Finally the second chapter is done. Wow sorry for the wait. But here you go now. Hope you like it. Oh and thank you everyone who reviewed, followed and favourited. Honestly didn't think anyone would like this.
Warning! Dark themes and character death in one of the lifetimes below.
The room was cramped with chares, some empty and some occupied. All of the people there quiet and listening to whoever was speaking at the moment whether they felt like it or not. They had no other choice after all.
One boy, no more the nineteen years old, looked uncomfortable and nervous as his time to speak was getting nearer and nearer. He didn't want to be there. He wouldn't even be there if his sister didn't practically drag him. And now he had no way of getting out of it.
Is hands were shaking slightly. It has been almost three days since the last time after all. He needed it. But he also knew that there is no way of getting anything while his sister and brother and watching him like hawks. Making sure he cant do anything. He didn't think he can last long like this. There was no way.
There was a slight nudge onto his arm and he stood up slowly, showing his shaking hands into his pockets in hopes of making it less obvious. He knew he looked like a rack anyway though.
"Hi." The voice was timid and barely there but it still held an undivided attention of the room. "I'm-I'm Alec. And I'm a drug addict."
"Hi Alec." A chorus of voices called back making the blue eyed boy's cheeks to redden as he quickly sat back down again. His eyes still on the floor like they were since he first came into the room.
"Good. Now who is next?" The counselor spoke up and the boy sitting right next to Alec stood up.
"Hi, I'm Magnus." The voice made Alec look up for the first time, his eyes immediately being met by gold and green ones before the other boy looked back up towards the rest of the room. There was glitter in his black spiked hair and eyeliner around his eyes making them stand out a little more. He was tall and thin and hot. That was all Alec could think of as he saw him. The guy was hot "And I'm a sex addict." As he said it his eyes moved towards Alec just for a fraction of a second but it was enough for the blue eyed boy to see a spark of lust and want in them. Making him blush even worse and quickly look away again.
The introductions continued and the more time passed the worse he was feeling. He just wanted to get out. He needs another fix. He can't anymore. Three days is too long. Way too long.
He knew he didn't look any better then he felt either. Pale almost to the point where he looked sick, his body all skin and bones by this point and the bags under his eyes practically the size of Australia. And that is without actually seeing his eyes that were once clear baby blue and now was just a ghost of it with redness taking over what once was clear and vibrant.
He doesn't care though. Doesn't care how he looked like while sitting there shaking all over and looking like death itself. All he cares about is when he will get the next fix and the fact that he probably won't. And that was killing him. He can't live without it. He cant come back home without being high on something. He can't sit in front of his father during dinner while he ignores him and pretends that Jace is his only son. Because Jace has a girlfriend. Jace didn't have feelings for his half brother since he was twelve. Jace. Jace isn't a fucking fag like he is. Jace isn't a disappointment. He cant be conscious at night to hear his parent fight over him. He can't stand hearing all the insults thrown his way in his own home. He needs to be high. He needs to forget. Fuck, he needs to forget so bad.
Even in his shaken state he could still feel eyes on him throughout the next hour. Somehow he had a feeling who it was and a quick glance sideways halfway through the tortures hour he saw that he thought right. Gold and green eyes were solemnly focused on him. Magnus ignored the rest of the people around them and just kept staring at him with a smirk. No staring wasn't the right word. He was striping him with his eyes. Looking him over with an almost predatory look.
As he saw him looking he winked, not even showing any sign he will stop staring. It made Alec look back at the floor and shift uncomfortably. Having no idea what to do he just tried ignoring it focusing instead on how to get out of his sisters watchful eyes long enough to sneak out and get something. Anything. He just needs a fix.
People started getting up and he noticed that he spent the whole hour lost in his thought instead of paying attention to the group. Oh well its not like he planned to anyway.
He got up too and moved to leave. Hoping that maybe his siblings aren't waiting for him outside so he can give them the slip but of course he is not that lucky. The second he got a glance outside of the door he could see them both.
A groan left him but he knew there was no way out now.
Before he could get out however a hand on his wrist stopped him.
