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The day was cold. Well at least it looked like it was from where Alec was standing by the window, looking outside. The wind was blowing, making tree branches to swing with it, ripping leafs off and taking peoples hats with it too. It wasn't the kind of weather that you would want to be outside for.
It was like this for days now though. Maybe even weeks. The blue eyed boy couldn't even remember when was the last time he was outside. Not like he wants to go outside anyway. It's safe like this. It's safe in the loft. He's safe.
Two arms found itself around his middle without any warning and his back was pressed against lean chest that he couldn't help but relax into.
"Darling you really need to stop that." A still sleep laced deep voice whispered right into his ear. Warm breath puffing against his neck making Alec shiver as he leaned into the embrace.
"I'm just looking outside." I replied, rubbing my forearm absentmindedly. It has been kind of stinging since I woke up.
"Mmhmm" Magnus hummed, leaving lazy kisses down the back of my neck and to my shoulder. "Just come back to bed love. Watching the bed weather won't make it get better. Do you want to get away from me that bad?" His voice was teasing but there was still a serious undertone underneath. Like he is really scared I would want that.
And that just must be the silliest thing ever because I would never want that. "I'm here aren't I? I would never want to leave you."
"Good." There was a smile back on his lips again. I could practically hear it in his voice. "Because I love you too much to just let you go."
I smiled, turning around to kiss the soft lips in front of me. Every kiss we share still manages to take my breath away. "I love you too."
"So what do you say about a shower darling?" There was a glint in his eyes that I knew all too well. I don't think I ever agreed to something so fast.
Later on after a really really long shower I was back at the window. Only this time it was our bedroom window. The rain was falling hard but I could see the sun peaking out from under the clouds, indicating that maybe the weather will turn good again soon.
"Do you want to go out today love?" Came a sad voice from the bed where Magnus was stretched on, eyes on me.
He asked that every day. No matter how much it pained him he still asked and just like every day I sighed before looking at him with a smile. "No. Never. I'm happy here. I'm happy with you." I was straddling his hips by this point. Away from the window. But not before I saw the sun disappear completely again. And with that any chances of a better weather too.
But that's okay. I don't need better weather. I don't need to go out. I'm happy here. I'm safe here. Here with Magnus.
"Sleep Alexander. You seem tired again. I'll be here again when you wake up."
The walls were bare white. There were bloody scratch marks here and there though. Some fresh and some not.
My groggy mind could barely comprehend that much before my eyes closed again.
There were tubes going out of my arm. Keeping me alive and breathing, pumping me with pills to keep me sane I guess.
I don't want to be sane though.
They said that this is real. That I'm in a mental hospital. That I have gone crazy.
But I know that's not true. Magnus isn't here. He promised that he will always be here when I wake up but he never is here. So this can't be real. This is just a dream. Just a bad dream and when I finally wake up he will be there just like he promised. He is always there.
Hoping that I will wake up sooner I closed my eyes and kept pinching my forearm until it bled. But that's okay. This isn't real anyway.
It took hours maybe but blood loss finally managed to make me drift away from this false reality. From this hell.
My eyes fluttered open slowly.
"Good morning love." Magnus's smile was the first thing I saw before he ducked down and pressed his lips to mine in a slow and sweet morning kiss.
"Morning." Outside the clouds were gray and rain was falling relentlessly, followed by thunder. But still there was a smile on my face because Magnus is here. Just like he promised he will be.
…
"Why do you always come?" The blue eyed angel asked the demon sitting next to him.
The demon has been coming to see him and just sit with him every single day for some time now. Always just sitting there in silence. Never saying a word. The angel was beginning to get curious and couldn't keep quiet anymore.
"Even demons get lonely you know." Magnus answered shocking Alec who didn't know what to say to that. The demon looked sideways to him and chuckled at his expression. "Don't look so shocked. Plus you fascinate me."
"Why?" Alec finally found his voice again. Feeling a little more relaxed now that they were actually talking so he ended up lying down on the soft grass. Looking between the sky and the demon whose eyes still kept so much mystery it was hard to look away.
"You're very different from the others. And not just angels, demons too." Magnus answered, looking down on the angel he wanted to call his. "The things you do and say…They are just very different from everything I thought I knew about angels. You are very different. And you having black hair and blue eyes isn't really a disadvantage you know." He winked making the other blush slightly as the smirk creped back on the demons face.
"I'm not that different. I just like to stay away. In the background." The angel said honestly, eyes completely on the demon now.
"Exactly. No one else does that. It's what makes you so different darling." The nickname got another blush from the angel.
"Okay fine maybe I am different." Alexander finally sighed in defeat. "That still doesn't explain why you keep coming here. Aren't you supposed to be terrorizing people and charming them with our lust and not just stalk an angel?"
"Well what if I don't want to terrorize people. What if I want only one person to lust over me?" The demon asked, smirk still there but on a verge of a regular smile now. Softer.
"You are a demon. A demon of lust at that. I don't think that's even possible." The angel was now looking at the sky once again, enjoying the light breeze on his skin. And that is why he didn't see it coming. He didn't see the look on the demons face as he watched him lying down so relaxed. He didn't see him coming until warm lips were covering his and he didn't know what to do with the sudden contact. But he didn't even have time to get over his shock enough to push the demon away before he pulled away on his own. Looking down at the shocked angel with a small smile.
"Well I'm just full of surprises aren't I darling?" And with one last wink he was gone, only leaving back smoke and blue sparks behind. Along with a dazed wide eyed angel who was still trying to comprehend what just happened.
Only able to think about the fact that before Magnus pulled away he definitely wasn't even close to pushing him away. Quite the contrary actually.
