more." Roxas replied, followed by the sounds of a pencil scratching across paper. I subconsciously brought up a hand to comb back my side bangs with my fingers, since they were starting to get in my eye's. It wasn't long before I pulled the strands back down and over my eyes, he couldn't see the guilt and sorrow in them. That would just make me more of a sap.
"If I tell you...you...you can't tell anyone, okay?" I stuttered, squeezing my eyes shut for a moment.
"That bad, huh?"
"Just...promise me, okay!?" I cried out. That seemed to surprise him, but he held up his hands in surrender.
"Okay, Okay!I promise...a little feisty are ya?" he asked with a laugh. I didn't think it was funny at all. His smile faded once his gaze caught my erratic one. I inhaled sharply and slowly exhaled before I spoke.
"My sister's sick." My voice went hoarse, my lungs felt heavy like as if I were possibility of Nora bleeding to death like mom made me sick to my stomach, her life was in my hands. I was her only hope. "She was born with a genetic disease...the same one my mom has...had." I corrected myself and drew in another shaky breath.
Roxas placed a hand on my shoulder, telling me patiently to continue.
"It's called Hemophilia, it's a bleeding disorder...and it slows down the blood clotting process. They can suffer from swelling and aching in the limbs, nose bleeds, vomiting...and so much more."
"That's awful...I've never heard of such thing, how old's your sister?" Roxas asked. I felt his arm slowly stretching up to rest over my shoulders, I could feel my heartbeat starting to increase but when it came to the topic of my sister's disease has always turned me to stone.
"Shes five." My voice was bleak. "My mom bled to death from falling down the stairs after arguing with my father who is an absolute drunk, and she's strong Roxas, stronger than me. She doesn't allow her disease to stop her from living." I rant out, my voice breaking in between. Roxas holds me tighter, now with both arms.
I allow my face to fall on his chest, the spicy scent of his cologne tickled my noise. Causing my eyes to itch, but I was already crying and for once, I actually wasn't ashamed of my tears, and it felt good to let it all out.
"Shh...Namine, don't cry..." Roxas soothed. His fingers combed through my hair tenderly.
"NO. I...can't...please...just let me cry...I always have to be strong for her. Like she is for me. I always need to watch after her, to make sure that she's not having another symptom, or is bleeding out pools of blood! I can't have her end up like mom did, Roxas I can't let her die! I WON'T!"
I buried my face deeply into the soft materials of his navy-blue shirt and sobbed until I couldn't cry anymore. I expected him to push me off him, or command me to stop crying but he didn't. He just stayed silent and held me, even when I finally gotten a hold of myself.
"I'm sorry..." I said after a while in a husky whisper, slowly lifting my face up from his chest to look up at him, there were tears in his eyes. It surprised me. I know that we're all human and everyone cry's but...Roxas seemed like the tough guy that nobody messed with and the guy that could care less about others that weren't his friends or his hot girlfriend.
I've proved that wrong.
"Roxas?" I asked gently, his name was the only thing that were the right thing to say.
"I understand you Namine...I know exactly how you feel." Roxas whispered, his arms did not move from their place around me, but I did not mind. This was the first time in so long since I've had this type of affection and comfort from someone. And it was nice. Did he feel the same way?
"What do you mean?" I asked, allowing myself to sink deeper into his embrace, feeling more comfortable. I never thought that my sisters health condition could break the ice with Roxas...with anyone.
"My reason...it's not entirely the same as yours, but it involves my little sister as well...shes even the same age as yours." Roxas replied. His voice was a lot more stable than his chest as a pillow, and his arms holding me as if I were his favorite teddy bear. We looked like a couple who's been together for years, and at this very moment. It felt like it.
The contact meant nothing else but comfort, but I was okay with that. Just being able to have someone hold you and listen to what you have to say really helps more than you'd think it would. Even though Roxas and I hardly knew each other, we both knew that we could trust each other.
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