He turned to snap at whoever was touching him only to see a flash of gold and green before foreign lips were on his in a forceful kiss. Before he could even comprehend what was happening his lips were pried open expertly and the kiss was deepened. Now all tongue and teeth as the other boy teased him to kiss back. And to Alec's surprise he found himself doing just that. He couldn't help it. The kiss felt way too addictive not to. Magnus himself felt addictive as he pushed him onto the nearest wall.
As air became a problem Magnus pulled back but still didn't let go as his lips stayed only a hair away from Alec's, their breaths mixing together.
"Hmm Even better then I imagined." Magnus mussed out loud with a grin that looked way too predatory then it should have. And it definitely shouldn't have made Alec want to kiss him again. Taste him all over. "Virgin?" He asked like he was asking what his favorite color was. It made him blush slightly and with that give Magnus an answer he was looking for.
A sly smile replaced the previous grin and he hummed, hands moving down Alec's chest and to the waist of his pants before one finger curled into his belt loop and he pulled their lower half's together. The new contact made the blue eyed one gasp as he felt the press of his half hard cock through the fabric of their jeans. "I think its time we change that don't you."
"I have to go." Alec said too weakly with his eyes focused on his lips because right now the offer sounds so damn good. If nothing else he definitely seems like a good distractions.
Magnus's eyes were dark with pure lust when he noticed and he licked his lips painfully slowly.
"Oh yes you do baby. You have to go with me." He bit Alec's lip teasingly before letting go in a slow drag, pressing even more against the others body. "I even have something for you."
The second Alec saw the small baggie in his hand his mind went into overdrive. It was so close. Just what he needed and it was so fucking close.
The smile Magnus sent him then was nothing else but victorious as he tilted his head so he had to look back at him. "You help me and I help you. What do you think?" He asked even as he knew the answer. He knew Alec can't say no. He knew he had him.
As Alec crashed their lips together then he couldn't think rationally. He couldn't think about anything but the fact that Magnus had what he wanted and it was right in front of him. Right out of his reach. But not for long. I help him and he helps me. There is nothing bad with that plan. That sounds like such a perfect plan.
He lost it then. He just let go and given himself over to Magnus without a second though. He wasn't even able of any thoughts through his desperation.
They sneaked out without his siblings noticing then. His mind a haze of desperation but by that point he didn't even know a desperation of what. Maybe it was the baggie hidden in Magnus's back pocket. But it could have also been Magnus's lips that he was getting desperate for. His touches and kisses and taste. Because By The Angel Magnus is the most addictive person he has ever met.
That night was spent in a haze of kisses and touches and pleasure. It was spent in an overly colorful room on the mattress on the floor with moans echoing through the whole loft. And later on, in the early hours of the morning, Alec found himself exhausted and somehow content for the first time in his life. However that doesn't mean he didn't take the small baggie when it was offered to him with a lazy satisfied smile from Magnus. That doesn't mean he didn't stubble back home feeling a buzz and in a beautiful high state he has been craving for the past few days.
But even through his hazy and unfocused mind there was one thing he was very much aware of.
There was a slip of paper in his pants pocket.
A slip of paper with a phone number on it.
…
The wind was howling. Wanting to say something. Wanting to be heard. Speaking to the trees in it's own language. It was loud and messy and absolutely beautiful.
His father often said that everything on the earth and above has its own voice and wants to be heard. Everything and everyone likes to be heard. Likes to be remembered. The bears and the grass and the leafs; he would say. The frogs and the wind and the sea. Everything has a voice. Everything has the right to use it. Everything no matter how little or useless it seems has a purpose in this life. A voice and a story to tell. They just need someone to listen. Listen close enough to hear.
Alec found out rather quickly that listening and hearing isn't the same. One can always listen but not always hear. One can always hear but not always listen. You can hear whatever you want but that doesn't mean that that is what is being said.
Alec liked to listen. He liked to listen to the stories around him. The stories of the trees and the wind. The stories of the people that haven't even started seeing just how much potential there is in them in what is surrounding them. He just liked to listen. There is always something being said. Nothing is meaningless if you just try and listen. Everything had its beauty, its sound and its story.
