Chapter 16 my last breathe…

After that conversation with Dane, Asheara went to her bedroom. Hoping that she could feel the very same presence of someone watching over her. Though Dane said that it was creepy, but for her it was rather sweet and pleasing. That someone was getting himself little sleep just to watch her at night.

Asheara kip on her bed staying awake. She was fully determined to see who it was or what it was that watched her. But she felt worried that she doesn't know why. She kept on turning and tossing on her bed uneasy to get herself to rest but not to sleep. It was one of the most uncomfortable night of her life… it was kind of terrible that her heart kept on pounding that she doesn't know the reasons behind it.

It was already dawn… Asheara still can't sleep. Then she felt something hot on her chest, she felt it and grabbed her necklace and looked at it closely. Then distant sound came out saying 'Asheara… I—love… you...' and some distant breath was living it, it was one of the most familiar sound… but where had she heard it? She could not understand, then other voices formed and explosions can be heard. She was becoming scared, but determined to hear more.

"No-no—no!" someone was shouting. "No! Fred! No!"

"Get down!" Another explosion was heard. "Percy, come on, we've got to move!"

"Percy!"

"Percy, you can't do anything for him! We're going to—""It brought friends!"

"Let's move, NOW!"

The voices died down… Asheara looked at the necklace… Who's Fred and Percy? Then, without realization, tears were forming her eyes… but why?

Pain was not leaving her, it throbbed painfully on her chest that it was unbearable. It felt like losing her father again…

Two days after that incident, Asheara felt depressed… no… more like mourning, but why? There are so many questions unanswered about her that made her furious. She could not even explain all those things that made her confuse. She felt something lost in her, and that necklace made everything confusing. What was it? The more questions added. But how can she answer those questions if there are missing links on her past? How would she be able to understand everything? Why is she mourning?

These questions seemed never ending… it felt as thought the world was trying to kill her sanity. It drives her mad! Maybe she's crazy? But she's still thinking straight! How come she couldn't remember any damned single thing?

She was so furious that she was very deranged.

That day… it was drizzling. Asheara decided to visit her mother's grave… it may seemed funny but she felt she could feel comfort. She wore her white dress with black coat; she grabbed her keys and her umbrella.

She went outside to go to the cemetery. It was not that far… so she just walked clutching her umbrella until she reached a black gate and gloomy picture of the park greeted her. On her way to the tombstone of her mother, a slight breeze blew against her face that made her turn her face to distant place. There was some burial going on… there were many people in black.

The scene made her sad… It was like this one when she buried her parents… Lately, her father… but then, to her amazement, there was someone who was consoling her at that time. She could not remember again who.

Then, something urged her to go and just witness the burial… She could see people standing in rows, either crying or talking; she could not tell. Most of the mourners were young people about her age, few were old of age. She was already at the back row; there was a balding man with a sobbing plump woman on his side, who was making some speech to the departed. Asheara noticed that in front rows were filled with red hair people; even the balding man's hair was red. Maybe… this was the person's family.

Then the man and woman went to sit down on their place, then another red hair stood and make his was to the front. He was tall, freckly, having those familiar grey eyes and the brilliant red hair. Asheara realized that this was the twin she met almost three years ago. But where's his twin?

"Good afternoon… I…" George said obviously lost for words. Asheara looked at him… his pain seemed beyond grief. Then, it dawned on Asheara… maybe it was his twin that had been lost? She thought. Then this thought cause a great pang on her chest that she could not resist crying. So she sobbed, but listened to what the twin was about to say. "I… I never thought this pain could be so unbearable… Fred and I were in everything together, in mischief, in trouble and in adventures. It usually drives my mum crazy…" he added with a small smile. The plump woman sobbed even harder and George looked down hiding his tears that were slowly pouring from his face. "We are carefree, we developed our skills, and we were successful. It was thanks to Fred that we came up with a joke shop, he mostly planned everything and I helped him thought of mischievous things as our products. But there is one thing that most of us don't know about Fred that he only told me… Fred was a very romantic man" Some chuckled at this comment, others smiled including Asheara. "Well—the day he had an accident and lost his memories… he met a girl named Asheara…"

