Life sucks. I'm starting one of my many detentions tonight which isn't too bad. But the Halloween ball is Friday and I'm not allowed to attend. On top of everything else pregnancy sucks. I have horrible morning, mid-day, and night sickness. My back is always throbbing but that also might have been caused by my recent common room sleeping arrangements. I decided to sleep in the common room so I won't end up killing Chassidy in her sleep. Sirius and I on the other hand have become closer friends which I enjoy, even though he and Remus have made up. Remus has tried talking to me on many occasions all of which I have managed to slip away. It's not that I don't want to talk to him, it's I don't think either one of us deserves to talk to the other. I do miss him something terrible. James and Peter ceased talking to me after they found out. Sirius tried explaining what happened but they thought he was being lied to. Luckily I was the one who told Lilly. She is disappointed but she helps a lot. Her maternal instincts kicked in. She makes me take two different muggle vitamins a day. They make my stomach nauseous. One shouldn't have to take so many vitamins between the one's Lilly gives and the ones Madame Pomfrey I don't know which is worse. Lilly found a wonderful charm that allows me to listen to my son's heart beat. It's the most beautiful sound in the world.

"Avers." Sirius called from the bottom of the stairs interrupting my thoughts.

"I'll be down in a minute." I shouted in return wrapping my coat around me.

"Ready for practice?" he asked worriedly as I met him in the common room. "Are you sure you're able to play?"

"Yes for the millionth time Siri, Madame Pomfrey showed me a spell that I cast before every game and/or practice." I said latching onto his arm pulling him towards the portrait hole.

"I just don't want either of you hurt" he said rubbing my non-protruding stomach.

"Stop, that's weird." I screamed slapping away his hand and running for the great hall.

Dinner was very quiet at our end of the table. Remus decided not to show and Chassidy was sitting with a few Hufflepuff seventh years.

"So how much longer until our first match?" I said breaking the silence.

"Two weeks from Saturday" James said piling food into his mouth. That's one thing the marauders will always be good at, eating.

"That's not too far away, but we'll win, we always beat Hufflepuff right?" I asked nibbling at a roll.

Dinner ended with very light conversations. Our quidditch team headed down to the locker rooms to change. I casted my protection spells and began changing into my sweats and a t-shirt. When I exited the lockers my team was already in the center of the pitch. We had just finished our warm up laps, when we saw blue and yellow robes flying over towards James.

"What are you doing out here Potter, you knew Ravenclaw booked the field tonight." the captain Tyler Richards announced.

"You didn't reserve the pitch" our team shouted towards our arrogant captain.

"I'm sorry?" he said slightly blushing.

"You mean I did all those back killing laps for nothing?" I growled.

"Um good exercise?" he shrugged.

"I hate you James" I yelled throwing my broom at him so it hit him behind the knee caps. He let out a yelp and I made my way to the castle

I trudged all the way up to our common room mumbling obscenities under my breath. 'I'm going to have a word with Dumbledore about installing an elevator.' I thought to myself. I climbed through the portrait hole and sat in my favorite chair by the fire and began working on my potions homework. I heard the portrait swing open but I didn't gaze up. I should have because it was Remus. He slid onto the couch adjacent to my chair.

"Hi" he said in a voice slightly above a whisper.

"Hello" I replied not looking up at him.

"Can I have a word with you?"

"I think you've had a few, but carry on."

"Really, I mean getting to the point I'm sorry Ava" he said.

"Okay" I replied.

"Will you at least look at me?" he pleaded.

I looked up and met his gaze and the tears started forming. I didn't want to look at him because I was afraid of this. "Fine, I'm looking at you."

"I'm really sorry Ava I didn't want to hurt you, but you hurt me and I was being.."

"Dumb, stupid, irrational." I interrupted.

"All of those and more." he said moving to off the couch and onto the floor in front of my chair. He grabbed my hands and held on like if he didn't he would fall. "I'm really sorry Ava and its okay if you never forgive me but at least you know I'm sorry."

