I'm running through a forest, I'm not quite sure why yet. I'm not even sure where I'm going. I've tried looking behind my but my head just won't turn. Shit there are a ton of rocks I'm going to fall, yep there I go a fell, and ow I hit my head. It's really odd having an out of body experience. Now I'm at Malfoy Manor, in the dining room to be specific. There is a woman slowly rotating above the table, she's being laughed at by a group in cloaks. Wait they're torturing her, I tried to move to help her but my legs weren't moving forward, and I didn't have my wand.

"Avery" the woman screamed, "Avery" the woman continued to scream but it was beginning to change into another voice, a familiar voice. Lilly?

I opened my eyes to find Lilly hovering over me with a cool towel. I then noticed I was completely drenched in sweat.

"Thank goodness, I thought you'd never wake up." Lilly said brushing the hair off my forehead.

"You kept shaking and screaming, we thought you were having a seizure or something." Chassidy said crouched on the floor with tears running down her cheeks.

"We sent Alice to get the boys, because we couldn't carry you down to the hospital wing by ourselves." Lilly said hugging me.

"Avers are you alright?" Sirius asked panting as he arrived into our door; he pulled me from Lilly's grasp into his arms.

"I think so, I just had a nightmare, I'll be fine, I promise."

"Okay well let's get you down to the nurse to make sure you're completely fine, okay?" he asked as he began carrying me down to the common room.

"What's going on?" Remus asked as we entered the common room.

"The girls couldn't get Avery to wake up when she was screaming and shaking. So Alice was sent to fetch one of us and I was the first she found." He said heading out the portrait hole.

"You know Sirius I think I can handle this from here." He yelled before catching up with us.

"Alright, I hope you feel better Avers." He said placing me on my feet.

"Thanks for the help Sirius," I said grabbing Remus' arm for support.

I started feeling really dizzy and was having trouble walking. We had finally made it to the infirmary when Madam Pomfrey asked me a ton of questions before handing me a dreamless sleep potion and instructed me to inform her if the dreams returned.

We slowly made our way back to the common room hand in hand.

"Would you like to stay with my tonight?" Remus asked.

"That would be nice," I said with a smile. "Just no funny business okay?"

"Whatever you want Ava."

"Since when have you called me Ava?" I questioned.

"I don't know I kind of like it, is there a problem?" he asked leading me to the dorm.

"It's just that's the nickname Lucius gave me and it's kind of special." I explained.

"Well then I won't call you that. I'll have to make one up for you." he laughed.

We entered to find that James and Peter were already asleep but Sirius was nowhere to be found.

"He's most likely cheering up Chass" Remus said changing into his pajamas.

I don't know why but my heart sank he mentioned Sirius and Chassidy, but what was worse was the heart-shattering look on Remus' face.

"Remy?" I asked changing into a pair of his boxers and a t-shirt.

"Yes Avery?" he asked watching me change.

I was slightly uncomfortable with the looks he was giving me, but I brushed it off to me just not being used to people watching me change.

"I think I love you"

"Really" he asked sliding over in his bed to make room for me.

"Yeah I think I'm starting to."

"Well isn't that sweet?" he said pulling the blanket over us.

That wasn't the answer I was looking or hoping for, I was expecting him to say it back or anything but he didn't have to mock me. I curled up next to after gulping down my potion. I started drifting off when I felt his hand start up my shirt.

"Remus stop" I said pushing him away.

"Come on you just said you loved me." He said trying again.

"I said no. and in case you missed it I said I think I might love you, I'm not quite sure seeing as I've never been in love before." And with that I left before he could try anything else. I had begun trying to piece together why he's been acting so strange today, then it hit me as I noticed the not quite full moon lighting up the common room. His hormones are everywhere because of the full moon tomorrow night.

"That's no excuse" I told myself as I noticed someone on the couch.

"Have you seen Sirius?" Chassidy asked.

"Um, no I thought he was with actually." I said walking up the girls' staircase.

I needed to get some fresh air so I grabbed my pajama bottoms and decided to take a walk. I just needed to clear my mind of everything. I sat outside for an hour or so before my potion started to kick in. I figured it would be better to get inside now rather than pass out outside.

I was halfway there when I bumped into someone.

"What are you doing out of bed?" Rudolphus Lestrange asked.

"I could ask the same of you" I snapped rubbing my forehead.

"You better be cautious of how you speak to me, I am a prefect and on duty." He said stepping closer.

At this point my vision was starting to get fuzzy. "Could you please just leave me alone I'm not feeling well?"

"What's wrong, that half breed bad in bed, or are you just too scared to put out all together?"He smiled.

"That's none of your business, and it wouldn't matter because I'm waiting for the right time."

"Ha, that's cute, we all know how you get around Avery," he said moving closer.

Next thing I know I'm being shoved into a classroom. I ran for the door but he grabbed my wrist and turned me to face him. I screamed as my wrist cracked as he twisted it. With his other hand he grabbed my face and kissed me hard.

"Get the fuck off of me!" I screamed trying to struggle out of his grip causing it to hurt more.

"No I think it's time for some fun, besides you owe me remember, from our little dispute last time." He said slamming me down against a desk and ripping away my top and bra.

I started punching with my good arm and screaming as loud as I could, I was doing everything could think of to get him off of me.

"I think its cute when you fight please continue." He laughed, before removing my pajama pants and underwear, before forcing himself on me.

I screamed in pain as it felt like I was being ripped in two. My screaming only made Rudolphus laugh, he then began to be rougher. I continued to hit at him and attempt to kick him away, but nothing was working.