So he listened and wondered and stayed.
Even as other angels kept moving around, kept doing things, building their own stories, leaving their own marks he stayed. He stayed and listened because he didn't feel the need to leave a mark in a world that has so many voices, so many stories you can hear if you just listen.
Grass rustled next to him but he didn't even flinch. Another body sat next to him and he didn't even need to open his eyes to know who it is. He has been waiting after all. Waiting and listening.
"I've been watching you." The demons voice reached his ears and somehow it sounded softer then he remembered.
The angel still didn't open his eyes but still replied to the others words. "I know."
"And you have nothing against a demon stalking you?" He asked in a teasing manner that didn't require an answer, lips quirking into a smirk.
"You have the right to do whatever you want. I am just here to listen." Alexander said simply, opening his eyes for the first time and looking sideways at the demon next to him.
"And what if I want to devour you whole and make you feel pleasure like never before. Make you scream my name in mindless blind pleasure as you forget your own?" There was definitely a smirk on his lips now.
The angel blushed deeply red and diverted his eyes, looking down at the grass stretching in front of him rather then at the demon of lust next to him. "That is your business, not mine." He said quietly, feeling uncomfortable but still staying sitting down.
"Aww but baby I want to make it yours." He said seductively but didn't use any of his power on the angel next to him. Didn't even try.
The angel blush only deepened on the baby part.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked slowly after a minute of silence between the two. Not understanding why the demon is so concentrated on him and knowing full well that if the demon really wanted to he could have him doing whatever he desired in a matter of seconds. But for some reason not one spark of his power was being used on him. It was leaving the angel relived but confused,
"I want you. I want to make you mine." Magnus answered without a second of hesitation and the words made Alec's breath hitch.
It is one thing to have someone want you. Lust over you. But a completely other to have them want to make you theirs. It is not the same. It doesn't mean the same. It isn't worth the same. And it took the angel by surprise.
"Why?" He managed to choke out after some time. "Why would you ever want that? I am no one."
"You are beautiful and fascinating and innocent in the most important way." The demon said, eyes not moving from the others blue ones that were on him again. "And I will make you mine. No matter how long it will take."
Magnus smiled at him then. Not a smirk or a sly smile but a genuine one. A first smile he showed anyone in so long. And with that he was gone. Disappearing in black smoke and blue sparks, leaving the angel sitting there with wide eyes and a heart that was beating faster then usual.
…
It started with a simple hello.
As many friendships do. Just a school loner saying hi to the new kid. Not even knowing how much it meant to the other because that was the first time anyone was polite to him since he started attending there. Just like that there was a smile. And a friendship was born.
They were young then. Barely nine. But they became inseparable.
Years passed quickly, one second they were playing in the park and the next there were parties and beer and sex. Well for Magnus anyway. Alec was still the loner he always was. Staying at the side and keeping invisible.
However the two were still best friends. Still inseparable even as Alec developed feeling for the other that weren't as platonic as they should have been. Even as he was pinning after his best friend he did it in silence. No one knew. No one had to know.
When Magnus had his heart broken Alec was always there. Always picking up the broken pieces. Always making it better. And when everything started going downhill with Alec Magnus was the first to notice. Magnus was the one who cleaned the cuts and made threats even as Alec kept saying it was fine. He was fine. He was the one who yelled at Alec's dad when he got kicked out of the house after weeks of arguing and disgusted stares because his dad cant accept the fact that his son doesn't like girls. Magnus was the one who gave him the roof over his head for the rest of high school. And when they started collage Alec repaid him by finding an apartment they can share.
Magnus never knew about Alec's feelings towards him. He never even thought it was possible but Alec liked it like that. He didn't want to ruin their friendship after all. They were good like this. He was fine even as Magnus kept bringing people home almost every night. He was fine.
The first time it happened was a year after they moved into their small apartment.
Magnus was drunk and heartbroken once again. But this time he didn't bring anyone home. This time he was slightly more drunk then usual. This time it was Alec who he pressed against the wall and kissed forcefully. It was Alec whom he striped and fucked into his mattress. This time it was Alec. And Alec let him.