And it scared him as hell.
…
The front door of a two storey house opened, letting three teenagers in. A black haired boy and girl with a blond boy trailing behind.
It has been a long day in school and they all just wanted to leave their stuff and go out, on a date maybe or just to do something other then be stuck inside on a sunny day. Well two out of three wanted that.
The tallest one of them, the one with baby blue eyes, just wanted to just get to his room and turn on his computer. Because there are more important things to him then to go out.
So with a quick 'See you later' to his siblings he was rushing upstairs and turning on his computer before he even had time to set his school bag down. He did manage to change his clothes into a little more comfortable ones, since he's not going out anyway, and sat on his chair before it finished turning on.
But he was just it time, like always.
Just as he opened his internet tab a message came making him smile even before he opened it.
Hi darling ;) How was school?
Boring as always. I barely stayed awake. He sent quickly before adding more. And your day?
Soooo boring. All I could think about was when you'll get back so we can talk. I missed you.
He was blushing at his reply even if he was used to it by now. Even after months of them talking like this it was still something new to him. People don't talk to him like this. They just don't.
I tried looking for you again today you know.
Came a moment later and his heart skipped a beat. Part fear and part excitement because he was still trying.
And…?
He sent with a gulp. Still not sure if he wants him to know who the other boy is. Or even if he wants to knows who he is. He doesn't want to lose what they have here if he ends up not liking the fact that he's that lonely guy who only ever talks to his siblings and stayed in the background.
Still nothing. Why don't you just tell me who you are? We could finally meet. We could finally be together.
The blue eye boy sighed at reading the last sentence, not able to deny how much he wants that too. But chances for that are basically none. Not when he sees who he really is.
Because you probably wouldn't want to when you know me.
I know you.
That's not what I mean and you know it.
They met three months ago through a reading sight and have been talking since. A month ago they found out that they go to the same school and everything went kind of down from there because the other one wants to meet the boy. He wants to know who he is. And true he wants that too but he still can't help but be scared. No one wants to be with him. And he wouldn't want it either. The boy is nothing special after all. And no one knows he's gay anyway. Finding out who they really are can only complicate things really.
Please darling? I know you. I know everything about you and you do about me. Actually meeting can't end bad. I know you think I wouldn't like you then but it's not true. I like you now and I'll like you even more when we meet. Just please give it a chance. You like me too don't you?
He sighed again but a small smile was on his lips now. Maybe it's really time to give in. It can't be as bad as he imagines it. It's never as bad as he imagines it.
Fine. he wrote with shaking fingers but still made himself continue. Meet me tomorrow before school up front. I'll be the awkward guy standing by the side.
He hesitated but still pressed the send button. Hoping he wont regret this but already kind of doing so as his mind went wild and not in a good way. Oh Angel this can't end good.
Thank you darling. Can't wait for tomorrow then. I'm sure I'll love you the second I see you.
He doubted it but still sent an 'Hope so' back.
That night he couldn't sleep. He was too wired and tense to fall asleep so it took him hours to do so and in the end he ended up getting only a few hours of sleep but still he was wide awake in the morning. Wide awake and terrified. I will meet him today. By The Angel I will meet him today.
The words were echoing in his head as he made my way too school. He had half a mind to just forget it all and just go to class right away but he still ended up standing outside and shifting from foot to foot continuously, looking down.
By The Angel. By The Angel. By The Angel. This was such a bad idea. Such a bad idea. I should just go. I shouldn't have agreed.
He was about to leave, wining his inner fight, when there was a tap on his shoulder and he looked up. Ending up gasping at what he saw because in front of him was standing Magnus Bane. One of the popular guys in school whose gold and green eyes always fascinated the raven haired boy because they reminded you of a cats if you look close enough.
And he was standing right in front of him with a smile. Why is he here? He can't be….No way it's him. No way. His mind was a mess and he had no idea what to say but luckily, or maybe not, Magnus spoke first.
"Well I would have said I'm surprised Alexander but in a way I'm not." At his words the others blue eyes went wide when he figured out that Yes this really is the same boy he has been talking to for three months now. By The Angel this isn't happening. He was just about to turn and run, not wanting to hear how the other changed his mind now that he actually know who he's been talking to but a hand on his arm stopped him from doing so. "Don't go. I came to meet the boy I have been talking to for the past three months and I can't be more happily surprised when I saw it's you."
"Why?" Alec asked in surprise. Really not knowing what to do.
"Well I never told you this but I was always watching you. I always noticed you darling. You want to know why?" The still dazed boy could only nod and the other immediately pulled him closer so he can whisper in his ear with a smirk. "Black hair and blue eyes are my favorite combination."
The blue eyed boy blushed slightly and the other chuckled before doing something that Alec definitely didn't expect and kissing him.
It was a soft kiss. One of those kisses that people share after knowing each other for months, after loving each other for months. But as Alec kissed back he guessed they did. After all they really did know each other for months.
It was their first kiss.
The first of many.
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Okay first of all I feel like I need to explain the first lifetime a little bit. So Magnus kinda died and Alec went crazy and made up his own reality where Magnus is still alive and still with him. The weather outside represents Alec's mental state. He is stuck there but he wants to be stuck there. The sun comes out when he is good, meaning when there is a chance he will finally get out and face reality for real but he never does because he would rather stay living a lie where there is Magnus rather then face his true world where Magnus is gone. And yeah that's all. I hope this made you understand it better.
And now for the actual chapter; I hope you liked it and will review. Pretty please tell me what you think. Sorry for the wait again. I'll try and post faster this time. Oh and how many more chapters do you want because I can be done in the next three?
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