At this point, Asheara looked up on him… She couldn't believe her ears. Maybe… this was another Asheara? But as far as se knows, her name was unique… "You see… this girl seemed to have strike him hard, because he really wants her protected. I could even remember the day he removed the memories about him on the night someone tried to kill Asheara." Asheara remembered Max… "He used oblivion to take away those memories… why? It's because he don't want death eaters to get a hold on her and use her against him or any of us. I witnessed him how he tried to forget her, but he couldn't. Then two years ago it's before Christmas that he saw her again at the village on some paper shop. Since then, he couldn't resist watching her every night while she sleeps. He told me that he longed to touch her face and caress her… But when you-know-who was gaining power, he decided to stop frequently see her… to protect her again. I could say… Fred loved that girl. She was very lucky to have a man like him and yet destiny was unfriendly that they have to spend each time apart from each other. Fred hadn't left us though… because he is always here" George pointed his chest.

The rain pounded more… And Asheara to move forward, letting her umbrella to fall off her grip. She was already doused with heavy rain… Others were dispersing out of thin air others remained in their position.

George looked at Asheara, shocked. Other people were also staring at her wondering who she was. George stepped away from the center and gave way to Asheara.

Asheara faced them all, her eyes were blood shot yet she looked at them fully. "I'm sorry to have stormed in without any notice… I'm—I'm Asheara Lee…" She gave a little whimper. "I've never understood everything that had happened in my life; I can't even put two links together because I never understood it. Then the answer was here all along… No wonder I didn't understand everything… because parts of my memories were removed. No wonder I stayed single ever since my dad died for the reason I was waiting for someone I don't know. No wonder he was ever so familiar when I saw his face two years ago. No wonder my heart gave a happy jolt when we held each other's hand the day we met. No wonder I felt his presence as I slept clutching the necklace that told me he loved me. No wonder I cried every time I recall everything about him. No wonder my heart gave an unbearable pain when I saw this funeral. No wonder… when I heard his name… he died, and my heart was bleeding to death…" Asheara stared at the people in front of her who were all looking surprised at her. Others were crying with her including George and his family.

"I always wondered why I felt this way… I always ask myself why? I always tried to remember everything but I can't. All I can remember is the way my heart recognized him when he was near me… I didn't know that I had loved him... maybe… that's why the wind had urged me to come here… to say good-bye to Fred…"

Chapter 16 Long lost Memories and the Reason

After the funeral, the Weasleys brought her to the burrow for some strong tea. Asheara was too much in pain to realize that she walked into a wizard's house. She sat in the Weasley's kitchen with a warm wool blanket to cover her body. Hermione gave her some spare clothes. When the tea was prepared, they all gathered at the kitchen.

"We haven't properly introduced," Said the balding old man with a lopsided eye glass. "I'm Arthur Weasley, Fred's Father" Asheara stood up and shook his hand.

"My name's Molly Weasley, Fred's mother" The plump woman said with swollen eyes.

"I'm Bill; Fred's eldest brother—and this is my wife, Fleur" Bill said taking her hand in turn to shake.

"Eet eez a pleasure to meet you" Fleur said smiling taking her hand in turn.

"I'm Charles, 2nd eldest" Charlie said shaking Asheara's hand who nodded to him

"I'm Percy" Said a guy with horn-rimmed glasses.

"Percy… you were with Fred at his… departure…" Asheara said. All of them stared at her.

"Well, you already knew me…" George said smiling, Asheara smiled also.

"I'm Ron" Ron said gloomily and shook her hand.

"Ginny," Ginny said smiling

"Hermione Granger" Hermione said ASheara looked at her.