"I forgive you for some of it." I said pulling his chin up so he could meet my eyes. "But only some of it."

He pulled my hands to his face and caressed his cheeks with a sigh. "I love you Ava" he said pulling my face down towards his our lips brushing. He kissed me like he never had before it was sweet and caring. I realized what was happening and pulled away.

"I love you too Remus," I started as he smiled "but not in that way anymore." his smile faded as fast as it came. "I'm sorry Remy but you hurt me and I can't in my situation go through with this."

"Okay, I understand, but will you at least still be friends with me?" he asked.

"Of course." I said brushing the tears from my eyes.

"May I kiss you once more?"

"I don't think that's such a great idea, but if it will make you happy." I smiled as he cupped my face once more in his hand. He kissed me again but I did not pull away. After a few moments he pulled away leaning his forehead on mine. "I love you Ava." he said kissing my forehead. "Now go take a nap you look tired."

"Thanks I am, oh but will you tell the other girls that Sirius let off some stink bombs up there so I won't be disturbed by certain members."

"Of course." he said taking his place on the couch again.

I smiled and started towards the stairs; I glanced back and noticed a small smile was permanent across his face. I climbed the stairs and found my four poster bed just as I had left it. I lowered myself carefully and wrapped myself into the blanket. I missed my bed a lot. I slowly wandered off into a dreamless sleep.

"Ava, wake up" I heard as y body was lightly shaken. "It's nine o'clock."

I looked up to see a very cheery Lilly.

"What time did you say it was?"

"Nine"

"Shit, I'm going to be late for detention." I said jumping out of bed.

"Um, Ava you missed that it's nine in the morning."

"Fuck, I mean, sorry about that, I'm going to be in so much trouble." I sighed as my stomach let out a growl.

"You already missed breakfast, and first block. You might want to ask one of your boy toys to get you something." Chassidy voiced stepping out of the bathroom.

"Don't listen to her, I'll get James or Sirius to get you something to eat, and you go take a shower you have fifteen minutes before class." Lilly said exiting the dormitory.

I quickly took a warm shower and gulped down my vitamin potions. I walked out of the bathroom to find Sirius on my bed with my food. I screamed clutching my towel closer to my body.

"How did you get up here?" I asked.

"Magic." he said sitting up patting the spot next to him for me to sit.

I grabbed my uniform and changed in the bathroom and walked over to sit next to him, where he handed me a tray of food.

"It's charmed so it stays warm" Sirius said taking a piece of toast for himself.

We finished eating and I looked at my clock. "Shit we're going to be late."

"No we won't I know I secret passage."

And sure enough he did and we ended up right in front of transfiguration.

"Thanks, aren't you coming?" I asked.

"No I think I'll miss out today, can you show me what we go over?" Sirius asked.

"Yeah sure." I said and he was gone.

There were no open seats except by Chassidy and the Ravenclaw quidditch captain. So which one do I chose, the cute quidditch captain of course. With his short tailored blond hair, and deep chestnut eyes. His eyes remind me of Honeydukes finest chocolates, which remind me of Remus. Class went by slowly, I think we took notes on transfiguring humans into objects, but I'm not sure. Lilly met up with me after class and we headed for the great hall for lunch. Lilly and I sat across from Remus and Peter.

I began adding food to my plate when Peter got a peculiar look on his face.

"What's so funny?"

"Good afternoon Miss. Malfoy sorry I missed you at detention last night." Professor McGonagall said.

"I'm so sorry Professor I haven't been sleeping well and I had taken a nap and didn't wake up till this morning." I replied not looking her straight in the face.

"Why didn't your dorm mates wake you?" she asked now glancing at Lilly.

"They didn't know I had detention Professor."

"Very well add another one onto your list, I'll see you tonight around seven and don't be late." she said walking away.

I quickly finished my food and headed out of the great hall alone. I began up one of the many flights of stairs when I heard my name being called.

"Avery"

"Um hello?" I looked around to find an empty hallway.

