You're Kinda, Sorta, Basically, Pretty Much, Always On My Mind.

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I Do Not Own Inuyasha

"Talking"

30. It's Over?

I lay on the roof of Kaede's hut, staring up into the sky. Inuyasha was inside getting his wounds treated. They must have been worse then I had thought, since he wanted to come back to the village. It shocked me and it had worried me but we still went along. Miroku had called his Takuni friend and he'd transformed into a large yellow monster blimp thing. When we arrived Miroku payed him in leaves...Some friend.

But there was something else that worried me. Inuyasha seemed distant. He wasn't speaking or even looking at me. I was scared. What was he thinking? Did he hate me for hugging him before? Well that was dumb...since he's kissed me but...maybe he didn't want to give me the wrong idea?

I sighed and sat up. Or maybe I'm just reading to far into this. Maybe it's just because he's hurt...Yeah that's probably it.

"Kaori..." I looked down. Inuyasha was standing on the ground looking up at me. See I was wrong. "Come here for a sec.."

"You know you really shouldn't be walking..." I reminded him landing in front of him.

"Never mind that, just come." He growled turning away and walking from the village. I huffed and followed after him. Really..you worry about the guy and he's just a jerk back. He lead me through the forest, all the way to the well. I felt my heart leap as I looked upon it. Just one jump..and I could be back at home. It hadn't been that long since I'd been there last...it seemed too early to go back now. Mom had only said a couple of times a month...not a million times a week...

Inuyasha sat down by it, leaning up against the edge and sighed. "Kaori...how are you feeling? You're...injured aren't you?"

I fell to my knees at his side. "What's wrong with me isn't as important as your injuries."

"But you are hurt..."

I looked at him trying to see through his weird behaviour but I couldn't. "Yeah...I am but it's nothing.. I've had worse before. Like the ink oni.."

"Sorry about that...I was careless and got you into a awful situation...twice."

My head tilted to the side. "Are you alright? "Do you have a fever?" I leaned forward, placing my hand over his and the other on his forehead. He tensed and pulled away from my hand but he couldn't go far back since he was up against the well. I noticed a slight pink tinge appear on his cheeks but acted like I hadn't seen anything.

"You've heard it too...fifty years ago me and Kikyou were caught in a trap by Naraku..the same guy pulling Sesshoumaru's strings." He explained shrugging off my hands. "That's why from now on, things will get even more dangerous..."

"That's understandable..." I mumbled staring at the same patch of grass he was, trying to see what made it so interesting.

"Kaori, you...aren't you scared?" He asked, finally looking at me. "Even though you only just escaped death this time!?"

"I'm not scared!" I exclaimed, a little annoyed with him. "I fought you off alone when you tried to attack me for the jewel shard," I saw an expression of guilt flash across his face. "I killed Yura, those bandits I survived! Koga kidnapping me, all when I was human! Then again we fought when I transformed, then when we got Tetsusaiga and Sesshoumaru was there, then your mother, the spiderheads, the ink oni and again Sesshoumaru! In my opinion your brother is the worst thing, so why should I be scared? I survived him both times."

"But it could get worse!"

"You don't know that, but I'm not scared and I'm not arguing, right now your injuries are the most important thin-"

Suddenly his hand grabbed my wrist and I was pulled toward him. His arms wrapped around my waist and held my head against his shoulder. My face was suddenly burning and my stomach flip-flopped. "I...Inuyasha..?"

"I...was scared." He whispered. "When I thought you were going to die...I was scared."

I forced a chuckle and blinked back tears from my eyes. "Heh...Inuyasha...It's alright, I'm not going to die..." I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face into his shoulder desperate not to cry. Why was I crying for? There was no reason...I took in a shaky breath and I was suddenly bombarded with his intoxicating scent. I could barely remember the last time I could actually smell him this strongly...it was freaking great and I mentally cursed at myself for not enjoying it more often. My mind flashed to a Gain laundry detergent commercial and I suddenly thought of myself as a very sad being. That commercial would explain this very situation..maybe my future life?

I was brought back into the moment by Inuyasha slightly pulling back and my sad exsistance as a living Gain commercial was forgotten. Inuyasha had one of his hands on my cheek and was staring at me like it was gonna be the last time he ever set eyes on me our faces so close our noses were almost touching. My face heated up even more. So for...not...giving me the wrong i..idea...heh...He inched closer and I felt his hot breath on my slightly parted lips...

Then..abruptly I was thrown to the ground, and Inuyasha jumped back away from me, glaring at me now. I turned so I was on my back and raised myself with my arms staring back at him. I was so shocked to be angry..too scared... What the hell had just happened? My heart was still racing and my face was still hot...