"Well Avery, you defiantly weren't lying, not that that matter much now." He said before pulling his trousers up.

"You fucking bastard." I managed before he punched me in the face causing me to black out.

When I came to, I was alone and for once I liked it. I managed enough energy to move from the desk to the floor, where I curled up and cried. I could hear footsteps approaching, but I was far too tired to scream or hide. I was praying to every deity I could think of that it wasn't Lestrange coming back for more. I closed my eyes tight when the footsteps stopped right in front of me.

'I recognize those shoes,' I thought to myself, as I looked up to find those amazing gray eyes.

"Shit Avers, what the hell happened." Sirius asked sitting beside me.

"Don't touch me," I said barely louder than a whisper, when he tried to hug me.

"Avery we have to get you out of here." He said his face full of concern, as he opened his arms waiting for me to come to him. I slowly crawled onto his lap and rested my head against his chest as he wrapped his hooded sweatshirt around me.

"Who did this?" he asked.

"Lestrange" was all I could manage before breaking into sobs again.

"Shh, it'll be okay, I'm here Avers. He won't get you I promise. I'll kill Avers I swear I'll make him pay for this." He said holding me close to his chest. "Avers I have to move you to somewhere safe okay?"

I just nodded my head yes as he picked me up. He carried me up seven flights of stairs then we came to a hallway where he paced a wall three times. I looked at him like he was crazy but then a little door appeared.

"This is the room of requirement" he said as he placed me on the bed that was in the room. There was also a couch along with a fireplace. Off to the back was another door leading to a small bathroom. Sirius went into the small bathroom and started the shower before emerging through the door again.

I still hadn't stopped crying, my mother always told me crying is a weakness and Malfoy's aren't weak, I wasn't weak was I?

"Your shower is ready love," Sirius said helping me to the bathroom.

I closed the door behind me and removed his jacket. I entered the shower and moved the handle to scolding hot. It burnt my skin but I felt this was the only way I could remove him from myself. I scrubbed my skin raw before stepping out and wrapping a towel around myself. I stepped out of the bathroom to see Sirius sitting on the couch.

"I grabbed your clothes, what do you want me to do with them?" he asked.

"Burn them" I whispered not taking my eyes off my feet.

"What will you wear?" he asked fulfilling my wish by tossing them in the fireplace.

"Anything but those." I said beginning to cry again.

"You could wear my shirt and jacket," he offered.

"That works" I said transfiguring my towel into some underwear.

I didn't care if he saw me naked; I didn't feel like I had the right of privacy any more. As soon as Sirius saw my towel disappear he turned around and removed his shirt throwing it behind him. I pulled the shirt over my head with much difficulty because of my wrist which I was sure was broken. Then I grabbed his quidditch zip up out of the bathroom before putting it on as well.

"Are you done yet?" he asked.

"Yeah, thanks for everything."

"It was nothing, I'm just glad you're not dead, I can't lose you Avery."

He led me over to the couch and he sat down as I sat on the floor in front of him. He gazed into the fire as he played with my hair.

"Why me?" I whispered, "Why can't people just leave me alone, all I want is to be happy."

"It's because you had a choice," he started. "Others see what you have, like Rudolphus he won't admit it but he wishes he would've had the choice whether he wanted to break away, but he can't because he's too scared. They're intimidated by your courage to go against everything you've been raised to believe. So they try to break you down into coming back to their way of life."

"But you made a choice do, why don't they go after you?"

"They did, until I ran away last summer. After that they gave up." He said, "yeah I'm happy now, but not as happy as everyone thinks, I still miss my family whether they're evil or not they are always my family."

I began crying again, this time because I missed my mother.

"No, avers I didn't mean, shit I'm so sorry."

"It's okay you didn't know." I said.

He lifted my chin and wiped away my tears with his calloused thumb, then looked me in the eyes.

"Damn, you're gorgeous even when you cry; don't let what he did to you change you, or how you think of yourself."

"Sirius," I said laying my head on his lap "will you promise me something?"

"Anything" he said continuing his playing with my hair.

"Can we not tell anyone about what happened? Especially not Remus."

"Alright, I promise, if you promise me that if it's bothering you or anything is bothering you you'll come and talk to me."

"Pinky promise" I said raising my pinky.

He curled his pinky around mine, as we started into the fire. I was finding comfort in watching the flames dance around. I hadn't realized I had fallen asleep until Sirius moved me onto the bed. He pulled the blanket over me and kissed my forehead.

I awoke the next morning and stretched. I was still sore but it was bearable, I did need to get to Madam Pomfrey to get my wrist fixed. I looked over and saw Sirius sprawled on the couch.

I walked over to him a lowered myself to his face, "wake up, its time for breakfast." I whispered softly in his ear.

He jumped up causing our heads to collide. I guess I had startled him.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

"As much as one can be. Thank you again Sirius, I'll see you in the great hall."

I quickly left and made my way to the girls dorms grabbing some jeans and pulling them on. I quickly made my way to the infirmary to get Pomfrey to fix my wrist, she kept asking what happened. I told her I fell down the stairs but I'm most certain she knew I was lying. After she finally gave up I headed to breakfast. Plastering a fake smile on my face as I entered the great hall and walk towards my friends. I was determined that no one was going to know what happened the night before.

A/N: another redo. I'm glad I'm doing this, because I've improved in my writing skills since I began this, or at least I think so. Let me know what you think.