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Here it is - chapter three!
Chapter 3
BPOV
I wake up to my phone ringing.
"Hello." I clear my throat and the sleep showing in my voice and repeat. "Hello?"
"Bella sorry I woke you…I just have a question."
"Jake, hi…No it's fine what's up?"
"Well, I was just wondering if Seth could come on the weekend visits too..."
"Umm…I have to talk to him about it. Can I call you back after they get off to school?"
"Bells, is Seth mad at me?" I can hear the hurt and pain in the tone of his voice.
"Jake I don't think he's upset with you. I think it's just he doesn't understand. Give him time and I'm sure things will work out. I'm sure he loves you."
"Okay Bella. Just let me know, I will do whatever he wants."
"I will Jake just be patient with him, he is only a little boy."
"I know, talk to you later."
"Bye Jake."
"Bye Bells."
I hang up from Jacob and go to the boy's rooms to get them ready for school and to my horror and shock they are not there! Panic strikes me and my heart starts to race. I hear their little voices in the kitchen followed by my mother shushing them. I run to the kitchen. How could I not have been up on time? I scold myself mentally for being so thoughtless.
"Morning mommy." Little Billy always has a smile for me in the mornings. I swear the world could be crumbling around him and he would still be full of smiles, this causes a smile to spread across my face in return.
"Morning boys." I respond as I kiss them both on the top of their heads.
"Morning mama." Seth says.
"Mama why didn't you wake me to get the boys ready?" I go to my mother and whisper trying to keep the agitation out of my voice.
"I was just trying to help sweetie." She had an apologetic look on her face at her answer.
"Thanks mama but please…If I'm not up - wake me, these are my children and I won't ever neglect that. Thank you though." She nods her head once in response.
I go back to the table and sit down after I get my usual morning coffee. I sit and think of a way to bring the visitation up to Seth, after a few minutes I decide to just spit it out.
"Seth baby, dad would like you to go to his place this weekend. How do you feel about that?" I watch with intent to see the look on his face that tells me more…At least that's what happens usually.
"What do you want me to do mama?" he looks at me with curiosity in his eyes.
"Sweetie I want you to do what you want to do and I'll take care of the rest. Okay?"
"Well…Grandpa said he was going to go fishing this weekend in the boat I'd like to do that if it's okay..."
"What did Grandpa say?" I look over to my dad.
He puts the paper down and says "Grandpa could use some company as long as mommy says it's okay."
I nod "Okay then I'll tell daddy."
"Thanks mama." He gives me a huge smile as he gets up and hands my mother his plate. "Thank you Grandma it was good." I am always so proud of my boy's manners.
"I still get to go, right mommy?" Billy's voice rings with worry.
I walk over to him and hug him for comfort. "Yes baby you will always get to see your daddy, as long as you want, I promise."
I feel the relief roll through him as he hugs me back.
"Okay…Book bags and coats let's go!"
They run off and get their stuff as I inform my parents I would be back shortly.
On the way to school Seth breaks the silence.
"Mama do I have to call Jake daddy anymore…I mean he isn't my dad no more."
"Anymore, and if you don't want to then you don't have to, I'm sure he will understand sweetie, but I do want you to know something… he will always love you." I take a quick glance in the review mirror at my oldest son and watch the wheels turn with his thoughts. He is such an introversive child.
"But I can right mommy?" Poor Seth so confused for such a small boy.
"Yes sweetie its fine because daddy will always love you too." I chose to leave out the explanation on blood lines and such afraid of Seth's response, or lack thereof one. Thankfully we arrive at the school.
After I dropped the boys off I went to the local mill to see if there is a position open for me there anywhere. Thankfully there is and I start on Monday after I drop the boys off. I will in charge of shipments both incoming and outgoing which means load of paperwork but I am granted to be out by the time I have to get my boys. Now that I have that done I head home to call Jake.
On the second ring Billy answers.
"Hello?"
"Billy hi it's Bella." My goodness I hope this doesn't get awkward.
"Bella hi how are you hun? The boys okay?" Alright so that little worry was unnecessary!
"Yes they are at school I actually needed to speak with Jake is he there?"
"Oh yeah I think he is in the yard hold on…"
"Is his cell on him?" I hate to put Billy out he is a good man too.
"Yeah I think so."
"Okay I'll just call that."
"Sure… Hey is little Seth coming this weekend?"
"Billy I'm sorry but no he wants to fish with my dad."
"Oh okay." There it was, again - the disappointment in his voice.
"Bye Bill."
"Bye Bells"
I hung up and called Jakes cell and he picks up in the first ring.
"Bella what did he say?"
I hear the eagerness in his voice and my heart breaks. "Jake I'm sorry he wants to fish with my dad this weekend."
"Oh okay well the decision is his. Maybe next weekend?"
"We'll see Jake don't push too hard."
"Okay will he be there when I get Billy."
"Of course." I feel my browns pull together at such a stupid question.
"Can I talk to him then?"
"Sure just don't upset him."
"I won't."
"Oh, before I forget..."
"Yeah…"
"I got a job today."
"Really that's great congratulations."
"Yeah, but uh… if I have to work late and neither of my folks can get the boys would be able to?"
"I can try but I work long hours at work so I can help you take care of the boys."
"Jake you don't have to do that. That's why I got a job."