"I'll..take this..." He growled, holding up the small jewel shard attached to my necklace. I gasped in surprise and stared wide-eyed up at him. No..

"Don't you...ever come here again!" He half shouted. He grabbed the front of my shirt and suddenly I was falling down the well...farther and father...into the darkness...No!

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"Ahh! Kaori! You're back!"

I looked up, and saw Eri, Yuka and Ayumi racing towards me from across the school yard. I tried to smile at them, but I couldn't it was too hard.

After Inuyasha had pushed me I had lay there at the bottom of the well my eyes open but not seeing. I hadn't know how I felt..all that I could repeat in my head was 'no'. I had lay there for what seemed like hours...months..years even...and I wished it had been years but of course I had no such luck. It had only been a few minutes. I had made it to the house without thinking feeling numb..but as soon as I had walked through the door and Souta greeting me asking how Inuyasha and I had been doing, I broke down and burst into tears...

"Hi.." I said weakly.

"Oh..so your still not recovered then?" Yuka asked.

"Well...you could say that.." I mumbled. I continued on walking toward the school and they followed quickly behind asking many annoying questions. I didn't want to have to put up with this today...I wanted silence...

As I sat in class..well more like had my head down against the desk, staring out the window, I played the scene out over and over in my head. I had felt so...I didn't even know the words to describe it. It felt like...I'd been waiting for something like that for my whole life...It didn't make sense.

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I lay across my bed stroking Buyo resting on my stomach, trying not to think of much except for the pattern that I pet him. It's been a week... I took in a deep breath and exhaled slowly. His scent was completely gone... having been washed away with all the baths Mom had forced me to take. It's not like I didn't enjoy being clean but if it were possible to be clean and still have that scent near by then...I'd enjoy that so much more.

I heard someone knock on the door. "Kaori, are you getting ready? You know Houjo-kun will be here soon!" Kagome called.

I groaned and sat up. Houjo had asked me out a few days ago...and since I hadn't been paying attention I had said yes...So now he taking me to some Halloween thing. The Halloween thing I didn't mind. At least today was the only night that I could walk around with ears and tail exposed and nobody would stare at me strangely.

I slid off my bed and opened the door to let my sister in. She beamed and held up an armful of clothes and makeup...oh god..

An hour later I had fluffy fur black leg warmers on with matching arm warmers as well. I was wearing a light lavender dress which was cut a few inches above the knee that shimmered a darker purple and a blue in the light. A purpley pink bow was hand sewn on by Kagome an inch below the neck line and the same colour ribbon was also sewn on as trim an inch below the neckline. My hair was now covered in highlights of darker blue, and purple that even the aqua colour of my natural hair seemed like highlights. Kagome had worked some strange magic over my ears and tail and now they, in the light seemed to have a darkish purple tinge...this purple tinge also seemed to apply to the leg and arm warmers. A heavy black belt with a silver buckle was fastened around my waist and small silver hoop earrings in my ears and suddenly I was finished.

I gaped at myself in the mirror as Kagome smiled so bright I thought her pride was going to swallow me whole. "Wow..Kagome!" I breathed. "You. Are. Amazing!" I ran my fingers through a lock of my hair. "Is this permanent?"

She nodded. "Yeah..it is...I hope you don't mind!"

I shook my head and hugged her tight. "I don't mind at all in fact I'm over-joyed! I'm so happy!! If I was a guy I'd marry you right now!!"

"Just because I gave you a makeover?"

"YES!!!...Does that make me a bad person?"

She laughed and shook her head. I smiled back and turned to look at myself in the mirror once more. "I can't wait to show Inu-" I stopped short and stared down at the floor where my nail polish still stained the carpet.

Kagome patted my head. "It's okay, I'm sure you guys will never see each other again."

I nodded slowly and fixed my face into a small smile. "Yeah.."

I head out the door a few minutes later Houjo still hadn't arrived but I just wanted to take a little walk to get some fresh air. I stared up into the sky. Was I really never going to see him again? I remembered when I ran away and cursed mentally at myself. Why...what was my problem? The times when he did want me around I pushed him away and took off..and now it's too late...

I fell to my knees fighting back tears. All those times...all those fights... So long I tried to prove to him I was strong enough.. but still it did nothing... I tried to show I was sorry... but still nothing...

"Higurashi?"

I looked up. Houjo was walking towards me a look of concern on his face. I got up and wiped away the tears that were threatening to fall. "Hi.."

"Are you okay?"

I shook my head and put on a smile. "I'm fine. Let's go, kay?"

He paused, then smiled. "Kay."

End Of Chapter 30

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