"Boo" Sirius said him and James appearing out of nowhere.

"Holy shit, that wasn't funny" I gasped.

"Actually it was" James snickered.

"No it wasn't, but how did you get here without me seeing you?"

"Invisibility cloak" they both chimed in.

"Oh"

"This cloak my lady is how we're going to get into the Halloween ball tomorrow night." Sirius said smirking.

"But I have detention tomorrow" I stated.

"Actually you don't, since only fourth years and up are allowed we paid one of Sirius's fan girls to sit in for you tonight and tomorrow." James interjected.

"Really? But don't you think McGonagall will notice I'm not there and someone else is?"

"It's called poly juice potion love." Sirius informed me plucking some of my hair.

"Ow, that hurt"

"Sorry love we need it, oh by the way meet us after dinner." he said walking away with James.

"Why?"

"You two need clothes." James said and they were gone again.

"Well this should be interesting" I said to myself continuing my journey to the common room.

I decided for my free period I would take a nap, but I was rudely awakened by my owl pecking at the window. I opened it to let her in and took the letter from her leg. I didn't recognize the hand writing.

Avery,

you probably know nothing about me or who I am. But I know almost everything about you.

Not to sound weird, I hope it doesn't come off that way. We rarely talk but you have the sweetest voice ever. You are the most beautiful girl in Hogwarts. I love to be around you because you smell of vanilla. I hope you'll save me a dance tomorrow night. You'll know when it's me.

3

"What the hell?" I said aloud.

I sat the note down and thought as of who it could be. Just then Lilly walked in.

"What's that?" she asked.

I handed her the note and she giggled. "That's so sweet, and romantic." she swooned.

"I find it rather disturbing." I said.

"Whatever, Ava." Lilly snorted. "Are you coming or not?"

We headed to our next lesson, care for magical creatures. We were learning about blast ended skrewits.

This was dismissed early because Frank Longbottom got too close to one of the skrewits. Lilly and I linked arms and headed for dinner a few minutes early. I pilled my plate with mash potatoes and some peas. I quickly ate them and made my way to the great hall to meet James and Sirius.

"Look I know you two are out here now show yourselves" I said.

"Boo" Sirius said in my ear causing me to jump and loose my balance. But at least he caught me. "The women always lose their footing over me." he chuckled.

"Well if you scare them all like that I can see why" I sneered at him.

"Shall we get going?" James asked.

And we were off through a passage way that led straight to Hogsmeade.

"Um guys, I want to buy my dress alone okay." I said, I was a little nervous seeing as I'd never shopped for a gown, yes being a pure blood I've been to many formal occasions but I never was allowed to pick my own dress.

"Are you sure you'll be okay?" Sirius asked.

"Yeah, I'll meet you guys at the three broomsticks in an hour." I said rushing off to the gown shop.

I arrived in a store full of gowns in every color. I didn't know where to start.

"You'd look good in blue, or maroon." Sirius whispered in my ear sending shivers up my spine.

"You were supposed to let me do this myself." I said turning towards him.

"I never agreed to that, you ran off to fast" he smirked. "But now that I am here let's get busy."

I tried on many dresses, but none of them worked we were down to the last two, a blue one that came to my ankles that was gorgeous, and a maroon one that was gathered at the waist and bubbled up just above the knee.

"Sirius I don't know how I feel showing that much leg" I said trying it on. "And it's going to be cold."

"Let's just have a look"

"No, I'm getting the blue one." I said putting the maroon one on the return rack, and walking to the register to pay for the more modest dress.

"Fine but I'm getting you the other one," he said grabbing it back off the rack and walking to the register as well.

"How can I wear two dresses?"

"You can wear this one, which looks amazing on you, to the Potter's New Year's party." he said handing the woman the money for the other dress.

"But you didn't even see it on me." I shrieked as we exited the store.

"I imagined it, and you looked amazing." he said shrinking our bags and putting them in his pocket. "Now off to find James."