The next morning when he came to he apologized again and again and again to his best friend promising it will never happen again. And even as Alec kept saying that it was fine, that he was fine he still kept apologizing. Promising again and again that it will never happen again.
But it did. It happened again and again and again.
Every time he was drunk out of his mind he turned to Alec. He used Alec. And he was never turned away. Alec never said the word 'No'. He never turned him down.
Magnus kept apologizing and Alec kept saying he was fine. It was fine. He was always fine. Even as he started cutting again. Even as he was torn apart piece by piece he was fine. Always fine. He was fine.
Magnus didn't notice how much he was breaking Alec. He didn't notice how much he was been breaking him slowly for months and years. Every new person in their small apartment. Every foreign moan from yet another of Magnus's partners that echoed through the apartment and passed through thin walls killed him piece by little piece. But Alec still kept saying he was fine. He kept repeating the word fine even as it lost its meaning. Even as his own eyes became dull and lifeless and broken he kept telling Magnus it was fine. He was fine.
Magnus kept noticing less and less. He didn't notice when blood covered Alec's clothes. He didn't notice when the eyes of his best friend dulled and died out. He didn't notice. He stopped noticing as he held onto Alec's words that he is fine. Alec is fine. He will be fine.
Days passed like this. Weeks, months. They passed in the haze of drunken nights and apologies and I'm fine's. But then it was too much.
It was all too much.
Magnus got home to a carpet painted red and his best friend dead.
He didn't know Alec started cutting again. He didn't know how hard he fell. How suffocating he felt. But it all hit him then. As tears hazed his gaze and his own heart stopped it hit him how little he noticed. It hit him how much Alec was suffering in silence and it left him shaking. It left him breaking.
He barely managed to call someone. And when he did he was already covered in blood. It was hard to breathe. Suddenly it was hard to do anything.
It took him weeks after to be able to step foot into the apartment. He hasn't slept properly in forever but at least he could breathe without his whole body hurting. He could stand on his own two feet. But it wasn't the same anymore. Without Alec it just wasn't. Without Alec he couldn't imagine living. He can't imagine the world without Alec but now suddenly he has to live in it. It wasn't fair. It wasn't normal. It wasn't right. It didn't feel real. Nothing felt real anymore.
There was a note on the coffee table. A note he didn't notice before. A paper covered in blood.
He opened it slowly. Fearing what he will see and tears already in his eyes.
There were only two words written down and they made his breath hitch and heart hurt. It made him break in every way possible as his legs couldn't hold him up anymore and he fell to the floor.
Only two words and it was hard to breathe again.
I'm fine.
He thought he knew heartbreak but it was never like this. It had nothing on this. This was heartbreak. This was dying. And worse then anything Alec wasn't there to fix it. Alec wasn't there to make it better. Alec will never be there to make it better again.
That was when it all finally clicked and it made everything so much worse. So much more painful. He loved Alec. He always loved Alec but was too afraid to see it. But now he did. He remembered all the years. All the wasted time he will never get back. All the time waiting for him he will never have with Alec. All the time Alec will never have.
In this lifetime Magnus made a bad decision. He chose to not see what was in front of him. He was blind and he suffered for it for the rest of his life.
This was a lifetime in which he kept wondering 'What if'.
A lifetime of regrets.
…
The sun was low. Sunset waiting to be born. The suns rays lighting up everything in its path. That included an angel sleeping in the middle of a field. Pale skin and closed eyelids getting more color as he peacefully slept. Wings spread wide and raven colored hair sticking in every direction.
The demon watching from the shelter of trees felt fondness and endearment for the first time in his long life. He felt things he never did before. The warmth of affection and not lust cursing through his whole body.
It never happened before. Not for anyone ever. Not from him. Demons don't fall don't feel affection. Demons don't fall in love. Demons of lust don't let their victims free without a scratch. Demons of lust don't feel fondness or love.
But the angel is different; Magnus thought as he kept watching his own little angel with so many new feelings inside of him he felt like he is going to melt any moment now. He is special.
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