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It took me long but I finally found her. I finally found the woman claiming to have the ability to talk to lilly…my lilly. I couldn't yet. I couldn't talk to her yet. I needed advice. I needed honest judgement. I need my daddy.
Walking up to his house I feel my nerves kick in. I mean did he ever have this when mom died? Would he have wanted this chance? Or would it have made letting go harder? Maybe I'm just nuts for even giving this all a second thought, a sane thought at all.
''hey there bud. How's everything?'' I hear his voice and all my thoughts disappear..he was my hero, the man who raised me. He wouldn't think I was insane for all this…would he?
''hey daddy, I need to ask you something'' I state sitting down on the sofa. He sits next to me giving me a curious but caring smile. ''ok…shoot'' I'm not sure how I'm meant to go about this? I mean saying 'hey daddy some crazy claims her and my wife..whos been gone for a year… have been having late night chats fun huh?' I think that would just force him to throw me in a padded cell for the rest of my life.
God this would be so much easier if lilly was here..everything with her was so..simple. She would always make awkward situations feel…better.
''god lilly why is this so hard to do?'' miley asked her girlfriend of 3 months. It was a sunny afternoon, the perfect day to relax in the garden with friends and family. Yet here two 16 year old lovers sat, on the sofa that had given them comfort and warmth for so long but now they sat…anxious..scared..uncomfortable…just every opposite feeling than what it used to. ''miles it will be fine, he's your dad..he loves you no matter what'' the blonde smiled gently rubbing her girlfriends arm.
Just then Mileys dad walked over and sat down next to them ''ok darling what was so important that y'all just had to tell me right now'' he smiled the brunette looked over at the blonde and felt a type of relief set within her. ''daddy..ya know me and lilly…we really love each other..I mean she's my best friend in the whole world'' the man she admired so much just smiled ''course darling..you guys are tighter than two pigs in a blanket'' miley looked over at her girlfriend who looked equally confused about wether what her dad said was good or bad. ''yeah..but daddy…we're more than that now…I'm…I am…I mean we're…me and lilly are….'' miley felt herself getting frustrated and it was obvious lilly could tell as she grabbed a tight hold of the brunettes hand ''you two are in love?'' Robbie suddenly blurted out taking both girls by such surprise all they could so was nod. ''well gosh miley..I knew that. Its been obvious for so long I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner''
Both girls looked at each other not sure about what to think but one thing was clear…everything was going to be ok. ''wow daddy. I'm so happy. You're the best daddy in the whole world thank you so much'' miley screamed over joyed as she wrapped her arms round him. ''now lilly you just take care of my lil girl ok?'' Robbie smiled at the blonde who was still smiling in amazement ''ok btw lilly, you don't have to worry at all..your mother worked it out before even I did..she'll be just as happy for you both'' he added giving the blonde a hug then walking out the room.
''god miley this is unbelievable, my MOTHER knew? She's ok with it? Ok at some point life's gonna kick me up the ass cause everything is way to good right now'' lilly smiled placing a soft kiss on the brunettes lips who in return pulled her closer making the kiss a lot more passionate ''lilly…as long as we have each other…we'll get through anything life throws at us''miley smiled as the kiss broke. ''I love you'' both girls said at the exact same time before bursting into giggles at how cheesy they both were…but that's just how liley rolls.
'darling…what's going on? Is this about that woman that came to yours yesterday?'' he asked. How the hell did he know? He does that way to often ''daddy how did yo..'' but then it hit me. Oliver. ''Oliver told you didn't he?'' It was more a statement than a question and he just nodded. ''daddy I dunno what to do…or think…I mean is it possible?'' I was looking in his eyes for some sorta answer but it looked just as confused as me ''miles..I wish I could tell you but that's one of those things in life that you'll never know the truth about…I mean…it sounds crazy and unbelievable but there must be something after we leave this earth y'know? So if your looking for answers your talking to the wrong person'' ok this wasn't really what I wanted, I wanted him to tell me I was crazy for for thinking its possible..that Melinda was some crazy who got bored and decided to turn my life upside down. But I guess he's right…if I want answers there's only one place I can get them..
At some random hotel on the other side of town…
To where the person who created this whole mess is…
To Melinda.
''thank you daddy. Guess I better go get answers then'' I sigh giving him a hug before walking out and heading back to mine and lillys…I mean…my house.
Walking in the door I looked round at everything…suddenly I thoughts of what the house woulda been like if we had got that chance…the chance to start a family..if lilly was still here. Coming home to her and our child. Having a child to forever inbed the love me and lilly shared together into this crazy world forever…to have a piece of lilly to hold onto if she had to be….gone.
Would we have had a girl or a boy? Would him or her have my eyes? Blonde hair or brown? What name would we have picked? God why didn't I work out how ready I was sooner? Maybe thing would be different…maybe she'd be here, buying silly little toys or changing nappies pretending it wasn't grossing her out…I feel tears forming in my eyes and I have to fight to stop them falling. God miley stop thinking. You had your chance and you blew it now leave it alone.
Grabbing my car keys. I run out to my car, I knew what I had to do but getting the courage to do it is completely different…what if she can talk to lilly…why would lilly stick around here…on earth..when she could be in heaven..I mean that's the better place we all work to get to by doing good deeds or making up for our sins or just hope that god will forgive us no matter what we have done. Lilly would be an angel. I know it. She was my angel before she was taken away from me.
What would be so important that she had to stick around? I know she loved me. She knew I loved her. We were happy.
What's going on in my life?!
Next thing I know I'm pulling up to the hotel I'm certain Melinda is staying at. That I'm certain my answers are just hiding behind one of those doors.
But yet my body just wont move….
Its like its stuck to the seat of my car…
that's when I see her…Melinda.
She's just about to cross the street, I see her lips moving like she's talking to someone but there's no one near her.
I have no idea what's come over me but I jump out my car and start running after her….finally I catch up to her, grabbing her arm….
''we need to talk'' I state.
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A/N - hope y'all like this chapter....shall be finishing this soon, reveiws mean the world to me :)
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