"I've seen you before…" Asheara said

"Yes, I was the one you've bumped when you were looking for a missing Fred." Hermione said.

"I'm Harry Potter" Harry said taking her hand in turn. Asheara smiled at them all.

"I'm Asheara Lee…" ASheara said.

"If you wanted to, I could reverse the spell Fred placed on you so you can remember everything. Asheara stared at him and nodded. George pulled out his wand and said, "Prior Incantato Obliviato"

In flashes, Asheara could see the missing parts of her memory… the night she saved Fred, the day she shouted at him, the day she cried for him, the day she pleaded for him to stay, the day he has to leave, the day her father died, the day Fred put a spell on her. After seeing these memories, she could clearly now remember everything. Then without any warning, tears started to pour again on her cheeks that she sobbed on George's shoulder.

"I shouldn't have p-panicked! I-I shouldn't h-have sent him away!" Asheara sobbed.

"It's alright… he only done it to protect you" George said.

"Then why should he remove my memories then we could spend more time together…" Asheara said.

"We were in difficult times. Death eaters are surely gone after you and use you. We only defeated Voldemort just two days ago…" George said. "HE was the most vicious dark wizard of all time"

"Then… you're all wizards…" Asheara said softly.

"You know… I always felt empty, I never given a thought about him…" Asheara said. "But why did he have to threaten me with his wand?"

"There are more deep reasons for that" George said. "I could show you that memory… all of you if we stepped into my memory in the pensive"

"No… it's for both of you," Arthur said quietly.

George took the pensive and laden it on the table. Asheara examined it with great interest. Then George took his wand and placed it on his temple and pulled a silvery substance and placed it on the basin. George offered his hand and Asheara took it. They fell into the memory of George…

They were inside of some sort of bedroom and Asheara noticed there were identical people inside. Two were the twins of faded color and one on her side. Another is that she saw herself clutching the gun pointing it at Fred.

"Ash… let go of that gun" Fred said anxiously.

"No!" Asheara said shaking madly.

"Please…" Fred pleaded. George looked at Fred then at the window. The cars were parked at the entrance.

"Fred… the police are here" George said. Fred pointed his wand at Asheara. "What are you doing?" George said alarmed as he saw Fred was smiling mischievously. "Fred… let go of the wand, you don't wanna hurt her"

"What do you think I'm going to do?" Fred said coolly.

"Fred, don't" George said.

"What are you going to do?" Asheara asked shaking. Fred laughed unpleasantly.

"To get what you deserved" Fred said. Asheara stiffened and looked at him.

"Fred?" Asheara called uncertainly. Fred went closer at Asheara and caressed her. "Don't touch me…" Fred hugged her and got the gun out of her hand.

"I'm going to remove you memories…" Fred muttered.

"No you won't" Asheara said shaking.

"I must…" Fred said and Asheara was trying to get free. Asheara screamed of pain and fury as Fred gripped her hand tightly and muttered: "Obliviate"

Together, George and Fred apparated as the door opened.

Everything went black and another place. Both of Fred and George arrived at some place and peered outside the window.

"Fred… you have to understand our position…" George said. Fred peered at the window as the police went inside the flat and ambulance was following the police cars. Then he saw it… a stretcher that carried an unconscious Asheara.

"I know George… I didn't know it was this painful. When you know everything about her and she doesn't know anything about you…" Fred said.

"Everything will be alright… after you-know-who's downfall, you can have her already" George said.

"I'll wait for that day…"

Again, everything went black…

"So… you were trying to conceal everything from me?" Asheara asked

"Yeah, to save you…" George said. "But there's one very reason why he removed it." Then, the surroundings changed and again it was a bed room. But two beds were on it and Fred was standing preparing for something while George was sitting on the bed looking disgruntled.

"Why don't you just talk to her and reverse the spell?" George asked grumpily when Fred was readying himself.

"I don't want to" Fred said looking at George helplessly.