"Sure, sure." He says that when he is trying to pacify me when he doesn't agree. So I had to clear this up.
"JACOB BLACK I told you I would handle this! I don't want anything from you but your friendship. I can take care of everything else if you just spend time with them and teach them to be good men. DO NOT PACIFY ME!"
"Bella I can watch you struggle with my boys I want to help. Please Bells?" He knows begging is my weakness.
"Fine you tend to the college funds and anything they need with you. I will do the rest."
"Bella…"
"Jake, I need to do this on my own. If I need help I will ask. Besides I am getting child support from you already for Billy. So please just stop…"
"Okay, okay, okay, but promise if you need help you'll let me know, for the boys…"
"Alright Jake thanks. Bye."
"Bye Bells."
After hanging up with Jacob I go do the laundry. I have no idea how I managed to do this for so long, or how my mother does it now. I am so bored. In the middle of watching some TV the phone rings. My mother answers it and tells me it's my best friend Alice. I don't know if I am ready to deal with her yet but I take the phone any way because I am not rude. I talked to Alice about everything answering how everything went the divorce and Jake, asking how she was doing. I swear you would have thought it had been months since I spoke to her instead of a week. After declining going out to the cubs this weekend I have to let her go because it is time to get my boys.
I arrive and park with the rest of the parents. Mentally, taking note that I really need a new car. What am I, in high school again? I shake my head and get out so I can watch for the boys. It doesn't take long and Angela and Jessica come up to me Jessica pregnant and Angela with a ice rink on her finger. Great! I sigh and internally groan. Angela isn't so bad but if Jessica is anything like high school this is gonna suck.
"Bella." Jessica squeals.
Well she still squeals…
"Hi Jess, Angela." I nod at both of them.
"Hi Bella how are you?"
"I'm good how are you guys."
"Oh good I'm getting married." Angela holds up her left hand.
"I see how did Ben pull that off?"
"Oh he's supervisor at the mill. They pay really well and he saved for quite a while I guess." I had to smile, high-school sweethearts, the two of them and they give me hopes for happiness.
"And I am having a baby isn't it great?" Leave it to Jessica to state the obvious.
Same 'ol Jess all and everything about her.
"I see what number is this?" I ask knowing, it's her first.
"Oh it's number one, but by it took for…eee….ver, but here it is. Due date is like four weeks away. Thank God."
Yep same 'ol Jess. Everything is so dramatic.
I look over at Angela and she seems to be reading my thoughts because she gives me a smirk and a nod. I see the boys coming and throw a mental party.
YES!
"Uhh…Sorry guys but I got to jet, there are my boys and we have to get back. Talk to you guys later though okay?" I run to my boys and pick up Billy and take Seth's hand, walk them back to the car and go home.
When we pull up into what has become my parking space I see Jake is there already.
"Daddy!" Billy screams, scrambling to get out forgetting the child locks are on. I get out and let the boys out capturing Seth's attention to let him know Jacob wants to talk to him. Whining and asking if he has to, I remind him we are not a rude family.
"We aren't a family at all." He mutters as he walks away.
"Seth!" I raise my voice and letting disappointment ring out. He just ignores me so I call him again letting the anger seep out. "Seth Michael Swan -Do not ignore me young man!" He just keeps walking, but I get Jacob's attention.
This is just great. I feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
"Seth don't ignore your mother that is disrespectful." Jacob came to my defense unnecessarily but still I felt better for some reason.
"You don't get to tell me what to do. You are not my dad; I don't have to listen to you anymore." The hurt hit Jacob's face like he had just been slapped. Crap that would be my mouth when I am angry, and cue the tears. Jake's face played in my mind more and there they were, tears falling down his cheeks, my heart shatters. Before I can get to my son, I hear my father.
"Seth this is my house son, and I will not have you speak to my company as such and your mother is my daughter and I will never hear you speak to her or any lady like that again. Have I made myself perfectly clear?" The authority in his voice made me feel like I was a little girl again, being scolded myself. I want to hang my head in shame and apologize.
Snap out of it Bella you're an adult now!
"Yes Grandpa I'm sorry.'
"It's not me you should apologize to - Jacob and your mother are." Seth's head shoots up to look at my dad and then at Jacob. "Go on son."
"I'm sorry Jacob."
"It's okay I understand. Can we go talk?"
"After I apologize to mama." Jake just nods to him.
Seth walks up to me the shame clear on his face. "I'm sorry mama."
I kneel down to look at him.
"Its okay baby, I want you to remember one thing though. We are a family you, me and your bother. Whether I am with someone or not, doesn't make any difference I will always be you mother and love you with all my heart, which is what a family is, baby, no matter what you say or do I will always love you, and be here for you. Now, don't you worry another minute about it and go on and speak to Jake." I gave him a hug.
"Will you come with me?" My oldest son looks at me with no light in his eyes and I feel my heart break all over again.
"If that is what you want, yes I will." I take his hand and we walk over to Jake's truck to talk to him and my mother calls for Billy.
Billy looks at Jake "You won't leave without me, will you daddy?"
Shaking his head Jake says "No I won't I swear" He replied rising two fingers like a boy scout. Relived Billy runs into the house so we can talk.
Ok I know this was kind of long but I just needed to get a lot in and I wanted to end it before the visitation. I know what Seth said was harsh but remember; he is a very confused little boy. Please press the little review and let me know your thoughts.