"Why?" George asked. Fred sighed and sat on the opposite bed on their flat at diagon alley.

"Because… it's like what you said before George…" Fred said. "She must be safe from me. Many death eaters will get a hold on her."

"Fair point, that one. But you're going crazy about this stuff! You're just endangering yourself y'know." George said.

"I know, but I would give anything just to see her. Just to know she's breathing peacefully… just to know she's alive so I won't lose hope" Fred said seriously. George shook his head.

"I never imagined I'd see you like this, Fred. So serious" George said. "If you loved her so much, why do you still keep away?"

"Like I told you, I don't want to hurt her" Fred said.

"Any other reason?" George said.

"None" Fred answered stiffly.

"Come on, I'm your twin! I know there is other reason" George said indignantly. Fred Hesitated but gave up.

"Alright… I'll tell you this." Fred said. "Promise you won't laugh because I'll hex you"

"When did I laugh about serious matters?" George said.

"Like every time" Fred scowled.

"Oh, go on then" George said. Again Fred sighed.

"Okay… remember when she said that we guys were all the same?" Fred said

"Yeah, what about it?" George said

"Well obviously… she's hurt right" Fred said and George nodded. "She was all scared… and I couldn't bear to see her like that. It's all my fault if I didn't left her; I could save her… dad. She was broken… I resolved to remove her memories of me so that she'll forget that I exist. She needs someone who would never hurt her like I did last time, someone who will be there for her. Someone who could protect her day and night… I was afraid to let her think that I would hurt her… that she'll hate me forever so I resolved letting her forget me…"

"But… if you're trying to protect her, why do you keep on visiting her?" George asked.

"Because… I can't resist it" Fred said. "This is the only way I could at least to keep myself near her. I never thought she could stay single until now. It was lucky… then after everything maybe could have her."

"I see" George said seriously.

"And do you know what hurts the most? It's being so close with her but you can't talk to her like you wanted to because of the condition. Then… you could see her walking away…away from you. But I was happy to watch her breathing…to watch her peacefully…" Fred said "Last time I told my self that I won't go and look for her presence…but I couldn't. She's so fragile and I want to check up on her every now and then. Just to know she's okay"

George pulled Asheara to the present time… George and Asheara stared at the whole family.

"All these time, he was the one who watched me every night" Asheara said smiling.

"Yea, he's used to sneaking into the night" George said smirking. "But you know, he's never been like this to any girl. It was until he met you"

"I never thought Fred still longed for you" Ron said. Everyone stared at him and Hermione nudged him on his ribs. "I mean—last time, three years ago, he simply said he broke up with you, said he's has another girl" Hermione again nudged Ron on his ribs.

"What Ron meant, we were surprised that day when he said he would stop seeing you when all we know he was really crazy about you" Hermione said shooting furtive looks at Ron.

"He gave me this necklace, the day we buried my dad" Asheara took a chained with a heart pendant necklace and showed it to them. "I never give any thought who gave it to me then…" Hermione watched at the necklace. It has an unnatural gleam.

"There's a protean charm in it" Hermione said.

"What?" Arthur said.

"Protean Charm… we charmed it. It has a pair—here" George rummaged his pockets and drew a battered chained with round pendant necklace. "It became a total mess… because of the explosion." George said frowning.

"Why would he charm that object?" Percy said

"He said when Asheara is in trouble, he wants to know first hand and he'll apparate to her immediately." George said.

"The night… I mean dawn; I heard his voice calling my name…" Asheara said then looked at Percy. "Percy was yelling and I could hear explosions…"

"The charm Fred made is designed to hear the voices of someone when this someone calls the name of the other who held the pair!" Hermione said breathlessly.

"Amazing!" Harry said. Asheara put the pendant together, it clicked and perfectly fit. Asheara smiled at this union.

"He used to say… these pendants were used to each other… though parted, but both will wait for the union…"